Mia's diary

Capuccino

Capuccino

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Hi everyone! Well, for starters my name is Mia. I joined the forum to meet others like me and I'm so happy because that is what I've found. Everyone seems so nice and encouraging to one another and I think that is a huge key to everyone's success. I have been overweight for as long as I can remember and I have battled demons like depression, insecurity, low self-esteem, and just plain insanity. Well, I finally decided to stop feeling sorry for myself and do something about it. My regimen consists of 1,300 calories a day with breakfast and lunch being a can of Slim Fast Optima. I'm not much of a breakfast eater so this helps me out a lot. No red meat or pork (just a personal preference, never really been crazy about either.) I take a daily Weight Smart vitamin and I drink at least 64oz. of water a day. As far as excercise goes I walk my daughter to and from school everyday and I walk around campus where I attend school. I'm looking to add more excercise to my daily routine, I guess I just have this urge to work up a sweat, LOL! So far I have lost 10 pounds doing what I described for the past month or so. I think it's time to really get in gear and get more active.
 
It sounds like you've got a great plan and it has been working for you. Upping your cardio will definatley help you burn off weight like crazy ... you could try walking around your neighborhood, have you joined a gym? I bet your local gym or Y offers aerobic classes ... Itake a few a week and they are amazing. Tae bo rocks! Pilates are wonderful for toning. Just crank your music up and dance like crazy! haha* I've done that a few times lol ... ok , about 100! You've come to the right plcae for support and motivation.
 
There are some gyms around, but they're way too expensive. The cool thing is that I can take an aerobics class at my college and earn a P.E. credit. They also let students use the gym facilities. I'll admit, I've done the dancing thing tons of times, LOL! I guess I will do that until I get some tapes.
 
10/10/2005

Feeling really depressed today. My bf 2 years and I broke up Labor Day weekend. Since then he has been trying to make amends with me and wanting to get back together. Finally this past Thursday I aggreed and we got back together. He was supposed to come over Saturday but he didn't show up. I found out last night from my ex mother-in-law that he was out at the mall Saturday holding hands with some girl (she said the girl actually ressembled me.) When he saw her staring at him, he quickly let the girl's hand go and started walking quickly ahead of her like he didn't know her. I am completely crushed. I haven't heard from him since Friday morning and I'm assuming that he knows that she told me. He's such a coward that I don't even expect him to call and try to explain. I had a mid-term and a final this morning and I hope I did well, despite the fact that it was really hard to concentrate. I was over him when he started coming back around and now I feel like I'm back at square one with a broken heart all over again. I'm trying really hard not to turn to food because I know it will only make things worse. I've gotten angry and cried and now I'm just numb, carrying on like a robot doing the things I normally do. I really wish I knew a cure for the way I'm feeling.
 
Hey, Cap,
Congrats on finding this forum! You sound so focused and it seems that you know how to get your stuff together... just a matter of time!
As for the ex... I'm sorry that happened to you! And a smart girl for posting here and not letting food be your "medication." I say walk around the block an extra time just to kick his butt! You deserve better and you are going to get it!
How old is your daughter? What are you studying?
Keep your chin up!
Totallyscrappy
 
Totallyscrappy
How old is your daughter? What are you studying?
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My daughter is 4 and she's my pride and joy. The ironic thing is, I'm eating healthy and I'm studying to be a chef. I know that I chose an occupation that is full of temptation, actually it's called "The fattest job in the world." I can't help it because cooking is my passion, but I plan on specializing in healthier fare such as Asian cuisine and sushi (I'm a junkie for both). I make a lot of stir-fry because it's a good way to get all of your veggies in.

kccruz
I took a peak at your profile pic and he is a stupid man for letting such a pretty woman go....!!!
Also..I love your cherry Avatar!!!.....How were you abel to post it?...I have been trying to post glitter graphics but for some reason have not been abel too!!!
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Thank you so much, you are truly a doll! As far as my avatar goes I just typed "free avatars" into my Yahoo search engine and I found some websites of people who make them and let you use them. All you have to do is right click the graphic and save it to your comp. They don't like it if you link back to the site.
 
