Verobc - Yes. Yes there is. Isn't that the most unhealthy thing you've ever heard of? I believe they had Snickers and a few other kinds. And they literally take the candy bar, put a stick on it, dip it in batter (similar to corn dog batter, I think), and deep fry it. Part of me wants to try one some day and the other part of me is afraid of the instant heart attack and 5 pound gain. lol
heather - Thanks! I don't feel like I'm kicking too much ass, since it's been kind of slow lately. But I'm trying. And yeah, everyone needs a child like this at home, they'd never be able to skip a work out.
Jess - Thanks for dropping by! I have a hard time seeing myself as inspirational, but you are so sweet to say so! ^_^
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This week is going to be harder for me to exercise. My daughter is visiting her grandparents for the week. I'll have to kick my own butt and go. lol I am going to go today, just as soon as I finish this post, actually.
But I didn't go yesterday. To be fair, I really didn't have time. My little brother was visiting a friend of his that lives in my town and my mom wanted to know if I'd bring him back home yesterday. As a bonus, she said she'd take me out for lunch. So by time I got up, I really only had time to eat, shower and dress before I had to go get him so I could be there by lunch time. Then I stayed pretty much the whole day. My mom only lives an hour away, but I never get to see her.
She had a lot of really nice things to say about how I look now, and it was really nice to hear it. I'm having a hard time realizing that I'm not an obese cow anymore. I'm still overweight, but not by too horribly much. I'm less a "fat girl" and more just "chubby". It's hard for my head to realize that. When I'm dressed, I look ok, but I still see myself in the mirror before a shower and I see rolls of fat. Seems like after losing nearly 50 pounds, there wouldn't be so many rolls still. But every one of them are still there, just smaller.
*sigh*
On the plus side though, and please don't take this the wrong way, I found out something awesome yesterday. My mom isn't fat. She maybe has a little weight to lose, but 20 pounds tops. I've never seen her as fat and since I've gained all this weight, I've always felt my mom was kind of judging me and disappointed about it. Even though she never said anything.
Anyway, we got to talking about my clothes now and I told her that she would probably keep seeing me in the same 3 shirts because they were the only ones that fit nicely. I still wear the rest, but not when I'm going to see someone because they look horrible on me. I look fatter than I am because they are so baggy. She asked what size shirt I'm wearing now (XL, down from XXXL!) and when I told her she said she had a ton of XL shirts that don't fit her anymore... they are too small! She pulled a bunch out of her closet and I tried them on and they all fit!!! I think I brought home about 20 shirts. Mostly tee shirts, but some that I could wear to work when I get a job.
It was really fun to get a bunch of shirts that fit, and for free too! I looked so much nicer in them. AND, and this is the part that I don't want you to take the wrong way, I'm skinnier than my mom!!! Not that I'm saying "nah, nah, you're fat mom!" because I'm not. Not at all. She's not fat, and that's the point. She's not fat, but I could take the clothes that don't fit her anymore and wear them. Oh wow, I'm not fat either. And I don't have to feel like she's secretly judging me and disappointed in how fat I am.
And I didn't realize how much I worried about that until I didn't have to any more. Plus... a whole bunch of new clothes! Ones that fit! YEA!
I had a really hard time convincing her that I really couldn't at that point. Then today, she wanted to make me do the whole routine twice to make up for it! Dang, and you think Jillian is tough? You haven't met my daughter! The only thing that stopped her glaring at me to do it twice was when I explained that it would be too much and I could hurt myself. LOL
