Well, here I go, not my first "first day on a diet" or even my second, a fact with which I'm sure many of you can sympathize. I could rattle off your typical, bad TV advert cliche of "I've tried so many diets, but none of them worked for me" lol. I won't.
The truth is, it was never the diet that failed me. It was what I wanted out of the diet. Let's just say patience is not one of my virtues. I shudder to think of the things I resorted to so that the numbers on the scales went down faster- even to the point where for two years of high school, I "purged" twice daily and was eventually diagnosed with bulimia nervosa. "Pro ana" forums were my usual haunt, and I lost a LOT of weight- 20kg in only 10 weeks, at one stage. But of course I put it back on, and more, because as soon as I stopped purging I was so far into denial that I just ate and ate and ate.
I don't even know my starting weight (I don't own scales due to the whole bulimia thing) but I'm guessing it's around 100kg (220lb) which is pretty significant at my height of 164cm or around 5 foot 4. My goal weight is 63kg, 139lb. Holy moly, that makes about 80lb to lose- I think I'll stick to metric!!lol.
I've always desperately wanted to have elegant arms, collarbones, and an elegant jawline. I don't know, maybe it's an ex-ballet dancer thing. Hopefully, losing weight will acheive that.
I read somewhere that a lot of people subconciously self-sabotage during their weight-loss journey because it's easier to live life hiding behind the excuse of your weight. "My love-life sucks because I'm fat" "I would have been a shoo-in for that promotion if I wasn't such a fatty" "I'm already fat, so what does it matter what I wear" etc. I don't want to waste my life hiding behind that anymore. I have no grand delusions of being incredibly gorgeous and super-thin and model-like. I just want to be normal, healthy, and not feel like my weight effects every aspect of my day. I don't want to feel like the guy walking past was looking at me because I'm fat. I'd like to be able to entertain the idea that he just liked my knockers.
Food diary for today (boring but good to keep track of it!):
Brekkie = small bowl porridge and a handful of raspberries
Snack = 1x finger banana, 2xglass coke zero (BAD), 3 slices grilled eggplant, 4x cups tea with small amount trim milk
Lunch = scrambled egg (2xegg and 1Tbsp trim milk w/salt and pepper), 1 slice wholegrain toast
Dinner = broad bean (I LOVE THESE) with salt and pepper, Mushroom based homemade veggie patty, sauce
Fluids: 2 glasses water, 2 glasses coke, 4 cups tea - need more water!!
Exercise: 4km walk - moderate pace
This was a long post- sorry, I didn't take much time to read around and see what length was normal lol. Anyway, in summary, this is my first day. Easy peasy. It's maintaining it for 9 months that will be hard... Ugh
XMissCaraX
The truth is, it was never the diet that failed me. It was what I wanted out of the diet. Let's just say patience is not one of my virtues. I shudder to think of the things I resorted to so that the numbers on the scales went down faster- even to the point where for two years of high school, I "purged" twice daily and was eventually diagnosed with bulimia nervosa. "Pro ana" forums were my usual haunt, and I lost a LOT of weight- 20kg in only 10 weeks, at one stage. But of course I put it back on, and more, because as soon as I stopped purging I was so far into denial that I just ate and ate and ate.
I don't even know my starting weight (I don't own scales due to the whole bulimia thing) but I'm guessing it's around 100kg (220lb) which is pretty significant at my height of 164cm or around 5 foot 4. My goal weight is 63kg, 139lb. Holy moly, that makes about 80lb to lose- I think I'll stick to metric!!lol.
I've always desperately wanted to have elegant arms, collarbones, and an elegant jawline. I don't know, maybe it's an ex-ballet dancer thing. Hopefully, losing weight will acheive that.
I read somewhere that a lot of people subconciously self-sabotage during their weight-loss journey because it's easier to live life hiding behind the excuse of your weight. "My love-life sucks because I'm fat" "I would have been a shoo-in for that promotion if I wasn't such a fatty" "I'm already fat, so what does it matter what I wear" etc. I don't want to waste my life hiding behind that anymore. I have no grand delusions of being incredibly gorgeous and super-thin and model-like. I just want to be normal, healthy, and not feel like my weight effects every aspect of my day. I don't want to feel like the guy walking past was looking at me because I'm fat. I'd like to be able to entertain the idea that he just liked my knockers.
Food diary for today (boring but good to keep track of it!):
Brekkie = small bowl porridge and a handful of raspberries
Snack = 1x finger banana, 2xglass coke zero (BAD), 3 slices grilled eggplant, 4x cups tea with small amount trim milk
Lunch = scrambled egg (2xegg and 1Tbsp trim milk w/salt and pepper), 1 slice wholegrain toast
Dinner = broad bean (I LOVE THESE) with salt and pepper, Mushroom based homemade veggie patty, sauce
Fluids: 2 glasses water, 2 glasses coke, 4 cups tea - need more water!!
Exercise: 4km walk - moderate pace
This was a long post- sorry, I didn't take much time to read around and see what length was normal lol. Anyway, in summary, this is my first day. Easy peasy. It's maintaining it for 9 months that will be hard... Ugh
XMissCaraX
I can completely sympathise with the maintaining the diet in the long term when the first few days seem relatively easy, I only started last monday and already I'm having cake cravings! 
