I figure no harm done on a bag & I can get out some aggression. Why not? I can't wait for it to get here. I just watched last weeks episode of Bionic Woman (gotta love the DVR for saving stuff for you til you can watch it) & I just wanted to get up & kick ass.
So I have discovered the pitfall of having the guy around. His eating habits are like shit! Like today he wanted breakfast from McDonalds up the street... um breakfast in bed.. ok! SO he went & got me an egg mcmuffin no meat & gets himself two bacon, egg & cheese mcgriddles & wolfs them down. Well now he is like full for the rest of the day & come 1pm I'm hungry. I of course play the mellow gal & waited around to get lunch going til we both were hungry...but now I'm thinking... what am I doing? Screw this. I like eating smaller stuff (& frankly something more than meat, bread & cheese) on a more regular basis. I don't blame him for his ways, but why the heck am I adjusting my world? Ug. Just have to do what I need to do & eat without him if he isn't hungry, but sometimes I just think I'm wanting to eat too often. Like since he's all in shape maybe he has the right idea & I get hungry because I am used to eating more. Like I am in the habit of just eating & maybe its not really hunger I'm feeling but the desire to eat because its noon or whatever. Like would it be so bad to skip a meal if I am not hungry? Guess its all still dealing with having had an eating disorder & never wanting to get back into that habit of not eating & having issues with people knowing I eat. I know everyone eats but still I have a really hard time, lately especially - I know all the recent stress, with eating anything in public.
OH well just had to vent & put thoughts down somewhere.