Misty's Diary
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misty22
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Still super confused about the job situation. To take it or not to take it? To keep looking or not to keep looking? The fact is, jobs will always be out there. It's a matter of take what I have right now and run with it for a year or just keep looking and hopefully find something better? Blah!!
I just want a job at a super advertising firm, that's all!
I just want a job at a super advertising firm, that's all!
nataliejo
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Hey you, Havent been around, but thought I would stop in
My sister does something like advertising ... for a biochem company ...she was a biochemist than went into the business aspect of it and climbed the ladder ... shes awesome ...
I hope you can find a job that suits you soon!
I see your working really hard!
Hope to hear from you soon
always
natalie jo
misty22
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Been to the gym 4 days straight.
My appetite has increased because of the increased amt. of exercise- which does worry me, but I think I should be fine if I stick to the healthy stuff.
Thoughts of the ex have been getting to me lately. I don't know what to do except for to ride the storm out.
Interview on Thursday for a part-time job, evenings, let's see how that goes- need a nice shirt for the interview!
My appetite has increased because of the increased amt. of exercise- which does worry me, but I think I should be fine if I stick to the healthy stuff.
Thoughts of the ex have been getting to me lately. I don't know what to do except for to ride the storm out.
Interview on Thursday for a part-time job, evenings, let's see how that goes- need a nice shirt for the interview!
misty22
Well-known member
Went to the gym again, it's been about 5-6 days straight. Coming to a week on Wednesday. I'm really hoping for the weight to come off because it's not like I'm not trying hard.
I bought some hair color- Burgundy. The cute guy at the register starts ringing in my stuff and then goes, what color is this? And I'm like, Burgundy. He's like, it looks purple. I'm like, I know, it's different! He could have mistaken my enthusiasm as rudeness. Don't know, haha. Purple eyeliner to match- aubergene infact.
I have been feeling down the past few days, just all these thoughts in my head of the recent past. However, if I want change, I need to go out there and get it. I want my confidence back up, I want my self-esteem back up and I know I'm working towards it this time. I hope I see results soon.
I bought some hair color- Burgundy. The cute guy at the register starts ringing in my stuff and then goes, what color is this? And I'm like, Burgundy. He's like, it looks purple. I'm like, I know, it's different! He could have mistaken my enthusiasm as rudeness. Don't know, haha. Purple eyeliner to match- aubergene infact.
I have been feeling down the past few days, just all these thoughts in my head of the recent past. However, if I want change, I need to go out there and get it. I want my confidence back up, I want my self-esteem back up and I know I'm working towards it this time. I hope I see results soon.
misty22
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I'm taking this weight loss thing a day at a time.
I keep thinking I'll be where I want to be in a few months- but that isn't the case. I have to remember, it didn't take a day to gain all the weight and it won't take a day to lose it all. Really, the best way is to make every single day work for you. To stay on top of the game every day. To make sure you're doing the best you can.
My weight's been fluctuating between 133lbs and a bit above 134 lbs. I'd like to think that I'm down to 133 lbs. Not sure if I should change the ticker?
I would have imagined to lose more because I have been going to the gym religiously and doing 30-35 min of cardio and muscle exercises. It's crazy thinking that this time last year I weighed 125lbs! 57 kg! That's a full 8-9lbs lighter than I am right now. I was thinking to myself at the gym the other day, God...imagine going through all this again after having a baby....
I keep thinking I'll be where I want to be in a few months- but that isn't the case. I have to remember, it didn't take a day to gain all the weight and it won't take a day to lose it all. Really, the best way is to make every single day work for you. To stay on top of the game every day. To make sure you're doing the best you can.
My weight's been fluctuating between 133lbs and a bit above 134 lbs. I'd like to think that I'm down to 133 lbs. Not sure if I should change the ticker?
I would have imagined to lose more because I have been going to the gym religiously and doing 30-35 min of cardio and muscle exercises. It's crazy thinking that this time last year I weighed 125lbs! 57 kg! That's a full 8-9lbs lighter than I am right now. I was thinking to myself at the gym the other day, God...imagine going through all this again after having a baby....
misty22
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Fell off.
