My desire for a HOT body makeover!

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pink21diamond

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Hi all. I've regularly visited this website to get inspiration to lose the blubber. I'm 5'9 and weigh 234 pounds and want to get down to about 145. Up untill i was 17, I used to be between a uk size 12-14 which i think for usa sizing is about a 8-10, i'm now a uk size 18 and us size 14.


I was 26 on 21st feb and over the past 9yrs I have been on a diet. I have got into the swing of things and exercised and eaten healthily and lost a couple of stone then the temptation for calorific food would take over and id end up binge eating and putting the weight back on.


To cut a long story short, it seems like i have a love affair with food. I know it sounds sad but it makes me feel good when i eat calorific food. Don't get me wrong, i love fruit and some vegetables but i'm a binge eater and on a binge i just alternate between sweet and savoury food.


When i was younger i had so much game, i used to dress nicely, get quite a lot of attention and go out all the time and have a laugh. Over the years i haven't bothered to make myself look good with clothes, make up and nice hair because i haven't felt good. I've rarely been out because i either couldn't find anything to wear or i just didn't feel good in myself in my clothes next to all the slim, good looking girls. I just felt rotten. Also, when i've walked the streets people have looked at me like i was repulsive. Which hurts.


I'm not getting younger, so the thing is i NEED to do something about this now.


CHANGES The thing is now i've just started a full time job and slowly but surely i'm starting to fix myself up. I started by getting my hair done, wearing make up and smart, professional clothes to work and people no longer look at me like i'm completely disgusting. I'm going out tomorrow for the first time since last may and im going to have a wicked time.


I'm starting a gym membership where fitness classes such as pilates, spinning and legs bums and tums are free. When i finish work i feel like i want to get out and do something because i've been in the office all day. So im motivated to work out 30-45mins 3/4 times a week. I want to get out and socialise more and enjoy life.


The part which i find hard in all of this is conquering the binge eating, yo yo dieting and how not to fall off the wagon but keep chipping away at this weight.


So any tips and advice would be greatly appreciated, because i really really want a HOT body!


Thanks for reading.
 
Hello pink! :)


So great you decided to start posting! I used to lurk a lot when I first discovered this forum, but gathering the strength to share your story can be so rewarding and open new doors of friendship and support that you might've missed out on otherwise :)


A couple things. You refer to this as a 'diet'. You shouldn't. Consider this a lifestyle change because it's something you'll have to keep up with the rest of your life if you want to be successful. It may sound daunting, but I believe everyone has to discover a healthy balance with a routine that suits their lives. Don't try to follow someone else's routine or program, but rather, gain ideas that you can tweak and incorporate into your everyday life.


A big tool I've found is chewing gum. I would definitely get some to help with cravings.


Slow and gradual is the key. I think that may be why you're also having trouble with the binge eating. You have already defined this as a diet and, with a lot diets, comes the risk of depriving yourself of substantial meals that your body needs. I've actually just recently fallen into that issue and I'm working my out of it now. When you do that, you will inevitably lapse and succumb to temptation. However, if you find that healthy balance and give your body the nutrients it needs on a frequent basis, then that urge shouldn't be a problem anymore.


Of course, you can still indulge, but the constant urge to binge should dissipate as you just simply won't feel the need for it.


I can relate to the feelings of people looking at you with disgust. I felt that pretty much my entire life. It does hurt, and it can really make you feel worthless.


However, you can always return to that feeling of having game. It's never too late :)


I also know all too well about the feeling of letting your years slip away from you. It's one of the biggest sources of motivation I have. I've wasted so much time being overweight and happy, now I want to change all that before I'm out of my 20s.


Well, it sounds like you're determined not to waste anymore time - which is excellent! :D


Good for you for starting a gym membership and becoming motivated, pink! :)


Best of luck to you and be sure to keep us posted with your future progress!
 
Thanks a lot frogged! You've definitely put a smile on my face.


I'm going to try using chewing gum to help with cravings and not see this as a diet but eat healthily and indulge sometimes. I think if I get into a routine of going to the gym after work most days, I should be able to conquer this.


Thanks again!
 
OMG, I soo relate to you!! We’re the same height, around the same weight, and I just turned 26 on Feb 18.. In the past 10 years I’ve been big, small, medium, and big and then re-lost the weight, only to gain it back and then lose it again, over and over and over… so the yo-yoing part, I get that too..


I think it’s part of me being an extreme person.. any period of time I’m either going thru a binge, or completely starving myself.. I’ve struggled finding a medium and that’s why I’m where I am today.. but only with me when I got pregnant I just really let it go.. It was the guilt free eat all you want for 9 months period of my life urggg..


I also feel the same way about never wanting to go out coz I don’t feel I look as good as I did.. Especially today where everyone’s goal seems to be to take as many pictures when out as possible so they can post them on line for everyone to see, and I’d just rather not go thru that… And people treat you soooo differently when your thinner.. When we’d go out I would never pay for drinks, or door charges, I’d get numbers left and right, I'd even get random strangers offer to pay for my gas or groceries for no reason!!! but now.. hmmm… crickets!!..lol,, It’s so shallow but still, it’s not a great feeling the way I've been feeling lately...


