My Big Fat Journal

Dear Diary,

I'm so happy my friends here can all relate to having to get back on the wagon! I'm all about the boot straps, Spelleni! I thought that fat intake sounded a bit high, InitialC. Thanks for the input on that. I am going to do some more research on that subject. I don't believe in not getting any fat, but I'm just trying to focus on what kind of fat it is.

Manaloa, M2M and hf--Thanks for the well wishes. I really appreciate it.

I made the best dinner tonight, I have to brag about it. I took some dried tortellini and boiled it. I didn't really have any sauce and I didn't feel like a red sauce, but wanted something low cal and creamy. You know those Knorr Brand packaged sauces? I took just one tablespoon of the dry mix which is about 35 calories. Made it like the recipe says but with the reduced amount of milk to match the dry sauce and no butter. I gave it a couple of squirts of the Olivio spray and added some hot sauce. I then tossed the torts in the sauce and added some stir fried veggies I had prepared in the fridge with pea pods, onion, mushrooms, carrots and bell pepper. I had this with a Salmon burger and the whole thing was only 400 calories. It looked like a 1000 calorie meal for sure!

Ya'll should try it.

4bela---I have to tell you about my Rib Fest....once we got there we decided not to go in as it was way to crowded with a huge line for the food and my friend and I decided to just walk around downtown and then go to a restaurant. After the dinner we walked some more and headed back over by the fest. Come to find out, Foreigner was playing about 50 miles away at another festival. This festival had the guy who used to be the lead singer for Foreigner. We thought that was funny that the rest of the band was just an hour away.....anyway... he sucked big time. I thought I was tone deaf? I can't believe someone doesn't tell this guy how bad he sounds. Very sad really. Nothing worse than an aging Rock-Star that lost his talent with his youth.

Well, gotta go mow the lawn and do some more dancing in the yard. I like dancing in the yard. Makes me feel like a kid again. I even sing really loud with the music. I wonder if the neighbors hear me? I'm sure I sound like the dude from Foreigner.
 
Sorry to hear of your off day Piney, glad to hear that you've gotten back on track so quickly though. I had a bit of a binge last night and on Sunday and I feel a bittie bad, need to get back on track today I think.:eek:
 
Great recipe Pineola. I once saw a Night Ranger/Foreigner double bill at the local little neighborhood carnival it was a riot :). Have a great week.
 
Dear Diary,

I am a mess with my eating. I can't stop doing it. Luckily I am eating pretty decent food, but today went like this.

I had a Luna Bar for breakfast. This is on the way to work, driving in my car. I had not been to work more than an hour and I started eating my snacks. I had eaten all my carrot sticks and my 100 calorie bag of goldfish by 11:00am. I then ate another Luna bar. Then they brought in pizza for lunch and I was so busy I couldn't get out. I had appointments back to back until about 2pm so I had a piece of cheese pizza. When I got home I had acorn squash for a snack before I had to go take Paul to get his car from the shop and go vote. On the way home from voting I stopped at a farm and got some corn on the cob and some peaches. When I got home I had a peach. I then stood around the kitchen trying to figure out what to have for dinner and I snacked on a piece of pork I had left over. Then....I had a bowl of cereal for dinner. It is not bad calorie wise, but I hate eating like that. I want nice well prepared meals that make me feel full and not desperate for something good to eat. I'm bummed. Oh, well.....tomorrow is another day. I am definitely going shopping. I was reading Manaloa's diary and she had some tasty, filling sounding snacks.

Other than that I keep thinking about this sculpture I saw when I was in the Amish town the other day. It was so cool. It hung on a L shaped bracket. It was pounded out of metal that was painted. It was a horse head whose body turned into a big mermaid tail. It was called "seahorse" appropriately. I think I am going to buy it. I just need to figure out where to finagle the $400.00 into the budget. I just can't stop thinking about it. I keep looking up from my computer and thinking I know just the spot for it. I'm scared someone will buy it before I get to go get it.

