Mishi's Still Kicking

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mishi

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Hi all,
Sigh. Left for a little while and just can't stay away. I like this other site I found but I like it here too. So I will post in both. I still need to post wedding pics:) I will get to it eventually:rolleyes:
So this is a new diary. I am still kicking, still trying to figure out how to balance healthy eating, exercise and losing weight. I want to be happy with myself. I have gained about 20lbs and am trying to get back down to where I was and then to my goal which was 145. I would love to get down to 135 which would be very healthy for my 5'3" frame but I will take it as it comes. I am definatly not happy now. The holiday binging didn't stop and I couldn't regain control. I am still struggling and nighttime cravings are really kicking my butt! So I am going to work on blogging here and my othersite where maybe someone will hold me accountable! lol. I have to figure out how to bypass the night cravings. I do well for a few days and the stress builds up and I chow down. I totally know what my trigger is! So here I am back of course to try to finish what I have started... the difference this time: no drastic cutting of calories. 1,500 is the goal. Exercising more regularly would be good too lol:p
So I am starting at 174 as of today. I am going to make a new ticker, new avatar, new diary. Just don't want to wallow in my failures!! I need support though! If you read this and have the time, give me a nudge! I really need a butt kicking to get myself back on the wagon lol. However I am still here. I have not given up! That's something! lol
Hope you all are doing well today!! wish me luck:)
 
HELLO MISHI**HUGGS**WELCOME BACK AND GL,I haven't been much support this past week do to getting rooms painted scrubbed and rearranged I have knocked out 2 rooms so far.
Anyway the weight will come off in no time just find that motivation that set the way for you before,I am thinking "SPRING" get ready for shorts and the outdoors lol!Have a gr8 day,Tammy
 
Feeling a bit better

:hurray: Yay I am feeling a bit more motivated. Motivation has been my main issue recently. Like I said after the holidays I just couldn't get back on board. It is so hard to deny yourself the food you crave even if you know it's not good for you. So I stayed strong last night. I did well not eating bad things. I have started cooking these meals off e-mealz.com. They give you a shopping list and a weeks worth of meals. You just throw the stuff together and cook it. They have different plans you can choose like low carb, Wal Mart shopping, low fat or just any store. We are on the any store low fat plan. So far they have been really good! Last night was apricot chicken on brown rice with fresh pineapple, rolls, and peas. So good. The recipe was easy: 6 chicken breasts in a pan with 1.5 c of sugar free apricot preserves, 1/4 c fat free mayo, and 1 packet of onion soup mix. Mix all that together and spread it over the chicken. Put in the oven for 45 minutes on 350 degrees. So easy! I try to sub healthier things like they called for regular preserves but I went with sugar free. Also made brown rice instead of white for a bit of added nutrients. Anywho it's a good site for those who are interested and it has made dinner faster (I know what to cook right when I get home) and has streamlined my shopping costs:)
So I am at 172 this morning. I really want to be in the 160's by the end of the month. 1 week left! I had better get on the ball!
Tammy! Good to see you. You have been so busy! I am very impressed by all the wonderful home decoration you have been doing!! Spring fever for sure! ;) lol I am excited for our 4 week thingy! yay. I think that is the source of my recent motivation! Thank you!!!!
On another note because I am dying to tell somebody lol. My doctor took me off birth control because I wasn't getting my periods. She wanted my body to normalize out and then restart... however hubby has "left it in God's hands" and we are continuing as always... meaning we may get pregnant:) I am very excited and nervous! I want to continue my healthy lifestyle even if I am pregnant. It will be interesting! I will keep y'all posted:) Of course I may be psyching myself up for nothing but last time I went off BC I got pregnant in a blink of an eye! We shall see:)
 
Hey Mishi,
Those recipes sound great, I really think you're doing the right thing that works for you regarding nutrition :) Looking forward to your success! :D
 
There's always the next day

This is a theme that I have clung to. Though I haven't been able to keep myself on track I haven't given up either. Yesterday was a bad day. I love my hubby but when he eats badly it is uber temptation for me. Not saying it's his fault... just it's easier to fold when it's right there. So I have to stay strong. I did well for the dinner part- we ordered out and I had one of their weight watchers dinners. However, I then spoiled it by picking off his plate and then raiding my cubbord. I am ashamed to write all that I ate but it wasn't good:( So today I am recommitting. This is a constant theme for me. I need to break it! It is so frusturating to start out the day with the best intentions and then fall off in the evening. Tonight we have our class and I will stay strong. dammit!! lol Really I have to manhandle myself!:p lol
Hi Curvie Girlie:) HOpe your doing well:) Thank you for the support!!!
Hope you all have a good day. My mantra: I will be good to myself!
 
