jackbenimble
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Hi Amy - Rob's post showed up in my email - hello!
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And hugs 
and waves 
to all of you! 
I'm very glad 
to be back! Getting properly caught up will take a while; I've been once through the diaries, but still haven't got into the Clubs section, or looked at challenges or all the other terrific sections. Little by little, as per Liza's wise advice. 
I did finally finish the big assignment that I had to do - I had great trouble declaring it finished, and spent ages rechecking figures and deleting commas and so on, but it's gone now (I'm bracing myself for the response, but that's another story - it's done, anyhow.)
My weight has gone back up, somewhat. I'm tempted to blame the food desert aspect of things, but that's not really fair, not right now, because I've had two monster shoppings in the past few weeks, and I have heaps of vegetables to hand - let alone my own silverbeet growing, and various herbs as well. So no, it's not the food desert, it's that I tend to:
- eat when I'm angry
- eat when I'm depressed
- eat when I'm anxious
which isn't a sound way of dealing with anything. But with that assignment (which was making me angry and depressed and anxious, all at once) off my back, I think I'll be feeling less of all those unpleasant things. Hope so, anyway.
And winter is just about over and done here, which at least means swimming weather's coming. Time to begin investigating a new swimsuit - which even with the extra weight of these last few weeks will still be two sizes down on my existing years-old swimsuit.
and waves to all of you! I'm very glad to be back! Getting properly caught up will take a while; I've been once through the diaries, but still haven't got into the Clubs section, or looked at challenges or all the other terrific sections. Little by little, as per Liza's wise advice. I did finally finish the big assignment that I had to do - I had great trouble declaring it finished, and spent ages rechecking figures and deleting commas and so on, but it's gone now (I'm bracing myself for the response, but that's another story - it's done, anyhow.)My weight has gone back up, somewhat. I'm tempted to blame the food desert aspect of things, but that's not really fair, not right now, because I've had two monster shoppings in the past few weeks, and I have heaps of vegetables to hand - let alone my own silverbeet growing, and various herbs as well. So no, it's not the food desert, it's that I tend to:
- eat when I'm angry
- eat when I'm depressed
- eat when I'm anxious
which isn't a sound way of dealing with anything. But with that assignment (which was making me angry and depressed and anxious, all at once) off my back, I think I'll be feeling less of all those unpleasant things. Hope so, anyway.
And winter is just about over and done here, which at least means swimming weather's coming. Time to begin investigating a new swimsuit - which even with the extra weight of these last few weeks will still be two sizes down on my existing years-old swimsuit.
That's amazing, congratulations! The fact that you don't blame the semi-innocent tells me the number on the scale will move down again soon.
jackbenimble
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Hey Amy,
Congratulations on finishing that assignment! I can so relate to getting angry about getting work, but in my case it's often just routine grumbling. I admire the way you triple-checked it, wish I was that good.
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Congratulations on finishing that assignment! I can so relate to getting angry about getting work, but in my case it's often just routine grumbling. I admire the way you triple-checked it, wish I was that good.
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That's a great achievement Amy. Glad you got the monkey off your back and can enjoy the beginning of the nicer weather.
Great to hear you've finished up that big assignment. Must be a relief to have it done especially with all the nitty gritty checking and re-checking!
Wonderful to hear you're finding good food in your desert and especially that you're successfully growing some!(i had to google silverbeet and see that i would be calling it chard--one of my favorites!)
And what an accomplishment to be able to buy a swimsuit 2 sizes smaller than the last! Wow!
Wonderful to hear you're finding good food in your desert and especially that you're successfully growing some!(i had to google silverbeet and see that i would be calling it chard--one of my favorites!)
And what an accomplishment to be able to buy a swimsuit 2 sizes smaller than the last! Wow!
Thanks, @jackbenimble ! As for getting angry at work... well, I'll tell about that in a minute or two!
Thanks, Emily! I'll be down by the sea for a few days next week, with the car in drydock for repairs - I hope I'm able to buy the swimmers then, and maybe actually swim!
I hope you're right about getting back on track, Petal! I went off-track again today. But on the other hand - great about your new swimsuit, and a weekend away! To sea or river or pool?
It is a relief to have the big assignment off my plate, @liza - and yes, silverbeet is chard, also called Swiss chard, I believe. It's one of my favourites, too - partly because it's so easy to grow! (But also ... oh, lots of good things can be cooked with it! and it's good for iron.)