So here is my plan for tomorrow to see if I can beat this funk.

Get up early enough to cook a nice breakfast and sit down and eat it.

Take only a couple of pc's of fruit or veggies for snacks.

Go to SaladDays for lunch and get a salad to go---don't eat there to be tempted by the soup, bakery, taco bar.

Salmon with rice and some other type of salad for dinner.

I sliced up some cucumbers the other day and put them in a bowl with some slices of onion and put a couple of tablespoons of Balsamic Vinegar on them. They are really good in a salad.

Thanks for stopping by everyone. I appreciate the support.

P.S. Cannon--sometimes those old Rock Bands are great. I was not even a big Styx fan ever, but my friend dragged me to a Peter Frampton/Styx concert a couple of years ago and they rocked! Who knew?
 
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Good luck tomorrow!! Sorry about your bad day! You have a good plan for tomorrow and I'm sure you can stick with it! Hopefully you will be able to get the piece of art you have your eye on!!:)
 
Wotcha Pinster!

Sorry you had an off day, and sorry about the down on the eats. But you've still done well, and like you said, you didn't fill yourself to bloat and uncomfortable point, which is a good sign.

The meal sounds fab! I'm going to have to copy it down and try it out. I've just offered to make lunch for best friend tomorrow and I have no idea what I'm going to make...

Reading about you and your partner has made me feel so much better about my relationship, you have no idea! Top Cat (boyfriend) is still a bit of a lone heart, and likes time to himself sometimes. I'm a little more clingy, and my parents were extreme romantics, and even now my dad and his girlfriend are very close and romantic as well. So it feels worrying when he asks to go somewhere on his own, or asks for some time on his own. Hearing you say about that just says that it's OK and it's normal... makes me feel loads better!

Have a marvellous day, good luck with the meals you planned!

Bronsk
 
I have days like that quite often! Sometimes there is just not enough time in the day to be as prepared as you would like. You still are doing so well that things will keep heading in a postive direction!
 
We went to this Amish town where they were having an antique flea market
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Can I come next time?? That sounds super cool.

Well I found a better calculator and it says that the maintenance calories for my goal weight according to my height, age and gender with light to moderate activity would be 1800. So my new plan is to do 1500 calories five days of the week, and 1800 calories two days of the week. We'll see if it works....**fingers crossed**.
 
Oooh, Scarlett, what calculator were you using?

And Pineola - I love your dancing and singing in the yard!! That is very cool :D
And I bet you sound a hell of a lot better then the old tone deaf dude ;)
 
Dear Diary,

Today was much better. I was a bit over on my calories, but not by much and I probably really over estimated. Paul and I went out for dinner tonight and I had to try to figure out some stuff without being quite sure so I just added in an extra 100 just in case. I hadn't planned on going out, but they were having a sale on some exercise bikes and I wanted to go check them out. We didn't buy one because we thought we should check around some more first. It would be nice to have one though....I could just get in a quick bike ride without having to leave the house.

If anyone has a bike that they really like, let me know what kind it is.

Bronski--I think it is perfectly natural for your boyfriend to want to have time alone. I am in the longest relationship I have ever had and so is Paul (just over 7 yrs, I think). I never lived with anyone before....at least not in the sense that they didn't have a home to go to other than mine. I am 43 years old. That is a long time to live alone and quite frankly I liked it. It would not be hard to do again.....so he better stay in line!!! I'm just kidding. We are both very independent souls and we respect that about each other. You and Tom Cat will do fine. Just enjoy the time you have together and apart. If you do everything together, you won't have stories to come back and tell each other.

Spellini & hf--Thanks for your support. I also did some grocery shopping tonight so I have some good low-cal food to eat without feeling bored.

M2M, I don't know about that. When I was a kid and I attended choir---the teacher asked me to sing softly!!! What a !@$*^!!!! I like to sing loud like I mean it!

Scarlett, I am so glad that figure went up. That really made me nervous. You would have loved that flea market if you are into antiques. I bet you have a lot of really neat old stuff down in your neck of the woods.

