Misty's Diary
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nataliejo
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Hey you,
Interviews are tuff .. I really hope you nail a good job hun ... I understand that as I think we always do ... as the general community I mean ..lol I dont have multiple personality disorder
So anyway
Dont Give Up! Never give in! You can do anything you want!
You rock hun!
ttylaterz ...
best wishes
always
love yas
natalie jo
misty22
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Oh gosh, I haven't been going to the gym for about a week and a half now and I can feel the weight creeping back up.............that or I'm just paranoid. Okay, so I called the 24 hr gym that is a few blocks down ( the one I go to closes early) and due to a few schedule changes because of the temp job I have, the only days that are looking good are:
Monday
Tuesday
Wednesday
Thursday
So the plan is to....go to work..get back...eat...go to the gym at around 8 30 pm. It sucks that I can't go sooner. Half the problem is getting myself motivated to work out after I've had a meal. Plus I feel exhausted from being at work for most of the day. Right now though I don't have much of an option- if I stop going to the gym I risk putting the weight back on.
Monday
Tuesday
Wednesday
Thursday
So the plan is to....go to work..get back...eat...go to the gym at around 8 30 pm. It sucks that I can't go sooner. Half the problem is getting myself motivated to work out after I've had a meal. Plus I feel exhausted from being at work for most of the day. Right now though I don't have much of an option- if I stop going to the gym I risk putting the weight back on.
nataliejo
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Hey Misty,
You can do this!
I am feeling a pound or two possibly kicking back up, but but but .. I am going for an hour or an hour and a half walk ... and I am going to do it!
I know you can do it sweetie ... so you missed a week and a half .. I missed two whole months and I have taken off what I gained ... I know you can do it hun!
good luck hun
best wishes
always
love yas
natalie jo
nataliejo
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Hey Misty,
I actually lost a pound or two, wierdness!
But it is awesome you are following suit and going for a walk... walking is such a healthy way to go.. enjoy the weather! or I hope you did if you went today!
always
love yas
natalie jo
nataliejo
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Hey Misty ...
Don't be into too much a fret ... sh1t happens! You will just make it up on Friday ...
best wishes hun
keep trecking
always there
love yas
natalie jo
nataliejo
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Hey you,
So whats up? Havent heard from you?
I haven't been able to reply into anyones diary because my bfs computer wouldn't let me ... he would let me on only to do my calories count on fitday and my weight loss forum ..it was pissing me off that I couldnt write all of you ..lmao ...so prepare in two weeks that I won't be able to reply until Tuesday .. I know .. I know ...lol jk .. I am that important! lmao just joking!
anyway I hope you are doing well hun!
ttylater
love yas
always
natalie jo
So whats up? Havent heard from you?
I haven't been able to reply into anyones diary because my bfs computer wouldn't let me ... he would let me on only to do my calories count on fitday and my weight loss forum ..it was pissing me off that I couldnt write all of you ..lmao ...so prepare in two weeks that I won't be able to reply until Tuesday .. I know .. I know ...lol jk .. I am that important! lmao just joking!
anyway I hope you are doing well hun!
ttylater
love yas
always
natalie jo
nataliejo
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Hun, if your crying, I don't know if excersize will take care of that.
Hate to ask, But "What did your shrink say exactly?"
I suffer from bipolar, mainly in the depression. And the borderline disorder disaster, which is mighty out of control ..and I also have anxiety, which includes social anxiety, which is why I have a hard time going out sometimes ..the little rascaolions on the road scare me .. I know ..kids ..harmless.. not always actually lol
anyway
Walks definately are good! You might want to try to force yourself out the door ... give yourself a reward for getting out there and doing it ...
I wasn't going to go for a walk today, I was really depressed, but I decided ..to ..just do it ...
So I kicked my shoes on ..grabbed a bottle of gatorade that had been sitting there forever. Well it sat good, because it was still good ..and I just took my portable cd player ..put some Jason Mraz in there and just unlocked the back door and locked the front ..and went as far as I could muster myself to ..and it was "only thirty five minutes" BUT I GOT OUT ..so instead of nothing at all ... I had a deficit of 309 calories ...took in a lot of calories...but had a healthier ..day I did ...now I just need to cut it by five hundred calories ..and I think I know how ...
but anyway you Can do this Misty!