And now - today. Which was... quite a trip! Began last night with a 9:30 email (but that's not long past end-of-work-hours, back in Otherplace) with some mildly urgent work to do. Fine, took a quick look - I could get it done in the morning, and return it to Otherplace before start-of-work-hours my time. And so I did, and had time to do a bit of reading and posting here, before heading off to see the neighbour's dog, feeling cheerful and on top of things. Got back to a new email - sudden panic, the parameters changed, the whole thing to be overhauled and ready for recording in twenty minutes!
So high tension, and flurry and work and anxiety... and what do I do when I'm anxious? Eat.
Two slices of bread-and-butter-and-apricot jam - and there goes my chance of any sort of weight loss today. And much angry gloom follows.
I'm back to an even keel now, but still crabby over the sudden demands - I hate last-minuting. (This is nothing to do with the assignment I got off my back a few days back. No response on that yet, except the first Looks good.) But I've just been reading Trusylver's post about motivation - which has been very useful, as a way to reflect on today. The external motivation which pushed me to get that work done, and the feeble internal motivation which let me down, re: allowing the high-tension eating. More reflection required.
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Late edit: and just now, another email! (Of course, it's still working-hours over there.) Semi-urgent - ie to be done tonight, but not in twenty minutes! And having been through all that today, I am armoured against anxiety eating!
Thanks, Emily! I'll be down by the sea for a few days next week, with the car in drydock for repairs - I hope I'm able to buy the swimmers then, and maybe actually swim!
I hope you're right about getting back on track, Petal! I went off-track again today.
But on the other hand - great about your new swimsuit, and a weekend away! To sea or river or pool?It is a relief to have the big assignment off my plate, @liza - and yes, silverbeet is chard, also called Swiss chard, I believe. It's one of my favourites, too - partly because it's so easy to grow!
(But also ... oh, lots of good things can be cooked with it! and it's good for iron.)And now - today. Which was... quite a trip! Began last night with a 9:30 email (but that's not long past end-of-work-hours, back in Otherplace) with some mildly urgent work to do. Fine, took a quick look - I could get it done in the morning, and return it to Otherplace before start-of-work-hours my time. And so I did, and had time to do a bit of reading and posting here, before heading off to see the neighbour's dog, feeling cheerful and on top of things. Got back to a new email - sudden panic, the parameters changed, the whole thing to be overhauled and ready for recording in twenty minutes!
So high tension, and flurry and work and anxiety... and what do I do when I'm anxious? Eat.
Two slices of bread-and-butter-and-apricot jam - and there goes my chance of any sort of weight loss today. And much angry gloom follows.
I'm back to an even keel now, but still crabby over the sudden demands - I hate last-minuting. (This is nothing to do with the assignment I got off my back a few days back. No response on that yet, except the first Looks good.) But I've just been reading Trusylver's post about motivation - which has been very useful, as a way to reflect on today. The external motivation which pushed me to get that work done, and the feeble internal motivation which let me down, re: allowing the high-tension eating. More reflection required.
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Late edit: and just now, another email! (Of course, it's still working-hours over there.) Semi-urgent - ie to be done tonight, but not in twenty minutes! And having been through all that today, I am armoured against anxiety eating!
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Out-of-hours stress email is the worst. I´m sure there are healthier ways to deal with that kind of thing but I haven´t discovered them yet. Oh, not quite true: I used to do a handstand and hold it for as long as I could if about to freak out completely. Nothing like not wanting to crush your skull for getting back into your body. Probably not helpful irl though...
I am the same, I prefer to have a little time left to spare, I get very anxious with tight deadlines.
I am exactly the same. I get stressed and flustered and pissed off. I don't cope well with it at all. I get it done, but at great expense to my body and mind. I end up smoking a lot or stuffing myself with food on the drive home from work, not even tasting it. It's really annoying.
I like your idea of the handstand LaMa. I might look up ideas of things I could do if that happens.
I've put a "like" on the last three responses - not that I like you all knowing the feeling of last-minute work-induced stress, but that it's good to know there's fellow-feeling out there - and to know we can investigate ways of dealing with it! (I can't see myself managing the handstand method, but maybe I should seek an equivalent - it certainly beats the eat-whatever's-quick-and-handy system.)
