Mishi's adventures!

[2Skinny]

157
pictures
porridge
spider

ha ha I read your posts and write words like that down so I won't forget what I want to respond to.

Um...157? Yep, I'd say you are reaping the benefits of some DAMN GOOD WORK there, Mish! Congratu-freaking-lations!

Your pictures are astounding...it never ceases to amaze me what a work of art we become when we are slim, our face, everything is carved out and revealed ... you look great.

I buy instant oatmeal porridge in those packages that come in boxes. So easy and tasty and pretty good in calories.

You've got a spider? Yikes!! Can I tell you my spider story? When I was a wee baby, we lived in Trinidad. Our family is from Holland and one day my sister removed her wooden shoes from the closet and when they clunked on the floor, a tarantula hopped out of one and landed on her lap! Mom very calmly wrapped it in her apron and shook it outside, but she was petrified silly. Another time she reached into our bedroom to turn on a light and felt something hairy. You guessed it, another tarantula. We buried mom in the backyard that summer. KIDDING!!! That old gal is still going strong.

 

[niapage]

Howdy Mish,
I hope you had a wonderful weekend and Monday!
I totally blew it and I felt like whinning about it once again.I can not
handle "TOM"I can tell even when I get ready to because I start rediculas uncontrolable cravings!Anyhoo I hope you had a gr8 day Tammy

 

[mishi]

Cravings are a B*tch

Ha ha. I like the way that starring the "i" is supposed to make the word semi-acceptable. I am a cusser. I am terrible and I am working on modifying it but when I think of the cravings I have had (and am having right now) it warrents some severe cuss words!!! I am not sure what happened but this weekend was terrible. It all starts on Thursday when my boyfriend and I go to my moms to help her load logs and yard stuff into this dumpster she has rented. She has had the dumpster for 2 weeks but has procrastinated (yes I inherited that gene ) until the last day and we are hustling to get it done. 3.5 hours and I am exhausted and sore and my nose is full of dust and yuckies and ewwwwwww!!! lol. Friday I was sore but I went to my weight lifting class and it kicked my butt!! I was sore again. Then comes Saturday. I had promised my boyfriend that I would help him with the weeds at his house. His house is being remodeled and it is taking forever because he keeps spending time with me instead of working on it... I don't blame him lol. However the weeds had taken over and it was looking ratty and because I will someday live there with him I feel that I should step up and help. So we troup over there around 11am... we got a late start and it is 90 degrees at this point1!!!! Lots of weed pulling and then weed whacking and then raking and pruning and more raking and sweeping and more weed pulling ensue. 4 hours!!! I was already sore and having a hard time moving.... this just added to it. Then that night we had promised to borrow my mom's chainsaw and cut down a tree in his mom's front yard that had been damaged by the snow. So we cut it down and hand strip it into little piles of leaves and bigger piles of sticks. Sunday morning we woke up bright and early (ha ha yeah right... noon again) to take the stuff to the dump. We get some of it loaded but can't fit all of it into the truck. We go to the dump and on the way back we are feeling crazy and Paul (b/f) says that if his mom wants we should cut down the juniper bush and take it to the dump too. His mom wants to redo the front yard so she said yes. We get started with the chain saw cutting bit by bit. Pretty early on we realize this is the 40 year old juniper bush from HELL!!!!! I swear to god this thing was 8 feet in diameter and from all the years of growth all the branches were all intertwined together and it was so hard to get them untangled to reach the bottom branches to cut. 2 hours later the damn bush is in piles. sigh. So I decided that we could eek out one more trip to the dump as I had already put some of the juniper in the back of the truck and I would rather load more than unload what I had loaded. We load up one more load (there are 2 loads left still!!!) and go to the dump and go home. It was a crazy weekend of 4-5hour days of hard labor and yesterday I was so sore and felt so sick and exhausted that I just wanted to die!!! I did wake up and went to my workout class because i had a friend meeting me ther for the first time and then I filled the rest of the day with errands! I did good and did laundry and started cleaning the house when I got back! I didn't eat until 5 and was very good. I ended up at 1200 calories and was dying for some cake and ice cream (did I mention that most days this weekend were over 2,000 calories?? ok all days... not most days- I was up 5 lbs yesterday from stuffing my face all weekend)... but past that. Yesterday I did good and though the thought of snacking on ANYTHING was on my mind all night I just inhaled water and resisted! I did good. If I can do the same thing today and for the next several weeks I will be good1!!!
Cravings are my undoing and when you cave once it is so much easier to cave again and my cravings seem to get stronger and worse. I haven't wanted to post here because I am sick of obsessing and it is taking the toll in that I just want to give up. Wierd I know but if I ease back on my journaling then I seem to do better. but updates are good. I am back down to 159 and expect to be back to 157 by the end of the week. The nice thing about rapid weight gain is that it goes down fast too. I am also suffereing from TOM... which sucks because this is the first of the 2 I will have this month. I can't wait to get this BC thing figured out. I have to give it 3 months to see if the one extra period goes away... sigh.
Thanks you to all who commented!!
Bmo you are totally right about just resisting. The hard thing is I got in this mindset of I did good today so I can have ice cream tommorow... it is a destructive behavior using food as a prize for doing good!
Nia- I had a massive cake craving this weekend and we went to get cake and ice cream. I was lucky that it wasn't the right icing I was craving and I only had one piece. If it was the one I was craving I would have eaten the whole dang cake!!! Did find some good low cal vanilla ice cream though
Viva the whining. I do enough of it!!! TOM is a rat bastard~!!!!!! grrrrrrrr. Just one day at a time!!! No I haven't tried the soup yet. I have been a slacker about everything. There have lots of cereal nights here recently Where do I find the recipie for that again???
MJ- lol they give you stink eye I love having fish! If I wasn't such a slacker about taking care of them I might buy a bigger tank and invest in some nice fish... but for the cost if I kill them all it's not worth it I will live vicariously through your fish!!!
2skinny- Congrats again on your job promotion!!! I read the part about burying your mom in the back yard and almost fell off my chair!! lol that's funny. I can't believe she picked it up in her apron!!!! Hats off!! I would've run out the door screaming!!! my poor son would be left to fend for himself
I hope you are all having a good week. I am working on destressing and feeling better. I am definatly less sore! Thank god! So here's to a good week!! Let's beat these cravings folks!!!!

