Mishi's Still Kicking

Your all right. I know this. I have thought about it and as a daily weigher I understand the fluctuations that can happen. Just harder to talk yourself through every now and then. Sickness update: glad I went to the doctor. Relieved to find out I don't have the flu. I had a cold that has progressed into a sinus infection and a small ear infection. Antibiotics should clear that up and I'll be right hopefully by the end of the weekend!! Yay. Explained why I looked like Martin Short in the movie "Interspace".... when he's changing into "the cowboy". Funny movie if you haven't seen it:) The look isn't quite as funny;) Bulgy eyes and red enlarged nose for those of you not familiar. I look a little creepy!! lol Hope you all have a wonderful Valentines!!:)
 
Finally starting to feel normal!!

Yay! I like normal:D lol. TOM has made my weight jump up. I am at 168.2 as of this morning. Just waiting for that to go down. Trying to be good. I had some brownie for Valentine's day. LUckily my son didn't get a whole lot of v-day candy and he ate it all last night so I am safe from that. My chocolate cravings are way up though! lol Glad to have a weekend that I am not laid out in bed! Hope you all have a good weekend! I am going to try to get outside to walk or do something!!!
 
mishi said:
Yay! I like normal:D lol. TOM has made my weight jump up. I am at 168.2 as of this morning. Just waiting for that to go down. Trying to be good. I had some brownie for Valentine's day. LUckily my son didn't get a whole lot of v-day candy and he ate it all last night so I am safe from that. My chocolate cravings are way up though! lol Glad to have a weekend that I am not laid out in bed! Hope you all have a good weekend! I am going to try to get outside to walk or do something!!!
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hey there fraking TOM is a pain in the azz,i am crampy,bitchy,and ready to kill and it isn't here for another 5-7 days and I have all the symptoms x 2 lol
Have a gr8 weekend and I am sure there will be a BIG drop when tom leaves da building,hugggggs Tammy
 
Thanks hon! Honestly in a weird way glad TOM is here. It's been since November and I was beginning to think there was something wrong with me!!! So back to normal and back to BC! guess no babies for us right now:p lol. My evil plans are all ruined! lmao.
Didn't have the best night food wise tonight but it's ok. Back on tomorrow. Paul is leaving to Denver for a week. My chance to really focus on myself. Just have to resist my son's birthday cake on Wednesday! lol Hope your all having a good night tonight! Tivo rules in this house on Saturday nights:p
 
Happy Monday!

lol Brandy I don't know if there is such a thing! yum birthday cake!! ;) I will be good though. Unlike the last several days. When my weight rose I just gave up a bit. I am just tired. I hate this roller coaster weight loss! My weight is bouncing around a lot now and goes from 167 to 170! So I will work on getting back into the groove... as always:p lol Today is a day off. Yay Presidents Day! A day to catch up on laundry and all the things I got behind on when I was sick. However, I woke up with a terrible migrane! I actually broke into my prescription meds to take care of it. I am feeling weak and really sick to my tummy. I hate feeling like I am falling apart. Just not sure why I feel so yucky! I hope it goes away.
On a cute side note: yesterday I enjoyed the day with my son and we went to see a few movies. While we were waiting for the movies to start we went to good ol' Walgreens and he decided to buy a big squirt gun with his own money. This morning I hear him come out of his room and I look up and he has his gun up and ready for action and is covering the hallway like psycho ninjas were going to jump out at him! lol So cute. He has been watching too many shoot-em-ups with me!!!
HOpe you all have a good day. My headache is feeling better. Hopefully it just goes away!! then I can do chores! yippieee!:willy_nilly:
 
Let them eat cake!!

