I'm terrified of losing muscle. I know it's going to happen if I reduce my calories, which is even more frightening considering I'm not sure I have anything in the first place. Last time I got measured I had 32% body fat. That's almost a third of my body. I'm only 145 pounds, but if you go by fat, I'm practically obese. This is scary.
It's even more frightening because I just can't eat all my protein here. I've tried, but I can't, not without going over my calories. Today I had about 50 grams, maximum.
I don't know if my resistance training is helping. I don't know what I'm doing and nobody's around to help. The amount of weight I'm using is pathetic - on some of the machines, 30 is a struggle, and on the free weights, even 20 is a struggle - especially when I have to reset the machines after everyone else who uses them. People notice this. I know they're thinking things when they go on after me and see it set to such a low amount. (Never mind the fact that if my cardio routine is, apparently, an excuse not to work hard, I'm probably making excuses not to work hard here too.)
It's even more frightening because I just can't eat all my protein here. I've tried, but I can't, not without going over my calories. Today I had about 50 grams, maximum.
I don't know if my resistance training is helping. I don't know what I'm doing and nobody's around to help. The amount of weight I'm using is pathetic - on some of the machines, 30 is a struggle, and on the free weights, even 20 is a struggle - especially when I have to reset the machines after everyone else who uses them. People notice this. I know they're thinking things when they go on after me and see it set to such a low amount. (Never mind the fact that if my cardio routine is, apparently, an excuse not to work hard, I'm probably making excuses not to work hard here too.)
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