Last night went well. I did go to the gym and I ate a really healthy dinner, Turkey Burger with no bun, sliced tomatoes, cottage cheese and for desert some strawberries. Today I had a hard time but stayed pretty strong. I had a class all day that was an hour of so from my house. I completely forgot about it. I left my house at the time the class was supposed to start. The worst part about it was my boss was going to the same class. So my day started out frantically with me lying and saying I had a flat tire...I know, I know....it's terrible, but it was a really expensive class and if I didn't go it would be really bad. I had to make up some excuse so that they would let me in. I didn't think that "I forgot" was going to do it for me. I made the drive in about 40mins even after having to stop for two trains on the way! I had not planned on meals at all, but I happened to throw a Detour bar and a Luna bar in my purse that morning. I didn't remember the class until I was pulling out of the driveway. I ate the Luna bar w/my coffee on the way. When I get there the only food they have is coffee and danish so I ate the Detour bar later in the morning. The class was a hotel which has a great restaurant in it. They make the best bread. I went in with the intentions of not eating any, but I could not resist. I kept it down to one piece which was really, really good for me. When I went back to the class they had a huge tray of cookies. I didn't eat any. When I got home I had pretty much the same thing for dinner as I had last night except instead of turkey I ate a beef burger that was left over in the fridge and instead of strawberries I had one of those 100 calorie packs of "Sandies" and a glass of soy chocolate milk. All evening I have been wanting to eat so bad. I keep trying to think of other things to do, but I actually was feeling angry. I decided to eat 3 tortilla chips with salsa. I think it worked. I peeled myself off the walls, I think.
So, a pretty good day so far eating wise. I drank all my water. I left the cookies and the danish on the tray. Tomorrow I must exercise! Thanks to everyone for stopping by and encouraging me. Cannon, your avatar is the grooviest of all.
P.S. Cecilia hipped me to a website that was about eating disorders. One of the things it said about people with them was that they lack structure in their lives As you can see by my post today, I am not the most organized person in the world. I don't know how I do so well at my job, but for some reason in my personal life I'm a mess. I think I need to focus on that as part of my battle.