lol or let me eat cake. I couldn't resist. I was stupid and didn't bring food to eat and I was hungry and it is so hard to be really hungry and have a cake sitting out in front of you! Some people can be strong. I was not! It was good too:drool5: lmao.
Issues issues issues. I just feel chock full of them when it comes to my diet these days. I am sick of trying to eat so little calories. I am not disciplined enough to stick to healthy food. I am trying to find my balance of eating and eating good food. I am trying to figure out how to do that. What should I snack on? How can I make quick meals with lots of veggies and lean protein that still tastes good and is quick? How can I find my motivation? I am so tired about stressing about everything that goes in my mouth. It shouldn't be a stress. I shouldn't be hungry... within reason. I am learning the difference between emotional hunger and real hunger but I am so not content with munching on broccoli. I would rather reach for chips.. lol. How do I train myself. I am just frusturated with this yo-yo weight loss and I am worried about my health from it. I am just tired of being worried and stressed. Some of me feels like I am missing out on life because I spend too much of my day stressing out about food and exercise. :nopity:
I hate feeling like I come here just to bitch. I like getting my thoughts out but when it's "whining" every post I tend to start avoiding this place.... though I am rather caught up in the Biggest loser couples thread:D lol
Thank god it's Thursday. My son is sick and I kept him at work with me. He is laying downstairs in my classroom. I just can't afford to take anymore sick days and with hubby gone there is nowhere for him to go but here. At least this is like his second home:)
Hope you all have a great day today. Tammy I am so excited for you!
Take care:)
 
I hope your son feels better soon. He is always sick! Poor little guy. Its hard to figure out how to resist foods... I have a lot of trouble with it. And a lot of times I think I am eating right, and I'm not. Between how much of whichever part of nutrition I need... calories, protein, grams of fat, fiber, sodium, carbs, etc.... its hard to figure that all out. AND be satisfied eating. I'm struggling as well. So you are not alone... except you at least figured it out for a little while seeing as you lose 75 lbs. I'm still trying to do it after a year. Don't stay away because you feel like you are whining. Thats what you diary is for! lol.
 
Hy Mishi,
AWWWW I hope your lil guy feels better,my kids used to get sick all the time and luckily just the baby seems to be the one with the bad luck with the viruses and colds.Anyway you are strong to just once in a while we have to have some cake or some CHEDDERS lol we are not like we used to be which in my house cake everyday,and eating out all the time so we are alot stronger because we actually look at what eat now.Anyway i think you have done well in my book,have a nice day and STAY WARM!!
 
Hi all

It has been awhile and yes Mishi is still kicking! lol I have been having ups and downs with my diet but things are looking up right now. I will go into a bad spell and then pick myself up and try again. Right now I am teetering on a bad edge. Let the stress and spousal pressure send me over the edge yesterday and I had a lot. Today I was supposed to meet my dad for dinner but he is in a meeting that is lasting longer than it was supposed to and I ate food because I was hungry. Only I didn't eat dinner. I ate snacky stuff to tide me over.... doesn't work out so well. Snacky stuff is the devil. What I should have done is just eat dinner and then just had a small salad or something when I met him. My calories are terrible now- around 1600 but still it was all crap and snacky stuff. Spring break starts tomorrow and I am on it for the break. Bought a treadmill from accross the street a few days ago. I am a bit scared of it because when you turn it on just a little bit it zooms off!!!! It goes too fast and though it slows down eventually I am a bit scared that it will suddenly decide to speed up when I am on it!!! lol That's what I get for a cheap treadmill;)
Hope you all are doing well and haven't forgotten me!! I have been posting as I can. Just not as much time at home anymore and silly work blocked this site again:( Just have to wait to get it unblocked! Have a good weekend all!!!
 
Hey there Mishi!!
No way no ones forgetting about you!!
Hey you'll be back on track again soon just look how far
you have came you are wayyyyyyyyy far away from that
"200" plus we will start haveing better weather which gets
ya back in the mood :+)!!
Well sorry bout the cheap treadmill thats my luck to.
WELL HAVE A NICE WEEKEND AND HAPPY EASTER!:coolgleamA:
 
I definitely have not forgotten about you. I usually find this thread and check if you've come back yet. I was pleasantly surprised today! Good luck with that treadmill. lol.
 
Yay Spring break!

