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I am very excited! We are finally going to Harry Potter!! I had tickets to see the midnight showing on the day it came out but that was when my little one got sick. I was still going to take him because he was feeling ok but my boyfriend reminded me that he was really contagious and that the other movie patrons wouldn't like to get sick
. lol I can't believe I don't think of these things. So I got a refund on my tickets and we finally get to go today! I took my son back to the doctor yesterday because even though his rash was going away it was coming back or getting darker in a few places. She said it was fine and he wasn't contagious and he could go outside and play and we could resume a "normal" life. Thank FREAKING god!!!!!! I was so sick of feeling cooped up and though my house is really clean I missed the gym more than anything! So today I went to a dance aerobics class and then swam for 20 minutes while my son had his lesson I am so glad to be back on track. Yesterday I caved to my cravings and had 5 cookies and milk= a whopping 1300 calories!!! for the whole day I was around 2400. Apparently that will be my high day for the week But today I am doing well and I did well last week so I am happy with what I have done. Weight is very stubbornly between 161 and 159. I am reading a lot in Sara's (Lukewarm) diary about self sabatouge and it is interesting. I know I use food to deal with emotions. When I am happy I want to go out to eat to celebrate. When I am sad or stressed I want ice cream to soothe. There are lots of times I use food to balance some sort of out of whack emotion. It is a bad habit and oh so hard to break!!! There is a lot of self discovery going on right now. I think there has to be. I am now at a stage where I don't consider myself "fat" anymore... but if I am not "fat" what am I? I don't feel "right". I don't feel good about myself. I look in the mirror at the same jiggly places that I have watched shrink but that won't go away and I keep thinking I haven't done enough. It is so hard right now to keep pushing forward. I am not seeing any loss. It's been months since I have seen any. My body has firmed a bit but I am still seeing those jiggly places and I am too focused on them. I realized this about a month ago and I have been working to change my focus. The good news is that it's working! I have changed my eating to include more calories on most days. I have kept up with my exercise and really enjoy my workouts! Its the getting there that always seems to be the problem I feel a bit better about myself focusing on the good aspects ( I am liking how I can see my hip bones) and I am trying to focus on things outside of my little world of weight loss. I want to get out more and hang out with my friends, talk about things other than weight loss. lol I think I need a life. I am such a homebody. My boyfriend gets home from work and he likes to have me there. and I like being there to spend time with the family! However, I don't get the time with my friends because they are only free after work when my bf is home. It is a hard thing to juggle and I always feel like I am shorting someone. HOwever, that will get better when I go back to work... then I wont' have time to spend with anyone!!! LOL!! I am looking forward to work and dreading it at the same time. I am excited to do fitness stuff with the kids. I swear I should go back to school and become a PE teacher. I think I would love that!!! I have been watching Shaq's big challenge. It is amazing how resistant to being healthy the kids are. I think adults are the same way... the kids are just more honest and forthright in their rebellion! I compare Biggest Loser where the adults usually kick ass!! However they get a cash prize. It gives me a lot to think about if I wanted to start a fitness club for the highschoolers. What would motivate them to come? What would motivate them to carry on after they left school? I am excited for the opportunity to study this and try it with my kids.
Hi Tammy!! Thanks for posting! This month has been hard! I am just thinking it is the self sabatouge thing! I am a lot more comfortable being fat because that is what I am used to!! I am hoping just riding it out and trying to be comfortable in my new weight will work!
I didn't google the little one's rash. I never think to do things like that. The doctor told me that it would go away in a week or so and that is what I went on. It started on his arms and looked almost like hives but it wasn't all raised up like hives is. I have no idea where he got it. It spread to his legs, then his back, belly and lastly his face. It was a little itchy but he was very good about not scratching. As he went through the week the rash changed to this zombie-like mottled rash. I have never seen a rash before like that. That is when I took him to the doctor. I wasn't sure what the change meant but she said that the pattern was definately a viral pattern and it was on the way out... it had faded from his face, back and tummy. Very strange.
That's crazy about the bumps on your daughter! From mosquitoes! I get crazy bites from them too but not that big! It is amazing what the little ones go through that I take for granted because I have already been through it! They have all these virus's to build antibodies too! It's crazy!
Thank you Tammy for the well wishes. I am feeling better. I swear exercise makes me feel so good. I can't understand how I can be so lazy about it when the outcome is so good I hope you are doing well! Hope you all are doing well and having a good week!
