Mishi's Last Fifteen

1 week 3 days:D

lol I am listening to "Grandma got run over by a reindeer"! I love this Christmas music stuff. I heard a song recently for the first time about wanting a hippotamus for Christmas. I LOVE IT!! It's the cutest song:)
So diet sucks but weight is going down a little bit. 163.4 to 163.2 today lol. Love it! I am so not stressed about that anymore. Just need to relax eventually!
I feel better and I have almost all my finals done. Just 2 more to go and that is awsome. I can write them tonight:) Then next week there is no work! yay!!:party: I am so ready to be off. These kids are driving me nuts!! A break is just what I need to recharge:)
Hope you all are having a great week!
Mal- Thank you! I am very excited. I know it can't come soon enough! and I do have myself a wonderful honey:):beating: can't wait for that massage!
 
WOW! congrats on having the week off!!! Make sure to take a little bit of time next week to relax for yourself.... you deserve it!
 
WOW! 3 days

It's getting close folks. Diet and stressing about weight is out the window. Our party favors are cookies that Paul's mom and I made. They are so pretty and very tasty so there was lots of munching on extra cookies as I put the favors together tonight. There is only 3 days and I am so excited. Things are crazy as always and I haven't been on the computer much and I won't be for a week or so. I had my seamstress let my dress out an inch just in case... that way I don't have to stress. Even with the cookies and the crap my weight is still around 163. That's not to bad. I have given up for now and will recommit for the New Year. I hope you all are doing well!!
Let the games begin;)
"Going to the chapel and we're gonna get married!!!" ha ha ha
I have to say the wedding shows on the Style channel and the We channel have taken on a whole new meaning. Not much to do now but set up, arrange the flowers, clean, prep, buy snackies for the rehersal, keep my face from breaking out, keep calm, pick up dress, figure out hairstyle, stop friggin second guessing every damn decision I have made!!!, pack my bag for the overnight (packed my little one's today), do laundry, pick up tables and chairs, decorate...... stay calm, breathe! lol don't kill my mom or my bridesmaids;) I think that about covers it... oh wait... I still need to write my vows:leaving:.
Lots to do! I am too excited to be really upset now though! 3 more days:D
Talk to you all soon and have a wonderful holiday!
 
The New Mrs. Carter!

OMG what a crazy busy time! Tammy lol you are so funny! NO! It doesn't feel different! Just calmer as the wedding and Christmas madness calm down. I am happy to remember why we wanted to get married to begin with though. With all the stress of planning and getting things together we were fighting a whole lot and we didn't have a lot of time together. I missed him!! So now he is in the house and we are back to how it used to be and it is so nice. I was worried there for awhile! But things are wonderful. The only thing missing right now is my son. He is with his dad for a week because his dad is moving to Denver (good riddance:cuss:). I miss him a lot though. He left on Christmas day and isn't coming home until Monday. I am going to call him today. I have tried to let his dad have space with him but I want to say hi and I love you:)
So diet has sucked big time. I compare it to a thirsty man in the dessert finding water. I just can't get enough!! I fill myself up until I am ill and then I cram in some more. No wonder I have gained so much. It isn't even good food. Just ice cream and chocolate and crap. So after many days of lamenting my expanding waistline I am going to be accountable starting today! Back with my food journal and writting down every single thing I eat and then putting it into fitday. I am going to work on working out soon but I really feel I have to get my eating under control first. My problem is that I don't know what calorie count to aim for. I would like enough to lose weight but also enough so that I don't feel deprived. I am thinking 1800 calories but the urge to do the 1200 calorie thing is hard to break because it worked so well in the beginning. Getting active continues to be a stress for me. I really wish I had a piece of home equipment but I know that even then I might not use it. That is the way it goes: If I don't have a gym membership I want one, if I do I don't use it regularly, if I don't have a home workout thingie I want one and if I have one I don't use it. I have to figure out how to break this!
It is amazing that for the year I have been doing this I am still tweaking and still trying to figure things out. I will get it and at least I have had success. It really keeps me going. It has been a long time since I have lost weight. Just trying to get into a livable routine. Saw Wishes avatar today and damn she looks so good!! She is only 10lbs away from her goal and I know she will make it. Also Mal's slow but steady progress that makes room for real life. She is so tenacious and I admire her for what she has done and how she handles the reality of it!!
There are so many people who have done so well and I can see myself in that category sometimes but recently I have been very down on myself for being so weak and falling so easily into bad habits! I am ready to pick myself up again and continue my journey. I feel silly that this post is Mishi's last fifteen as it is over 20 now but it should motivate me to get back down so that there is no false advertising! lol
Thank you Cinderelly and Tammy for keeping my diary relatively dust free;)
There is still lots to do getting my house back in order. There are room fulls of laundry to do! I am going to commit to keeping my fitday current and posting here more often!
HOpe you all had a wonderful Christmas!!! And you all have a great new years!! It's time to get down to business after all that holiday food!!:jump::hurray:
 