 

[lukewarm]

Oh my gosh Mishi that post was so hilarious. Brilliant! I seriously feel like I was there beside you picking at those wretched weeds. I have been meaning to visit your diary forever and this was so great! Is it weird that hearing you describe how terrible all that manual labor was, makes me want to go rake and weedwack and sift dirt? I think that's an apartment dweller phenomenon...grass sounds beautiful until you have to take care of it hahaha

Hold on I'll post more in a moment but I have a feeling this will disappear if I don't post now.

 

[lukewarm]

Cravings are my undoing and when you cave once it is so much easier to cave again and my cravings seem to get stronger and worse.

YES cravings are evil. Evil dark spirits. I try not to give in because I'm so with you, if I cave, I'll do it again no question! I hope things are going better for you now and you're right, you'll drop that weight very quickly, have a good night Mishi!

Oh and by the way I'm terrible with swearing as well. I don't think about it though and it's such an integrated part of my vocabulary unfortunately. I've heard people say that it's a sign of... I don't know 'stupidity' or something, but I prefer to believe that it's a sign of unbridled passion! Perhaps not...but until I clean up my language that's my stance! haha expletives sweeten some phrases in my opinion.

 

[MissJellyBelly]

Cravings are the worst!!! I wish I could beat them with a stick and then kick them under the couch. But they follow me everywhere, wispering in my ear, telling me that "I know I want it." It's horrible!!

I've had a tough time this week saying no to my carb cravings, and you are right. Once you slip, it is hard to even get back up without slipping again and again. Today I am going to try to not slip and not listen to the cravings.

