MGB's Diary: "Clean Your Plate," they said.

Re: the Dog Incident: I can't stand irresponsible dog owners. People are DUMB and don't realize the pack mentality, and dogs end up behaving badly and getting into trouble. Good for you for being a good mama to Max! And while I don't agree with kicking dogs, in that specific case it was necessary!!! But for fucks sake the lady shouldn't have let go of the leash!! :banghead:
 
MsGhettoBooty said:
Sadly, Max and I walked away. Max is a pussy of a pitbull and I'm an evil "Chihuahua Punter." (Nickname given by my father.) Damn cunts and their chihuahuas. Pffft... and they say pitbulls are vicious. My ass.
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Just a point of information, if you ever find yourself in a situation where punting a Chihuahua doesn't work, never get between the dogs. Always pull your dog away by his tail. It's safest for you. He might not know what he's biting at when in the thick of it.

Of course punting the Chihuahua is the furst course of action, but punting the cunt is not a bad solution either.
 
Hey everyone,

I'd like to thank those who dropped in to leave a post here in my lil' ol' diary. Sorry that I can't get to each and everyone of your diaries, but unfortunately life has thrown yet another marvelous event in my life. On New Year's Day my father was rushed into the ER only to find out that he has acute pancreatitis. Due to his weight (he weighs ~330lbs) they are going to have to take an extreme measure to allow his pancreas time to heal: no food or drink for a week, plus. He's hooked up to every machine possible and is given hourly shots of morphine for his pain and sodium chloride and the sorts for "nourishment." It kills me to see how much pain my dad is going through and as horrible as this may sound, maybe this will be his "wakeup call" to start taking care of himself.

Obesity runs in my family big time and yes, we have just about every damn medical disease you can think of. (Yes, on both sides of my family.) As hard as I'm trying to take care of myself, it's just so damn difficult here in Hawaii for a few reasons:

1) As much as I try not to let it get to me, this fucking divorce is depressing me as all hell. I've gained a good amount of weight through this entire ordeal. I can tell in my face that I've gained weight and it just brings me down.

A little background: My lowest weight was 145lbs mainly because I spent ~4hrs in the gym/day, because Sean was never home and when he was, he wouldn't speak to me. In other words, the gym was there to keep me from going insane and to keep me from crying because Sean didn't seem to want me there. Yup, it wasn't healthy at all, but it was the only thing I could do to keep me "happy." At 145, I didn't like the way my face looked (gaunt and all that good shit), so I ended putting on some weight to about 155lbs. We then bought the house in Endicott where our marriage began to crumble completely. (April-September '08) I weighed 170lbs by the time I left NY for Canada. (Sept 19th) Today, I weigh 185lbs and believe me, I'm trying my best to get control of my weight again. I can truthfully say, divorce can seriously destroy you if you aren't careful. Sadly, my divorce is only in the "beginning phase."

2) I attend therapy every week as a result of a number of issues gained during my marriage. Sadly enough, I am not "emotionally/ mentally stable to work" at the moment. Therefore, no job= not being able to purchase healthy food that will help in my weight loss. I have to depend on my parents (since I live with them) and yah, that's hard.

3) Another downside of not having a job, not being able to get into a gym. I've tried working out at home for a number of years before, but personally speaking, it's just not the same. I enjoy the atmosphere of a gym setting and seeing others really workout gives me inspiration to want to achieve my weight loss goals as well.

4) The cost of "healthy food" here is insane. Seriously, 3-5 bucks for 12oz of whole wheat dried pasta?? A gallon of 1% milk for $8???? Really? Fuck me.

I wake up every morning to read my "goals poster" taped to my bedroom door outloud with the hopes it will help me to get through the day. All I can do is to remain strong and positive. I just wish that all of this would stop and I could be the same happy, healthy person I used to be. God help me and my family.


-Sheryl
 
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Divorce sucks. But sometimes it really is the best, often only, way to do the right thing for ourselves.

Take care of you the best you can. Margaret was able to lose a ton of weight just walking, so it can definately be done. Hopefully you'll be able to work soon.

Hope your dad feels better quick and will take better care of himself to keep it from happening again.
 