I am very excited! We are finally going to Harry Potter!! I had tickets to see the midnight showing on the day it came out but that was when my little one got sick. I was still going to take him because he was feeling ok but my boyfriend reminded me that he was really contagious and that the other movie patrons wouldn't like to get sick
. lol I can't believe I don't think of these things. So I got a refund on my tickets and we finally get to go today! I took my son back to the doctor yesterday because even though his rash was going away it was coming back or getting darker in a few places. She said it was fine and he wasn't contagious and he could go outside and play and we could resume a "normal" life. Thank FREAKING god!!!!!! I was so sick of feeling cooped up and though my house is really clean I missed the gym more than anything! So today I went to a dance aerobics class and then swam for 20 minutes while my son had his lesson I am so glad to be back on track. Yesterday I caved to my cravings and had 5 cookies and milk= a whopping 1300 calories!!! for the whole day I was around 2400. Apparently that will be my high day for the week But today I am doing well and I did well last week so I am happy with what I have done. Weight is very stubbornly between 161 and 159. I am reading a lot in Sara's (Lukewarm) diary about self sabatouge and it is interesting. I know I use food to deal with emotions. When I am happy I want to go out to eat to celebrate. When I am sad or stressed I want ice cream to soothe. There are lots of times I use food to balance some sort of out of whack emotion. It is a bad habit and oh so hard to break!!! There is a lot of self discovery going on right now. I think there has to be. I am now at a stage where I don't consider myself "fat" anymore... but if I am not "fat" what am I? I don't feel "right". I don't feel good about myself. I look in the mirror at the same jiggly places that I have watched shrink but that won't go away and I keep thinking I haven't done enough. It is so hard right now to keep pushing forward. I am not seeing any loss. It's been months since I have seen any. My body has firmed a bit but I am still seeing those jiggly places and I am too focused on them. I realized this about a month ago and I have been working to change my focus. The good news is that it's working! I have changed my eating to include more calories on most days. I have kept up with my exercise and really enjoy my workouts! Its the getting there that always seems to be the problem I feel a bit better about myself focusing on the good aspects ( I am liking how I can see my hip bones) and I am trying to focus on things outside of my little world of weight loss. I want to get out more and hang out with my friends, talk about things other than weight loss. lol I think I need a life. I am such a homebody. My boyfriend gets home from work and he likes to have me there. and I like being there to spend time with the family! However, I don't get the time with my friends because they are only free after work when my bf is home. It is a hard thing to juggle and I always feel like I am shorting someone. HOwever, that will get better when I go back to work... then I wont' have time to spend with anyone!!! LOL!! I am looking forward to work and dreading it at the same time. I am excited to do fitness stuff with the kids. I swear I should go back to school and become a PE teacher. I think I would love that!!! I have been watching Shaq's big challenge. It is amazing how resistant to being healthy the kids are. I think adults are the same way... the kids are just more honest and forthright in their rebellion! I compare Biggest Loser where the adults usually kick ass!! However they get a cash prize. It gives me a lot to think about if I wanted to start a fitness club for the highschoolers. What would motivate them to come? What would motivate them to carry on after they left school? I am excited for the opportunity to study this and try it with my kids. Hi Tammy!! Thanks for posting! This month has been hard! I am just thinking it is the self sabatouge thing! I am a lot more comfortable being fat because that is what I am used to!! I am hoping just riding it out and trying to be comfortable in my new weight will work!
I didn't google the little one's rash. I never think to do things like that.
The doctor told me that it would go away in a week or so and that is what I went on. It started on his arms and looked almost like hives but it wasn't all raised up like hives is. I have no idea where he got it. It spread to his legs, then his back, belly and lastly his face. It was a little itchy but he was very good about not scratching. As he went through the week the rash changed to this zombie-like mottled rash. I have never seen a rash before like that. That is when I took him to the doctor. I wasn't sure what the change meant but she said that the pattern was definately a viral pattern and it was on the way out... it had faded from his face, back and tummy. Very strange. That's crazy about the bumps on your daughter! From mosquitoes! I get crazy bites from them too but not that big! It is amazing what the little ones go through that I take for granted because I have already been through it! They have all these virus's to build antibodies too! It's crazy!
Thank you Tammy for the well wishes. I am feeling better. I swear exercise makes me feel so good. I can't understand how I can be so lazy about it when the outcome is so good
I hope you are doing well! Hope you all are doing well and having a good week!
niapage
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Wow I thought I post longgggggg post's hahaha...I see your back on track
and your lil one is doing better.Yay have fun seeing Harry Potter I never sat through 1 of the movies yet but I evntually will.I am going Friday with hubby to see I now proniunce you Chuck and LARRY,I love adam Sandler he's hilarious and the guy from King and Queens.
Have a nice healthy day and by the way isn't it hard to believe 5 cookies and milk total that in cals and to think before we look at lables I used to eat 1/2 a pack + at a time I know I atleast would eat 10-12 oreos and whole fat milk sometimes chochlate milk eeeeeeek.
Ok heres to a gr8 day
and your lil one is doing better.Yay have fun seeing Harry Potter I never sat through 1 of the movies yet but I evntually will.I am going Friday with hubby to see I now proniunce you Chuck and LARRY,I love adam Sandler he's hilarious and the guy from King and Queens.
Have a nice healthy day and by the way isn't it hard to believe 5 cookies and milk total that in cals and to think before we look at lables I used to eat 1/2 a pack + at a time I know I atleast would eat 10-12 oreos and whole fat milk sometimes chochlate milk eeeeeeek.
Ok heres to a gr8 day
2Skinny
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Hi Mish; I saw Harry Potter last Saturday and loved it. Man that Professor Umbrage is some biotch! I was surprised to hear some people say they didn't like the movie. I thought the visuals were more stunning in this one. It's cool JK Rowling picks a different director each time. I think that's smart.
You'll pull the food diet and exercise plan together Mish. There's a time for everything and you're shoring up the desire in your heart.
You'll pull the food diet and exercise plan together Mish. There's a time for everything and you're shoring up the desire in your heart.
mishi
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Slacker!
It is so hard to post recently! Some of it is time to post. There isn't a lot of time to sit and type my thoughts out as I have had lots of thoughts running through my head!! I also have had a hard time posting when I do badly on my eating. Last weekend I ate almost a gallon of ice cream!!! It was slow churned so the damage wasn't terrible but it was bad enough. Like 7 servings a few nights in a row and mixed with milk! It was just like I used to when I just felt this void in me!! I has been several weeks since I have seriously been to the gym and I just feel myself slipping. I have been thinking a lot about the self sabatouging that sometimes happens as a person loses weight and gets closer to their goal and I feel that happening to me. I am just tired and it is such hard work to keep going!!! However if I want to get to my goal then I am going to need to get back to being as disciplined as I used to be and get back on track. My weight has been staying around the same and I am attributing that to losing some muscle from the lack of working out. I have been fighting massive cravings and just stressing over everything!!