I wish you luck too! Just say no!!! Stay strong.

 

[mishi]

The Good and the Bad

The good news is that my cravings have subsided for a bit. I am not having the all encompassing sugar cravings that have plagued me for most of this week. I am craving over eating and it is taking all my will power right now not to get up and get a second bowl of cereal. I can wait a few hours if I want another one. I have done well the last several days and am proud of the working out and the calorie consumption. However my weight went up to 159 today and I am so confused It is frusturating doing things the way they should be done and not seeing instant results. I have a few theories: TOM (again I know but I am in line for period 2 for June- big sigh), and then also I have been working out everyday and doing water aerobics and lots of resistance in the water during my classes. My muscles are getting built and so maybe that is why my weight is stalling. I read some sort of article about how when you lose a lot of weight really fast you end up losing a lot of lean muscle along with the fat. As I am flabby I will buy that. So I am working on building my muscle up. It is going to take time and I am taking deep breaths reminding myself that this isn't supposed to be an overnight venture. *breaths deeply*
So I am taking it day by day. I really want to see the lower 150's. I joined the 2lbs/week challenge for June and I am not happy with that decision. I am changing the way I work out and the way I eat and I am having to adapt to that and putting myself in constraints of what pounds to lose seems like setting me up for failure. I thought about posting a "throwing in the towel" post but I decided that I commited and I will see it through, even if I don't lose a pound. It is the way I need to approach my weight loss.
Lukewarm- I am an apartment dweller as well and there is good reason for that!!! I had a house and was just so lazy on the yard work! I like the fact that people come here and mow the yard and trim the bushes for me lol. I love the "unbridled passion"! That is a great way to describe my f**king language!! lol Glad you enjoyed the post. My brother was blessed with the wit in my family but every once and awhile I can give him a run for his money lol
MJ- I hope your cravings have been easier to control. Saying no does really help. My cravings are subsiding for now. My friend was talking about this mix of vitamens that you can take that can curb cravings. When I find out what those are I will let you know! If there is a GNC near you maybe they will know what I am talking about
Hope you all have a good day and wonderful weekend!!

 

[2Skinny]

Oh my god, I love women that swear. I had no idea that you and Luke are fellow swearers! So far I've only seen the lovely CurvieGirlie swear in her diary which is always so refreshing. LOL

Mish, you know I share that binge/craving crap thingy with you. I do well, then back-slide, lose a few, then gain some back, and on and on and on. But look at you; 240, 205 and now at 157!! You are going to make goal. The 2 pound per week challenges don't work for me either...they set me up for failure because I don't do too well when I'm locked into weight versus habits. Oh, and I hate yard work too!! Today I phoned a guy to give me a quote on yard work and he asked two feet or three feet grass. And I said "mmm, mmmore closer to three feet" and he laughed. I'll have to wear a veil when he comes so he can't see my face...oh, the SHAME.

Now put your shittin' sneakers on, get out of that fucking apartment, and go for a friggen' jog, woman! I hear exercise curbs cravings, at least I'm gonna give it a try. If I can do this, you can, do ya hear me?

 

[niapage]

Yay Mish,your doing great even with the whole craving thing,sorry I haven't been here in a few days I have been feeling LOW and can't figure out why like bottom of the shoe low? I have been over eating ,not walking as much I chickend out at the YMCA I feel BLAH.I love coming here for a pick me up.
There is nothing wrong with throwing the "F" word around accationlly lol I over do it myself.Well I am glad you didn't like the icing I have loved everything a little too much latey I wish we could temporay have our taste buds removed lol hahah theres a thought,have a good weekend Tammy

 

[mishi]