Back on. Yet again. Sigh.
Okay. So my weigh-in days are Wednesdays. I have four more days to make this weight loss journey work for me. Trying to lose a lb before Wednesday. So let's see how that goes.
Ahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Back on. Yet again. Sigh.
Okay. So my weigh-in days are Wednesdays. I have four more days to make this weight loss journey work for me. Trying to lose a lb before Wednesday. So let's see how that goes.
Ahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
misty22
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Thanks Becks!
I'm going to take some initiative and make a salad for lunch tomorrow.....I ate out yesterday with friends, Thai.....I hate being at 134lbs right now, it's like I'm stuck! I've noticed a bit of the flab becoming tighter- of course, I'm still flabby. Getting a bit disillusioned and discouraged...but blah.
I'm going to take some initiative and make a salad for lunch tomorrow.....I ate out yesterday with friends, Thai.....I hate being at 134lbs right now, it's like I'm stuck! I've noticed a bit of the flab becoming tighter- of course, I'm still flabby. Getting a bit disillusioned and discouraged...but blah.
misty22
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Near about 1:30 pm today I felt absolutely gutted. I felt sick to the stomach, felt like crying- apparently the company I was temping for decided not to give me the contract position. The reasons were totally understandable: a) I wasn't planning on staying in the same CS position for years b) I specialized in another discipline c) too young?
K. told me that my work was good, I was one of the best she had seen but she wanted someone more long term aka someone older and not that concerned about their career. She told me when I asked her what the arrangement for work would be like next week...to add to the sick feeling at the pit of my stomach she said that today would be the last day they needed me. Imagine my shock. I sat there, smiling, agreeing with her decision (as it was the best for the company) when inside I felt like crying and just getting the hell out of the office.
I said my goodbyes to everyone. Felt like a wreck, my mind was racing in all sorts of directions. Unemployed again. Great. I called my sister. I ate a bagel and had some coffee. I went to the bookstore. All random sporadic decisions because I was upset. Ended up at the gym- and I LEFT AFTER ONLY 25 MINUTES on the treadmill- even the girl at the front desk was suprised. I admitted to having a bad day and told her I would be back the next day i.e. tomorrow.
Anyways, on the way home I was thinking: I'm still fat, still single, unemployed, in debt. Things could NOT be better right now. I think out of everything I've listed above, really the job is what I need the most. I ate junk I shouldn't have because I was upset. Gah, it's not like they fired me, I was temping anyways..just a shock to be told there is a position and have it offered to me and then have it snatched away in a matter of 2 minutes.
Anyways. New day. New start. Back to square 1.5, on with the job hunt tomorrow morning. God, I hope some good news comes my way :S This has been a hell of a summer. And oh fuck. It's my birthday on Wednesday. A year closer to wrinkles. Wonderful.
Eh, c'est la vie. Bring it on.
K. told me that my work was good, I was one of the best she had seen but she wanted someone more long term aka someone older and not that concerned about their career. She told me when I asked her what the arrangement for work would be like next week...to add to the sick feeling at the pit of my stomach she said that today would be the last day they needed me. Imagine my shock. I sat there, smiling, agreeing with her decision (as it was the best for the company) when inside I felt like crying and just getting the hell out of the office.
I said my goodbyes to everyone. Felt like a wreck, my mind was racing in all sorts of directions. Unemployed again. Great. I called my sister. I ate a bagel and had some coffee. I went to the bookstore. All random sporadic decisions because I was upset. Ended up at the gym- and I LEFT AFTER ONLY 25 MINUTES on the treadmill- even the girl at the front desk was suprised. I admitted to having a bad day and told her I would be back the next day i.e. tomorrow.
Anyways, on the way home I was thinking: I'm still fat, still single, unemployed, in debt. Things could NOT be better right now. I think out of everything I've listed above, really the job is what I need the most. I ate junk I shouldn't have because I was upset. Gah, it's not like they fired me, I was temping anyways..just a shock to be told there is a position and have it offered to me and then have it snatched away in a matter of 2 minutes.
