Mishi's adventures!

Doing something good

So I am going to sign up for the 3 day walk. I have gotten together with my boyfriend and we are going to design a website to help with donations, to blog my progress and experience, and to see if I can get a group going. I am so excited. If I can get business's to match donations and get people to visit the site and donate I can raise a lot of money!!! I am going to check with some local business's here and see if they would donate things to sell for fundraising!! I am so excited! Also going to team up with Ashley for 1/2 marathon in January. So a lot to look forward to and train for:) I am very excited for that.
So into every diet some rain must fall and yesterday was rainy for me. The good news is I went to the gym and had a good workout... the bad news is that I over-did it on my calories. I keep trying to keep track of my calories in my head but it is so hard to do that. If I don't update fitday constantly then I lose track and go over. What I ate yesterday wasn't terrible but I need to really focus if I am going to be to 170 by my surgery. Only 2 and 1/2 weeks away!! So I need to buckle down and keep to my calories for the next two weeks at least!! Only 4 more pounds to go!! so little and yet so much! I haven't really been able to lose that much in a week since January. February averaged 1.2 lbs a week.
Almost there though and taking it a day/week at a time:)
Hope you all are doing great this week!!!
 
Howdy Mish,
Your doin great!! Is this the same walk Mal is doing in Chicago? I would love to do something like that but I am sure the 3 days will be when I am busy with the kids.All 3 sighned up for coaches pitch starts in April then my daughter informs me well she's been asking for 3 years but she wants to tryout for cheerleading so the 4 day clinicks is 2 weeks from now plus I have a little 1 thats 11 months old and a hubby that works crazy hours lol.
You are dooing so great and you really motivate me I love stopping by to read your diary,Have a nice Day Tammy
 
Kickin butt and takin names

lol I am feeling so bad today but I have done well and am proud of actually getting to the gym today. I brought a workout from the newest Shape magazine. It was an interval training program for the treadmill:The 10 minutes broken down: 0-4 minutes- walk 3.5 at 3-6% incline, 4-6 minutes run at 5 with 0% incline, 6-8 minutes- walk 3.5 with 3-6% incline, 8-10 run at 6 with 0% incline. So that is ten minutes and you do it 5 times so you end up with 50 minutes. then 50-52 is cool down. It was amazing and so hard. I was huffing!!! but I made it and it's supposed to burn 530 calories for a 145lb woman! yay!
Tommorow is a weigh day and my calories are low. I don't like them being so low but I don't eat after 9 so I am stuck until tommorow. I have had ups and downs this week so hopefully it will all even out:)
Here is a website on food I am finding interesting:
I am having a hard time being able to know what i am eating and if I am eating what I am supposed to. I know I am needing more calcium but I think I am good on wheat things and protein. Need to eat more fish. I made salmon tonight and it was sooooo good:) I am good at cooking salmon and it is so easy!! Just a bit of full fat mayo smeared on top and some lemon pepper spice and you got one great plate of fish;) lol
I jumped on the scale when I got home from the gym and it said 172!!!!! I am taking it with a grain of salt but as soon as it says it on a morning weigh in I will post it. I am hoping that time will be tommorow:D
I am going to sign up for the November 3rd date for the 3 day walk. I need to get the website up soon so I can start fund rasing! So much to do! and with surgery looming I am wearing out!
Bmo- thank you!!! I hope!!!
Nia- so if your free in November I will be in Arizona;)
It is so surprising to hear I motivate people. My friend just told me today (the one who was losing so much with Atkins but has stalled for several months) that I make her jealous but I inspire her. Several months ago our roles were reversed!!!! I was so jealous of her but I wasn't so inspired. I was more little kid about it and just refused to do anything for myself as some stupid sort of rebellion.. sigh. But I have woken up and I think doing this for yourself is really how it should be. There is nothing that I can think of that is motivating for the long term.
 
