MoonGoddess's Path

mmm cake... :) the stars would never lie :)

not that I'd ever encourage you - but sometimes a little treat like that helps to nudge the weight loss...

or find a chocolate cake you can enjoy - no pudge fudge brownies :)
 
We sell No Pudge here & I ADORE THEM... I love that they actually give the amount to make one brownie at a time. As if I could ever restrain myself that much!

Great idea though! I might make a pan of those tonight & share with the office tomorrow.... get my chocolate & be the nice office mate. THANKS!
 
Hey Moon!

Thanks for stopping by and checking out my diary (and the comment about my thighs getting sore.) I haven't worked them out in a long time!
 
Hey Moon!

I just thought I would drop by your diary and thank you for all the positive support you have given me in my diary. I don't post in others diaries as much, mainly due to the fact that I barely have enough time to write in mine.

Thanks for your kind words and support.
 
Nothing like getting a yogurt for lunch & then opening it up to see its out of date... by three days. Yuck.

Danged crossiants looked to good to pass up after that. Could be worse I guess....

Also this not weighing in thing has me nutso. I wonder if I am staying the same, losing, gaining... ug. Saturday can't come soon enough. Except I want to by pass Thursday completely & NOT turn 30.
 
I think its the whole actually being an adult & that not only will I turn 30, but then 40 is coming up soon & just how frickin fast time is flying by. & I don't feel like I am anywhere near where I thought I would be. Just feel like I should be more stable by now. Feel like I need to figure out what I really want from life or its not going to happen. I would rather enjoy the days carefree like the grasshopper than live like the ant I need to be.

I think its all just happening too fast, my little sister getting married almost makes me feel like she is growing up & I am staying still. Not that I necessarily want to get married, but it just feels like life is changing too much.

On a family note, I broke down this past weekend to my mom (being sick lets defenses down a bit too much) & was talking about how frustrated I was about not having lost the weight I wanted to in time for the wedding. She actually had the nerve to tell me not to worry about it & that there were plenty of people who looked worse than me & that I should get out more. I reminded her of the talk we had in January where she said she was really concerned & that I needed to do something fast...she pretended not to remember it. Argh. & she wonders why I have body issues....

I wish I could just hide away in a nice hammock somewhere cool yet deliciously warm for a few days.... ok weeks.... whatever.
 
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40 has pretty much sucked but I have no one blame for that but myself... you are not your age... you are pretty fabulous at whatever age you are... and yeah time does fly by but doesn't mean you can't enjoy the ride :)

Marriage doesn't make a person a grown up - I know plenty of married people who shouldn't be... or just got married too young - in too much of a rush to be settled down - settling down? who wants to settle for anything? that' accepting less of what you deserve.
 
I'm book marking that link to reread that! It made me laugh to hear there is a "Turning 30 Blues" condition. Guess I'm not the only one.
 
You know MG...I am 32 and I remember my 30th birthday like it was yesterday. I dreaded turning the big 3-0...I felt like it instantly made me an old lady. I think I may have even cried a bit. But then a few weeks into being 30 I accepted it and started believing the "30's is the new 20's" statement that people in their 30's love to say. LOL Enjoy turning 30...it's really just another year older and wiser.

About what your Mom said...try not to let it get you down too much. You above all people know what you need to do. Use it as motivation rather than a set back. You have the right idea about pondering what "you" want out of this life. ;) 30 is a great age to refocus on what you want to accomplish in this lifetime.

I want to be more active again...do you know I skipped out on snowboarding the last 2 years because I had gained too much weight and couldn't fit into my snow clothes? Yep, I even avoided my soon to be ex-husband's work x-mas party because I was horrified at the weight I had gained and didn't want people talking about me (cuz you know they do). I'm thinking long and hard about what I want in my future and being a better fitter me is going to make it that much more enjoyable.

I'm hoping you can figure out what it is that you need and want in your future to help fuel your soul when times are tough. Life is good and truly what you make of it. Best wishes to you and I'm sending you lots of warm thoughts and strength! :newangel:
 
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On a family note, I broke down this past weekend to my mom (being sick lets defenses down a bit too much) & was talking about how frustrated I was about not having lost the weight I wanted to in time for the wedding. She actually had the nerve to tell me not to worry about it & that there were plenty of people who looked worse than me & that I should get out more. I reminded her of the talk we had in January where she said she was really concerned & that I needed to do something fast...she pretended not to remember it. Argh. & she wonders why I have body issues....

