MGB's Diary: "Clean Your Plate," they said.

Love and hugs, Sweetheart! :hug2:

Lets hope Dad gets better and takes good care of himself--will yelling at him work? :confused: I'm absolutely getting to the point where I decided, the nicest thing a person can do for her family is TAKE CARE OF HER HEALTH!!!! Word to the turf on THAT dip :iagree: SO many heads on here have mentioned how hard it is to deal with an obese and/or unhealthy parent, sibling, or other relative and it actually breaks my heart. I'm fucking LUCKY my parents are young and fit, and my entire family (including dear ol Barre) is active and eats well.

I KNOW you will get through this divorce--you're SO strong and wonderful, and it is O-K to feel depressed and bummed out about the weight gain--and you'll get over it and move on. I know it! Until then, vent, cry, go through it--feel bad, good, laugh, and especially EXERCISE. Sorry you're with your parents right now but it's temporary. Just be thankful and happy as you are, AS you make positive changes and work toward more favorable circumstances. You know it, you're doing it, you'll be FINE. And I don't mean F.I.N.E. --Fuckedup, Insecure, Neurotic and Emotional. LOL! Joke, joke.

Money will come to you, just be patient. I feel you on gyms, but definitely get some swimming in, whatever you enjoy--and yes food in HI is ridiculous :( Things are tough all over *said the Bunny as she thought about the $210 she was gonna put on her credit card for a Burning Man ticket tomorrow*

Love you, update us, OK?? :grouphug:
 
Yup, you can totally lose the weight. At 185 that puts you about 30lbs above your lowest, I think. Totally do-able. I've got a great idea of how you can get some exercise--cathartic exercise at that. Get a punching bag (I'll bet you could get a used one pretty cheaply), tape a pic of Sean to it and get to work. :reddevil:

Sounds like your dad is out of the hospital and doing better--glad to hear it. :)

Tomorrow is TLD, so just imagine I'm playing with those big hooters of yours. :D Ironically, I have a breastfeeding class to attend tomorrow night. :rofl: What can I say, I have boobs on the mind. :sifone:
 
Hello hello lovelies,

I spent a good amount of time writing up my update only to have the site crash and lose it completely. Needless to say, I won't go repeating it all over in all too much detail, but I will keep you all in the loop as to where I am in life.

For those of you in the know, my father was hospitalized on New Year's Day and diagnosed with acute pancreatitis. During the week plus that he was in the hospital, we almost loss my father twice. By God he survived both times and is now at home with us doing his best to take care of himself.

Things at home have completely changed. When my dad's doctor came to us and said that if he doesn't take care of himself he will end up back in the hospital and this time around, we might not be all too lucky. As a result, we went home and trashed anything and everything "bad" in the fridge and pantry. Everything has been replaced with veggies, fruits, whole grains, beans, lean meats, etc. If it'll make you take a burly crap, then it's in our pantry/ fridge. HA!

My mom is in the process of finding my father a dietician specialized with diabetic diet. My father is out and about, walking and swimming at the beach whenever he has the chance to. As for myself, I'm now the head chef and "overseer" of my dad's daily activities. :) I hope and pray this will last forever, but I'll just have to wait and see. So far I'm excited and proud of my family as the days pass.

As for my own progess, I've been finding time for myself and working on controlling my stress and emotions. My lawyer, who is an absolute fuckhead whom I will eventually report to the NYS Bar Council once my divorce is finalized, is getting on my last nerve. Unfortunately, I can't just get rid of him. I have to see this through and be patient. It's the only way to be really.

As for my routine, I'm back to working out with Beachbody.com's Slim in 6. This program, by far, has never failed me. I always use this program to get my ass into gear and after every workout, I always feel so much better mentally and physically. I'm in the beginning of my 3rd week right now, so I'm busting my ass off to lose a few inches. I also spend 3 days in the week swimming laps at the beach and 2-3 days doing an uphill push. (It's not really a hill. I live in Hawaii. It's a fucking mountain that I force my way up. LOL 75 min incline/ descent)

As for my eating plan, I'm back to eating high fiber/ protein diet. I'm a huge fan of black beans, tofu, tuna, and all that good shit. Let me tell ya, I haven't been crapping this well since I crapped on Sean and left. (jk) HA!