So today I am starting anew. I always say it isn't how many times you fall off but how many times you get back on that really count. I am back on and determined to get back to the routine I was on. I still want to bounce my calories but I want to bounce them at a lower range. Letting myself get higher calorie days just threw me off and I take too many liberties with those days. I am going to try to eat an apple before meals so that the empty feeling doesn't cause me to over eat. I really don't like apples and they usually make me sick before I finish them so this plan should work well lol. I did it today and it worked very well. I had an apple for breakfest (then went to my class which was a very bad idea!! I could feel my energy just go away a little past the halfway mark of my class. It was one of the weight lifting classes that really works your booty off and she was doing some great circuts that really kept my heart rate up and kicked ass for the muscle building!). So mental note is that I want to down one of those great South Beach protein bars before doing the classes if I haven't had much to eat. Tommorow I am planning to do the water aerobics class so I have time afterwards to take my little one to the zoo He is back to his healthy self thank god!! I am glad his virus didn't get worse. My boyfriend is out of town until Thursday. I am beside myself with being lonely. I am not used to him being gone. He hasn't been away from me since last November!!! I miss him a lot and the worse is going to bed alone. Sigh. I am just a wimpy love muffin he he he a delerious wimpy love muffin! I am so tired these days and can't figure out why. I know my sleep schedule is messed up. I went to the Harry Potter book launch at midnight on Friday night. I ended staying up until 6am reading the book and then for most of the next day and then I had to wake up early to take my boyfriend on Sunday to the airport. I am just exhausted but I did read the whole damn book in like 13 hours and it was very good. Yay!!! I just love Harry Potter!
Anna I have to disagree! I didn't like this movie much at all. I think it is awsome that there is different directors for each movie! I like to see the different styles but there was so much missing and then several parts were completely changed: like Cho ratting them out instead of Marietta... I am such a die hard fan and minor changes don't bother me but there were some major changes that just ruined it for me. That and I think they could've done a lot more with the department of mysteries at the ministry. sigh. Still will buy the movie though and all the others they make. I hope they get a move on so Daniel isn't 32 by the time the last movies is ready to be filmed he he he.
Tammy- Ha ha I am just so full of crap recently that posting tends to get longer winded for me that is what I get for missing posts lol. I can't wait to see Chuck and Larry! My boyfriend doesn't really like Adam Sandler... or so he told me when we started going out and there was one movie we watched with him in it... can't remember which one and he had to admit it wasn't that bad Just have to have that stupid sense of humer he he he.
So today's calories were at 1267 and I burned 413 total from my class and from taking my son and the dog for a walk tonight. Not to bad. I am not sure fitday is accurate on the calories though. I think I burned more during the class but better to aim to low than to estimate too high right? I hope you all have a wonderful night and thanks for sticking with me even though I don't post as often as I should. I will try for shorter mini updates. I can see my posts navigating from diet stuff to everything I will try to reel it in a bit more!! night all!
It is so hard to post recently! Some of it is time to post. There isn't a lot of time to sit and type my thoughts out as I have had lots of thoughts running through my head!! I also have had a hard time posting when I do badly on my eating. Last weekend I ate almost a gallon of ice cream!!! It was slow churned so the damage wasn't terrible but it was bad enough. Like 7 servings a few nights in a row and mixed with milk! It was just like I used to when I just felt this void in me!! I has been several weeks since I have seriously been to the gym and I just feel myself slipping. I have been thinking a lot about the self sabatouging that sometimes happens as a person loses weight and gets closer to their goal and I feel that happening to me. I am just tired and it is such hard work to keep going!!! However if I want to get to my goal then I am going to need to get back to being as disciplined as I used to be and get back on track. My weight has been staying around the same and I am attributing that to losing some muscle from the lack of working out. I have been fighting massive cravings and just stressing over everything!!
So today I am starting anew. I always say it isn't how many times you fall off but how many times you get back on that really count. I am back on and determined to get back to the routine I was on. I still want to bounce my calories but I want to bounce them at a lower range. Letting myself get higher calorie days just threw me off and I take too many liberties with those days. I am going to try to eat an apple before meals so that the empty feeling doesn't cause me to over eat. I really don't like apples and they usually make me sick before I finish them so this plan should work well lol. I did it today and it worked very well. I had an apple for breakfest (then went to my class which was a very bad idea!! I could feel my energy just go away a little past the halfway mark of my class. It was one of the weight lifting classes that really works your booty off and she was doing some great circuts that really kept my heart rate up and kicked ass for the muscle building!). So mental note is that I want to down one of those great South Beach protein bars before doing the classes if I haven't had much to eat. Tommorow I am planning to do the water aerobics class so I have time afterwards to take my little one to the zoo
He is back to his healthy self thank god!! I am glad his virus didn't get worse. My boyfriend is out of town until Thursday. I am beside myself with being lonely. I am not used to him being gone. He hasn't been away from me since last November!!! I miss him a lot and the worse is going to bed alone. Sigh. I am just a wimpy love muffin he he he a delerious wimpy love muffin! I am so tired these days and can't figure out why. I know my sleep schedule is messed up. I went to the Harry Potter book launch at midnight on Friday night. I ended staying up until 6am reading the book and then for most of the next day and then I had to wake up early to take my boyfriend on Sunday to the airport. I am just exhausted but I did read the whole damn book in like 13 hours and it was very good. Yay!!! I just love Harry Potter!Anna I have to disagree! I didn't like this movie much at all. I think it is awsome that there is different directors for each movie! I like to see the different styles but there was so much missing and then several parts were completely changed: like Cho ratting them out instead of Marietta... I am such a die hard fan and minor changes don't bother me but there were some major changes that just ruined it for me. That and I think they could've done a lot more with the department of mysteries at the ministry. sigh. Still will buy the movie though and all the others they make. I hope they get a move on so Daniel isn't 32 by the time the last movies is ready to be filmed
he he he.Tammy- Ha ha I am just so full of crap recently that posting tends to get longer winded for me
that is what I get for missing posts lol. I can't wait to see Chuck and Larry! My boyfriend doesn't really like Adam Sandler... or so he told me when we started going out and there was one movie we watched with him in it... can't remember which one and he had to admit it wasn't that bad Just have to have that stupid sense of humer he he he.So today's calories were at 1267 and I burned 413 total from my class and from taking my son and the dog for a walk tonight. Not to bad. I am not sure fitday is accurate on the calories though. I think I burned more during the class but better to aim to low than to estimate too high right?
