Hi Mish-the-Dish. I'm an overeater, an addict of sorts. And something you said jumped out at me. I wonder sometimes how thin people never have to worry about this stuff. Thin people who are addicted to overeating do have to worry about this stuff. Whether you are at goal weight or 20 pounds away (congrats on being 20 away, btw), or whether you have 300 pounds to lose, overeater type addicts like me will always need an awareness.
Someone once told me our mistakes or binges, even if they last 3 days, are actually strengthening us because the guilt that kicks in spurs us on to take responsibility. And that nagging feeling you have, is a sign you have developed some good habits and know the standard to which you want to rise. Another person told me the opposite of guilt is responsibility. It is truly amazing how quickly I am cured of guilt, the instant I take responsibility.
You are taking responsibility. Thank even your failings, your binges and your guilt...because they all lead you to have a deeper awareness of your self, your motivation, and commitment. And they help you find new ways to succeed. Lack of sleep is a killer for not being able to work out. Is there something you can do about the heat...a fan, a cold bath before bed? Can you cut out caffeine altogether?
You are a teacher AND you have a small child and you have a husband. That's 3 areas where you are giving in your life. Are you able to find time to give to yourself? If I don't have time to give to myself in the day (or night) I become unhappy and more prone to comfort eating. I think sleep and some ME time might really do you a world of good.
And like M2M says, it really is one day at a time. Tomorrow is always the gift of a new day with new chances for you to take care of yourself.
Hugs and POO on weigh in day tomorrow. It's not about weigh in day anyways. It's about getting our needs met in a healthy way.