Hey you - welcome to your new diary with a married life...It is really hard I find to refocus and recommitt sometimes - I seem to ahve refound my focus but I struggled for awhile...a long while there...

One day at a time - one meal, one snack, one work out at a time...and tomorrow is always a new day:):):)
 
thanks Cinderelly! It feels sometimes as if I am alone in this struggle. It's nice to be reminded that others have been there too! Just waiting for the day that the recommitment sticks!! lol Hope your doing well!!:) Love your avatar!
 
mishi said:
Hi Curvie Girlie:) HOpe your doing well:) Thank you for the support!!!
Hope you all have a good day. My mantra: I will be good to myself!
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I am! You're welcome! And YES, be good to yourself!

Would your darling husband ever be nice and keep junk out of sight or hide things?
 
I really need to talk to him about it but since I am the one in charge of the food and purchasing of the food and I usually know where anything is. sigh. He talked to me yesterday about reading my other blog where I mentioned that I needed support and motivation. He said the he was sad we couldn't be motivation for eachother. It's just hard. When he's weak I tend to be weak but it doesn't work the other way around. When I am strong sometimes he follows suit but not consistantly. I just don't know what to do. I would love to support eachother but we both have different ways of approaching health. I need to sit down and talk to him about it! Eventually we have to figure it out!!! lol
 
Hey there Mishi,
GL with the hubby thing,my hubbys attitude stinks in this department,knowing my weakness he still eats his bad foods all hours of the day and night and less than 12 inches in front of me,it wouldn't be so bad if he ate at the kitchen table instead of in the living room where I am at grrrrr.

Like cerealla said,1 day,workout,meal,snack at a time and I am telling ya each day get easier specially after a few days you see 1-2 lbs gone that is a real motivator.:hurray:
 
Good morning all!

I am feeling good today. I did really well yesterday and I had plenty of temptation in front of me. I just have to keep that in mind and it will pay off! I took before pics last night and it was really awful to see all that hard work I had done over the summer was just gone!! I am so flabby again. I took my measurements too and they are all up by an inch or two which is huge! No wonder my pants aren't fitting! I feel ready to bring it lol;) It's a good day. I will be going to the gym in an hour and taking my favorite muscle hour class! Today will be a busy day as always:)
Hi Tammy! You and Cinderelly are right. Just one day at a time. I will get there if I just don't give up. I will talk to the hubby... someday ;) lol but meanwhile I will just need to stay strong. I know that there will be temptations out there all the time and I should be able to refuse them.... even with hubby. Maybe he will see my success and follow along?? I hope:)
Have a good day y'all! Happy Friday!!!:party:
 
Keep up with the muscle work, and you'll tighten up and look great!

Yes, definitely explain how important this is to you in a caring, sensitive approach to the husband. Also, spend more time away form home! LOL!

Happy Friday!
 
Hey There Mishi Have A Gr8 Weekend!!!i Will Email Ya And Take Pics For Challange Probally Tomorrow Since Hubby Won't Be Home.
 
Hey Mishi! I just found your other diary. I'm glad to see you back. I hope you are having a good healthy weekend.
 
Mini-goal attained

So today I weighed in at 169.8!!! lol not much below 170 but my goal for this month was to get under 170! So I just have to stay strong for a week. I am very excited and really motivated. It's good when it's like this. I don't know what accounts for it either. I am off BC right now to normalize my periods out.... expecting any day to get pregnant btw!, The weather is getting warmer, I am in a challenge, I am making a point to put everything in fitday no matter what, I am motivated by a friend, I am blogging here more... There is just so much but apparently it was the push I needed! I feel good and have been strong. Even last night when picking the to go food we wanted. I could have said teriyaki chicken bowl but I went with subway instead:) I have been making sure to eat every few hours. Just a little bit to keep my energy up. If I don't I get ravenous and I have a bad habit of not eating and then pigging out later. So it's going well:)
Brandy! Good to see you:) Yes I am back. It was a short break but I just needed to flounder around I guess lol. Hope you have a good weekend too and have fun Geocatching! That sounds so fun.
lol curviegirlie! yeah that might be good:p hope you have a great weekend too!
Tammy! I am so excited for our "mini-challenge" lol. Hope you have a good weekend and lets kick some booty! I just realized summer is around the corner lol.
Take care y'all!
 