I hope you all have a wonderful night and thanks for sticking with me even though I don't post as often as I should. I will try for shorter mini updates. I can see my posts navigating from diet stuff to everything I will try to reel it in a bit more!! night all!
lukewarm
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Hey Mishi, I hear you on the self-sabotage. I really hope you will post a little bit more often, it is so nice to keep on track by doing so. I think you have to stop psyching yourself out and realize that you're very close and if by reminding yourself of that every day, maybe you can keep your goals in mind. I want you to stop it with the ice cream, which I KNOW is incredibly hard, but it's just not helping you! A lower calorie bounce may be a good idea because I know that if I'm not in the right state of mind when allowing myself to have more than usual, I get freaked out and binge because it's difficult to have restraint. You CAN DO THIS. 
niapage
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Howdy Mish,
I have been on a bad ice cream kick lol I did the mikl and ice cream and made my own GRaters shakes at home Fri and Sat then I hooked the kids up with the rest because I can't go on eating those again I used to make myself 2-3 a day thats basically my 1200 cals so can you imagine adding the meals in geeeesh.
Sorry Harry P wasn't as good as you planned it to be my lil 15 year old sis is a Harry P fanatic.I loved Chuck in larry it had alot of crazy funny in it lol,there is an ADAM SNADLER movie many people probally forgot about that actually came out right before chuck and larry it is a tear jerker called RAIN OVER ME he loses his wife and 2-3 daughters on a plane accident and he tottally loses it it is so SAD a must watch movie.
Anyway I am glad your back on track and it gets hard writing well for me I am starting a new day it seems I say it alot which means I have been failing alot BUT as long as you keep getting back up and trying you will eventully meet your goals and succeed so I tell myself lol.Have fun with the water arobics classes...Tammy
I have been on a bad ice cream kick lol I did the mikl and ice cream and made my own GRaters shakes at home Fri and Sat then I hooked the kids up with the rest because I can't go on eating those again I used to make myself 2-3 a day thats basically my 1200 cals so can you imagine adding the meals in geeeesh.
Sorry Harry P wasn't as good as you planned it to be my lil 15 year old sis is a Harry P fanatic.I loved Chuck in larry it had alot of crazy funny in it lol,there is an ADAM SNADLER movie many people probally forgot about that actually came out right before chuck and larry it is a tear jerker called RAIN OVER ME he loses his wife and 2-3 daughters on a plane accident and he tottally loses it it is so SAD a must watch movie.
Anyway I am glad your back on track and it gets hard writing well for me I am starting a new day it seems I say it alot which means I have been failing alot BUT as long as you keep getting back up and trying you will eventully meet your goals and succeed so I tell myself lol.Have fun with the water arobics classes...Tammy
mishi
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Keepin' it short
Alright so I am going to make the short post I promised: Went to water aerobics today and was so sore from weight lifting yesterday that it was hard to move! I was uber tired all day. Not sure why I am so drained but it sucks! I took my son to the zoo for several hours which was very nice but I was still all drained during the day. It started to rain at the end of our trip which was wonderful and the heat went away Nice trip in all and he definatly enjoyed it I was able to keep my calories under control until tonight. My cravings kicked in and instead of dinner I was eating cereal and just would've eaten bowl after bowl and I was eyeing the half piece of cheesecake in the fridge when my friend came by to give me my tent back. Thank god for small favors!! It kept me from eating more cereal or cheesecake and now it is after 9 and I am refusing to eat after nine... so I will have some more water. Calories today are 1304 for the day. Not bad at all considering. Just have to get rid of these cravings as my will power is not there these days I was lucky but it could've been so much worse!!
Sara- completely agree about freaking out and over consuming on higher calorie days. I may not even bounce anymore because of the tendancy to fit too much crap in. I was tempted by ice cream at the zoo but I held strong!!
Tammy- right there with you on the ice cream. I sort of make a shake but in my bowl. I love the way the milk crystalizes when it hits the ice cream yum! RAIN OVER ME sounds interesting I will have to check it out!! I think it would be hard to see him in a serious role. I feel like I would just be waiting for a joke to crack. Same with David Scwimmer from friends (Ross). He was in the WW II movie and I just couldn't take him serious. However I do like Adam Sandler and it's nice to see other things he can do.
So I am going to try to get to bed a little earlier tonight. We will see if that helps with the sleep. I am going to get my hair cut tommorow after the aerobics class. I will take a pic. I am going to try for a small amount of bangs. I just want something new. I have been same ol forever it seems I am even going to try a side part!! wish me luck and you all have a wonderful night!