What pushed me more is having turned 26.. I feel just like you, if 20’s are supposed to be your most funnest youthful years, I want to make sure I actually get to do so.. and the sooner the better.. time’s not gonna stop and wait for me to decide on what day I’ll get off my a$$ and work on it.. you're right, WE DO only get older…


Any ways, best of luck on your weight loss journey, and don’t think you’re alone on this one, we are verrry much in the same boat!!
 
Hiah and thanks Uwi,


Its got to the point now where i just go out for the sake of having fun and i don't care about the weight issue. I really really don't want to get to 30 and be like i havent had as much fun as i could have. So i block out the negitive weight issue and shake my ass on the dance floor lol.


Im just eating healthily and incorporating more exercise into my daily routine.


Hopefully the weight will come off slowly but surely.


x
 
Originally Posted by pink21diamond


Hi all. I've regularly visited this website to get inspiration to lose the blubber. I'm 5'9 and weigh 234 pounds and want to get down to about 145. Up untill i was 17, I used to be between a uk size 12-14 which i think for usa sizing is about a 8-10, i'm now a uk size 18 and us size 14.



I was 26 on 21st feb and over the past 9yrs I have been on a diet. I have got into the swing of things and exercised and eaten healthily and lost a couple of stone then the temptation for calorific food would take over and id end up binge eating and putting the weight back on.



To cut a long story short, it seems like i have a love affair with food. I know it sounds sad but it makes me feel good when i eat calorific food. Don't get me wrong, i love fruit and some vegetables but i'm a binge eater and on a binge i just alternate between sweet and savoury food.



When i was younger i had so much game, i used to dress nicely, get quite a lot of attention and go out all the time and have a laugh. Over the years i haven't bothered to make myself look good with clothes, make up and nice hair because i haven't felt good. I've rarely been out because i either couldn't find anything to wear or i just didn't feel good in myself in my clothes next to all the slim, good looking girls. I just felt rotten. Also, when i've walked the streets people have looked at me like i was repulsive. Which hurts.



I'm not getting younger, so the thing is i NEED to do something about this now.



CHANGES The thing is now i've just started a full time job and slowly but surely i'm starting to fix myself up. I started by getting my hair done, wearing make up and smart, professional clothes to work and people no longer look at me like i'm completely disgusting. I'm going out tomorrow for the first time since last may and im going to have a wicked time.



I'm starting a gym membership where fitness classes such as pilates, spinning and legs bums and tums are free. When i finish work i feel like i want to get out and do something because i've been in the office all day. So im motivated to work out 30-45mins 3/4 times a week. I want to get out and socialise more and enjoy life.



The part which i find hard in all of this is conquering the binge eating, yo yo dieting and how not to fall off the wagon but keep chipping away at this weight.



So any tips and advice would be greatly appreciated, because i really really want a HOT body!



Thanks for reading.
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Stick with it. And try to notice when you are emotionally eating. For me, it was when I have a sudden urge to eat something like cake or donuts, I knew it was emotional eating. When the hunger came on slowly, and I had the stomach growling, I could tell I was really h ungry. that's when i knew I was hungry and would eat normally.


Remember a hot body is not an end all. Do it for you and no one else. I know you probably are, but I didn't.

I did it because I thought I would attractive.I thought i was ugly and no one would be attracted to a fat blob. In a teen paramilitary boot camp they called me "shrek." Be nice to yourself. Not only did I find being negative made me feel miserably,some of my friends (even on here) seemed to start ignoring me. I was stuck in a trap. The fact that less people wanted to be around me contributed more and more to my loneliness and negative attitude. This "reinforced" it in my own mind however false it was.

Remember that although it's nice to look good and feel proud of it, do it for you, no one else, and please, please don't feel your life will be perfect when you reach your goal. This was my trap. Once I hit my goal, in fact, it was never good enough for me. I felt, "Okay, I look good in this area, but not this area." and it was a never ending cycle of never being satisfied. I needed other peoples approval because my self esteem was so low, i couldn't seem to like myself for who I was, or even see my own accomplisments or even be proud of them! One person even said I was narcissistic, he was wrong, but sometimes I try not to feel proud of what I've done because I feel I confuse self pride with over self ego/over self love which is called narcissm.



I also did it for me in the sense I wanted to be healthier. I couldn't go to the store and buy pants or shorts. No one had size 48's. I was almost a size 50. I couldn't tie my shoes. I couldn't roll over in bed. (I had to lift myself up to roll over). I was starting to have trouble breathing harder because of all the fat on my stomach.



I wanted to more successful, although losing more weight has made me more self conscious, and I still havent' had a girlfriend. Once I lost the weight, i realized something profound (to me). Women aren't interested at all in a guy with a good body. I still never have women even glance at me, or check me out. It seems women want personality, smarts, or other areas. When I realized what I did what I achieved, and still hadn't had a girlfriend, this is then what I realized.
 
Thanks sparkerosion.


Firstly well done on your weight loss you look great by the way.


Its true what you said about losing weight for yourself and no one else because i've come to a stage now where i cant keep going on the way that i am. I need to look and be healthier, for me.

Its really interesting that you said that once you lost weight you still felt unhappy with yourself, but saying that i have broad shoulders and once i have lost the weight i think that will annoy me. I used to throw the shot put and do boxing you see.


Its true that some people think that losing weight will change their whole life for the better. I have to admit i've been guilty of that but the reality is everybody has problems regardless of their size.


I think its important to focus on being a good person and enjoy yourself as much as you can.


Stay positive!
 
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