He is not worth your time if he is straying already. I say get out while you can. He will probably come begging back but don't let him get to you this time. Keep focused on your goals and don't let anyone get you down.
Shelley
 
10/11/2005

I finished my mid-terms and my final exam so now my brain is starting to solidify again. Got home not too long ago and checked my email and there was an email from "him". In it he's talking like I don't know what he did Saturday saying that he loves me and he misses me. So I sent him one back and in some not so pretty words I let him know that I knew what he was doing. I'm feeling 100% better now. :) I'll admit it, I almost fell off the wagon yesterday. A good female friend of mine was supposed to come over and watch wrestling with me (I'm a huge wrestling fan). She's basically a "I'm fat and I'm proud!" kind of girl. When I told her what happened she told me that she was coming over and she was gonna treat me to a pig out session and male bashing. Fast food, cookies, candy, you name it. The sad part is that I aggreed to it. Later on she called me around 7:15 and said that she wasn't gonna be able to make it because she was kinda tired after work. So instead I made some low-cal chicken fajitas and drank a glass of Crystal Light. I guess everything happens for a reason and it wasn't meant for me to pig out like that. I'm really glad it didn't happen.
 
Close one, eh? I'm glad you had your low cal dinner to pig out on!
A chef?! Good for you. I've never tried sushi and I'm not a terribly adventurous eater, but I see more and more asian food options and restaraunts. Congrats on the end of the mid-terms.
Totallyscrappy
 
Definitely a close one. That is the trap we all talk about, comforting ourselves with food. You will only feel temporary comfort but the after affects will last a lot longer. Good for you with the low cal meal, should make you feel good about yourself, keep it up :D Tell your friend when she is ready to lose weight that you will be there to lend her your support.
 
I'm really sorry about your situation ... nothing hurts worse than hearache ... nothing. =( ughh , been there ... if you need to talk, you'r emore than welcome to PM me ... =) Stick it out babe ... you're beautiful and strong!! You don't need him.
 
simple, sometimes men just suck! LOL I dont know why they do the things they do... hell, they prob dont know either!
Just stay strong... you sound like a great person, and have alot going for you (other than the guy, but who needs em?)
 
10/12/2005

I'm in a much better mood today. Everyday it gets easier. I haven't heard back from "him" yet so I'm gonna assume that my email got the point across. I made Lemon Pepper Salmon yesterday and it was totally yummy. Today I used the leftovers and made up some Salmon salad and put it on a bagel. Nothin fancy, just some low cal mayo and green olives. I didn't really care for it on the bagel but since I'm out of bread it had to do. It was a good salad but next time I think I'll try it on salad greens. Still doing research online for excercise routines that I find fun and I found some possibilities. I love to dance so I think bellydancing and dance aerobics are my best bets. As long as it's fun I won't get bored and have the urge to quit.
 
Dacing *oh so fun* =) I love it! I'm always shakin my booty around my apartment when I'm cleaning haha* dork, I know.
Aerobics and bellydancing sound great - I think I am ordering the strip aerobs tonight!! yipeppeeeee! Keep itup :)
 
10/13/2005

I got on the scale yesterday and it said 214lbs, 11 pounds gone. I honestly don't know what to say. I'm in utter shock I've been overweight so long that I'm only used to the scale going up. For the first time in 10 years I'm not 220-something. The day I get under 200 is really going to be a celebration because I've been over 200 for all of my high school and adult life. I'm a mix of emotions right now, somewhere between ecstatic and proud. I don't know what it is but I know I love this feeling and it makes me happy. I look forward to other wonderful days like this.
 
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WOW!! Congratulations!!! I know the exact feeling, I felt it at 400 pounds and 300 pounds, now I just cannot wait to be where you are and feeling it so close to 200 pounds. Way to go, keep up awesome work!!!!!
 
Capuccino, I felt so exctatic for you when I read that you lost all that weight, and it is just going to keep getting better and better. The hardest part is doing something about it, right?? I just got done binging on a WHOLE lot of garbage. And then I read your exitement and how great you must feel to be so close to under 200. It really got my mindset in the right place again. Damn... I wish I would have come on here before I lost control and ate all that crap. :mad:
Oh well, I just wanted to say that I am inspired and you really are making a difference for me! Can't wait til you've made it below 200!!
 
WOO HOO I'm so proud of you, hey that rhymes!! Awesome, doesn't it feel so good?
Shelley
 
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