Mel's Little Weight Loss Journey!

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chef_mel

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Hey everyone. So i've been reading a lot of these posts for a while now, but havent really posted myself. So I am not overweight, but i have been briefly in the past, and I have been feeling really out of control with food lately. I just feel heavy and bloated and bleghhh, you know what i mean? Also a lot of my clothes dont fit anymore, and i dont want to have to go and buy more clothes again, so i thought lets nip this in the bud and sort it out now rather than later!


I am 21 years old, a full-time studentin Bath, England, and also a part-time Chef. I think this may be why i tend to binge, i just LOVE FOOD. I love cooking it, i love eating it, i love talking about it- just everything! But i happen to be one ofthese people that just feels comfortable being rather thin. I understand that so many people would dream to be a size 12 (US size 8), but i only feel comfortable when im a size 8, i just feel horrible in my own skin when i'm not.


So anyway,i intend to lose something between 15-25 pounds depending on when i fit into all my size 8s again and i feel better. I want to do this the healthy way, and dont constantly yoyo which is what im always doing.


I intend to start my diet 2nd January (with everyone else!lol!). I am hoping that a diet plan of:


Breakfast- natural yoghurt, fruit and nuts

Lunch- pasta or couscous salad with fruit

Dinner- Hearty big portion of soup (with a good mix of carbs and protein in it)

Snacks- Coffee, fruit, veg, nuts etc.


Oh and not drinking too much, limiting myself to drinking 2 nights a week (when your a 1st year student, trust me, its hard not to drink almost every night! lol!)


So i will post back on the first day of my diet, with what weight i am and see how i go!


Wish me luck everyone xxx


Melanie
 
Day 2


So yesterday i weighed in, and my starting weight in 129 pounds (or 9 stone 3). After looking at this, i feel like i would like to get down to at least 115 (8 stone 3), so in all i have a stone to lose. Yesterday for breakfast i had yoghurt with some granola and an apple, for lunch i had some mushroom and ham soup with brown bread, and for dinner i had some pasta with some homemade ragu (made with plenty of vegetables- about half beef to veg ratio). Snacks i had olives, celery sticks and a couple of coffees.


I love having olives as snacks, i feel like they get rid of my craving for salty foods, which is what i tend to crave. I'm not generally someone that craves cream cakes or cookies or things like that, i usually want savoury things like crisps, or noodles, or curry or something. But olives are good because of course, they may be slightly calorific, but they do still count as one of your 5 a day.


This morning i weighed in at 127.8! This is very good for just one day on this diet! I'm feeling quite good on it, and i'm just trying to get rid of my horrible cold that i've had over christmas/ since my winter holiday to Iceland. So i need to eat more fruit i think! Plenty of vitamin C anyway.


Today i just had a latte for breakfast, Cream of tomato soup with a couple of slices of bread for lunch, and for dinner i cooked myself cajun chicken couscous salad. Was really nice, and i think it's a step in the right direction, to make myself pasta or couscous WHICH I LOVE- but learning control, learning not to overeat these products like i normally do, and learning what the right sort of portion size for me.


Of course, i intend to add excercize to this eating plan also. I cant get to the gymn untill i come back to Uni (on the 9th), but i'm going to go swimming with my mum tommorow, plus i'm in the process of moving house atm so plenty of hulking boxes about!


Everythings going rather well so far! I'll see if theres any change tommorow on the scales!


Starting weight: 129

Current weight: 127.8

Weight loss so far: 1.2lbs

Days so far: 1
 
Day 6


5 pounds in 5 days- i am very impressed so far! Although i think that result would have been even better if it wasnt for the other day. Had a few drinks and ended up having chinese food for lunch the next day because i was a little hungover, which was probably pretty high in fat. Plus also I am going to a Mexican restaurant tonight, because its my mums birthday, and theres going to be frickin coctails and lots of high fat food there. I'm checking the menu, and that place does do salads/ grilled meats as well as the normal fajita/enchilada/chimi changa options, so i may go for something like that.


I am telling you though, drinking ruins everything! It just removes all your resolve for eating. Or at least, it does the next day. Because who wants lettuce when your hanging? Lol! Also it's my staff Christmas party on monday (people that work in restaurants always have their Xmas party after New years/ Christmas, because we are too busy over that period) which involves a three course meal and loads of drinks (which is free- companies paying for it- yum, lol). And a couple of our friends have invited us over for a dinner party on Wednesday. Being social is just NOT good for weight loss i'm telling you!!! I'll just try my best to stick to my diet plan, despite all the eating out.


Today I had a yoghurt and a glass of orange juice for breakfast, i'm going to have a tin of soup (no bread! gotta be good today to make up for the meal in the evening!) for lunch, and try not to go too wild with the meal tonight. I am really hoping to lose another pound, to make it a 6 pound week, that'd be awesome.


Cheers guys,


Mel xXx


Starting weight: 129

Current weight: 124

Weight loss so far: 5

Days so far: 5

Average weight loss: 1lb a day.
 
Day 14

So it's been two weeks, and i'm 7.2lbs down, which is good i guess, but i havent been sticking to the diet. I feel like i would have lost a lot more if it wasnt for all the alchohol. I do wonder if i have a problem sometimes with it, like how once i start getting a little drunk, i just want more and more, and i (if i dont eat instead) then I drink when im bored or stressed. And i feel very stressed at the moment. I thought moving in my boyfriend would be a good idea, we've been together 3 1/2 years so i thought i knew what he was like. But he's never bloody here, he's always out drinking with his friends, and if HE IS here, he stays up in his office and works. It's like he makes time for his friends and his work, but absolutely none for me. I spose out of those three things, he knows i'm the one that isn't going to leave, i'm the one thats always gonna be here anyway. Apparently.


I dont know how to cope with my depression. I never have. I have been to many doctors over the years but most of them ignored me, even after 2 suicide attempts when i was 17. Someone put me on prozac eventually but i just dont respond to it well, its a strange drug. I just switch from one mood to the other so much, i can be so happy and then i'll be crying. And its not just hormones, i'm 21 now, and i still have to live with all this.


I want to be healthy, i want to stop drinking and smoking, i want to look in the mirror and see something that i'm not repulsed by. Theres still some of that anorexia/ bulimia here with me, i just happen not to starve myself/ purge anymore. The thoughts are still there. Maybe i should have had counselling for all this but i never had it properly.


And theres always the cruel part of me that tells me " it doesnt matter how thin or fat you are, you've still got an ugly face, so whats the point?"


I suppose all i can do is try to be healthy, eat plenty of good food and excercize, and hope that everything becomes better for me eventually. Sometimes it's so hard to get up in the morning and face another day. I suppose it doesnt matter atall what i bloody write here anyway, because i'm ignored here even though i suffer from a lot of the same problems as people who are 50, 100, 200 pounds heavier than me.


Starting weight: 129

Current weight: 121.8

Weight loss so far: 7.2

Days so far: 13

Average weight loss: about 3.5 pounds a week.
 
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