So the week has been going well. I love having the time off of course and there have been late video game nights with late sleeping in. In fact it's noon and we just got out of bed!!!! Believe it or not my son just woke up as well so we all got a good nights sleep:)
Diet was going well for awhile but it's just not now. I keep thinking I need a change and the low calorie thing just isn't going to work for me anymore and even if it does it will only be for a short term. I need to find my niche for long term. I have been enjoying the working out and even though I haven't been losing weight my body has been changing. LOL I see the fat shift around and I know it's because of the muscle I am getting under it:) I just need to keep it up.
My husband and I were watching tv and this show came on where this guy is talking about eating and he has four rules:
1. eat when your hungry
2. eat what you want
3. eat conscientiously
4. .... well poo I can't remember what the last one was but the top 3 are good enough. I hate #2 because there are things that are just not healthy and if I decided to just eat milkshakes it just wouldn't be good for me.
However, 1 and 3 really resonated with me. I tend to go to long without food sometimes and it kills me! I get so hungry I tend to eat anything and just eat too much of it.
the eat conscientiously bit got to me too. He said put down your fork and knife between bites and chew at least 20 times. Slow your eating down and give your body a chance to enjoy what it's eating but also give it time to let you know you've eaten enough.
I am a wolfer... I can chow down with the best of them. I eat fast for a majority of reasons but usually I am watching tv, or reading. That really should stop. I just eat so mindlessly! It would be nice to get control over that.
I was interested in that show. I am just not sure if I can count calories forever and having a dependence on fitday for the rest of my life doesn't appeal to me. As always I want to get to a point where I can do this myself and eating well and good portions becomes a second nature. I don't want to feel restricted. That is why I have never limited my food just tried to limit portions. I have had success. I am still 70lbs below my highest weight. I just need to find out what works. Tammy you told me that it took you 15 months to get back on track and as much as I want to rush it it may take me awhile too. It's amazing that this far in the journey I am still looking for what works. It just shows as life changes for me that I need something I can adapt to and that will work with my family and lifestyle.
Another interesting tidbit I picked up out of one of my magazines is that in the 1970's the average calorie consumption was around 1600 calories... now it is over 2000. It is interesting because I think of 2000 as healthy but I don't work out enough to really maintain that intake and my weight. 1600 is a good number for me but sticking to counting calories has been hard. We shall see. No wonder people call it a journey!! lol
Thanks guys for not forgetting me:) On the good note the treadmill is working fine. I just can't stand on it when it starts up in case it decided to go crazy. I still prefer walking outside but this gives me no excuses:)
Mal yes food goes a long way at work. I hate the doughnuts they bring in!! I would bring them carrots or broccoli and then where would I be??? laughed at I tell you;) but I just need to find the computer guru and ask him. He just isn't there very often! I may have to ride out the year but it's ok. It's been getting busier and busier at work. As we ride down to summer and seniors graduate and some juniors graduate early it will be crazy. I am going to miss those kids!! but that is the life of a high school teacher.....
Hope you guys are having a good week... whether at work or at home:)
 
Thank you Brandy! That was it. I liked his show but after trying yesterday I didn't do so well. Sigh. It's just so compulsive to eat so much. Once I start I can't stop. I was trying to eat until I was full during the day but I had a hard time telling when that point was. I ended up eating way too little and then binged in the evening. It just seems I can't escape the fitday thing. I love it but I so want to be able to do it on my own!!!
 
NICE to MEET YA!

Hey MISHI :)...I've read through YOU're WHOLE thread!....YOU have COME such a LONG way CONGRATS :party:...BE PROUD of YOURSELF....and YOU are SOOO right about finding the NICHE that works with your particular Lifestyle!

For me....taking my FOOD in little sandwich bags, already PREMADE in the morning is the ONLY way that I am able to STICK to it, or else TEMPTATION :piggy: Kicks in.....SO now, since I never knew what "LISTEN TO YOUR STOMACH " meant....lol....I eat according to the clock...every 2 hours and once it passes night, I try and either really eat HEALTHY throughout the day, so that by NIGHT I have REMAINDER calories left over....:) and NO GUILT or really slow it down at NIGHT...AS LONG AS YOUR EATING ALL THE TIME and YOU TELL YOURSELF THAT YOU "CAN" eat ANYTHING you want, you start FINDING that YOU don't WANT to BECAUSE you "CAN"...but if YOU DO....It'll just UNDERMINE how far you have come.

