MasterofJune's Diary *There is no spoon*

Ahhh...gone too long. Still coming here though...more of a lurker now.

I have hit a point in my life that I am maintaining. The weight is now coming off slowly, and that's okay with me. Truly it is. I was losing really fast there for awhile, but now I am losing at a slower rate.

I feel great. I haven't felt this good in so long.

You are going to have to forgive me. I am somewhat obsessional, and I tend to get into something like this forum hardcore for awhile, and then lose interest. Sounds crazy but it's true.

I have left the 300+ club, and am now officially in the 200's. That's super cool. I haven't weighed this little in years.

I have been pretty lazy lately. That thing that was screwing my life up for awhile just won't go away. I am going to be moving in about six months to subtropical Florida. That is going to be great. This is my last cold winter for a long time.

Just wanted to pop in.

Peace to you all...

D
 
Congrats on getting to the 200's!

Good to see you back around. Stick with your weightloss. Slow or fast as long as it's coming off it's a great thing.
Hope things get straightened out for you.
Take care!
 
It's good to see you and know that your weight loss is still happening. You know you are one of the ones we expect to make it!!
 
Hey everyone.

I have officially fallen off the wagon.

I have been ignoring this site. I keep getting email messages about updates, but have quickly been deleting them wishing they would go away. They don't. They just keep coming.

I have actually gained back some weight...about 10 pounds to be exact. I feel awful and depressed about it. I stopped everything basically.

How could I have come so far just to give up for awhile?

I don't know, but I did.

I will be posting again tonight, to let you know where I am and where I stand, and what my plan is.

I feel I have let myself down. I feel I have let you down.

Time to pick up the pieces again.

Peace to you all.

D
 
Don't beat yourself up, (it serves no good purpose whatsoever) just get back on the wagon and keep looking forward. You'll drop that 10lbs fast, and keep going from there. You did not let us down--so don't even think that. I'm glad you're back, Dan. :)
 
Thanks Kimberly.

The problem is, that in a way I did let everyone down. Not just here on this forum, but everyone in my life circle. In my tree, so to speak.

I guess it started at Thanksgiving and extended itself through the past couple of weeks. You find out that eating bad at Thanksgiving didn't hurt you at all, and then the downward spiral started.

I found myself getting back into old habits, and not following through, always saying "next week I'll start again." or "Tomorrow I'll start again."

The problem is that I didn't, nor did I believe I had the intentions too. It was like pacifying myself to allow an excuse.

The first step getting back on is awareness right?

I hope so.

I have changed my goals to reasonable. I will probably never see 200 pounds. That is fine with me. I have to accept the fact that being thin and being fit are two different sums to the equation. At 250, I can see myself being where I need to be. If I get there and don't feel it yet, I can up the ante. It's easier for me to have a reasonable goal instead of having to look that far down the road.

I have to go to work soon, so I will be posting my upcoming plan later on.

Thanks for the continued support.

Peace

D
 
All you need to do is chose to start NOW. Tomorrow will always be a day away, yesterday will always be the past... which is great in this case. Just let what happened be in the past & realize that you are here in the now. This is what you want to do & you will do it. You aren't letting anyone down, unless you are letting yourself down. The support on here should help you in the hard times, but don't let it get you down when you are already. I certainly don't intend it to be that way.

Glad to see you are back.

If it makes you feel any better I haven't lost anything in a while. Holidays are rough. I have added a couple of pounds & they just don't want to move. I keep telling myself I know what to do ...now just do it. Unfortunately old habits die hard & junk food & couch time just seem to hit the spot sometimes. I have to remind myself that the hardest step is getting on the shoes & hitting the treadmill. After that it will flow. Just have to make that commitment to myself.

Good luck & hope you hang in there. We all have set backs. :)
 
I agree with Moongoddess. The holidays are tough. I gained 5lbs over them, but I got back to work once they were over and have lost those 5lbs. You'll lose those 10 in no time, just get back to work. Don't beat yourself up over it. Yes, you fell off the wagon. Now stop dwelling on it and get back to work. Feeling guilty and bad about it won't make it better, it'll just make it worse. It certainly isn't the end of the world. Just move forward and don't look back.
 
Ten pounds is a big bump in the road and it's surprising how fast it can come back. However, as long as you turn it around, it's not as significant as what you've lost. I totally relate to your feelings about what has happened to you, because my situation has been so very similar.

However, I ate well yesterday. I posted in my diary last night. I exercised this morning. I know I'm back in the groove. We can pick up and get going again. It's one of the skills we need for being able to do this thing. (I just need to make it happen a hellofalot faster than I did this time!)

It's great to see you posting!!
 
Hey Dan,
Good to see you back. Don't worry yourself too much about the gain. The one thing I've finally figured out this time around with my weightloss is it's all about your frame of mind. You have to want to do it. For you that period thru the holidays you got into a different mindset and you lapsed back into your old routines. Not the end of the world. Just reinstate your new habits that you had been having your success with before Thanksgiving and you'll be back on track. Don't beat yourself up though. One day at a time and you'll get to where you want to be.
Paul
 
Welcome back! Keep in mind that you haven't let us down as we've all been in the same boat plenty of times.

Is there any chance you were too gung ho or restrictive with your plan before? I dont recall what you were doing but just wanted to throw that out there as a possibility. No one likes to be too deprived before they start to rebel. I notice many people who come here start off so damn gung ho, only to never hear from them again as their new habits become too much to keep up. I mean shiat, some people go so far even a model on crack couldn't keep up with the new habits. Go easy, take it slow, be consistent but not too hardcore (unless leaving some of the bad things leads to more bad things, meaning some people seem to need that all or nothing approach). Luckily you're not trying to fit into a bikini by summer, so slow down, smell the roses, get into healthier foods without being too austere and restrictive (e.g. no one likes their toast without butter) so that you'll be able to keep this up for the long haul.
 
I'm very much agreeing with MidGaGuy and Blancita.

I love this MidGaGuy
- you got into a different mindset and you lapsed back into your old routines.
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I have found this is very much how it works for me.

and this Blancita
Go easy, take it slow, be consistent but not too hardcore (unless having some of the bad things leads to more bad things, meaning some people seem to need that all or nothing approach).
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Personally I find both those aspects apply to me - needing to not be too hardcore/low carb/ low cal - and also needing to take a heap of care around a few "trigger" foods.

I know you two were thinking of Masterofjune when you wrote those things but I found it helpful to see other people giving out the advice that I know applies to me too - affirming I suppose. Thanks.
 
Hi folks. It's Masterofjune. Back and doing some soul-searching.

Amazing.

Been over 8 years and here I am again.

I look at these posts, and I was so full of life, hope and KNEW I was going to do it.

Kind of surreal, really. I find myself saying "I wrote that???!"

I can't log in to my old account, because I can't find the email address I used. Mods, if you get a chance, please work with me on this. I can prove it's me if needed.

How far we fall.

When I get a chance, if any of you are still here, I'll give an update tonight. I was most successful with the support of this group, so I really want to get back to this.

Peace,

Dan - Masterofjune
 
Hi Dan, and welcome back to the forum. I wasn´t here yet when you last logged on but I browsed your diary a bit and I´m looking forward to having you on board again :)

Best of luck, LaMa.
 
Hi Dan, & welcome back to the forum. Although I was around when you first started in the forum my diary was in a different section & I asked to have it moved here years ago. I didn't get to know you back then but look forward to it now. The forum is still incredibly supportive & I'm sure you will fit right back in. I don't where I would be without my diary! I just went back & read your first page & am looking forward to your update. Cheers, Cate
 
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