:sifone:
HAHAHAHA! Kimberly! :D

Sheryl,

I was So Excited to see you and your reply in my diary!
:hug2:
Welcome Back Ms. Hottie! ;)

Sorry to hear the news re: your marriage.
It is for sure 1,000% his LOSS!

HAPPY NEW YEAR DOLL!
I just know many wonderful and exciting things will come your way in '09'

TTYS!

<3 Stacy aka The Krunk-Ass Bitch!

:sifone:
 
Well Chit,
as soon as I posted I saw yer new reply....

:(

So sorry to hear about your dad! :hug2:

I'm so sorry you are havin' a hard time with all the issues at hand.
I know one thing though,

You are strong as hell and you'll get through this!

You and your family will be in my prayers every night and every morning.

**Giant Texas-Sized Hugs!**

<3 Stacy
 
I had no idea things between you and Sean had been so bad for so long--you sure put up a good front! :hug2:

And now to add to your stress is your dad. I sure know how you feel, as my mom was in and out of the hospital for a couple of months this fall. I sure hope he gets better soon, and that this does give him the wake up he needs--but don't be surprised if it doesn't. And try not to stress too much if it doesn't. I feel this way with my mom. I got to a point where I finally decided that if she wants to do this to herself, there is nothing I can do to stop her, and I'm not going to get all upset about it--ha! easier said than done. ;) But I try, and she has actually been a lot better lately. I hope it all works out for your dad. :hug2:

Those food prices are incredible! You wanna move in with us and be my nanny? :smilielol5: I can't afford to pay ya, but I could give you free room and healthy eating board--and we could walk our asses off together. :D

I know 2009 will be a good year for you. You did an amazing job of losing weight last time--and started out at a much higher weight than you are at now. You will do it again, and you will get through this divorce and be wiser and stronger than before. And you will meet someone who treats you the way you deserve to be--like the beautiful, intelligent, sweetheart of a goddess that you are. :beating:
 
I just wanna hug you, dear.

I just thank God you have the wherewithall to come out the other side of this a better woman - and you will. This is truly a 'forest thru the trees' if ever I read one.

I'm there when you need me.
 
OMG Sheryl, I am so sad to hear you say all this. First off, let us all say a prayer for your father that he gets better soon. It is so tough to see your loved ones in pain. That is a huge issue that must have you completely at your wits end.

This thing with Sean is just such a shame. Obviously you had high hopes when you married him and it is crushing that its come to an end. It does sound like you'll be so much better off once the dust settles and your heart mends. Its not great to be around someone that wont even speak to you when you're home together. That is totally uncalled for. Believe me girl, I have different but very big issues myself in my home. It is highly stressful and you try to figure out is life easier to keep up with the BS or to make that move and try to go for the gusto of happiness. You have chosen the latter and in time you will really see that.

Now girlie, its time to get on track with your weight. That is going to make you feel so good healthwise and mentally. Take this opportunity with your Dad to teach them about health. Rice and beans can be awfully cheap and they are healthy (of course the meat is pricey but..). Homemade oatmeal for breakfast, bananas? What are some other cheap foods to be added? How about just cutting out junk food? No need to get all dietey on them, just get them to cut out the snacks and to eat 3 or 4 healthy meals a day instead of grazing or eating really high calorie junk meals. Yeah, easier said than done we all realize..

I know the gym setting is your preferred setting, but you are in gorgeous warm Hawaii woman. GET YOUR GORGEOUS ASS OUT THERE AND TAKE AN HOUR WALK AT LEAST 4 times per week. Then you can join my New Year's 6 week goal challenge! Pretty please with sugar on top?? We need you back homie! But if you're not ready to take these steps, I understand. Just trying to light that fire under your butt! :D
 
Cita's right, you need to join us with the 6 week challenge. It may help your spirits a bit. I'm so sorry things suck ass for you right now. You know, I remember your pics when you were 185 last time and you were hot! So don't worry about the number on the scale. You're still gorgeous!

I truly hope your dad starts feeling better soon!
 
Love ya is all I can say.

So sorry about your pa.

That's out of your control at the moment. What is meant to be will be and let's hope it's enough to 'open his eyes.'