....I KNOW YOU CAN DO IT!....WE CAN ALL DO IT TOGETHER...:cheers2:

Tonight I weigh MYSELF...a week and a half ago...I was at 167....:( had a lot of CRANBERRY and VODKAS since then.....BAD!!BAD!!:banghead:...so we are about the same weight....5'2, 25yrs young! LOL :gnorsi:
 
The harsh truth

I do need to post on here more often. What is the problem you ask? I was as high as a kite about my weightloss last year. I did so well starting in January and with calorie counting and fitday I lost over 40 pounds!! It was amazing and hard but I did it. However, after 4 months I started to lose some momentum. I was at the gym a lot so that didn't matter. It was summer break for me as a teacher and I could go to the gym for 2-3hours a day without blinking an eye. My diet started to lapse but with the toning and calorie burning I was doing it didn't matter. In August I started a new job with new hours and working out on a regular basis got harder and harder. My scale weight didn't move but I was losing muscle. Eventually that caught up with me and with our marriage in December the last of my will power reserves broke down and all food became fair game and my ability to control my portion sizes was shot. My interest in putting my food into fitday faded. As I have always said I don't want to be dependant on a computer every day. I want to learn to eat well naturally and not feel like I am starving all the time. So though my calorie counting worked... I am not sure it 's for me in the long run. Long story short I have gained back 20 of those 40 pounds and the scale is still climbing.
I really need to stop. I am affecting my health with the way I am eating and this "no care" attitude that I have is bringing me down. I was watching an Extreme Makeover show and their diet and exercise guy said that it is 80% about what you eat. I so agree. I can watch my weight bounce around with what I eat and I have seen that (obviously) ice cream, fries and starchy/sugary things make me gain. Duh right?
So what do I do? I want something that fits with my schedule. That I don't feel I have to beat myself over the head to accomplish and something that I feel I can stick too. I guess this is the time for experimenting. I have learned a lot from the year. No doubt about that and there is good with the bad. I know it is possible to succeed and I know what kind of body I want and what it will take to get there.
I am in the process of building up my running so that in a year I can start training for a marathon. It is a bit daunting but with that much time it is totally doable and without injury which is important to me!
One of my biggest concerns has been my husband. I have wanted something that we both can do and my military like craziness with calories was not something he could relate too nor did he want to join me. So I am in the if he won't join me I will join him. He wants to do South Beach. Last year my doctor told me about SB and told me that would be a good program to start because of the food it allows as opposed to Atkins. I have had kidney issues and I am wary of cutting my carbs but the first part of this is only for two weeks where it is very strict. 2 weeks isn't too bad.
I hate to be getting on the diet program train but I have read the book and the stuff makes sense... even from what I have seen in my own eating patterns. Any thing I do I will need to DO the thing if I want to succeed. Hopefully with hubby's help I will get there..... or just with my own rebuilt will power. I just need a plan!
Brandy thanks for guilting me into making an entry again;)
Nice to meet you too Alta 818! I love your enthusiasm and your post cracked me up with the vodka and the cranberry lol. You are right and we can do it. I will find my place and maybe even start posting here a bit more:D
Hope you guys are having a good weekend!
 
its ok that you fell off the weight loss wagon. Its ok because ur getting back on. I have heard fantastic things about south beach. For a while I incorporated their meal replacement bars into my meal plan. But it ended up being far too expensive for me as a BROKE college student. I'm glad u posted again. It doesnt always have to be about ur calories here, but it can be about venting here to overcome cravings. And u dont need to be reliant upon the computer forever, but it might definitely help in the beginning to keep venting on here. Do I make sense? LOL. Its wonderful to hear from you! Keep posting or I'll have to guilt you into it again. :p
 
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