yeah I'm no good at all with stress. I would say just to give yourself a lot of compassion--what you are going through right now is super stressful and hard. It's bound to come out in the not best ways sometimes. Good for you catching it when criticizing K's work and apologizing.
Money-wise, I know if it were me, I would want to sit down with someone I trust and work it out so that it feels organized and managed. So you know what you want to spend on the house and what the plan is for paying back loans etc.
The only other thing that helps me with stress (besides exercise, eating well etc) is making schedules to follow that allows me to see what I am doing and how it fits into the timeline that I have set for myself, but I know you've said you hate routine so that probably wouldn't work at all for you and we don't want to add to your stress!
Money-wise, I know if it were me, I would want to sit down with someone I trust and work it out so that it feels organized and managed. So you know what you want to spend on the house and what the plan is for paying back loans etc.
The only other thing that helps me with stress (besides exercise, eating well etc) is making schedules to follow that allows me to see what I am doing and how it fits into the timeline that I have set for myself, but I know you've said you hate routine so that probably wouldn't work at all for you and we don't want to add to your stress!