Mishi's Last Fifteen

mishi

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So this is it. My brand spankin' new diary! I have been in a bad place recently. I have found it so hard to keep myself on track! The last 15 pounds until my goal I have been working on for 5 months already and I need to shake myself up and get going on losing that weight. I am getting married August 8th of 08 and I really want to look my best in that dress. I also want to feel good for myself and move into a matainance mode which is easier for me... ok I say it's easy but I have never been at 145. The calories need to be less than I was used and I really need to focus on eating better! I am trying to make exercise a daily habit but I have such a hard time because I am so busy. I work full time as a teacher and I have a son who I love spending every second with:) Then there is my wonderful fiance! There is so much in my life and making priorities can be hard. I am getting used to juggling my time and staying focused. I have a fitday and I am trying to post more often as it really helped me last January. FitDay.com - Diet and Fitness journal for acanthusbloom
Also here is before and during pics:)
http://weight-loss.fitness.com/before-after-between/7588-before-during-no-after-yet.html

And last but not least my old diary. It is so important to remember where I have been and that even with my frusturations right now I have accomplished so much! Much more than I ever thought I could when I was 240 lbs and watching infomercials and thinking that I would never, ever be able to lose 10, 15lbs and definatly not the 80 + I needed to lose. Well here I am 80lbs lighter and I know it is my negative thoughts that can hold me back. I just have to commit and then stick with it. Being a skinnier me is definatly worth it!!
http://weight-loss.fitness.com/weight-loss-diary/7436-mishis-adventures.html

So this is my new diary and though I am still struggling I have not lost the desire to get to my goal!
Stay tuned for updates;)
 
This is an amazing transformation. When I start to feel my discipline wavering, all I need to do is look at some of these before & after pix to get my groove back.

You should be really proud of how far you've come. You can LOSE that extra 15. You just have to find a way off of that plateau you've hit. I'm sure some of the folks here will have suggestions about how to do that, whether it is a short fast or more exercise or going low carb for a week, etc. That extra 15 may feel impossible -- and it may take 3 or 4 months -- but you can make it happen.
 
Mishi, Girl you look great and you have come a very long way. I can understand however your frustrations with wanting to look good in your wedding dress. I never had a formal wedding but dh and I were talking yesterday about maybe doing a renewal ceremony next year on our anniversary. Which means finding a dress although probably not white but doing the whole dress thing with family and friends there. so I can totally understand wanting to look great for your big day. I think you look great now even without getting the last 15 lbs off that you want. I can't wait to be that close to my goal. Keep up the great work.

Heather
 
Mishi,
Hello and congrats on starting over I mean OVER over
to kick those last 15 lbs!If anyone can do it ,girl you can.I have wanted
to start a new diary to but didn't know if the OLD one get's eleted or how that works.I really want to follow in your footstep's,you weighed about the same as I did and you totally went all the way execpet the last 15 lbs you want to lose,me on the other hand still sitting here with the 35-40 lbs that
I have been wanting to lose since this time last year.I am totally going back on track and going to read up in your diary on foods,tips,ect,you so motivate me at times when I am down and look at ya girl give yourself a hand because you earned it!Have a nice day and GL with your new diary tammy:hug2::hug2:
 
Will Power works!

I just have to say that when I put my mind to it and do what I need to do I lose the weight. For the last 4 days I have eaten how I am supposed to (right now my goal is 1400-1600 calories of healthy food) and I have exercised for 3 days and my weight went from 162 to 159. I know my weight bounces around but it goes to show if I can just stay strong I can get where I want to be. I think my issue (one of many anyway;)) is that I get done with a good week and it has been hard to stay good so I relax and slide. Then I mess myself up. I just need to stay strong until it becomes a habit! It's easy to know what to do but so hard sometimes to do it you know?:rolleyes:
Lagniappe- thank you!! It is just a matter of focusing and not letting myself slip like I have:) I don't know if a jump start is what I need. I am wary of anything that makes weight drop off quickly. I am hoping for a 2lb a week loss so that it can be more permanant.. I hope! Thank you for visiting me:)
Hi Heather!- That sounds really cool! Renewing your vows and getting the chance to get all "gussied" up would be fun:D I am one of those who likes dressing up for whatever reason I can find! I figure I have 10 months... which is a good and a bad thing: some of me thinks that I have 10 months so I can relax... that can lead to trouble and I don't want to be busting my butt with only a few weeks to go. I would rather get to where I need now and just maintain for 6 months or so;) Either way I can't wait for the wedding. We have nothing planned though. Our photographer just quit and we can't find a place that suits both our needs for the ceremony let alone the reception! These are things we really need to get ready!! Yikes!:eek:
Anywho... it will be what it is and at least no matter what I am marrying the most wonderful guy!! :beating:
Tammy- You have always been here for me! Out of all of the people here you have always made it a point to stop by and say hello. We definatly have been on some ups and downs. You have already lost 15lbs from where you were and you are doing well. Slow but sure as they say... "they" should be punched for that! lol;) screw patience!!! but we will both get to where we want to be! I am sure of it and every time we mess up it's a learning experience and gives us more and more of the idea of what we can and can't do. You should start a new diary! I don't think the old ones get erased... at least for awhile. They just slip back into diary never land;) we can just go post in the old one every few months and that should keep them active. I just needed a new place. The old one was getting sort of negative!
Thank you all for visiting. I hope we all have a good day today!
Take care
 
