MoonGoddess's Path

my boss is a psycho bitch who makes me want to eat cake & drink shiraz at 10 am. Argh. I just wish I could box her off to Kenya... course then I would feel really bad for the Kenyans. Maybe she would be eaten by a hippo... course I bet she taste more sour than a lemon & they would spit her ass back out. Argh...

I will NOT cave to emotional eating due to some codependent insecure fukwit.
 
maleficent said:
heath became the talk of this afternoon's training... suicide or just stupid?
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Whether he felt the need to end his life or if it was accidental it's still sad and stupid.

MoonGoddess said:
my boss is a psycho bitch who makes me want to eat cake & drink shiraz at 10 am. Argh. I just wish I could box her off to Kenya... course then I would feel really bad for the Kenyans. Maybe she would be eaten by a hippo... course I bet she taste more sour than a lemon & they would spit her ass back out. Argh...

I will NOT cave to emotional eating due to some codependent insecure fukwit.
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My boss used to tell me to hold my sick kitty's head in the toilet to solve his medical issues (Baby had kidney disease) and spoke openly about how stupid women are for the whole vaginal rejuvenation surgery. I tried to defend the cultural importance of its purpose for some women in certain countries but he just laughed and told me I know all about it because I've probably had it done.

He's since retired.

If someone feels the need to make people as awesome as you feel like snapping necks, their lives must be incredibly pitiful.
No you will not cave to emotional eating because you're better then that. You're better than her and she knows it.
 
MoonGoddess said:
my boss is a psycho bitch who makes me want to eat cake & drink shiraz at 10 am. Argh. I just wish I could box her off to Kenya... course then I would feel really bad for the Kenyans. Maybe she would be eaten by a hippo... course I bet she taste more sour than a lemon & they would spit her ass back out. Argh...

I will NOT cave to emotional eating due to some codependent insecure fukwit.
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Hey Moon! Sorry to hear you work with such a downer boss. That would be cool if you could have a glass of shiraz though, might make things more tolerable, plus it's good for the heart, right? hehe

Stay strong!! Don't cave in!! Hope things get better.
 
I made it to lunch. I snaked on some Cracklin Oat Bran dry so I got to crunch really loud & I guess get in some fiber. She is just a moron.... luckily not telling me to hold pets in toilet or anything like that, Thats insane Catsmeow! Glad you don't work for that jerk anymore. My boss just is so self centered she can't see how she treats people. I am sick of getting complaints & even more sick of listening to her talk about how people just don't get it & aren't on the same page (actually most of us are...its just not the one she is seeing). If we are all so awful, how come we do the work around here? How come customers & staff like each other but NO ONE likes her? argh. I just want her to retire already....& move FAR FAR AWAY.

...ok about to grab some ginger ale to settle my stomach & go into a meeting from hell. We did staff surveys & everyone complained about her, to which she feels is petty....no petty would be saying she smelled bad, reality is she has NO budgeting skills & its getting pointed out. Some blessed soul actuallly pointed out that its rude to answer the cell phone & proceed to talk to her daughter about her grandson in almost EVERY one on one meeting.... & I thought it was just me!

Argh...

Deep breaths & large glasses of wine.

....& I have to remember that I have great insurance, the job market is really tight & I am just 2.5 days away from having two days off & away from her lil rays of sunshine.

THANKS you all...
 
MoonGoddess said:
I should rephrase the not ticklish thing. I have one spot where my leg mets my belly that is ticklish, but I have learned that if you focus really hard & pretend like it doesn't tickle & don't laugh at all.... then you can fake it to where people get bored with trying to tickle you. Plus I don't really let that many people get in that area without getting decked!

Man... I'm bummed about losing Heath Ledger so young. We have got to keep the sexy ones alive!
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I used to be very ticklish, but then found it to be a mind over matter thing. And for the most part, I can block out the tickles unless I want to be tickled. :p

Yeah it sure is sad about Heath Ledger. I figured him a star for the long run as I thought he was a great actor.
 