A New Day

Honestly Tammy I don't know if removing my tastebuds would do any good. I swear sometimes it's not the taste... it's the comfort act of eating. I have been doing terribly as well and I have been obsessing about it constantly. I haven't even been as diligent on Fitday because I just can't stand to see those numbers. So my new tactic is that I am going to take a break.... from Fitday. I really want to get to the point where I can modify my own eating. I have gotten into the horrible habit of putting everything in in Fitday and then saying "Well I have a few hundred calories I can use up... lets have some ice cream" and then it snowballs from there. Yesterday I ate 4 chocolate chip cookies (big ones) with ice cream and then had my normal meals. I was at around 2200 calories! I am frusturated with myself and feel like throwing in the towel (with the food thing) becuase it is so stressful to always feel deprived!! I am thinking that I am feeling so deprived because with fitday I am constantly monitoring what I eat and I am constantly obsessing about it. I know pretty much what things are calorie wise and I can estimate pretty well. So keeping track of things in my head shouldn't be too bad. I just need to be mindful of snacking and sugary treats. I am going to hit the gym a bit more next week and try to wake up early and jog every day... even if it is for 30 minutes. I am hoping that even if calories are a bit up that I will be able to compensate with exercise and as I build muscle my body will support the increased calories. It is a long term thing and I am not expecting to see the scale shoot down anytime soon. I just want to get ahold of this eating thing. The 1200 calories tracked carefully in fitday just isn't working anymore!! So wish me luck as I try this new tact: specifically eating more healthy choices and cutting way back on sugar! My water intake is always pretty good and I don't really drink sodas so I am ok there. Portion control is another biggie. Anytime I get a plate I will cut it in half and only eat that. If I go out to eat I will only get salads. I can do this! I am so damn close to my goal!!!!
Anna you are totally right and I am going to kick this in the bahooky!!! lol. I feel good and back on track. I am allowing more freedom but clamping down on what I feel are my major issues right now! Damn right I can do this too he he he. Thank you all for your support Tammy I hope you cheer up!! It is hard and I totally know what you are going through. I feel like hiding too but we have come to far to throw in the towel now!! We can do it!!

 

[niapage]

Howdy Mish,
You pretty much know your limits and what you can have
and what you can skip on.Your doing grerat and you will continue to do so,I need to follow in your footsteps because you have came such a long way and eat simalar foods as me just simalar situations.Well enjoy your day Tammy

 

[mishi]

Crap

Ug I am so mad at myself. I do know my limits. I know what I should do and yet I feel it's a constant battle to eat the way I should. I totally over did it last night when I went out with my dad and my family. I was so set to do good and then they all had something to drink and looked at me odd when I just ordered iced tea so I caved and ordered a corona light... nothing big in itself but that spurred me to mindlessly munch on chips and then when dinner came I was already full but kept munching. I am generally uncomfortable around my dad and stepmom so I don't have a lot to say and to keep from feeling all akward and wierd I eat. sigh. That wasn't even the really bad part. Afterwards my boyfriend wanted a "long walk" which is code for Dairy Queen ice cream so my little one won't get needlessly hyped up if we decide not to go. I got a small cone... which was ok but I was so full I didn't need it. He got this yummy large waffle chrisp blizzard and I kept taking bites after I had finished mine. He finally gave the rest to me and stopped somewhere else to get something else. So I had half of his as well. I was sick all night and I feel icky this morning. Last night I know I was over 3,000 calories!! I am so frusturated!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It is so hard these days and I am not sure why the sudden change. My will power just went away. I thought that avoiding fitday for awhile would help decrease my stress but if I don't eat well that is just not going to work!!! I am just not sure where to go from here. Anna and several others plan out there meals but I have never been really good at planning. I have tried but always deviate. Today I am going to the gym and I am going to do an hour of water aerobics and then my 35 minutes on the treadmill and eliptical. I am up 3 lbs (again) from the weekend. 162 currently. I need to work my booty off if I am going to get where I want to be. I am hoping that I can balance with exercise but I have to get a handle on this food thing. If I continue like this into the school year when I don't have oodles of time to exercise then all my weight is just going to come back! I have to get myself in line!! So much easier to say than do. sigh. Sorry to complain so much but I feel so low right now

 

[2Skinny]

Oh Mish, I so know how you feel. You type everything that most of us have felt! It is the gross-est feeling to overeat and feel sick all night. I've done it a million times and resolved to do better a million times. That's so NORMAL. In fact, each of these times, your brain, your psyche, your spirit, whatever, is getting a deeper and deeper conviction on how to perfect your lifestyle.
It's like people who quit smoking. Most of them will tell you they had to quit a gazillion times to finally do it. So what if you were at 157 and now 162. Whoop-de-doo. Most women vacillate in a five pound range for a whole slew of reasons. You're being honest about your over-eating and that's REALLY positive. I was at 150 and went up to 154, now at 153...meh! We know what to do and we are doing it.