Bad Girl!!

Ohhh I am such a rascal. I knew if I cooked corn bread it would be a temptation. I guess I can't hold my will power to just one piece.... and apparently like dominoes once I pigged out on cornbread with honey butter I went on to have some ice cream.... lots of ice cream. Low cal of course but in those portions who cares! lol So yesterday ended up bad. Lots and lots of calories! About 3000:( and no exercise because I am slackass. I am just tired when Wednesday and Thursday come around I have very little energy. So today I will do well and all the cornbread in the house is gone *gulp* lol so there is nothing to worry about there. There is that pesky ice cream but I should be able to hold strong... I guess we'll find out. So scale said 161 today... and it was 159 yesterday... hmmmmmm. I am hoping I will be below 160 for the weigh ins!!! I hope you all are having a good week! Thank god mine is over. I need to pack, do laundry and put flooring down in the new house. I can't believe I am moving at the end of the month. I am excited but nervous! So much to do. I have never moved out in the middle of a semester like this! Wish me luck all:)
 
Hey mishi, we are planning on the friday the 31st of october next year. We just have to wait till feb to make sure our venue is avabile.... lol. Yeah i cant wait to try on all these gorge dresses, and i cant wait to see my groom all punked up... droolsss.... Sorry bout that, thanks for popping past my dairy and sorry bout the late reply, got sick :(
 
Mishi,
I hope your weekend is going as planned!
I just wanted to let you know between you and cerella I am was
convinced that I needed a new start to.I have slipped up so many times if
you read my diary alot of it is ooops oops ooops I need more positives and more progress and the last few months I haven't gotten anywhere so I started over to and I am going to start making progress and big changes!
Girl I don't think you realize how much you help me when I read your menue's exersices and how you pick yourself right ack up and the big 1 when you do have that ice cream you don't turn it into a 2 week binge fest like I do.So anyway heres to making progress and meeting out goals!:hug2: Tammy
 
Hi Mishi, you look so amazing in your pictures! You made such a quick transformation, you should be so proud :).

I have the exact same problem as you, I end up eating a lot after a good work week and then I blow all my calorie deficits down to nothing. This cycling stinks but it seems to happen every friggin week! I start over ever single Monday, but hey, at least we keep trying right?!
 
Remodeling

Our house that is. It's so busy on the weekends. We painted my sons room and have been working on the flooring. I can't wait until it's done! I move in Nov.1st. I am excited but things keep happening. Like the roof leaked and flooded the master bath and all the drywall had to be ripped out and redone. Yesterday a leak in the plumbing sprang up. At least the walls are still down so we can reach it. sigh. Eating has been ok. It is really hard to focus on good eating when your tired, grumpy, overworked and hungry but I am doing my best. I just have to let go a little bit and realize I can't do all at once. I just have to try not to back pedal too much. Yesterday I had a huge plate of Teriyaki chicken bowl with an egg roll then a little bit of fries with a jr. frosty from Wendy's... then I opted for Dairy Queen later that night. Not great food and calories but because that's all I had (+ a coffee that morning) my calories were around 2000. Not that bad and I was working a lot of the day. So I will do my best to stay on track.
I am happy though. I am trying to be comfortable where I am. This is actually my goal weight before I started thinking I could go lower. So I made it.... I think I need to be somewhat comfortable before I can move on. I know I have a goal of 145 by December 29th but I am relaxing. If I don't reach it that's ok. Maintaining at this point is really important. I have the rest of my life to get to that weight but it won't work if I stress myself out so badly I gain a lot back. So just breathe.... It's a good line to remember.
Tammy- totally! That is why I started a new diary. I was on this negative track and there was so much "I suck", "I messed up", etc. I just want to be positive no matter what happens. Either way I am happier than I was when I was at 240! I am glad to have you here:) You help me stay on track and know at least someone checks on me! :hug2: :) Thank you so much!
Blancita- Thank you! It is neat to see the pics side by side! It keeps me remembering how far I have come when I get discouraged. You are totally right. We just have to keep going and know that with perseverance we will get there. If losing weight was easy there would be a lot less overweight people in the world! It's work no matter what and it doesn't end but boy the payoffs are excellent! :)
Mikey I hope you are feeling better. Yeah finding a venue sucks! We still haven't found one but I will just let it all fall into place... I am sure it will eventually:rolleyes: lol
You all take care and have a wonderful weekend! Thank you for dropping by!
 