Sorry your boss is such a psycho bitch... It is so sad we lost Heath Ledger. He was sure a hottie :) and a good actor. I've lost 3 people I know in the past year due to overdosing on pills... So so sad.

-Sam
 
So today is a new day.

Got up early, thanks to the Sarg leaving at 6 am & not being able to go back to sleep... so I got up & took my time getting ready & making breakfast (Earth's Best baby blueberry waffles..even had a picture of a muppet on there! made me laugh)... doing much better than cruising through a drive through.

Got to work & got an email saying the boss has to watch her grandson til 1 pm since her daughter has some doctors appointment. ...whatfukinever. As long as it keeps her away who cares. Especially since we have a meeting at 1pm today to go over in detail the staff survey results (AKA we get our arses chewed about statements that others were asked to make, but since they didn't agree with what she was hoping they would say, we are certainly responsible! argh).
....crap....she just walked in.

argh...

IT WILL BE A GOOD DAY.
 
She is insane.

She is all chipper. I know we had it out in the meeting yesterday & a more sane approach would be to be a bitch, which I am all up for, but she is all flippant and cheerful. Guess its supposed to get to us... kinda creepy, like what is next here? She must be up to something.

OR
for once she is finally getting it through her head that if you give a bit of respect, you get some back & that this isn't HER world, but one we all live in.

weird.

I need much more caffeine for this day... but at least I did have my blueberry pancakes.
 
MoonGoddess said:
My ticker feels stuck. Ug. Time to spice it up again I guess.

& I only wish I looked good at this weight. I am 5'4" so this weight still has me at obese & there is NO WAY in hades that I would get caught in a bathing suit at this point. I like me better than I did a year ago, but I'm still not looking like I look in my head.
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5'4" In The Hizzie!... or whatever.

I have pictures of me in a swim suit from the cruise I went on at the end of July. It's a cute suit... On the hanger. Brown tankini with a wire support bra thingie. Girlies need support! It'll be a year this April since I started losing weight and yeah I'm liking myself better now than I did a year ago. I see myself tiny, great rack, firm ass, tight and slightly muscled but still feminine. We'll get there. I'm stuck in the 150's. I've been stuck for a while, but I guess I'd rather be stuck at 150 then where I was a year ago. You've made progress physically and emotionally and you should be proud of that.
 
hm.. weird we seem to have the same inner visions of ourselves... only mine also comes decked out with a killer wardrobe to go along with it!

We'll get there.

I think dealing with all the emotional stuff is dragging down my whole physical process. I just have to remember that its ok & still stay on the path.
 
ok. so today is just a weird day. full moon effects still? who knows.

The boss is just sulking... which as long as she avoids me is A OK by me.

Went to the library today, which sad to say I haven't done in years, but one of my resolutions was to read at least a book a month so I better get with the program already. Got the Fortune Quilt by Lani Diane Rich. So far so good. The running book just wasn't as quick a read as I needed. I'll keep reading it but I needed some fluff at the moment.

POSITIVE NOTE...
its only 7:37pm & I am at 10684 steps!!! I did it again.. FINALLY.

YEAH ME.
 
Ever just get frustrated & wonder why the heck we are putting ourselves through all this? I am so sick of watching others eat whatever they want & still being an acceptable skinny size. I have to admit that I am wanting to eat all the time right now. I know its stress, but it kills me to think that I am addicted to certain types of food. I want to be able to just each healthy, but sometimes I just want to each like a typical human being.... which will leave me looking like the typical american, obese. I'm not happy with the way I look, but I crave the bad stuff.
argh.

I'm frustrated. Part of it is the therapy I'm in, the boss bullshit & that the scale went up today- which shouldn't be a surprise since I have not been great food wise...I have been exercising regularly again, but just eating crap because it taste good instead of because its good for me. I finish a meal & I want more 15 minutes later. I snack & I just want to keep snacking.
I don't even know how to express what I am feeling but its aggravating to think that this is seriously a life long dedication. It really is a life style change, but the old ways are just so tempting in these times of stress.