I'm surprised you don't plan your food. I would be completely GARGANTUAN in size if I didn't plan. In fact, on ediets. com, the gals always said "no plan is a plan for failure". Yikes, those gals were hardcore! But I think they make a very good point.

Before you go grocery shopping, do you make lists? I always make a list so I remember what to buy for me ... and what to buy for the boys. They eat everything I eat but they often get steaks, potatos, and pasta whereas I'll buy more refried beans, fish, nuts, and loads more veggies and fruit than them. They'll have a peice of fruit in a.m. and veggies with supper, whereas I'll have two servings of each. If I don't include that all on my grocery list...guess what happens? I eat what I buy for the boys. Last night I had flax bread with my 4 oz. of steak and broccoli. JJ says to me "mom, do you like that bread?" I said it tastes good and has 85 calories, whereas your potatoes has over 200 which is what you need, but not what I need.

When I sit down to make a list, I think in terms of meals. What do I feel like eating this week at breakfast, what do the boys feel like eating? What do we each feel like for lunches, suppers, snacks? I end up buying a lot more for the boys since they need over 4000/day carbs each. I write my little heart out and then I think about mix of protein, healthy carbs and healthy fat. Do I have enough veggies/fruit on this list, enough protein in the way of chicken, beans, beef, eggs, tuna, cheese etc. and do I have enough nuts, fish, olive oil, peanut butter.

The list is actually the most work. Once I get to the grocery store, it's mindlessly shoving my cart around, banging into the occasional glassware display, and chatting with the mentally retarded bagboy (our grocery store hires them and they are so damn cute!).

I get home and whatever is in the house tells me what we're eating. No plan is a plan for failure. Because no plan leaves food choices up to chance. And chances are, a Tubhead like myself is going to make the wrong choice, depending on the emotion of the moment. Grrrrr. I wish I was like people who WANT to eat in moderation, the kind who eat a 2 inch sandwich and say "Oh! m'gawd, I'm so FULL". Um, that's not me. If I like the taste of something, we're gonna go hard. So if I plan, it's my brain/psyche getting the message early on that "this is how it's gonna be Tubhead". It's like a form of mental preparation. Without that preparation, I'm a kitten thrown to the wolves.

Mish, whether you decide to plan ahead or not, remember that lovely ratio...240...205...162. That's pretty impressive. And it means you are going in the right direction OVERALL. Maybe you're getting a little tired and you want to throw caution to the wind, but now's a good time to ask yourself what do I really, really want? Do you know what I just saw on t.v. It was that show called Cribs and the guy showing his house opened his fridge and there was a picture of him super fat, hanging in the back of the fridge. My sons and I howled. He said it's there because that way when he goes into the fridge for food, he's reminded of what he doesn't want to do. I thought that was hilariously brilliant. What works for me is to rent movies with really skinny men and women like Clint Eastwood, Christopher Walken, Uma Thurman, Julia Roberts. They remind me I want to look lean and slim. All too often we see large people around us, everywhere we go. People who are throwing their heads back, laughing, stuffing their faces, food everywhere, you know what? They might be sedating themselves with all that food. But it's WAY better to be sober of body and mind. And I know that you know that. You've obviously experienced it to lose (excuse me?) did you say 80 pounds of buttah? My friend, you are on the way. You know how to re-commit. Your plan to do water aerobics, elliptical and treadmill for an hour is fine, but remember, it's not how much you do today, it's doing it daily. String those days together and you will succeed. Go Mishi!!!!!!!