Alright so I am going to make the short post I promised: Went to water aerobics today and was so sore from weight lifting yesterday that it was hard to move! I was uber tired all day. Not sure why I am so drained but it sucks! I took my son to the zoo for several hours which was very nice but I was still all drained during the day. It started to rain at the end of our trip which was wonderful and the heat went away
Nice trip in all and he definatly enjoyed it I was able to keep my calories under control until tonight. My cravings kicked in and instead of dinner I was eating cereal and just would've eaten bowl after bowl and I was eyeing the half piece of cheesecake in the fridge when my friend came by to give me my tent back. Thank god for small favors!! It kept me from eating more cereal or cheesecake and now it is after 9 and I am refusing to eat after nine... so I will have some more water. Calories today are 1304 for the day. Not bad at all considering. Just have to get rid of these cravings as my will power is not there these days I was lucky but it could've been so much worse!!Sara- completely agree about freaking out and over consuming on higher calorie days. I may not even bounce anymore because of the tendancy to fit too much crap in. I was tempted by ice cream at the zoo but I held strong!!
Tammy- right there with you on the ice cream. I sort of make a shake but in my bowl. I love the way the milk crystalizes when it hits the ice cream
yum! RAIN OVER ME sounds interesting I will have to check it out!! I think it would be hard to see him in a serious role. I feel like I would just be waiting for a joke to crack. Same with David Scwimmer from friends (Ross). He was in the WW II movie and I just couldn't take him serious. However I do like Adam Sandler and it's nice to see other things he can do.So I am going to try to get to bed a little earlier tonight. We will see if that helps with the sleep. I am going to get my hair cut tommorow after the aerobics class. I will take a pic. I am going to try for a small amount of bangs. I just want something new. I have been same ol forever it seems
I am even going to try a side part!! wish me luck and you all have a wonderful night!
niapage
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Hi there can't wait to see the pic!!Goodluck tomorrow,also I had a minor slip up to I noticed when the rough gets going(stress)I get eating lol must make a note to do something else other than eat when I get OVERSTRESSED!!
Well G/F tomorrow is a NEW day and what are we going to do dusut our self off and get back up and do it again we will eventually succeed...I am off to bed and by the way TY for stopping by I have been bummmmmed
Tammy
Well G/F tomorrow is a NEW day and what are we going to do dusut our self off and get back up and do it again we will eventually succeed...I am off to bed and by the way TY for stopping by I have been bummmmmed
Tammy
mishi
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Sigh!
It is so hard to get here on a consistant basis these days. I only have a week and a half left of a vacation but honestly I have less as I need to get to work now. Since I have a new classroom I need to rip up the carpet and then get my stuff moved from my old school and get that classroom cleaned up. Still so much to do and I am stressing. My boyfriend came back into town last Thursday and I just dropped everything I was doing to spend time with him and my diet went out the window. I am still maintaining my weight but it's frusturating because I was doing so well and the scale started going down and then I just freak out and eat badly and it goes right back up. It is hovering around 159-160. I just need to stick to my eating. My boyfriends mom let me borrow Jillian Michaels book "Making the Cut" which is a 30 day diet and exercise routine to really sculpt yourself. I don't think I am at that point yet but the information is interesting... like how I process my food and which mixture of food is best for my body. It seems that I should be aiming for 30% fat, 30% protein and 40% carbs. I am going to try to eat less processed foods and try to stick to those numbers while keeping my cals around 1400. We shall see how it works. So far pretty disgruntled with myself for not doing well. It makes posting here very hard.
I did get my hair cut and I love it. The pics are still on my camera and I will transfer them over ASAP
HOpe you all are doing well and had a wonderful weekend. Here's to trying again and again! Eventually I will get it. Just regrouping
It is so hard to get here on a consistant basis these days. I only have a week and a half left of a vacation but honestly I have less as I need to get to work now. Since I have a new classroom I need to rip up the carpet and then get my stuff moved from my old school and get that classroom cleaned up. Still so much to do and I am stressing. My boyfriend came back into town last Thursday and I just dropped everything I was doing to spend time with him and my diet went out the window. I am still maintaining my weight but it's frusturating because I was doing so well and the scale started going down and then I just freak out and eat badly and it goes right back up. It is hovering around 159-160. I just need to stick to my eating. My boyfriends mom let me borrow Jillian Michaels book "Making the Cut" which is a 30 day diet and exercise routine to really sculpt yourself. I don't think I am at that point yet but the information is interesting... like how I process my food and which mixture of food is best for my body. It seems that I should be aiming for 30% fat, 30% protein and 40% carbs. I am going to try to eat less processed foods and try to stick to those numbers while keeping my cals around 1400. We shall see how it works. So far pretty disgruntled with myself for not doing well. It makes posting here very hard.
I did get my hair cut and I love it. The pics are still on my camera and I will transfer them over ASAP
HOpe you all are doing well and had a wonderful weekend. Here's to trying again and again!
Eventually I will get it. Just regrouping
mishi
New member
It is so hard to post when I am feeling disgruntled. I did so well yesterday except for then I didn't eat enough food and was starving by dinner and totally ate too much Indian food. I did well considering I didn't do any extra snacking that night but I feel so tired and let down today. Not sure why. I don't think I am sleeping well. I keep watching scary movies before bed and this morning I was floating on the top edge of sleep thinking about the creepy little dead kids in the movie sneaking around and I hear someone sneak into our bedroom. I freaked out and woke up and it was my son. Poor thing had a nose bleed. So I took care of him (cute little thing apologized for having to wake us up to help him ) He is such a good. kid. However, I had problems going back to sleep. I don't know what to do for exercise today. I just need to commit to something. I feel great after yesterdays class. Tommorow is the beginning of the month and time for goal making but I am so unmotivated! I am hoping it gets easier to eat well when I get back on a school schedule but I know my working out will suffer. My measurements are up even though I weigh the same. I am not sure if I am losing muscle or what is going on but my jeans aren't fitting as well It is frusturating. I hate bitching about it too! Tammy I know you will read this and thanks for that It's nice to have hellos even when I am in a bad place. Or maybe especially when I am in a bad place. Hope you all have a good day and I will try to pick it up from here! I haven't messed up on cals yet at least!