On your front, you have an awful lot on your plate. And nothing is going to be easy with so much negativity in your life at the moment. It penetrates the best of intentions and overrides positive, productive emotions quite easily.

Just keep telling yourself that this too shall pass. You are a beautiful, strong, confident woman. The world is yours for the taking. There is so much opportunity lurking around any and every corner. You just have to get yourself in the mindset to take it by the horns.

No matter what, you're a winner and will come out of this just fine.
 
:hug2:Aaawww:hug2:Hunny bunny:hug2:

Divorce, seperation and so on are all horrible things to go through for many reasons...I wasn't in the greatest healthiest relationship and all, it too me Id say abt 3 yrs minimum to start getting back to myself. To even just start feeling normal...My self esteem, self worth, self image and all was totally crushed.

I also went to theropy for a long time just to talk about how I felt and to work on getting myself back to normal.

I know and can understand what you ar3e going through and I am totally here for ya Babe...Im sorry you are currently going throuhg this but you will come out on top.

:hug2::hug2::hug2:
 
Sheryl, *hugs* I am so sorry to hear about your dad and I know that must be so hard on you. I will keep him in my prayers.

I have been in your shoes, GF...I too, have survived an unhappy marriage and an ugly divorce and it's easy to let all of that swallow you up and in fact lose your goals, dreams and very often yourself (for a bit). When I was first in those early days of divorce, a long walk alone everyday was therapy to me. I began to look forward to my alone time and began to lose weight in the process.

I am struggling right now with weight gain and have to say I am just where you are weight wise...(I think we are the same height--5'4"). I started back eating healthier (and smaller portions...frequent small meals during the day) and though I felt very pessimistic on Monday, today, I am encouraged by the small steps of progress.

Its hard not to look backwards, but it is always best not too--and to keep looking ahead. There are good and great things waiting for you!! Hang in there and if you need someone to talk to...pm me. I am here for ya.

Beth
 
Hey you! Did you call me today and leave a weird message with a restricted phone number? :D I'm listening to the message and thinking, "who is this singing to me??" If it was you, sorry I missed ya. I was in the shower. :biggrinjester:
 
Hi!!!! I was reading all your posts and I truly wish u the best in 2009!!!! I TOO WHEN IN DEEP PROBLEMS EAT SO MUCH AND GAIN WEIGHT... U HAVE ACCOMPLISHED SO MUCH AND GAINING MORE WEIGHT ON TOP OF ALL UR PROBLEMS IS ONLY GOING TO MAKE U A DEPRESSED MESS...:CONFUSED: WHEN RIGHT NOW UR JUST CONFUSED..... THE BEST WAY TO COPE WITH SO MUCH DRAMA IN UR LIFE IS THRU BOOKS AND FRIENDS... BUT BOOKS ARE AMAZING...

JIM ROHN IS A MOTIVATIONAL SPEAKER WHO IS AMAZING..... GOOGLE HIM ORDER HIS BOOKS GIVE ME UR ADDRESS AND ILL SEND U SOME... YOU REALLY HAVE TO GET YOUR SELF OUT OF THIS.. MUCH EASIER SAID THAN DONE. IT FEELS AS OF NO ONE UNDERSTANDS BUT TRUST ME IM SURE A LOT OF PEOPLE DO!!!!

YOU NEED TO FIND YOURSELF AGAIN!!!! YOUR PASSIONS IN LIFE AND WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?? I READ A LOT TO GET THRU THE HARDSHIPS IN LIFE..

I WISH YOU ALL THE BEST AND TRUST ME I UNDERSTAND YOU MORE THAN YOU WILL EVER KNOW.... LIFE IS HARD AND NO ONE EVER SAID IT WAS GOING TO BE EASY..

LOSING WEIGHT WE PUT AS THE OBSTACLE IN THE BEGINNING BUT IT'S A LOT DEEPER THAN LOSING WEIGHT.. YOU HAVE ALREADY ACCOMPLISHED THAT AND NOW YOU SEE THAT WAS NEVER THE REAL ISSUE.. YOU WERE ONLY HIDING BEHIND YOUR WEIGHT.. FIND YOURSELF BABY GIRL... U DESERVE IT..