 

[maleficent]

Sorry to complain so much but I feel so low right now

Miz Skinny said it much better than I did - but I will add, what you wrote isn't complaining - it was on your mind and you wrote about it -that's what your diary is for... I'm sorry you're feeling low and I hope that your day improves...

 

[niapage]

Howdy Mish,
Geeeesh clear this LOW FEELING AIR already it must be contagious because I have felt this way for over a week now.I know you can pull through and like Anna said look at those #'s also the 5lb difference I am sure the scale reads differently everyday so maybe try staying away form it for a while.You know when your losing your clothes fit loosely then they start to fall of.Girl don't be down in the dumps your strong,and have a gr8 plan that continues to show great progress!Hope your day is better today,Tammy

 

[mishi]

Thank you guys. It is so nice to have the support here. A lot of the time I can talk myself up and I know what you all say is true... looking at the long term is the key. I have been used to losing weight fairly fast in January. It has slowed for sure but I am not so sure it's the numbers on the scale. They are more of a reminder that I am struggling with food right now. When the scale moves up I know it is because I ate half of my boyfriends blizzard yesterday... not to mention a pound of chips, and various other unhealthy crap!!! I am just so frusturated because I can feel the lack of control when I eat. Last night when I went to bed I had heartburn. I realized that I haven't had heartburn in forever!!!!! I used to have it all the time!!! I can't beleive I didn't notice that go away. I also havn't gotten sick recently. My cloths still fit. I am doing well by all accounts... I am just a OCD psycho when it comes to staying with a routine. I know for a fact that if I could stay within my calories and just do the exercise I have been doing then I would be down to the lower 150's right now. I know where I am messing up but fixing seems so hard right now!! I know I will snap out of it. I always do. I went to the gym this morning and did well. I even did sit ups and push ups (girl kind ). I just need to stay strong.
Anna- I do make a list for the store. I have tried several times to plan out my meals and I will buy the stuff and it will end up rotting in the fridge. I just never stick to my plan. However it is a good thing to keep trying. My son is young enough so that luckily I can make him eat what I eat My boyfriend is wanting to be healthier too so doesn't complain too much about what I shop for. I have this wonderful healhty cookbook. I just need to break into it and see what I can come up it. It is worth a shot to plan my meals. It does well for the pocket book too!!!
Thank you Tammy, Anna and Mal for your support. I am in a funk but they happen and this will get better Hope you all have a wonderful day!!

 

[lukewarm]

I just find myself nodding in agreement when I read the posts in your diary Mishi. You do obviously have the strength to accomplish your goal, you've already proven yourself and I know that you know you can do this. If we get in the way of our own success often enough, we'll finally get frustrated enough to kick our own ass into succeeding. I have fought with myself many times already and I've only lost a couple pounds. You're fantastic, you'll manage this and post some more pictures to remind me again why I'm working this hard.

 

[Juliette1]

Hi, Mishi!
So many good posts here already, I just want to add my 0.05€.

I know for a fact that if I could stay within my calories and just do the exercise I have been doing then I would be down to the lower 150's right now.

I'll just rephrase that for you: I know for a fact that when I stay within my calories and just do the exercise I have been doing then I will be going down to the lower 150's at a steady pace.
Free your mind of all the ifs and buts and look to the future. Sometimes a little frustration and self-sabotage is required to kick us back on track. That's the positive in the negative.

I have tried several times to plan out my meals and I will buy the stuff and it will end up rotting in the fridge. I just never stick to my plan. However it is a good thing to keep trying.

I use so much time and effort in planning my meals for every day I possibly can, that I'm really angry when something/somebody (including me) messes with my plans. The hard work when planning is acting as a good motivation for sticking to the plan. I can't do this every day, but as long there are enough of the planning days vs. the non-planning days it has a good effect on weight-loss. My plans definitely keep me away from extra snacking, since I'd have to do all the math again and/or declare the whole day as a miss. I know that it's not the same for everybody, but I warmly recommend everybody to try it out.