I believe in you, the whole community does..and the endorphins will love you if you walk ..cause they will come out to play ... so ..what are you crying about hun?
What exactly is getting your goat?"
Trust me .. I have mood disorders ...you can come to me ...
ttylater sweetie
love yas
always
natalie jo
misty22
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Hey Nat,
Well around March/April/May I was going through a very difficult time with the breakup because my ex was making my life a living nightmare *after* I broke up with him- so much drama that I could write a book on it- it was just a very bad time. That and a health scare and the fact that exams were looming just stressed me to the point where I had to see a psychiatrist. I had suicidal feelings everyday, getting out of bed everyday was a struggle- I used to lay there thinking, "What's the point of life anymore? Why get up?" Cried more than I probably did in 2 years combined together. Just a very dark time. I lost a bit of weight too due to the stress taking a toll on my digestive system. Anyways....I expected the doctor to put me on medication of some sort but he said all I needed was exercise and meditation. I came out of his office dumbfounded. Exercise and meditation?? Ok.
Anyways, after that I haven't really been to any counselors. Or psychiatrists. I think it's all in my head. There are days when I'm fine but the conversation inside my head just drives me crazy sometimes and the depression- though not severe- does come and go often. It's like I'm never satisfied with myself, with what I do, with my life. I can't see the good things in life sometimes- which is my own fault.
I think, in part, it's things my ex has said about me that really hurts, such as she was "very very chubby" and "she'll never be anything more than middle management"- I know those things won't hold true in the future...but they're just engrained in my brain and they hurt my self-esteem.
Anyways...and these days it's just daily frustrations getting to me, but I will work through these frustrations...I know I can get through this difficult time if I don't give up and I ask God for help.
*hugs* Nat...so there you go, a very small part of my life explained today, haha.
Ohhh, on the weight front, my weight this morning was 126.6...but really, I'm skeptical, haha. I'm going to talk a walk tonight and I'm hoping to end this week at 125lbs. *fingers crossed*
Well around March/April/May I was going through a very difficult time with the breakup because my ex was making my life a living nightmare *after* I broke up with him- so much drama that I could write a book on it- it was just a very bad time. That and a health scare and the fact that exams were looming just stressed me to the point where I had to see a psychiatrist. I had suicidal feelings everyday, getting out of bed everyday was a struggle- I used to lay there thinking, "What's the point of life anymore? Why get up?" Cried more than I probably did in 2 years combined together. Just a very dark time. I lost a bit of weight too due to the stress taking a toll on my digestive system. Anyways....I expected the doctor to put me on medication of some sort but he said all I needed was exercise and meditation. I came out of his office dumbfounded. Exercise and meditation?? Ok.
Anyways, after that I haven't really been to any counselors. Or psychiatrists. I think it's all in my head. There are days when I'm fine but the conversation inside my head just drives me crazy sometimes and the depression- though not severe- does come and go often. It's like I'm never satisfied with myself, with what I do, with my life. I can't see the good things in life sometimes- which is my own fault.
I think, in part, it's things my ex has said about me that really hurts, such as she was "very very chubby" and "she'll never be anything more than middle management"- I know those things won't hold true in the future...but they're just engrained in my brain and they hurt my self-esteem.
Anyways...and these days it's just daily frustrations getting to me, but I will work through these frustrations...I know I can get through this difficult time if I don't give up and I ask God for help.
*hugs* Nat...so there you go, a very small part of my life explained today, haha.
Ohhh, on the weight front, my weight this morning was 126.6...but really, I'm skeptical, haha. I'm going to talk a walk tonight and I'm hoping to end this week at 125lbs. *fingers crossed*
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nataliejo
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Hey Misty...
Im sure it was too much stress and your ex being very emotionally abusive. My ex was VERY emotionally abusive and I did hit the same bottom you were in ...but it seemed .. I don't know what happened ...
I realized I wanted to lose weight and gain some insight and I did ...he was an @hole and didn't take me for who I was ..a pretty great lady ..
so your ex bf was an @hole and try to get through the self esteem issues ..because all I am seeing is one awesome chika!
ttylater hun
You are doing awesome!