Hey there MISHI THE HAPPILY MARRIED WOMAN!!You'll be back ontrack
in no time and after 1 maybe 2 weeks it will be back at mishis last 15 again,I have been eating crap to but GOOD crap,O"Charlies twice,blondies,father N laws homade cheese cake ,peanutbutter candies,swiss colony geeeeeesh BUT I did keep my word and restarted right after Christmas I went from 177 to 181 to 179 back to 183.5 grrrrr NO MORE DAMN IT LOL.
Anyway I hope you have a nice weekend and HAPPY NEW YEARS ***HUGGS***TAMMY
 
oh no, married! why'd ya go and do something silly like that *G*

Congrats! Now onto business, wheres the pics? :D
 
Pics are coming all I promise! We had a friend do them and there were 1,247 pictures to go through. I am down the the last 40 after 8 hours! lol Now we just have to agree on the ones we want:p we will post them asap:) Gotta say we had a gorgous wedding:D
 
Happy New Years! I hope you have a great day with your honey, and remember to make this first day of 2008 a healthy example for the other 264 to come!
 
Howdy Mishi I love your new "LOVELY"wedding ticker!Lets get those tockers heading SOUTH!! Heres to '2008":party:
 
In a bad place

Eating wise anyway. I just can't seem to find the will power I had last year. I am so frusturated with myself! The scale said 172 this morning. That is 15lbs that I have gained! I am mad at myself and I can feel the heavyness and the flabbiness of the weight I have gained. It is a bad place that I am in and I am trying to hang on to my hope and determination but it is hard. I am not sure why I can't stay on track! I do well until the evening and then something possesses me and I just don't stop eating until I am uncomfortable and full!:puke: I just don't understand. I need to restart. I don't want to lose all the progress I have made. I have already lost 1/3 of that progress. I just can't figure it out. I will have to muscle through as always but I am so distressed with that stupid scale number... and what it means: that I ate crap and am being bad to my body. sigh
Otherwise life is good and I am happy being married and gearing up for the semester to start. sigh.
Just don't know how to get that motivation back and it's hard to post here when I am doing so badly. I feel guilty. My diary is really neglected. I started it months ago and it only has 5 pages!!
I need a kick in the booty! Tommorow is my 30th birthday so tonight me and hubby are going out for sushi. Yay lowfat food but I eat a lot of it!:willy_nilly::willy_nilly: Next week when school starts maybe the routine will help me.
 
A bit of a break

Hi all,
So I am taking a break from this site. As much as I adore the ppl I have met here I am feeling very redundant here. I needed something new. My friend turned me on to a site called buddyslim.com. I thought I would try that for awhile. It's like a myspace for weight conscience people. I just needed a change. I felt like I was beating a dead horse here. I gained 20lbs over the holidays and ended up at 177. I am working to control my eating again and my goal is to get into the 160's by the end of January. So far it's good and bad. I have an amazing day and then I screw it up. Just need to figure out my calories. I am aiming for 1,500- 1,800 with no crap consumption. It seems to keep the headaches at bay and give me enough food to feel semi satisfied.
I am sure I will be back. If I do I will start a new diary for sure.
Hope you all are doing well and see you around:D
 
I understand ya 100%!!I thought od taking a break from do to some NOTY SO nice people always saying negative "STUPID" things that I do instead of the possitive.I have made a ton of friends here that know I will always be there for them,but MISHI I am so aggervated with how I am treated over PETTY things like "SPELLING" yeah I had the worse childhood moved out at 15 started work at 15(was aloud back in the day to work @ 15) so yeah my spelling isn't the best but does that make me a BAD person?
I also stuck up for a freind that was being talked to like a DOG by a member that actually posted "PORN" here and I reported it to a NON HELPFUL MOD"that didn't do squat but say thats why you use the block on here WTF me and my son was done exsposed to some NASTY PORN!!!
OK I will message later anyway I ahppy your back on track and found the support you are looking for I am always here for you no matter what site you pop up on lol!!HUGGGGGGGGGGGS TAMMY
 
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