Marissa's Diary

In addition to the last page: I forgot to add what I had today:

Breakfast/Lunch

Pork Chop
Stuffing
Mixed Veggies

Dinner:

Sausage tomato fresh garlic pizza 3 slices
Salad

on the pizza I make it with one packet of boboli sauce, and 1 cup of cheese on the whole pie.
 
I'm doing okay today, I'm staying positive. I know I can do this and am staying on my lifestyle change. I wanted to update what I had today because its not what it says above. I'm so glad to be back down to 377 I'm hoping to lose to 375. Then eventually hitting my mini goal of 370. I know I can do it I can feel it in my bones! Still wondering if my eating out from last week is going to show up on me this week? I'm trying to be extra good but its rather hard. Today I had the following:

Breakfast:
left overs
Pork Chop
stuffing
mixed veggies

Lunch:
1/2 of a Tuna Salad Sandwich
Chips
a few grapes

Dinner:
4 Slices of Pizza (homemade)
Salad with light ranch.

Now I'm going to try not to eat anything for the rest of the night. Although I am I night eater I'm managing it much better then before. I don't lose control like I have in the past. I have one item for a snack at night if I have one, so I'm really doing great at the night eating. I'm doing great so far this week I think I'm alittle heavy on the food but I'm still doing well.. and theres my second update for the day! Enjoy :D
 
Burn Off That Cake!

I haven't eaten anything yet today. I'm on here reading up on my favorite wrestler Chris Benoit. I'm sure you've all heard about that by now... ::sigh:: But enough of that tragedy and on to my weight loss! I ate something last night even though I told myself I would NOT! Ugh, I had a piece of cake. But so what. I'm not going to be able to always ward off the night eating I think thats part of losing the weight; snacks. Its difficult because I'm trying to cut it off completely. Which is probably going to be impossible to do, I need to set aside some calories where I can have a snack at night and not worry about the effects its going to have on my hips in the morning. Cake is probably not the ideal snack item, but it was there on the counter and it sure looked good. Man was it ever so good too. So what I had a piece of cake, I think I'm actually okay with it. At first I was not okay with it. But now I'm realizing that sometimes there will be times when you're going to have a piece of cake. And I'm okay with that.Finally. I think its getting through to my head. Yay one more step in the right direction. Well I must go clean house! Burn off that cake I ate!
 
Focus more on the big picture - and where you want to get to - there are always going to be slip ups - you seem to spend a lot of energy beating yourself up for a less than stellar choice...

When you make those choices... ask yourself why you ate what you did - ask yourself why you think it's unhealthy and what you could do better next time.

As long as you don't repeat the same mistakes... you're making progress and learning about yourself.
 
Loooonnng Timmmme

Wooohoo Its been a long time since I've written in here. I've been continuing on my lifestyle change I'm happy to report. Although my weigh in's haven't been to die for they've been alright I keep hanging around 377. I need to break the barrier and keep going down. Its tough every weekend theres a cook out with all this great food what do you do in those situations, I mean you try to control what your eating or do you say screw it and eat what you want and try and make it up next week? Its tough for me because A cook out is an open invite to over eat or eat things I really shouldn't or normally wouldn't. We've been having one just about every weekend for the past four weeks. And for the past for weeks I've been either 379 or 377. so sigh... Lets get through these summer months. Whats crazy is I lost all through the holidays christmas, thanksgiving no problem! Whats my problem with a cook out? maybe the fact christmas is one day, thanksgiving is one day, and not every week? Oh the possibilities. I'm going to start my walking as soon as I get my mp3 player which should be my birthday september 2nd but my mom may make me start sooner as she's home she says she needs to lose weight also. Which is good I'll have a walking partner for the time being. Its blistering hot out but by september that should be over I don't know what I'm going to do next summer I guess suck it up and go! Thats what every one else does no excuses. I need to stop making excuses for myself and just do it.
 
So I'm still continuing on my lifestyle change! I didn't do so well yesterday I over ate a little bit. I had a hot dog. Well I'll say it was good. But afterward I did nothing but beat myself up about it. I tend to do that a lot! Today I'm focusing on the future even though I haven't made oh so stellar choices today as well, I had the following:

Chicken Sandwich

4 Mini Donuts

7 Hot Wings

I have had nothing but junk today really nothing healthy.. I had a multivitamin thats about all that was healthy about my day so far. For dinner I'm aiming for

Fish sticks
(thats the only fish I really like)
Mac n Cheese
Veggies of some sort no starch

So a high calorie less than filling day. I'm working on my eating habits, and they're working on me! :) I'm also going to be getting my mp3 player thursday so I WILL be WALKING! yay.. I have had a bad day but I'm remaining positive and happy. I've added 2 pictures of me to chronicle my weight loss I figure I better start taking pictures! I have to take a new one because I have 21lbs down so this isn't as current of a picture as I would like I'll get around to it though. :) enjoy!
 
everyone has bad days - the trick is not to let it turn into a bad few days - just keep going forward.. .and you will build those good habits.