I believe in you!
love yas
always
natalie jo
Im sure it was too much stress and your ex being very emotionally abusive. My ex was VERY emotionally abusive and I did hit the same bottom you were in ...but it seemed .. I don't know what happened ...
I realized I wanted to lose weight and gain some insight and I did ...he was an @hole and didn't take me for who I was ..a pretty great lady ..
so your ex bf was an @hole and try to get through the self esteem issues ..because all I am seeing is one awesome chika!
ttylater hun
You are doing awesome!
I believe in you!
love yas
always
natalie jo
misty22
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As stated before, the weight loss is coming along very slowly. On the plus side, I have managed to make my schedule include 3-4 days at the gym every week. It would be ideal to have a specific three days but I'm going to have to deal with a bit of ambiguity because of work.
So, starting over, on October 14, 2007:
SW: 127 (starting weight)
EW: 124 (expected end weight this Oct.)
So, starting over, on October 14, 2007:
SW: 127 (starting weight)
EW: 124 (expected end weight this Oct.)
nataliejo
New member
Hey you!
We know you can do this!
Just even do little things to fire up your metabolism and get exercise. Take the stairs...add steps into your day.
Omega is all about steps and I have been about steps.. I used to take the elevator on a two floor building last year ..thats when I was 315 pounds. Than I decided thats it ..no more. So I went up and down my stairs at home and started trying to rush up the stairs at school ...they are two level stairs and they are sharp and steep ...so the better and I just rush up those steps ..take full and deliberate steps ... it works me out for a second ... I just take my breathing down on the way to the room ... where my class is ... I take the stairs all the time ... I walk up all hills fast ... as fast as I can ... I try to beat my bf ...thats one of my goals ..to be faster than my bf one of these days and shock the pants of off him ...which might be fun! lmao jk
but just work steps in on your regular day ..add steps ..it will be difficult at first if you don't do many steps ..but you would be surprised lol
ttylater hun
always
love yas
natalie jo
misty22
Well-known member
Thanks for the post Nat. I believe that every little bit of exercise helps even though it may not show any immediate results. I have been opting to walk home from the bus terminal lately because the 15 minute walk home sometimes is the only decent bit of exercise I do all day.
I have my gym schedule planned out for next week. I'm just really hoping I can stick to it- it's going to take a bit of will power and determination. Anyways, I'm going to take it a day at a time (just like I'm taking everything else, haha).
So, the days I have set aside are:
- Sunday (before work)
- Monday (after work)
- Tuesday (after work)
- Friday (after work)
- Saturday (after work)
My goal for this week is really to hit the 125lb mark, because at that point I will be in the healthy BMI range. It's on the borderline but it won't have me in the moderately overweight category. It was the weight I was last year and I'm hoping to at least get back to my original. So....let's see how it goes. Not giving up.
I have my gym schedule planned out for next week. I'm just really hoping I can stick to it- it's going to take a bit of will power and determination. Anyways, I'm going to take it a day at a time (just like I'm taking everything else, haha).
So, the days I have set aside are:
- Sunday (before work)
- Monday (after work)
- Tuesday (after work)
- Friday (after work)
- Saturday (after work)
My goal for this week is really to hit the 125lb mark, because at that point I will be in the healthy BMI range. It's on the borderline but it won't have me in the moderately overweight category. It was the weight I was last year and I'm hoping to at least get back to my original. So....let's see how it goes. Not giving up.
misty22
Well-known member
I didn't reach my weight goal for the week but I am not giving up just yet. I want this bad- and I'm going to reach the 125lb mark this week. No more excuses.
Life has gotten very busy and now it seems like finding time to exercise is hard enough! Plus the cold weather has set in- which makes it undesirable to walk to the gym! But I can do this. Now or never. Must remember to d/l some motivating songs on my mp3 player.
but I am not giving up just yet. I want this bad- and I'm going to reach the 125lb mark this week. No more excuses. Life has gotten very busy and now it seems like finding time to exercise is hard enough! Plus the cold weather has set in- which makes it undesirable to walk to the gym! But I can do this. Now or never. Must remember to d/l some motivating songs on my mp3 player.