Hello ladies and gentlemen,
In the words of 1974 Elton John... the bitch is back.
I had a thought today. I've been asked by a lot of people in the last 12 months if losing weight is difficult. I tried to explain to one person that losing weight for me has been a lot like trying to lift a feather 1,000 times a day. The difficulty of the task isn't entirely obvious. You think to yourself, "Anybody can lift a feather 1,000 times" and you'd be right. Anybody can. The hard part is remembering to do it each day. It's keeping track of how many times you've already done it that day and how many more times you have to do. It's the mental muscle you have to flex to maintain the willpower to keep going.
And that has been the trouble with me lately. Focus. Having willpower to do in action what I'm telling myself to do in my mind. Simultaneously it is so incredibly easy, yet it's one of the hardest challenges of my life.
June of last year I started my weight loss journey and by December of last year, I had lost 53lbs (24kg) in 6 months. I was happy with where I was and I became complacent.
Well, I was feeling particularly pudgy today and decided to go for a walk. The first walk I have (if I'm being honest with myself) really taken in several months. My ankles made sure to remind me of that fact. I haven't weighed myself in just as long and I'm afraid of what I'll see when I do.
And I know, I know, I know that some of you will say the number itself is insignificant in the grand scheme of things, and I will agree wholeheartedly with you; but simply as a means of measuring progress (or lack thereof) I'm afraid to see how far I've allowed myself to fall back. This is my first and only attempt at ever losing weight and this is my first slip up letting myself go so I'm much more of a weight loss virgin than many of you.
So I ask you Friendly Forum Friends© of mine to hold me to task and not allow me to become complacent in my triumphs. I've got a road ahead of me, but I'm once again excited to head down the path.
It's good to be back.