) He is such a good. kid. However, I had problems going back to sleep. I don't know what to do for exercise today. I just need to commit to something. I feel great after yesterdays class. Tommorow is the beginning of the month and time for goal making but I am so unmotivated! I am hoping it gets easier to eat well when I get back on a school schedule but I know my working out will suffer. My measurements are up even though I weigh the same. I am not sure if I am losing muscle or what is going on but my jeans aren't fitting as well It is frusturating. I hate bitching about it too! Tammy I know you will read this and thanks for that It's nice to have hellos even when I am in a bad place. Or maybe especially when I am in a bad place. Hope you all have a good day and I will try to pick it up from here! I haven't messed up on cals yet at least!
mishi
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That's what I get!
For not posting enough! Oh so lonely in Mishi's diary! lol. Oh well Today is August first. A new month. A new page on the calender that isn't all full of bouncing weights. I have to get it together or I am just going to balloon up. Even with all this exercise. I took measurements today and I am up 1/2 inch to an inch on every part of my body. My jeans are fitting tighter. It can't be muscle. I must be getting flabbier or something. I need to get back into an exercise routine but most importantly I need to stop messing up with eating. I am just eating too much crap. I need to change my focus from the scale to how I look. So my goals for the month is only 3 cheat days. One being the 23rd (our year and a half anniversary) and the others to cover any days I might slip. Goals for cals are between 1200 and 1500. I want to add more protein in my diet. I also need to eat more veggies. I want to work out 3x a week at least on Mon, Wed, and Fri. I will do weights and cardio on those days and at work during lunch I will run for 1/2 hour. Also I am going to try to plan out my meals more. When school starts I will be so busy working hours I have never worked before and I will need to have a plan so we don't opt for take out every night. I need to get my butt in gear. I have done so well and I hate to back slide! One good thing about where I am now is the muscles I have built! You can see them! Even in my back. I don't think I have ever had back muscles before! It feels good to be strong. Just have to work on the fat and make it go away! I am having a hard time being motivated but hopefully I will get some tricks down to keep going. I want to see my goals! Wish me luck!
For not posting enough! Oh so lonely in Mishi's diary! lol. Oh well
Today is August first. A new month. A new page on the calender that isn't all full of bouncing weights. I have to get it together or I am just going to balloon up. Even with all this exercise. I took measurements today and I am up 1/2 inch to an inch on every part of my body. My jeans are fitting tighter. It can't be muscle. I must be getting flabbier or something. I need to get back into an exercise routine but most importantly I need to stop messing up with eating. I am just eating too much crap. I need to change my focus from the scale to how I look. So my goals for the month is only 3 cheat days. One being the 23rd (our year and a half anniversary) and the others to cover any days I might slip. Goals for cals are between 1200 and 1500. I want to add more protein in my diet. I also need to eat more veggies. I want to work out 3x a week at least on Mon, Wed, and Fri. I will do weights and cardio on those days and at work during lunch I will run for 1/2 hour. Also I am going to try to plan out my meals more. When school starts I will be so busy working hours I have never worked before and I will need to have a plan so we don't opt for take out every night. I need to get my butt in gear. I have done so well and I hate to back slide! One good thing about where I am now is the muscles I have built! You can see them! Even in my back. I don't think I have ever had back muscles before! It feels good to be strong. Just have to work on the fat and make it go away! I am having a hard time being motivated but hopefully I will get some tricks down to keep going. I want to see my goals! Wish me luck!
niapage
New member
Howdy Mish,
Hey there I stopped by the day before yesterday to say hi because yesterday was hectic and I knew I would be gone all day.Now me and hubby fights over the PC because we have ethernet and he plays college football on playstayion 2 and has to hook up his ethernet wire to the back of my internet box so this means anything I do I have to do offline.
Anyway I love your new plan and I also have had the same thought more veggie more protien less cheat days and narrowing it down to 1 sweet low cal snack and maybe more protien fopr my other snack,because I use 100 cals and WW sweets for snacks because I have a BAD sweetooth lol.When I walked an hour 5 days a week Iswear the weight melted away I need to get back into that habbit again.You are still doing good overall,I need to do the measurment thing but I think I willbe HIGHLY disapointed in the #'s lol.Woohoo anniversary on the 23rd drink1 for me lol.have a gr8 day Tammy
Hey there I stopped by the day before yesterday to say hi because yesterday was hectic and I knew I would be gone all day.Now me and hubby fights over the PC because we have ethernet and he plays college football on playstayion 2 and has to hook up his ethernet wire to the back of my internet box so this means anything I do I have to do offline.
Anyway I love your new plan and I also have had the same thought more veggie more protien less cheat days and narrowing it down to 1 sweet low cal snack and maybe more protien fopr my other snack,because I use 100 cals and WW sweets for snacks because I have a BAD sweetooth lol.When I walked an hour 5 days a week Iswear the weight melted away I need to get back into that habbit again.You are still doing good overall,I need to do the measurment thing but I think I willbe HIGHLY disapointed in the #'s lol.Woohoo anniversary on the 23rd drink1 for me lol.have a gr8 day Tammy
mishi
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At last I am doing well!