hey girlie.

i like your reasoning for starting the new diary:) I checked out your before and after pics and i must say WOW.

id never seen them before and i applaud you girlie. You've worked so hard and really transformed your body, awesome awesome job.

Hope your doing ok :)
 
Howdy Mishi,
Congrats on MAINTAINING girl that is so tough and your doing it I made it to 175 before and said to myself I am semi comfy with this BUT look how well I maintained back up close to 190 again grrrr so congrats on maintaing you have great control!Have a nice day Tammy
 
It's all good

Sigh. I am up in weight. I was up to almost 165 and now I am back down to 163. I need to change my ticker but because my time is limited I thought I would post instead. I know why the weight is going up. No exercise and crappy food. If I am going to get a handle on it I have to resist temptation and do what I know is successful. I went to the gym yesterday and it felt great. I am going to get onto some sort of routine. I move in a few weeks and after all that I will be able to settle down and get into a routine. I have so much to do and at the very least I can keep my calories down. I have been eating around 3,000 cals a day of bad crap. It is going to stop and I am going to watch what I eat. That ice cream is not worth the sad flab on my arms and legs. I want my pants to be falling off again and I want to see more tone. So I am working on it. It is hard even to maintain. It isn't just a "whew, I am there... now please pass the sundae" it is a constant struggle. Sometimes I wonder if I am up for this for the rest of my life but what is the alturnative? I don't want to be overweight and feel yucky. I definatly feel better when I eat well and exercise. So I am going to come back. I haven't fallen terribly far. Just have to stay strong and do what I can for now.
Hi Faye and Tammy! Thanks for visiting. I hope I will have more time to post in November! sigh:)
 
Howdy mishi,
Don't sweat it girl you know what your capable of
doing and you will get job done! I do that with my ticker to BUT as soon
as I changed it to what the scale said 189 it has totally opened my eyes
and got me back on track.You will do it and going to the gym like you did
yeasterday and getting that feeling great feeling back is all it takes,I will
post more later gotta run my daughter to cheer,Tammy:hug2:
 
Please let it end!

lol I can't wait to move. I dream about it when my mind wanders. Only 2.5 weeks left... not that I am counting. Diet and exercise in on hold until then. I am trying to keep it together but I just fold and I have screwed up several times already. My weight is around 163 this morning. At least it's not 165 like it was this weekend. I am sure I will bring it down. I just have to work with my schedule. There is no time for exercise and I am so exhausted everyday. I have these huge dark circles under my eyes and I just look drained:( but I know once the house is done and I have my stuff moved and I am checked out of my apartment I will be ok. If I am working on the weekends at least I will be home working! Then I will jump back into things. I will be free to do video workouts in the am because my fiancee won't be with me:( Because it's his mom's house he will only be staying over a few times a week and that will most likely be on the weekends. So things are moving along. I am sad that all my progress over the summer was lost but I will get it back. I just don't know how to effectivly balance exercise and diet. I am thinking I really need to invest into a trainer or even weight watchers to help me get a good routine going. I am looking for one I can live with and where I don't feel starved. I know I should be surfing around here more for that info but I just don't have time:( hence the lonely diary;)
Of course Tammy you always come visit. I stopped by your diary today and you are doing well! I am so proud that you are meeting your goals everyday!! Yay!!
I will too. Just wait:D lol.
I hope you all (ha ha) are having a great week!
I will be off and on as I have time of course:)
 
Howdy Mishi,,
I hear ya you need to take time and get things packed and ready and it is stressfull sometimes to think about diet and exersices when you have a TON of things that need done daily.I will behere for ya when your ready.You know your maintaining thats what I was going to do
when I get to a happy place like 5 lbs hop back on just never let it get out of control like the old days.I wish you the best you are a true friend!Have an nice Thursday Tammy
 
I forgot to stop by your new diary! so congrats on being within your last 15! And good luck with them move of course. I hope you find a schedule that works well for you!