I WILL LIGHT A CANDLE FOR YOUR FATHER TONIGHT AND A CANDLE FOR YOU!!!!!!! YOU DESERVE THE BEST IN THIS LIFE AND DON'T EVER LET ANYONE TELL YOU DIFFERENT...
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AmbaLove said:
Divorce sucks. But sometimes it really is the best, often only, way to do the right thing for ourselves.
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Hey Amber have missed you, chica. How are things going? Thank you for the advice and believe me, I'm taking all the advice I can get. I really do appreciate it. :hug2:

As for Margaret, I give her credit. Personally speaking, I enjoy walking, but I get bored easily with it. For me, I enjoyed working out the most when I was weight training. Honestly, weight training is what really helped me to strengthen and lose in my ass and hips. Damn ghettobooty of mine. But hey.. I'm not giving up. I just need to find something that will work for me. Period. :)

hickgurltx said:


You are strong as hell and you'll get through this!

You and your family will be in my prayers every night and every morning.

**Giant Texas-Sized Hugs!**

<3 Stacy
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Woohoo my favorite lil hick mama, Stacy! Hey Beautiful! :hug2: Thank you so much for your prayers. I really believe it helped my father while he was in the hospital. I'll go into detail about that entire ordeal later on, but I just want to send you hugs and lots of love for being so supportive. Love yas, you krunk-assed biznatch. ;)

bikinibound said:
I had no idea things between you and Sean had been so bad for so long--you sure put up a good front! :hug2:
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Unfortunately, one thing I learned while being with Sean is you can't show those around you how sad you really are. I cared too much about him to really put my own feelings into account. For me, I'd rather pretend to be happy just so I can make others laugh. I've always put others before myself and I assure you, that's a work in progress.

As for dad, I know you're in the same situation with your parents as well. I completely understand where you're coming from and of course, God only helps those you help themselves. This has become my mantra while living back at home.


I know 2009 will be a good year for you. You did an amazing job of losing weight last time--and started out at a much higher weight than you are at now. You will do it again, and you will get through this divorce and be wiser and stronger than before. And you will meet someone who treats you the way you deserve to be--like the beautiful, intelligent, sweetheart of a goddess that you are. :beating:
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Seriously, Kimberly... thank you. I'm trying not to beat myself with, "Fuck.. I used to be blah blah blah pounds, but now look at me." I'm doing my best with just being patient with my divorce and when the time comes for it to completely end, then I will exhale a huge sigh of relief. No shit.. it'll be like a weight lifted off my shoulders once I get my divorce finalized.

As for meeting someone... girl, I'm fucking Sheryl. Once people found out I was in the middle of a divorce, men (and women) came running to "my aid." :p HA! (I know.. "Sheryl, you conceited cunt." LOL) But hey, it's nice hearing others say, "I knew you were too good for him back when...." or "That's his fuckup, so want to go out for dinner some time?" LOL When the time comes, I'm sure I'll be all good. I just won't go repeating the cycle with dating a fucking douchebag.
Blancita said:
OMG Sheryl, I am so sad to hear you say all this. First off, let us all say a prayer for your father that he gets better soon. It is so tough to see your loved ones in pain. That is a huge issue that must have you completely at your wits end.


I know the gym setting is your preferred setting, but you are in gorgeous warm Hawaii woman. GET YOUR GORGEOUS ASS OUT THERE AND TAKE AN HOUR WALK AT LEAST 4 times per week. Then you can join my New Year's 6 week goal challenge! Pretty please with sugar on top?? We need you back homie! But if you're not ready to take these steps, I understand. Just trying to light that fire under your butt! :D
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Hola Mami... thank you also for the prayers. Dad is doing better and he's trying his best to change his lifestyle. All of the prayers meant so much to me and my family, so I thank you, girly.

As for Sean... fuck him. HA!

As for working out, I would get my ass out there and walk more if this damn rain would stop. Since I've been back, we've had so many tropical rainstorms. It's been so damn muddy and flashfloods are a big thing where I live, so I'm a big fan of not drowning, you know? lol But nah, I got you, girl... I've got my ass in gear, so best believe, I'm not giving up. It's harder not having a gym, but fuck it, I'll make do. Thank you for your support, mami.
 
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