Thank god! I feel good this week. I know it has only been a few days and the weekend will be my big test but I have felt really good and not deprived the last few days. Calories today were 1160 but I still ate a lot of stuff. Mostly fruits and veggies! I didn't get to the gym but I did haul some boxes up and down stairs so I hope that makes up for it. I found the BEST motivation today! I have been looking for a wedding dress so I will know what I want when my boyfriend and I get married. I feel sort of weird about looking because we aren't engaged yet but we talk about it all the time and we have a lot of other stuff planned out lol. So I wanted to look for a dress. This is my second wedding and the first time I knew what dress I wanted and I was a size 24!! I was 6 months pregnant at the time but still I had gained a lot of weight. I had no idea what I wanted this time. Not even a clue!! I just knew I looked good in empire waists So I go to David's Bridal and they are able to make me an appointment. I tried on around 20 dresses and the 3rd one just spoke to me. I would never have picked it off the shelf and I didn't point it out to the lady in the catelouge but she brought it. I took a pic with my phone and the detail is sketchy but I thought I would post it anyway. I will also post the link to david's bridal so you can see the detail The wonderful, most fantastic news besides the fact that I have found THE DRESS is that it is a size 10!!!!!! It is a little tight around my waist but if I lost 5-10lbs it would fit perfectly. If I get to my goal weight it may need to be altered just a little bit but it has provided me with the motivation to work my butt off so I can look fabulous in this dress!!! I am very excited as I was really worried that I wouldn't be able to find something in my price range or that I liked
Here are pics:
forgive my hair. I had moved all those boxes and didn't feel the need to shower or do my makeup before trying on dresses lol.
I hope that brings up the image! I am so excited
Tammy- thats too bad you can't both use the ethernet at the same time! I think giving myself a solid number of cheat days is a good idea. It seems to be working so far and is a good excuse to ignore my cravings. I have a bad sweettooth as well. I found a nice snack though: sugar free chocolate pudding with a banana cut up into it! Tastes really good and under 200 cals!
I hope you all have a good night!
Thank god! I feel good this week. I know it has only been a few days and the weekend will be my big test but I have felt really good and not deprived the last few days. Calories today were 1160 but I still ate a lot of stuff. Mostly fruits and veggies! I didn't get to the gym but I did haul some boxes up and down stairs so I hope that makes up for it. I found the BEST motivation today! I have been looking for a wedding dress so I will know what I want when my boyfriend and I get married. I feel sort of weird about looking because we aren't engaged yet but we talk about it all the time and we have a lot of other stuff planned out lol. So I wanted to look for a dress. This is my second wedding and the first time I knew what dress I wanted and I was a size 24!! I was 6 months pregnant at the time but still I had gained a lot of weight. I had no idea what I wanted this time. Not even a clue!! I just knew I looked good in empire waists
So I go to David's Bridal and they are able to make me an appointment. I tried on around 20 dresses and the 3rd one just spoke to me. I would never have picked it off the shelf and I didn't point it out to the lady in the catelouge but she brought it. I took a pic with my phone and the detail is sketchy but I thought I would post it anyway. I will also post the link to david's bridal so you can see the detail The wonderful, most fantastic news besides the fact that I have found THE DRESS is that it is a size 10!!!!!! It is a little tight around my waist but if I lost 5-10lbs it would fit perfectly. If I get to my goal weight it may need to be altered just a little bit but it has provided me with the motivation to work my butt off so I can look fabulous in this dress!!! I am very excited as I was really worried that I wouldn't be able to find something in my price range or that I likedHere are pics:
forgive my hair. I had moved all those boxes and didn't feel the need to shower or do my makeup before trying on dresses lol.
I hope that brings up the image! I am so excited
Tammy- thats too bad you can't both use the ethernet at the same time! I think giving myself a solid number of cheat days is a good idea. It seems to be working so far and is a good excuse to ignore my cravings. I have a bad sweettooth as well. I found a nice snack though: sugar free chocolate pudding with a banana cut up into it! Tastes really good and under 200 cals!
I hope you all have a good night!
mishi
New member
Back in the day
I remember when there were lots of people that would come and visit my diary! I have not been as good about posting recently and I know that leads to lonely diaries but I also haven't seen them around the board either. Llamabean, MJ, Bmohearn, 2skinny. Of course I know where Anna went but the others just disappeared. It is interesting to watch waves of people come on to the board and then disappear. Then there are the "die hards". That would be Mal, Tammy, Wishes, Cinder, etc. I know there are more but those I am the most familiar with What seperates people? What makes them stick to their goals? What distracts them from posting? Are they still doing well and just don't have the time or did they fall off the wagon? How many times have I commited to something and then after a few months just gone back to the way I was? It's crazy to think about. I do not consider myself a "die hard". I just don't think I have put in the time! I am thinking a year for me would get me to that level. Next year I could very well be getting married!!! How will I be different? What will my goals be? Will I fall off the wagon or will I keep going strong?? What if I just stay where I am? A year is a long time but I know it can go very fast. I am more focused on the short term. For now December 29th is my magical date. That is what I set my first goal for. Only 15lbs away. If I was good I might be able to get to my goal before then but then what? Do I make a new goal? Do I maintain? I think ultimatly I would like to be a "healthy" weight. That should be around 130-135 for my height. I want to look healthy and feel healthy. I am amazed I have come this far already. Yesterday really threw me when I thought of the last time I got married and that I needed to get a size 24 wedding dress! Size 10 is phenominal! Something that I used to write in my diaries that I wanted to get to. Now I am here and I am seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. What about size 9?? or 8?? Is it even possible for a size 6? I am learning to be at peace with who I am now. I feel better about it and more comfortable jumping off here to get to my next stage. It is an adjustment. I don't consider myself "fat". That is a big deal. I definatly have fat... don't get me wrong but "fat" doesn't seem to describe me anymore. What a wonderful place to get to. I am looking forward to the next step. I am looking forward to maintanance and hopefully getting used to this way of eating so I can do it without obsessing about it so much. It is getting better. Yay!