Anyways. New day. New start. Back to square 1.5, on with the job hunt tomorrow morning. God, I hope some good news comes my way :S This has been a hell of a summer. And oh fuck. It's my birthday on Wednesday. A year closer to wrinkles. Wonderful.
Eh, c'est la vie. Bring it on.
miracle
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Fantastic attitude to have! Keep your head high. Fuck 'em. You can do better than them!
Sadness, anger and other emotions are good for you if you think about it. You hurt for a bit, you grieve, and then you let go, making you stronger. Just barge through all the shit times and I promise you, you'll get where you want to be if you stick to it.
"The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It is a very mean and nasty place It will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me or nobody is going to hit as hard as life. But it ain't about how hard you hit, it is about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward, how much can you take and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done! " - Rocky Balboa
^ This will inspire me forever.
nataliejo
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Misty,
You will find an even better job!! No worries. You have a great personality, wonderful attitude. Keep your head up!
And your doing great with the working out ..amazing ...I just hope I start doing the same. Been having a difficult time motivating myself. And I know it can be hard being single. But someone will find you when you least expect it and you will be higher than a kite in heaven.
best wishes
natalie jo
You will find an even better job!! No worries. You have a great personality, wonderful attitude. Keep your head up!
And your doing great with the working out ..amazing ...I just hope I start doing the same. Been having a difficult time motivating myself. And I know it can be hard being single. But someone will find you when you least expect it and you will be higher than a kite in heaven.
best wishes
natalie jo
misty22
Well-known member
Confession time: I have not been taking care of myself.
The fact that I am temporarily unemployed is affecting how I eat and whether I exercise or not. So- that has to change. I already feel a bit chubby for having chocolate yesterday and not exercising! Going to the Gym at 7pm today- no ifs and buts about it!
Also, fucking hell, I sent off like 3 major applications without dates in my cover letter...how retarded can I get? Eh, I'm just going to apply to 3 equally amazing places WITH dates on my cover letters. I'm such an idiot! lol
The fact that I am temporarily unemployed is affecting how I eat and whether I exercise or not. So- that has to change. I already feel a bit chubby for having chocolate yesterday and not exercising! Going to the Gym at 7pm today- no ifs and buts about it!
Also, fucking hell, I sent off like 3 major applications without dates in my cover letter...how retarded can I get? Eh, I'm just going to apply to 3 equally amazing places WITH dates on my cover letters. I'm such an idiot! lol
misty22
Well-known member
Still feeling chunky. Started going to the gym again- but my healthy eating seems to have gone out the window!! Today I did better than most days though:
- Bowl of porridge
- 2 bananas
- Chicken salad with Soy Sauce (never again, haha..soy sauce that is)
- 2 cups of yougurt
- 1 peach
- 3 cups of tea
- 3 slices of whole wheat bread
The killer?
Breaded chicken fingers!! Like 5 of them!!
And coke (2). Coke- old addiction made worse with the heat wave..... :S
Man...I don't know what to do...how do I begin LOVING veggies? I know I need more than one meal with vegetables in it. Need to start planning lunches and dinners better...that's the only thing I can think of!
Oh, I discovered the hip machine at the gym! It was fun..one of the easier ones...will try it again tomorrow
- Bowl of porridge
- 2 bananas
- Chicken salad with Soy Sauce (never again, haha..soy sauce that is)
- 2 cups of yougurt
- 1 peach
- 3 cups of tea
- 3 slices of whole wheat bread
The killer?
Breaded chicken fingers!! Like 5 of them!!
And coke (2). Coke- old addiction made worse with the heat wave..... :S
Man...I don't know what to do...how do I begin LOVING veggies? I know I need more than one meal with vegetables in it. Need to start planning lunches and dinners better...that's the only thing I can think of!
Oh, I discovered the hip machine at the gym! It was fun..one of the easier ones...will try it again tomorrow