And finally, this just popped to my email as I was writing this post. I think it's a good thought for the day:

"In this age, which believes that there is a short cut to everything, the greatest lesson to be learned is that the most difficult way is, in the long run, the easiest."
– Henry Miller

I wish you a great day!
Julie

 

[niapage]

Howdy MISH,
I know we are going to fish what we started and meet our goals,I just think this "FUNK VIRUS" needs to be kicked to the curb once and for all.I have noticed when I am eating these unhealthy foods I am so enjoying it too much then afterwards depression sets in I feel so miserable until my stomach growls again and go for the cookie dough ice cream,pizza geeeeesh it has been a rough one.
I wish I would have a BAD reaction and be like I am not eating that agin lol....
I had a hoorble episode when I was 3 months preggers with my son like 21 months ago lol anyhoo it was so NASTY I ordered chili from goldstar and I have discorvered the natiest stuff in the chili and I started thinking chainsaw masacre lol anyway I haven't had ground beef of anykind since that day no hambergers,tacos, chili,hamburger helper all my favorites so maybe if I can find like a finger in my ice cream or an ear in my pizza those will be gone to lmao....Anyway girl I am glad I met you on here,you are a great person with a bubbly personality and great motivation,Have a nice day Tammy

 

[mishi]

Good day

I did so well yesterday and it is such a good feeling!! I wish I could remember that feeling more when I am about to binge! I am on track to do well today. I went to my water aerobics class this morning and then tonight I will be doing a wieght lifting class. I am excited. Food is good so far. Just a SB protein bar- 140cals, a fat free vanilla yogurt- 70 cals, 2 walnuts- 56 cals, and a bowl of cereal with fat free milk- 200 cals. Doing well so far and feel in control. I was silly today and bought a wedding magazine... I am totally jumping the gun as my bf hasn't asked me yet but we talk about it so much and he recently asked me if I would mind a short engagement. I said of course not but I figured I'd better have my ducks in a row lol. I planned my first wedding and this time I could care less except I want a pretty dress. I was pregnant last time I got married so I had to get a dress that accomidated my tummy. lol I tried to talk my dad into invitations that had crossed shotguns on the front and read "your invited to a shotgun wedding!" across the top. I thought that would be hilarious but my dad didn't buy into it .
So I am doing well. I am just about to watch a movie and flip through my forbidden magazine. It's gonna be like porn... I'll have to hide it so he doesn't see it he he he. He always thinks I am cute when I go overboard though so that is good
lukewarm- thank you for the post. I am kicking my butt now and it seems to be working. I think the hard work comes at times when you are having a hard time. It takes a lot more to get back into gear than to just stay on track... and yet I still deviate! Self-sabotouge is so strange!
Julie- you make an excellent point about planning a few days instead of trying to tackle them all. I planned tonights menu out... we will see if I stick to it: steak, corn on the cob and fruit salad I love making summer things!!!
Also interesting the way you changed those words. Such a "Dangerous Minds" trick he he he but your right though. I have focused so much on my goal I am forgetting the things I really wanted to be fit for. It is very frusturating and I am trying to change my mentality.
Hi Tammy!!! ditto!! I am glad to have met you here too!! I have been having crazy thoughts about a WLF trip to somewhere to meet the people I know here in person. Vegas anyone???? lol
Eating badly is such a trap. I totally know what your saying! You eat badly and then the guilt spurs you to do it again!! and again if you don't pull in the reigns. that is what has been happening to me on the weekends recently. that is crazy about the ground beef!!! I would love a hamburger but I have been good to stay away. Unfortunatly somethings just don't gross me out. I got food poisening from my teriyaki chicken bowl place.. not once but 4 times and yet it would only stop me for about a week or two then it would be back to the daily habit!! If I found an ear in my food that might make me pause.. but I could pick around it lmao!!!!! I am having a great day! I hope you are as well!!
Let's see how I do this week! Weight is already down to 159 so lets see what I can do when I stay on track!!!