Ok vent out. Now I need to eat a banana or I swear I will devour a bag of BBQ potato chips that I am craving. Sometimes it sucks working where we sell food!

Hope everyone is doing great today. I am I just don't feel like it. I had baby blueberry waffles again this morning & I am making sure to get in my water today, which I have been slipping on lately. (* & I LOVE water! argh) I have to celebrate the good things, the habits I have gotten a control on. Like being able to get up to over 10,000 steps again. Maybe again today....
 
MoonGoddess said:
Such a great thing.

It truly helps to be aware of just how great we have it, especially in those trying times that seem to hit now & then. I try to do this nightly but it helps to put it in writing now & then.

1. That I live in a place where bombs going off would still be breaking news.
2. My lungs seem to have recovered from smoking (quit 6 years ago in July) & I am able to do things many people can't (like jog or clean my house with chemicals without having any breathing problems)
3. I have food, to the point where I get to chose what & when I want to eat.
4. I have a job & can pay my bills. Maybe I can't save as like I want to or buy all the great things I want, but I can rest knowing I have a job.
5. I have energy & will power, that will help me achieve my goals....
& BONUS... this forum is FILLED UP with awesome, inspiring, supportive, knowledgeable people who make me happy & remind me of stuff like this!
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Just take a minute to look it over, update it, tra la.

My brother eats whatever he want and at almost 6 feet tall he weighs less than I do by about 10lbs now. And he's from the same gene pool. I hate him hardest.:p

This is a life long dedication but we are dedicating all this hard work to ourselves. How many times have we worked hard for other people? Yeah you're not treating yourself to a day at the spa or a European vacation, but you're giving yourself the ultimate gift of health. You can be miserable with your bag of chips on the couch or miserable marching in place with your banana, but I guarantee that you'll feel better grumbling about the banana in the long run. We all have our miserable moments where we want to hide under the covers for a while and that’s fine. It's good that you're able to recognize your moods and the possible triggers. I devoured my own bag of chips last night. Well I shared them. I needed to stuff my face with something crunchy as a comfort. And I regretted it this morning when the scale didn't budge and I remembered all the other stuff my face moments. They are very tasty chips though. I recommend them but only in single serving sizes.
Certain foods have become a comfort, a habit. We replace bad habits with good ones. It takes time. It also helps that I imagine myself throwing my brother off the edge of the earth when he stops by my house smelling of fast food French fries. But in reality the skinny sucker could kick my ass.
So I hate him hardest. :biggrinjester:
 
I think we all need a little bad stuff once in awhile. I think it sucks too that there are those out there that can eat whatever they want. And then when you say something about losing weight or what you ate for breakfast (yogurt and banana) and then they pipe up and say, "isn't it just calories in and calories out".....grrrrr!

Um no, I don't think it's that easy for all of us. Just wish that once it could be though. ;)

Hope you have a great upcoming week and the rest of the weekend!
 
Promise Yourself
By Christian D. Larson

Promise yourself….

To be so strong that nothing
can disturb your peace of mind.
To talk health, happiness, and prosperity
to every person you meet.

To make all your friends feel
that there is something in them
To look at the sunny side of everything
and make your optimism come true.

To think only the best, to work only for the best,
and to expect only the best.
To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others
as you are about your own.

To forget the mistakes of the past
and press on to the greater achievements of the future.
To wear a cheerful countenance at all times
and give every living creature you meet a smile.

To give so much time to the improvement of yourself
that you have no time to criticize others.
To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear,
and too happy to permit the presence of trouble.

To think well of yourself and to proclaim this fact to the world,
not in loud words but great deeds.
To live in faith that the whole world is on your side
so long as you are true to the best that is in you.



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Just thought it would be nice to start of the week on a positive note.

So far so good. Woke up early, no clue why, & made breakfast & ended up cranking up the iPod instead of the tv as I got ready....which lead to a morning dance session & me coming in 30 minutes later than I had planned on. I am determined to have good day no matter what. Its 10 am & I am already 2083 steps into the day, so we shall see where it all takes me.
 
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