Anyway, here we are on the weekend! We had excellent rain overnight - gentle, but soaking, just right to wash in the fertiliser I put on the orange and apricot trees a day or two back. The apricot is a twiglet, really, just a year old - I guess I should nip off the tiny green beginnings of fruit, in case the weight of them breaks the tree? The orange is quite the other way - ages old, but I think can be induced to bear a good crop for us, if we're still here to look after it. It has masses of buds right now, just about to burst open - maybe by Tuesday?
I'm going to avoid the kitchen completely today. That is, I'll eat, but be in the kitchen (including pantry) as little as I can manage. I have a carrot-and-ginger-and-orange-juice salad made up, and some yummy cooked beetroot ready to go. One quiet, healthy weekend coming up!
but that it's good to know there's fellow-feeling out there - and to know we can investigate ways of dealing with it! (I can't see myself managing the handstand method, but maybe I should seek an equivalent - it certainly beats the eat-whatever's-quick-and-handy system.)Anyway, here we are on the weekend! We had excellent rain overnight - gentle, but soaking, just right to wash in the fertiliser I put on the orange and apricot trees a day or two back. The apricot is a twiglet, really, just a year old - I guess I should nip off the tiny green beginnings of fruit, in case the weight of them breaks the tree? The orange is quite the other way - ages old, but I think can be induced to bear a good crop for us, if we're still here to look after it. It has masses of buds right now, just about to burst open - maybe by Tuesday?
I'm going to avoid the kitchen completely today. That is, I'll eat, but be in the kitchen (including pantry) as little as I can manage. I have a carrot-and-ginger-and-orange-juice salad made up, and some yummy cooked beetroot ready to go. One quiet, healthy weekend coming up!
Good rain nurturing the garden, orange buds ready to open, a young apricot tree beginning its life...all sounds very positive!
May your weekend be relaxed and healthy and lovely!
That sounds challenging to be working in a different time-zone from your work-place--adds to the extra pressure of those last-minute demands when your night-time is corresponding with their work hours!
May your weekend be relaxed and healthy and lovely!
That sounds challenging to be working in a different time-zone from your work-place--adds to the extra pressure of those last-minute demands when your night-time is corresponding with their work hours!
Petal001
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Amy sorry I missed all that as sort of has similar work stresses during the week . Which also led to a binge . I don't know the answer. I'm trying to just work my hours .
Are you supposed to be working the office hours or working working hours where you live ? It sounds like lots of us have work problems at the moment .
Hope you get a day off today
Are you supposed to be working the office hours or working working hours where you live ? It sounds like lots of us have work problems at the moment .
Hope you get a day off today
I'll breathe in the orange blossom all the more appreciatively as your proxy here.
The fully ripe oranges - well, I'll wait and see! Thank you, all three! my weekend - or today, at any rate - has been wonderful. The rain cleared, and there was warm, warm sunshine - and we went for a picnic.
Hard-boiled eggs, celery, lettuce, capsicum, cherry tomatoes (bought as a huge indulgence at the last vegie buy-up, and wow! were they ever worth it! just bursting with flavour, an absolute treat to eat!), falafel, home-made hummous, pita bread, strawberries... there was more, but we didn't get around to eating anything else. And in between the egg-and hummous section and the strawberries, we walked through the forest for an hour or so, enjoying the smells, and the sounds (lots of strong breeze soughing in the treetops, and normal tree-sounds, but as well, two trees were rubbing against each other, and whistling like birds!) and the textures underfoot - there'd been heavy rain earlier, and the ground was spongey in places, which isn't a soil-texture I'm used to. And of course the light in the trees.
Absolutely beautiful, and totally relaxing.No, apart from the weekly Zoom meetings, my time's my own - I just have to do what needs to be done, by whenever it has to be done by. I don't usually have such a barrage of tight deadlines as happened on Friday.
I loved Enid Blyton books--that just made me smile in memory! And they always seemed to have the best food packed for their adventures!And wow, yes, what a lovely sounding walk/picnic Amy!! That is so great that you treated yourself to those cherry tomatoes--what a wonderful thing to splurge on rather than an unhealthy treat!
Trees are such healing beings--just to be in their presence is such a pleasure. I must get to my little forest trails again soon! I actually tried to go a few days ago but the silence frightened me and I didn't last long!