Great pictures :)
 
I didn't do so well yesterday. I ate last night a big no no! But the good news is I'm doing great today. I've gotten my mp3 player and managed to walk 22 minutes! I really felt the burn in my legs. I'm really excited. Heres what I've had today:

Tuna Fish Sandwich

Chips

4 mini kit kats

64 oz water

Dinner I'm not sure what I'm having my mom is cooking butt-roast. yuck. :) Thats my short update for the day. Tomorrows will be better I hope.
 
that's all the food you had for today?

good job on the walking -- keep it up -that's wonderful... and you will see results from it.. :)
 
^^^ thats not all I had I ended up having dinner from mcdonalds unfortunately. But hey as my dietician says those times come up. Plus I did my walking so I'm hoping I burned up the cheeseburger and fries I had.

I've already been out walking this morning, 22minutes worth again! Wooo Hoooo. I'm proud of myself. Before I couldn't walk to the stop sign with out huffing and puffing and the stop sign is about 10 yards from my drive way. sad I know. But I was 448lbs at that time also. Still its pitiful. lol oh well. Now I walk all over the development. I'd really like to know how far I walk but I can't do that because mapmyrun doesn't have my street on it :rolleyes: I'm going to check again maybe they've updated it. Tomorrow I'm going swimming. So thats more exercise under my belt. My muscles are killing me! I guess thats a good thing. Heres what I'm having today:

Lean Cuisine


Not sure whats for lunch

Baked Ziti For Dinner

And try to keep the walking going is what I intend to do.. its going to be tough!
 
I'm doing really well today! But let me start with yesterday. I started my day with a about a 15 minute walk it was shortened because my foot was sliding in my shoe and I didn't want to get a blister. I went swimming at my uncles house. I had baked ziti for breakfast... :/ but I had grilled chicken for lunch with a baked potato and salad. I also had a grilled chicken sandwich from mcdonalds. Dinner has been tough this week I hope I managed to lose weight even though I ate from mcdonalds twice. Its cheap and quick. But thats no excuse. I'm not paying for it either. Today I started the day off right, I had a salad with LIGHT ranch. it was yummy I love salads. I'm not going to walk today. Today is my rest day. My legs were killing me yesterday. Give my muscles time to recoop. Tommorrow I'm going to get up early and go walking with my mom. that should be fun. Shes out of shape too. So we're both getting in shape. All I hope is that I've lost some weight this week.. I'm weighing in a day early my dietician is going to be gone on wednesday. So TUESDAY it IS! Well thats all for now..
 
Deliriouslysane, I have the feeling you hide your beautie under those pounds. It so amazing how people change their facial expresions after weight lose. They look even more intellectual. Please accept my curiousity to see your real face and look as one of your motivations.
I know you know it and I think everyone told you but you have to forget about these McDonalds sandwiches, donuts and kit kats as a part of your menue. It doesn't mean you will never eat them but they could be only treats. If you come and tell us that this weekend you have allowed yourself a nice treat and had an ice cream or a chocolate donut, or a serving of chips it is absolutely fine and even it is necessery to challege your metabolism, but I see those as part of your everyday menue which is bad. They are not only bad for weight but poison your body. I am sorry if I am a bit too harsh, I know it is difficult :)
 
Thanks for your constructive criticism.

I don't take too well to being criticized I think that when you're coming from where I was which was eating fast food or mcdonalds on a daily basis sometimes twice a day I don't think my having a week were I ate out twice is so bad. My dietician doesn't seem so concerned about it because she knows where I've come from I was eating in one sitting the following:

Double Quarter Pounder
Super Size Fry
Super Size Coke
10 piece Chicken Nugget

Now when I go there I have a grilled chicken sandwich with a medium fry and a diet medium coke. I am coming from a fast food addiction it sounds obsurred but its possible. I've cut a lot of fat and calories out of my diet I was consuming anywhere from 3000-7000 calories a day. So I've had a not so stellar week. I realize that kit kats donuts and sandwichs from mcdonalds don't exactly aid in weight loss. I'm not stupid, but lets see the good in what I did this week I didn't eat the whole bag of kit kats I didn't eat the whole box of donuts. and I had two meals out of 21 I'll have this week from mcdonalds. Not TOO SHABBY. Thanks for your constructive criticism.
 
I've started off this morning right AGAIN! with a walk. a 22 minute walk to be exact. yay. I had a 370 calorie breakfast which is good because I'm on about a 1500 to 2000 calorie diet so thats about 500 calories a meal. and guess what I actually had breakfast food this morning I had really LOW calorie ham and one egg and wheat toast with light butter. Now tomorrow I probably won't have anything for breakfast and end up having a really late lunch because its weigh in day and I don't weigh in until 1pm I try not to eat anything because it might make me weigh more or so I think thats what will happen lol.. Normally my weigh in day is wednesday but my dietician is going to be out on wednesday so we're weighing in a day early *nervous jitters* I hope with all the exercise I see some results. Or I'm going to be so disappointed, it'll be a crash and burn. In other good news we just got a new gas grill so we'll be able to eat lots of grilled things.. anyone with recipes please do tell. :) well thats all for today kiddies.. see you tomorrow. I'll have my weigh in results...
 