Howdy, Mish
First off your friend is right you are very motivating.I to am jealous lol:p we were close for a while ,you stayed strong I cheated on my diet alot and you zoomed right on by.I am so trying to get back and stay on.
You have came a long way and I am so proud of you,keep up the hard work,Tammy:)
 
So we are in the middle of designing the website for the 3 day walk. I am so excited. My boyfriend is doing the work for me but I am helping with the design so it will be my site:) I am so excited. I have never taken on anything like this. I am not sure which city I will be in as I may have conflicts for the November one. So the sky is the limit! I never thought of going to a city farther away! Like Boston. I have never been there and that would be fun! So much to do to prepare! As soon as the website is up I will be posting it everywhere so you guys can see and forward the information. My minimun goal is $2,200 but I would like to raise twice that. I need to start talking to businesses to see if they would match me and maybe if I can put up flyers at their places. I am sooooooooo excited. It is a good day:D
 
Omg

Ok guys I did it... I cut like 12 inches off my hair!! wow it is short and I love it but other people (boyfriend, mom, etc.) aren't as enthusiastic. Something about long hair... people just like it more I guess. But I am happy and I look good and you can see my neck and my face and I have lost enough to pull it off now. I will post pics as soon as I find a card reader.. mine broke:( Hope you all had a great weekend and I will try to catch up tommorow:)
 
some pics:)

Let's see if I can get photobucket to work:)
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It has been quite a weekend! I am still getting used to my haircut:)
I have no idea how to get these to be pictures but I will post agian in my before and after pics. There are a few with my long gone hair and my new shorty cut with the size 10 jeans!!! I am surprised at how I look these days! It is a shock to see myself and I am happy but I am also aware that that happiness could make me lazy and I need to keep strong until I get to my goal, not to mention even after when I will need to learn how to maintain! It is daunting but I know I can do it:)
 
I love the haircut and you look great.

I am starting to feel good about what I see in the mirror too. Unfortunately my scale is moving up this last week or so, so it's keeping me on my toes.

I'm jealous of your numbers!
 
my scale goes up and down too. It has been bouncing between 172 and 175... it just depends on the day... and I have the days it doesn't move and then it goes up.. just focus on the overall and that it's not a strait shot down the scale... more of a bumpy road... Just average;) I tend to run with the smaller number if I can weigh in at that number for at least 2 days (consecutive or not) or what I weigh on my weigh day...
plus PMS is a nasty time for most of us weight wise... I think I can link most of my stalls and gains to that "woman's blessing" HA! lol boys can pee standing up and girls can have babies and PMS... not sure if it all balances;) he he he
 
Oh Mishi,
We're in the exact same boat! Bouncing between 173-176 for me due to my cycle.

As for the Balance - there IS none, but that's ok, I don't need to pee standing up ;)
 
Keepin' on keepin' on

It has been a tiring week. I love getting out where the sun is up for longer but otherwise DST sucks. I am so tired in the morning and it doesn't help that I stay up so late playing video games:rolleyes: Things seem pretty level now. I am getting grades done for school (end of the grading period) and starting a new nine weeks... the last nine weeks!! It is hard to think this is my last year at this school. I will miss my kids. I almost broke down today in a meeting trying to explain to a 15 year old boy why school IS really important and not just because we say so... It is tough.. this job.
Weight loss is going. My goal of 170 by my surgery seems achievable. I have 2 and 1/2 weeks and only 2-3 lbs to lose. I am nervous about my surgery. I am also talking myself down in advance because I know that during my recovery time my weight will go up because of all the swelling and restricted movement. I am glad I have spring break to rest the week of the surgery. I am very nervous about it.
Food has been going well. I seem to stay pretty consistantly around 1200 calories. Friday I went up to 1500+ and the Sunday I only was at 1085 so it balanced out. I am forever working on making eating this way a natural thing and really listening to my body for when it is hungry or not. Like last night I made a grilled chicken sandwich with lettuce, tomatoe, mayo, avocado and wheat bread. It was so good and I also had a big salad and a bowl of peas a ketchup.. I am so ghetto I swear! lol it was so good: started with the salad first then onto the sandwich. Halfway through the sandwich I was getting full and could've stopped but I didn't. I finished off the sandwich and went to work on the peas. A healthy dinner but then I didn't have room for ice cream and I wasn't listening to my body... I was full and yet I didn't stop!
I am not sure how to get myself to do this.. I don't want to rely on the computer anymore!!!
lol M2M too funny:)
and thank you Ashley
I am loving my hair and I found another before pic!! It is crazy that I look like a different person!! I am glowing with pride about how well I have done and am tickled pink that this hard work is paying off in a visable way.
Thank you to you guys who read this and give me support! It makes such a difference!!
 