I'm getting nervous about the weigh in on Friday. I hope I lost something. I didn't get a chance to exercise tonight, but I took a walk during my lunch hour. I work very near a nice walking trail that goes through the woods. I should take advantage of it more often.

Sweet Dreams to everyone!
 
pineola, for stationary bikes you should check various review sites on the net.... epinions.com might have something or else just do a google search for stationary bike reviews.... I'd hate to see you get something and find out some major flaw later on.
 
Hey There Pineola,
Don't worry about the Friday weigh in - this weight loss gig is one day at a time, and you keep doing what you're doing and you'll find that scale moving!

Good luck finding a bike for you and definitely take advantage of any nice walking trails!!

Sweet dreams girl :D
 
I LOVE your flea market story, with the bit about the old bride/bridegroom photos.

I'm glad Wednesday was better. I hope you have a great Thursday!!!
 
Thank you everyone. Those ideas were very helpful.

Dear Diary,

Eating went well today. I'm still kind of bored with food. I went to an estate sale today and purchased a bunch of old cook books. I love it when they have other recipes stuck in the books from newspapers and cards they have written them down on. I like the idea that someone that is no longer on this earth had a recipe they saved for years and I get to make it too.

I joined a 10 week challenge today. Men against Women. I have got to buckle down and get with the program. I only lost 1/2 lb this week. Not happy about that at all, but I ate poorly and didn't exercise all that much, so it's not like I wasn't prepared for even a gain possibly. I really, really, really need to take a block of time everyday and exercise at that time everyday to make it a habit. I have to do it just like I brush my teeth. It has to be a priority and maybe if I do it for 21 days or however long "they" say it takes to make something a habit it will become easier. I think when my gym year runs out I am going to join a different gym. It is much more expensive, but it is run by a local hospital and has all kinds of classes for members and a pool etc.... I think if I could swim a couple days, do weights a few days....mix it up, I would find it more enjoyable. I also have not taken my vitamins everyday this week. The week really fell apart on me. I am not really clear what happened, but I'm kicking my ass into gear now. I'm tired of being fat and I am not going to let being tired of food, exercise etc...keep me fat. I have a long way to go, but I'm not going to screw this up. I was doing really well...so I know I can do it. I just can't let myself get discouraged.

I did go to the gym today. I only did my cardio as I had a date with my friends to go to that estate sale. We walked a lot today too. My feet hurt and I am really tired. I'm signing off for now. I need to get up early. I am going to golf for the first time tomorrow. Should be a hoot. I wanted to buy a pair of ugly plaid pants for the occasion, but I did not get a chance to. I did hit some balls today for practice in my friends back yard. I can hit them pretty straight if I make contact; unfortunately, I don't always make contact? Does that count as a stroke if the ball doesn't move??? Ha ha! It's gonna be nuts. Nighty Night my fat losing friends. Sweet Dreams.
 
You sound really motivated to get things going!! I know you can do it! You may not have been totally happy with your results this week but at least you went down and not up!!! Good luck on your 10 week challenge!! Have fun golfing tomorrow!!:)
 
Piney,
Not only did you go down and not up, you finished the week with a recommitment to go further. Golfing sans the golf cart is a great way to knock off some extra calories, and YES, I totally agree with you that if you picked a time of day when you could excercise every day like brushing your teeth, it would become a habit. As much as I don't always like getting out of bed in the morning, I know that I'm going to feel SO much better after I excercise! I've not gone twice in the last month, and I can definitely notice the difference for the rest of the day in my energy level.

Good luck in the new challenge!
Have a great weekend, and even if those extra swings on the ball don't connect, you're still exerting energy - that's all good :D
 
That is a good idea to mix up your exercise routine with different types of exercise. It will keep you on your toes and not as bored as you seem to be with it down. You are doing great, a loss is a loss. Remember that. Some weeks are better than others. The week didn't fall apart TOO badly if you lost something. Every little bit counts. :)
 
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