Plain and simple: My father's pancreatitis scared the fuck out of me. It made me wake up and think, "Oh shit. Another illness to add to the list. The time is now. No more fucking around, Sheryl." So here I am....

I am 192 lbs (Ummm yah, my mom's scale was shit so we got another one. LOL) as of Saturday, January 10th. I was 196lbs on Dec. 25th, 2008. I see it this way, I've done it before and I sure as fuck can do it again. It'll just be a challenge and I know for damn sure, when it comes to challenges, I make sure to "pwn" them fuckers. Come June 6th, 2009, (my 31st birthday) you can bet your sweet asses a bitch is going to tear shit up.

-Sheryl

PS Mr. David Carr, you're on, homeboy. I promise to get my shit together.
As for yourself, I adore you, honey. Let's do this. ;)

HW: 225lbs
SW: 196 lbs (12/25/08)
CW: 192 lbs (01/10/09)
 
Thank fucking goodness I hear a hint of the real Sheryl in there.

Glad to hear pops is doing better. You have the power to not only change your life right now, Sheryl.... but your family's too.

Step up and do your thing.
 
Soooo glad to hear your parents have decided to throw out all the junk and adopt a healthier lifestyle. Word to my mother..lol. I'm so happy for you--that has got to be a huge load (fiber pun intended) off your shoulders. :hurray:

If anyone can bust her ass and lose a ton of weight, it's you, honey. I still like my punching bag idea, though. :D

So has David Carr been lurking around here again?? Show your face buddy! I miss ya. :smash:
 
Hi Sheryl,

Glad to see you're getting back in it for your own sake as well as your Dads . Divorce is wretched and miserable even if things don't get nasty. The only winners are the Lawyers (my best friend is a Family Lawyer).

There's nothing like excersize to relieve stress, and there's no revenge like living well and being happy. So you will take all the crap life has dumped onto your shoulders and turn it to hotness! (YOU can hardly help but do that, Beautiful).

I'll be here working my ass off too, sensibly.

David
 
MsGhettoBooty said:
I'm excited and proud of my family as the days pass.

I have to see this through and be patient. It's the only way to be really.

after every workout, I always feel so much better mentally and physically.

I'm back to eating high fiber/ protein diet. I'm a huge fan of black beans, tofu, tuna, and all that good shit.

Come June 6th, 2009, (my 31st birthday) you can bet your sweet asses a bitch is going to tear shit up.
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The highlights! I'm glad to hear all this, fucking A fuck yeah! :party:
 
Soooooooo glad to hear the good news/updates! :hug2:

Prayer Rocks! ;)

What a HUGE relief it is to have your dad back home and the house is 'clean.'

That is great for you all!

I just had to do that as well and we don't have a dern thing until I go to the store. LMBO! :D

All my bad habits/foods visited me again after so much stress with what I've been through towards the end of 2008 I ate my way to a new high of 194.4 lbs!

:ack2: Starting a job after 15 years of bein' a stay at home mom doesn't help either bc I'm so tired after work..HAHAHAHA!
(I've been working 6 mo. I'm a Health Aid/Caregiver for the elderly.)

2009 is new and fresh and by goodness I have decided this is my year to kick my own ass for once and get with it! :sifone:

Look at you...Pushin' through and Reachin' Goals already! :hurray:

Again doll,
I'm so happy to hear the good news on all accounts!

LUV YA! :beating:

Stacy
 
I'm cleaning up from my kids lunch today and I thought about the title of your diary. Clean your plate, they said. I don't tell my kids that. I want them to use internal cues to tell them they are finished, something I just cannot seem to learn. Well, clean your plate now means to me to scrape what's left into the garbage. Clean that plate. :D
 
::Warning::​
This is a vent, so if you're not down for bitches who curse like sailors, then get the fuck out.​


Hey everyone,

sorry I'm sucking with replying back to everyone's post, but lately life took yet another shit on me. Yah! Remember the whole ordeal about dad coming home and me doing my best to help both of my parents whatever way I can? My mom... she's phenomenal. She's loss ~8 lbs since the beginning of January. My dad... he's well.... an unappreciative dick. I am not one to force anything on anyone. If you want to eat, then go ahead and do that, but don't make me out as the "bad guy trying to fucking starve you."