I wish I could just hide away in a nice hammock somewhere cool yet deliciously warm for a few days.... ok weeks.... whatever.
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Try to hang in there. Some times our familys can say such hurtfull things. Just wait when you get to the weight you want to be , it is going to feel sooooo good. And your family will be in aww. My sister has alwasys be thin and I was the fat one . She always made apoint to tell me how fat I and Ugle I was. Until she got pregnat with her second baby and she gained a lot of weight and I had lost alot. It has been many yrs since then and what is really funny is that yes I gain alot of weight but she is at her heaviest weight now and she is having a really hard timelosing it. Dont get me wrong I love her, but it is nice for them to see how it feels. You will get there, and you are already a beautiful girl.
 
Thanks! You gals are too sweet.

I try not to let what people think get to me, but then again it carries that extra punch when its family. I am hoping that I can move on & get to a place where I am so comfortable with myself that I don't care what people think a bit. Til then... well keep on keeping on. I am doing this for me, not them. & I am sick of missing out on life. I think that is part of the fear of turning 30, knowing there is so much I have missed. Hopefully I will get comfortable soon & catch up on some of the life.

I ended up finally going to get my license renewed today & although I had a major panic attack I ended up doing ok & got it renewed til 2015! I was amazed at watching a couple of people bitch out the testers when they denied them. That & I had to laugh at the moron who came in while I was waiting on the picture to get put on the ID. She was extremely loud ( I think hung over or still drunk) needing to get a duplicate ID made since she lost hers. She chewed the guy at the desk out when he said he had to have something that proved she lived in NC. She FLIPPED out. It was ridiculous & I was ready for them to call security & have her hauled off. She ended up walking out just as I was & I about wet my pants laughing. The dumbass parked in a no parking zone AT THE FRICKIN DMV!!! I was just waiting to see some trooper pull up with her yelling to her friend who waited in the passenger seat (either too embarrassed to be seen with her or cracked out himself, who knows?) about how the jack ass inside wouldn't give her a new license & how the place was so horrible.

Just made me feel good about the fact that at least I know where to park...

Treated myself to a tanning session which I haven't been in the habit of doing lately & I feel much better.

....now if I could just hop on the scale.... this challenge is hard! I can't wait til Saturday.
 
Cheer up! 30's not so bad. I'm 35, and I can tell you that my 20s were waaaay better than my 30s have beeen. ooops, I'm supposed to be making you feel better..lol. Well, the only reason my 30s have sucked is because I have been a stupid idiot for the last 5 years. I wish i had done what i'm doing now back then instead of putting on 80lbs. So just be happy that you are making changes to improve your life now and not when you're 40. I think you will love your 30s. I must say, that even though i gained all this weight, I am much wiser and more comfortable in my own skin than I was in my 20s. I was an insecure mess. I think most women tend to come into their own in their 30s. ;)

Happy belated birthday!:beerchug:
 
I have to agree that changes are good at any age....without continuing to change we are just one step closer to dying I guess.

Just wish I had made a few sooner... like to pass on drinking so much & so many fast food fixes!

Today is my last day of my twenties & I am going to celebrate it! (ok anyone who actually IS 20something... stop reading.. no offense to you - enjoy the decade- I'm just trying to make myself feel better! :p )

I think I might have to watch MTV all day, dancing around my room in my PJs & visit the mall & talk like I know what I am talking about even though I don't have a clue & obsess over what to wear to go get a toothbrush & flirt with ridiculous men I never want to go out with.... on second thought none of that sounds all that fun, so I guess I AM ready for whatever is next.

...ok maybe the dancing around in my PJs part! ;) ...think I will add a glass of Shiraz, a no pudge brownie & the new Diana Krall Cd & call it a night! Kiss my twenties good bye.
 
some of those events made you the spectacular person you are today... so if they were to be different perhaps you would be different too...

Don't fear the 30s - the decade is what you make it - and my 30s were great... there's lots of fun to be had... good times ahead...

Happy early birthday!
 
Arr, me hearty, it's talk like a pirate day today - add some grog and plundering to your celebrations and call it agreat day
 
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