Howdy Mish,
Wow you look great and I love your hair!
Your doing so awesome and you are so motivating and very
supportive I really appreciate when you stop by my diary
even if it's just a simple HEY! Have a nice day Tammy:)
 
Mishi-

Thanks for stopping by my journal. It really helps.

I can sympathise about working with students. I volunteer in the youth ministry at my church and these kids just have so many issues that we can't possibly begin to deal with them all. It's heartbreaking because our students will be making progress, and then end up pregnant, in juvie, or in a half way house of some sort. One of our brightest kids said he couldn't go to college because he was too poor and had never even HEARD of a scholarship. It's people like you that make a difference one kid at a time and I encourage you in your work.
 
A bad day

Today is not going so well. It started yesterday. I got into a really foul mood by the end of the night. I am not sure what is wrong but I was so upset... I am worried it's stress. This morning I woke up completly exhausted and stuffy. Allergies have finally come to me and I wish they had stayed away. I feel sick, and stuffy and dizzy and moody. I am not sure what is going on. I also had nightmares... mostly about my brother. He left his wonderful wife for another woman and has continued to hurt her and just be a bastard. I used to hold my bother up on a pedestal and look up to him and now I can't even look at him. I am so hurt that he would do that to someone who loved him so much and not to mention his kids. My problem is that I can't deal with it. I am so stressed about my brother and some of me wants to say I have no brother and some of me understands that he will always be family no matter how stupid he is. I really suffer with this and I don't know what to do. I was surfing around on myspace and I ran into his new profile. I didn't even know he had it and though some of me doesnt want to see his new girlfriend posting lovey things on his page, some of me is offended that he didn't ask me as a friend... if I haven't mentioned I take that crap too seriously.. but still. I am so upset and stressed about this situation that it is affecting my sleep and my mood. It is just a bad day today.
I was going to go to the gym yesterday but my bf asked me to come home because he was feeling so bad and wanted me with him. I was supposed to go today but I am not. I want to go home and go to bed. I would call in but I took all my sick days for my son... I just don't want to be here and I don't want to be conscious.
Calorie-wise I was fine yesterday... around 1100. NOt great but I couldn't find anything I was hungry for. In an effort to calm my nerves I had a lite beer... didn't work... but that is pretty much what I had for dinner. That and a slice of wheat bread with organic peanut butter and chocolate sprinkles... yummy. Just not a great day. Grades were due so I was up until 10 putting them in the computer. I hate doing grades. I am so frusturated by kids that come up at the last minute all worried about their grades and for those who aren't happy with what they got. My grades are really by the numbers and you get the grade you earn. It has taken me years to develope the system I have now and it is accurate and fair.. yet they still complain: case 1 of many: This girl does amazing work and is always caught up and even ahead because she is good. However she is bored with the class (she told me). I gave her several options but she eventually chose to just do the projects I assigned... and she scheduled numerous apointments during my class time causing her to miss 11 days last nine weeks. Because I teach art their participation in the class is part of their grade and she missed 11 of those days and didn't make them up. So she got an 88%. She is pissed because she is always done ahead of time and does good work... she wants an A. Tough #@!% I really want to say. She didn't follow the rules and so it affected her grades. This makes sense to me and these kinds of things happen so often and I am sick of arguing it. This is where the bitterness in teaching comes from for me. These kids, often times, want something for nothing and it drives me up the wall!
Sorry guys this is a rant. I am feeling so down and grumpy. I will not let it ruin my calories but it sucks:(
Thank you Ashley and Tammy... I love visiting your pages and having such good online friends to commiserate with. Hope you all are having a good day today:)
 
I just don't want to be here and I don't want to be conscious.
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I know that feeling all too well - hope that feeling passes quickly..

in themeantime -ranting is therapeutic...

have a better day today
 
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