I haven't weighed in yet today but I feeling rather nervous with my eating out twice this week will all the walking I've done really helped? Well I did find out whether map my run updated and they did! yay I'm walking exactly .88 mile now what the heck that adds up to after I've done it 5 times in a week I don't know lets see if I'm calculating correctly that equals 4.4 miles! ooh how exciting. Now I'm not a scholar at math so if I'm wrong please correct me lol. I walked 4 times last week equaling 3.52 miles. I should keep a record of this miles walked..hmmm.... well thats all really for now. I'm really trying hard not to eat anything before I go but the appointment with the dietician is at 1:00pm I don't know if I'll make it!
 
Results! I know you're dying to KNOW!

Well I'm back from the dietician and maleficent was soooo right I saw results because of the walking! I lost two pounds. Thats a grand total of 73 pounds. I'm really excited and I think I will continue to walk so I can continue to see results! Thank you! thats all for now. :)
 
I haven't walked for two days but thats alright because today is not over yet! I may just get a walk in before the days out. I want to see results! My eating wasn't so great yesterday. I didn't eat out or anything but I over ate. I had two pieces of fudge. Not because I was hungry but because it was there and it looked good. I don't buy the groceries that come into my household so what comes in whether its fudge or donuts thats why you tend to see some junk in my daily menu because I live in a house with six other people and they're NOT on a diet. Whether or not they should be is to be determined. Plus it sits out on the counter so its right there for me to snag or look at all day long. We all hang out in the kitchen. Its a hang out really. So its tough to lose weight with all these little deciding factors. The walking has really helped me a lot, and I noticed I could eat a lot more if I walk 4 times a week and still lose weight. I probably ate 2000 calories everyday last week and still lost 2 pounds. Its amazing. Today my eating isn't too bad really, besides a piece of fudge, I really like fudge. I usually avoid the sweets but here lately I've had a little bit of a sweet tooth. Today I had the following:

3 pieces of light pizza (326 calories)

a cup of chili (not sure about calories)
6 triscuits

Chicken Divan for dinner (weight watchers recipe)

I'm working on eating breakfast food I swear! Its hard because I just don't like to eat breakfast food unless its the bad stuff. So I'm working on that I'm gonna try to work in some cereal maybe frosted flakes because I DO like those. Thats about all for today!
 
Well I went walking today. Not as far as I usually go but I went walking, I plan on going tonight when its not so hot out side. So far I've gone-- .51 miles not too bad considering I normally do .88 miles but it was terribly hot out so I'm going to go on a second walk later on. Ever since I was told I'm poisoning my body and to forget about donuts and kitkats and sandwiches from mcdonalds I'm kind of scared to put up what I've been eating. Because I'm feeling like I'll be criticized, maybe I took that whole thing in the wrong way. My diet is kind of junky, but I've been losing weight, will there come a time when I won't lose weight? I thought about taking that alli stuff, because I took orlistat before and lost 30 pounds then gained that back plus 100.....yikes, but have you seen the price of that stuff? I know I know its just a temporary fix. I don't want that so I'm going to do it the right way diet and exericise, I'm so excited the exercise/walking I've been doing is working wonders. 2 pounds woohoo. Thanks for keeping me motivated! :) Thats all for today I think, if i think of anything else I'll post again.
 
Good news! I lost another two pounds, which means 75 pounds total. I'm really excited the walking is working. I'm able to eat what I want with in reason, since I'm walking its coming off. I should listen to people more often. I didn't walk as much last week because it was so hot out one day I felt like I might pass out. But I got some swimming in also. So, things are going good for me. Thanks to everyone for keeping me going and giving me good advice! I appreciate it. :)
 
Time to start over!

I've maintained my weight for the last few months. Stayin in and around 369. Lately I've just not been motivated to do anything. I'm tired all the time. But any way, that motivation is just not there. I know I need to continue on my weight loss journey. Its so easy to just do the wrong things or the things I know best. All my bad habits. But I'm ready to start over. I'm ready to try and change my habits once again, and hopefully its for the better, and forever. Now that I've gotten a job I don't feel like exercising when I get home. So its going to be tough. Change is tough. I'm going to make a list of things I need to do.

1. Stop eating at night.

2. Stop eating fast food.

3. Start exercising more.

4. Eat less.

5. Listen to advice.

6. Stop making excuses for myself.

7. Ask for help if needed.

8. Ask QUESTIONS.

9. Let the past go.

10. Move toward the future.

I'm hoping to follow my list. Letting the past go is a particularly hard one for me to do. All the kids making fun of me, and people out in public making fun of me. It all hurts. The victoria's secret catalog that was sent to me in my name. Its painful to know that I can't wear all those clothes, and look at what I don't LOOK like. siggh.. Thats why I'm changing so one day I can wear those clothes. There are so many things that I want to do. I want to have kids, but its probably not the best Idea given my weight. I just got married. SO I'm really excited about the new year. And the new me. I know I can do this I'm ready. (AGAIN!)
 
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