Yesterday I was tempted to have my first cheat day (I am only allowed 3 this month). My mom got paid and wanted to celebrate and in our family celebrations usually mean going out to dinner... it's no wonder I have an issue with food lol. So she suggested my favorite chinese place... However they are not the place where I would eat healthy. With some hesitation I suggested a salad bar. sigh. Then she suggested a place called Shoney's that has a bbq buffet and lots of fried foods. Because it was her money I said yes knowing I could get a salad. I was proud of myself. There was some bbq sausage that was calling my name along with the bisquits but I held strong and had grilled chicken on a huge salad and lots of fruit. Lots of control. Just have to keep that sort of mentality going. The dress certainly helped yesterday
I hope you all have a wonderful day!
Goals today:
1400 calories
gym
laundry lol
god I hate laundry. get lazy and it over runs your house!!!
I remember when there were lots of people that would come and visit my diary! I have not been as good about posting recently and I know that leads to lonely diaries but I also haven't seen them around the board either. Llamabean, MJ, Bmohearn, 2skinny. Of course I know where Anna went but the others just disappeared. It is interesting to watch waves of people come on to the board and then disappear. Then there are the "die hards". That would be Mal, Tammy, Wishes, Cinder, etc. I know there are more but those I am the most familiar with
What seperates people? What makes them stick to their goals? What distracts them from posting? Are they still doing well and just don't have the time or did they fall off the wagon? How many times have I commited to something and then after a few months just gone back to the way I was? It's crazy to think about. I do not consider myself a "die hard". I just don't think I have put in the time! I am thinking a year for me would get me to that level. Next year I could very well be getting married!!! How will I be different? What will my goals be? Will I fall off the wagon or will I keep going strong?? What if I just stay where I am? A year is a long time but I know it can go very fast. I am more focused on the short term. For now December 29th is my magical date. That is what I set my first goal for. Only 15lbs away. If I was good I might be able to get to my goal before then but then what? Do I make a new goal? Do I maintain? I think ultimatly I would like to be a "healthy" weight. That should be around 130-135 for my height. I want to look healthy and feel healthy. I am amazed I have come this far already. Yesterday really threw me when I thought of the last time I got married and that I needed to get a size 24 wedding dress! Size 10 is phenominal! Something that I used to write in my diaries that I wanted to get to. Now I am here and I am seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. What about size 9?? or 8?? Is it even possible for a size 6? I am learning to be at peace with who I am now. I feel better about it and more comfortable jumping off here to get to my next stage. It is an adjustment. I don't consider myself "fat". That is a big deal. I definatly have fat... don't get me wrong but "fat" doesn't seem to describe me anymore. What a wonderful place to get to. I am looking forward to the next step. I am looking forward to maintanance and hopefully getting used to this way of eating so I can do it without obsessing about it so much. It is getting better. Yay!Yesterday I was tempted to have my first cheat day (I am only allowed 3 this month). My mom got paid and wanted to celebrate and in our family celebrations usually mean going out to dinner... it's no wonder I have an issue with food lol. So she suggested my favorite chinese place... However they are not the place where I would eat healthy. With some hesitation I suggested a salad bar. sigh. Then she suggested a place called Shoney's that has a bbq buffet and lots of fried foods. Because it was her money I said yes knowing I could get a salad. I was proud of myself. There was some bbq sausage that was calling my name along with the bisquits but I held strong and had grilled chicken on a huge salad and lots of fruit. Lots of control. Just have to keep that sort of mentality going. The dress certainly helped yesterday
I hope you all have a wonderful day!
Goals today:
1400 calories
gym
laundry lol
god I hate laundry. get lazy and it over runs your house!!!
niapage
New member
Howdy Mish,
1st off I love the dress you look so beautiful in it and THIN! I picked a strapless wedding dress being a size 22 eeeeek I loved the dress it was so pretty to where I didn't care how I looked in it until I saw the pics.
I can't wait to see the whole package pics hair makeup accessories woohooo CONGRATS!
Also I love the part you posted about peeps coming and going what causes this????I wonder that to I went back to the beginning and read mine and there been LOTS and some have returned and haven't stopped by?I think thats a good thread to start?Your doing great I hope I can but I have a bad time with TOM anymore...Well I hope you have a nice weekend,Tammy
1st off I love the dress you look so beautiful in it and THIN! I picked a strapless wedding dress being a size 22 eeeeek I loved the dress it was so pretty to where I didn't care how I looked in it until I saw the pics.
I can't wait to see the whole package pics hair makeup accessories woohooo CONGRATS!
Also I love the part you posted about peeps coming and going what causes this????I wonder that to I went back to the beginning and read mine and there been LOTS and some have returned and haven't stopped by?I think thats a good thread to start?Your doing great I hope I can but I have a bad time with TOM anymore...Well I hope you have a nice weekend,Tammy
you look absolutely beautiful in that dress... excellent choice
It's summer so real life tends to get in the way for people - it's really the life cycle of a forum - people come and go... and new people come in and the old ones come back eventually
mishi
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It is summer Mal but is it just the seasons? There are holidays and birthdays and cold weather and warm weather. There are people who don't want to commit until the beginning of the year or the week or the month. I will go on a diet as soon as summer is over, started, etc. It's crazy! I wonder if there is a connecting factor to why people quit and also why and how people stay with it!