Melissa's Diary.

EwItsAGoober

EwItsAGoober

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May 24, 2007

So, basically...I am:

Melissa.
20 years old
5'9''
300 lbs.
Goal: 160 ish.
Pants: Size 24
Wanna be a: 10-12
Timeframe: By May 11, 2008 (Probably not very realistic)
Gym: 3-4 times per week
Doing: Treadmill, brisk walk,15-20 minutes. Followed by weight machines.
Diet: Don't know the MEANING of the word...But I'm trying. Sort of.
But why?: Because I'm tired of being the biggest of all my friends. Tired of being afraid to do anything I want because of my size or physical limitations. Tired of having to watch all my girlfriends try on clothes and then going to a plus sized store alone later. Tired of having my heart broken because I'm not the "Ideal" girl.

Ever since I was little I've been big. I've always been tall, but around 5-6 years old, I started becoming tall and heavy. And it's really never stopped. I figure I'm finished growing upwards. But I never really seem to stop growing outwards. I don't eat more than 2 times a day. And I used to eat things like Taco Bell 2 times a day. Now I'm getting a bit better. I haven't had fried food in about 3 weeks. No soda. Mainly water and cranberry juice. I should be going to the gym more than I do and it's probably time to change my workout because after the first week of weight machines, I could barely move I hurt so badly. Now I don't feel anything. Isn't that a sign that it's time to amp it up? I don't like running at the gym because there's so many other people there and I feel very uncomfortable with my fat jiggling and the loud sound of my feet hitting the track. So I do only a fast walk with a slight incline. I feel like I'm losing motivation. FAST. I'm working on that. My motivation when I started was breaking up with my boyfriend. Well, he broke up with me. Typical girl thought..."I'm not pretty enough. I'm going to fix it." The first 2 weeks after, I'd actually lost about 13 lbs. But once I started moving on, I gained it all back. Now I'm back to square one. And I have this mind set that I'm just not meant to be skinny, not made to be pretty.

<3Melissa
 
horsefeatherss that you aren't made to be skinny or pretty... you can get to a healthy weight that you are comfortable at....it's just gonna take some time..

I do suggest getting an account at or - it's a great way to record your daily calories -it'sa lot easier to cut back when you knowwhere your calories are going - and there's no reason to give up youor favorite foods.

I'm kinda stingy calorie wise, so i tend ot prefer to not drink my daily calories -so you might want to watcht he cranberry juice - the ocean spray variety tends tohave a lot of sugar and not much else - from my understanding the nutritional benefits o the cranberry - for urinary tract health, comes from drinking the unprocessed drink... water is your friend.

good luck and I really look forward to you reaching your goals
 
Thanks a lot guys. It really means a lot to me to see someone cares. It's hard going at it alone, but those 2 replies alone actually make me feel 100 times better. :hug2:
 
You won't be alone here, that's for sure. It's a great place to get support and stay motivated.

You'll build relationships in no time. Don't disappear on us!! I hope today you are strong. Go girl!
 
Well here's the fourth one!
Welcome to WLF - We care!
You can believe Mal there in the previous post. She has some experience in this, as you can see from her signature...
When you have the time to stroll around here you see that the motivational problems are present everywhere. But you also find some very inspirational posts about all the good things that come from losing some of the extra weight. There are so many people here who have managed to change the direction of their lives that it really makes me humble. And the change is available to anyone who cares about her/himself. That's you! :) So be good to yourself!
Juliette
 
Thanks so much guys! I've been a member for like, an hour and I've already gotten more support here than I've had from my family! It's almost made me cry...haha.
 
Hi! It's a good thing you stumbled into this place b/c there is soooo much support to be had here! :) I joined earlier this year, and I have been blessed by these wonderful people.
I know what it's like to lose motivation. I'm coming out of a slump myself. Keep your chin and feel free to contact me if you need any help in any way. I'll keep checking in on you to see how things are.

Good Luck! Selena
 
Aww! Thanks, Selena! This morning as soon as I woke up, I got dressed and got in the car to go to the gym. Normally I'll drive past and use some excuse like, "It's too crowded" or "I'll go later". But then I was like, "Now how would these people feel if I came home and said I didn't go?!". Haha. So I parked the car and did 15 mins. of cardio (light stuff) and then the weight machines (2 sets of 12 reps each machine) and then 30 mins. of cardio again. And let me tell you, I walked outside with my head as high as I could put it. :jump:
 
About the cranberry juice... what kind are you drinking? I like cranberry juice a lot, and I generally get the Northland brand. It's not 100% cranberry juice (that would be way too bitter), but it's 100% juice. They have a lot of different flavors, too. I like mixing it with orange juice. It's really tasty. Like someone else mentioned, the Ocean Spray brand has added sugars and is not 100% juice, so if you're drinking that next time you're shopping you should consider the Northland brand (or some other brand that's 100% juice).

Anyway... good luck on your journey!
 
I do drink Ocean Spray, but since everyone's told me about it not being all that great for you, I'm going to get a different brand next time I shop. Also, what's up with Green Tea? Is it really natures weight loss program?
 
there's a thread or two here on green tea -and there've been some random studies that say it does burn a few calories - not the caloriesin a pint of ben and jerrys but a few calories -my belief its the caffiene in it tht does something.

my opinion on it -drink it becuase you like it - not because you expect it to have some sort of magical effect - I personally find it bland... though the celestial seasonings peach flavored green tea isn't bad iced.. with just a bit of splenda..
 
Ok, thanks! I mean, I like it a bit, but I was wondering if I should go out and buy it in bulk or not. But if it's really not all it's cracked up to be, I'll save my money.
 
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