This whole "healthy lifestyle" with my dad went down the drain within a matter of a week. He felt the need to blame both me and my mom for everything. Hell, I understand being cranky during the first few weeks of dieting (not really, but I've seen people get like that), but when you become an absolute fuckhead and feel the need to tell me "fuck you" and then suddenly decide you're not going to talk to me for over a week, then that's when I say, "Do what you need to do, but don't call me when you need help or get sick." (Believe me, this shit is killing me, because my dad USED to be my hero and we were really tight. However, one thing that you never do is argue dirty and feel the need to bring my divorce into any of it. Yah... he pulled that card. Asshole. Also.. never ever.. say "Fuck you" to my face, because IMO I lose respect for that person right there and then.)

No matter how much I try to make small talk with him, he ignores me and talks to everyone else as if there's nothing wrong. The only time he DOES speak to me ...oops... correction.. yells at me is when I've supposedly "done something wrong." He treats me like I'm 15, yet he acts like a fucking 10 year old. Does that make any fucking sense? I mean really? He looks at me with disgust, which in my opinion, hurts the most. I didn't do or say anything to make him turn on me. Even my mom has tried talking to him as to why he's being so mean towards me. They've been getting into huge arguments over it.

I've spent WAY too much fucking time having to be ignored for days, weeks and even a month by my husband even though I did whatever I could to take care of him. Fuck.. and now my father's going to pull the same shit? I've dealt with one dickhead. I don't need another in my life. Soooooo.... needless to say, being back in Hawaii wasn't what it was all cracked up to be. I don't want to cause drama in my family period, so I'm thinking I need to get the fuck off of this rock. It's going to be a ballsy move, but I'm making plans.

As for my health, I'm taking care of me, period. Regardless of how my father is treating me right now. This Saturday's my weigh in and I'm hoping to hit the 180s. For once in my life I'm going to do what's good for me and that is it. I really do hope everyone is doing well. Once again, sorry for not being around to support each and every one of you.

-Sheryl
 
Sheryl, vent, vent vent!!! if shit's on your mind get rid of it before it gets too stupid...

That being said... if you ever wanna trade parent stories... If got a mom who might make a good match here...

Glad you're still taking care of you!!! Thats your number one priority.
 
Sheryl,

Sigh... It's hard when the ones you love won't do what they need to do to be healthy (I've been on both ends of that stick). It's wrong of him blame you and you are right to be pissed. The only thing I can say is he's probably scared and displacing his bad feelings on you. I'm sorry it's happening, things seemed so hopeful.

But your instinct is right-on. Take care of yourself, you can't fix him but you can be healthy. Maybe if he see's you do it it will make a difference. Either way you'll be healthy. Maybe being there isn't good. You WILL know what to do when it's time to decide.

Stay strong, beautiful! Hugs!

David
 
Sheryl .... OH MY FUCKING GOD.

That is awful. That's just so awful. I know what it's like having an unappreciative father, too. You don't deserve any of this BS.

I can't believe you're going through all this shit right now. If I were you, I'd be going absolutely BONKERS!!

So feel free to vent at ANY TIME. And if there is anything I can do, just let me know.

I luvs ya, girl!
 
Damn girl!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 I feel you better than you would know!!!!!!!!!! my mom blames me for everything............. my dad hates me............. it is what it is....:gnorsi: it sucks we can't change life.. we are given these obstacles for some reason or another..... whatever you need I'm here... stay up chickee.. cuz the miniute u go down ur dead......... fuck that shit.
 
There's a time for everything, Sheryl....a time to GIVE support, like you have to so many of us for a long time...and a time to GET support, which is what you need now.

Take care of you, and let everyone here help. You can get back to supporting us when things have settled for you. :grouphug:
 
Thanks for the short chat last night. I don't always have answers but I do have understanding in unlimited quantities. I'm a magnet to life beatdowns and a master of bouncing up from them so feel free to bang off of me when you're blue. I got big shoulders.

hugs here and now.
 
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