- Brandy
 
A little honesty

God it hurt but I finally changed my ticker. Stress eating sucks and it is so not an excuse but it's like I am taken over when I made up my mind to eat what I wasn't supposed to and I just mechanically stuff things down. Cake and ice cream have been my killer. Darn Halloween Carnival ;) I know it is my fault and I do so well during the day but I think I am having a hard time with cravings and cutting down on calories because I am hungry when I get home and I tend to fold easily.
However, we are moving in this weekend. The house still isn't done but we are going to work around it. The trim still needs to be put in, and the doors. Otherwise the floor is in and the kitchen counter and sink and bathroom sink are in. I don't know if any of you have remodeled but it seems like if one thing you think will be easy doesn't work then 5 other things break! It's awful! The plumber was very sweet to come out quickly to fix the pipe the initial plumber did a crappy job on and we could turn the water back on (yay potty!) lol. So tonight I pack and the little one cleans his room. Tommorow we get some trim done and Saturday and Sunday we move stuff over. It's going to be nuts and dirty. I like clean spaces. I am cluttered person but I like things to be clean under that clutter and this place is so dusty and apparently will be that way for awhile (the curse of a newly built house). So there will be lots of cleaning and even work being done while we are there. The master bedroom needs to be completed and trim will take more than Friday. Also I have to tile the backsplash in the kitchen. Sigh. The pros- we have great cable. Honey got a good deal. Yay TLC, HGTV, and any other mind numbing cable I will get my hands on lol. I watched this obesity clinic thing on TLC last night and it was awful. The people were there for help and kept sneaking fast food (had to be delivered of course) and they kept making excuses and those excuses sound the same as mine. They really couldn't control themselves. It was amazing to see just how bad it could get. One guy weighed 780lbs! They had to rebuild the door to get him in the room! One girl who was only 26 died of heart failure... It scared me. There is a line that is so easy to cross for me with food. I can feel that sort of manic eating pattern and if I just let myself go I could easily be there. Just have to keep fighting the good fight.
HOpe you all have a good weekend. I will not get to post I am sure until after the move. 166.4 today. Going down but I have lacked the willpower to really stick to a diet that will get me back to the 150's. There is time. I don't want to be in a hurry!
Take care y'all. Brandy and Tammy thanks as always for visiting! :hug2:
 
:hug2: Howdy Mishi,
Just call me QUEEN clutter ot PACKRAT or both
my basement has turned in to a major clothes disaster,kids clothes
of all sizes I have bags of clothes that will fit my oldest son in like
5 years (he is lil for his age lol)then I have his old clothes for Hayden
when he gets that age then girls clothes galore then ugly clothes
the forgotten clothes the out of style c,lothes the where in the FU@@
clothes did these come from and it has cursed my bed room as well
garbage bag after bag,bins,it drives me nuttz I just don't know where
to start!??
Anyway remodling is alot of work and you have to eat when you get the time,you'll find the willpower,you told me that and it has finally sunk in and I did well for the time being!
Hope you enjoy your weekend and I totally love your costume when you get to
your size 3 you must pass it on lol!Tammy
 
Holy Crap!

Well big news in Mishi-land! The wedding has been pushed up... a lot! and no as far as I know I am not pregnant;) lol. Instead of next August we are going to get married December 22nd... 8 weeks from now. Very small wedding in our house and I am going to go to Dillards to get the dress. I am getting married!!!! For the first time I am excited about it. The stress is off for the big wedding. I am still moving however and that stress is in full effect for one more week. I can't wait until it's done. I am so tired. This weekend was spent going up and down stairs with heavy boxes and furniture. I ate well and dropped 3 lbs this weekend:) So I have 8 weeks to get in shape as much as I can. Well 9 weeks but this week doesn't count. Moving up and down stairs is as good as it gets for now. I am excited and it's going to be busy but there is nothing new with that right? Tammy you rock and I am always so happy to see you around here. and HA!!! size 3. yeah right. I think I would look unhealhty at that point. skinny stick with a big ol butt:p lol I am so excited for you and your 178! yay! I can't wait to see the 175 and lower. You are doing great!!
Hope you all have a good week!
 
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