In to every mini-goal a little rain must fall

However, the good news is that I am not detered. I am still motivated! Last night was Burns night which is a Scottish celebration of the poet laurette Robert Burns. His birthday is on the 25th of January. So this night was hosted by my hubby's mom and there are a variety of scottish things to do and eat. So much food and liquor of course. I did well picking smaller portions but there was still so much it tipped my calories... then I folded later and ate a lot of goldfish crackers. It just happens to me that once I mess up I tend to fold further. Otherwise I did really well. I went for an hour walk that turned into an 80 minute ordeal lol. I still have blisters on my feet!
So the scale is up to 170.6 today after my 169.8. It is not much of a gain and I will recoup in the morning. So I am proud of myself. I could have stayed on the highroad and not eaten anything or even smaller portions but there is a time for putting calories aside. She just worked to hard!!
lol [Focus]- well thank you:) It's nice to meet a fellow challenger! Good luck to you in the upcoming challenge. Any news on when your avatar gets changed?? lol I loved the cat with the fly on it's nose!
Thank you Brandy! It is nice to be back on the wagon! It just feel so good to know what I am doing is good for me and will get results!:coolgleamA:
Enjoy your last weekend day *sob* ;)
 
mishi said:
lol [Focus]- well thank you:) It's nice to meet a fellow challenger! Good luck to you in the upcoming challenge. Any news on when your avatar gets changed?? lol I loved the cat with the fly on it's nose!
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Can't send AllCdnBoy a pm until I've been a member here for 5 days. :cry: Unless you want to do it for me. Or, I guess I could do it on the other one. Hmm.

Yes, I look forward to crushing you like a bug. :flame: Hahaha. Just playin'. As I "sang" to kitty earlier...

When all you've got to keep is strong move along move along, like I know you do.
And even when your hope is gone move along move along, just to make it through.
Move along!

Good for you for not beating yourself up. If worse comes to worst, just think about how ridiculously hot you'll be when you're done. Grrrr, baby. Very grrr. Can I say that? Is that okay? *looks around*. :D
 
Holy Hot Damn People

lmao. Ok so I am a bit excited. Energy is good today and my wonderful little scale ;) said 168.6 today. Came right back down from Burn's night. Thank god. I did well yesterday and even when cravings hit me hard I resisted. It's so hard to do that. Sometimes I just want to go to bed at ridiculous hours like 7pm so I don't have to deal with the late night cravings but it gets easier when I don't fold in the day. Last night I had a brilliant snack of frozen blueberries and Free Cool Whip. It's like 200 calories for a cup of blueberries and a cup of Cool Whip. You stir it together and it's like ice cream but fresher. I really like it and it does well in a pinch. I tried to get up this morning to work out but I was soooo tired. So that means I just have to get it in tonight. I am so ready for this Body Challenge (your going down [Focus] :p lmao). At the very least I am ready to get all the way down to my goal weight. My uber goal is 135 but my goal I would be happy with is 145. For my height 135 is really healthier. I swear I haven't weighed 135 since I was a little kid!! It will be wierd to be at that weight. Really like feeling like a different person. It was something I had to cope with last time around at my current weight. I just haven't been here long enough to get used to it. I still feel like the fat kid. I wonder if I always will?? hmmmm
Howdy [Focus]! I remember back in the day when I couldn't do s*** on this site:p I was so frusturated! You five days should be up soon right? What a great song! and lmao I loooovvvvveeeee Austin Powers. My favorite is "Goldmember". Best Austin movie all around. So Grrrr Baby right back at you:leaving: lmao
Hope you all have a good week! It's gonna be a slap happy day for me:D
 
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