Marilyn's food plan and life plan

So it's going well. Am sticking to my food plan. Am doing more exercise. Am dying to lose 10 pounds and have loose clothes again.

Am going to a conference, staying in a hotel. 3 meals out every day for 5 days, very dangerous.

My plan is to ask for foods in restaurants that are lower in cal. Plan to order grilled food. Maybe ask for a veggie plate of some type.

My co-worker is a walker, we agreed to walk 30 minutes daily. My hope is that we can do mini-walks between courses when we are given breaks.

M
 
Today I feel weak when I exert any energy. I realized I needed to eat more so had more calories.

Yesterday I read that doing journaling for weight loss, recording positives helps weight reduction.

I have read that the muscles which get used get stronger. My thought is that with weight loss it is the same thing, the more I do it, the stronger I get.

M
 
Ah, having a plan is half the battle when you've got to be out - and you've got a good plan ahead of you :)
 
I've had it!!

Ok. Life is not fair. I am aware of that. There are things I want but cannot achieve. My weight is the main thing. I am a yo yo dieter and lose the same 10-15 pounds over and over again. I started this journal 1 1/2 years ago and I am essentially at the same place now, as I was then.

It seems that as hard as I work, I deserve to be thin. Why can I not be thin? The answer is that I am good at losing weight but bad an maintaining weight.

There is always a reason to eat. A trip. Christmas. Dinner out on the weekend. Staying in a hotel and eating restaurant food for a week.

This week I am at a week long event and have to stay in a hotel. There are all sorts of obstacles. Coffee, I like coffee at a conference. The only thing is that the high fat cream tastes so good...I'm sure they will have skim milk which is ok so I will have that. The second thing is breakfasts, they have a continental bkfst most of the time. I am going to skip the pastries and have fruit if available.

My co-worker and I have agreed to walk 30 minutes daily. I hope to walk briskly a few times a day for 3-5 minutes between classes.

For lunches and dinner, I am going to ask my co-worker to monitor my food intake. There is no fridge so I am not able to take cold foods with me.

This is the worst problem in my life right now. I am so fortunate to have health, a great job, a hubby........

M
 
Good news. I am at my pre-Xmas weight. It took a few days to get rid of the water weight.

It is difficult to monitor food intake,but on the other hand it is not. Many situations crop up, like last night. My husband likes nuts. I bought a few 12 oz cans for him. Last night I decided to open up a can. I weighed out one ounce and decided I could not afford the calories. I took about 1/2 oz and shoveled them in my mouth. I stopped after 1/2 oz but thought about eating half the can.

Eating in moderation is far more difficult than everything else I have encountered.

I need to focus on the immediate situation rather than the long term situation. I can usually manage an hour or few hours but cannot think about next week.....etc. This is the only way I will make it is if I break it down into chunks of time.

I am sleeping too much. Sleep feels good. I wake up rested and happy. My snooze button on my alarm gets a work out. When I sleep there are fewer calories being spent, but then my calories in my dreams don't get added on. I never dream about food or eating.

M
 
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new pants

Well, I am planning my wardrobe for my next size pants smaller. I am wearing men's. (I am shaped like an apple and am tall.)

Started at 34, am at 32 now. My 32 are snug so it will be a while. My final goal is size 30's that fit loosely. I was thinking I should buy 7 new pairs of pants. Black, brown, blue, gray, greenish, khacki, and maybe another pair or two.

I rarely wear my old pants since men's fit so much better. Wish I'd discovered that a long time ago. I discovered it because I was so disgusted with how my clothes were fitting a few months ago. In the closet I was thinking that my hubby's pants would fit me better. I tried them on, and they did. I started off wearing his pants for a couple weeks to make sure they were what I wanted, then got my own pants wardrobe.

We have very nice men's pants in 34-32. My hubby has picked up weight and is in 36's now. We had joking "debates" about him inheriting my pants....now that he has my pants, he is not wearing them.
 
If I don't eat every 2-3 hours I get in trouble. If I eat every 3, then I am not truly hungry. If I get very hungry, it feels like a ravenous wolf in my belly and I get into trouble with my food plan. Prevention is so important to me. I try to use the clock as my eating guide. I eat very small amounts so I can afford to eat that often.

Yesterday I ate:

1/2 package of low sugar oatmeal (in the little packages)
2 cottage cheese containers with fruit
several servings of strawberries
tofu corn dog
beef jerky
1/2 a Marie Calendars frozen beef dinner
popcorn
1/2 oz nuts
Funions very small package
 
I went to a week long conference, and had to eat at restaurants for all meals. Did well first 2 days, then ate what I wanted.

Today I am back on the plan. Right now, I am in the mode of "does this support my goal?" and to just think about right now in terms of eating and not thinking ahead, except to plan food for the day.

Action is sometimes necessary before motivation. I am going to behave my way to success.

M
 
Today I am back on and am wondering if I'm going to be ravenously hungry all day. I need to stay on target to support my goal.

I have never been happy with my body, even when I was thin as a ruler I did not like my belly. I would love to have a tummy tuck. I don't know if I should spend the $ on that and expose myself to the risk of complications.

I realize if I do a tummy tuck that it will ONLY change my belly and not my body image in my eyes.
 
Ok, am back on the plan. Am "behaving" my way to success rather than waiting until "I feel like it." If I waited until I "feel like it" I would never be on the plan.

It is all about me making the best decisions about what I eat. I need to select the option which meets my goals. My goal is to lose weight and I know what I need to do to achieve that. It is not so much about what I WANT, but what I NEED to be healthy.

I m "deciding" to thin down.

When I am with friends, I have to be careful what I say, they all say that I am already thin, I have learned how to hid weight in clothes.

I try not to bring up my food plan, but when we are eating/drinking and I eat/drink sparingly, I get questions. I tell my friends I am trying to lose 2 pounds, rather than the 10-15 that I want. I am 5'10" tall and have thin thin bones and a very slender build. I would like to be 140-145 pounds which I think is an ok weight to be.

M
 
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traits of compulsive eaters

What is a Compulsive Eater?
Fifteen Tendencies Often Present

1. Loneliness in all relationships
a) Inability to experience intimacy
2. Presence of fear of authority figures or being controlled by another person
a) Difficulty in maintaining a "sense of self".
3. Possible history of abuse
a) Neglect of emotional needs
b) Verbal Abuse (overt or covert)
c) Sexual Abuse
4. Early "rejection" of the opposite sex
5 . If a male Compulsive Overeater, possible over-identification with mother
a) Over-involved emotionally
6. Tendency towards "Social Anxiety"
a) Tend to isolate and use food as a "friend"
b) After social situations, relieve anxiety by bingeing or overeating
7. A history of "diet failures"
8 . Preference for food instead of other activities
a) Food is friend
b) Food is hobby
9. History of Guilt/Shame
a) Parents used guilt as a form of control
b) Life filled with "shoulds", "oughts", "always" and "nevers"
10. Possible other addictions
a) Sugar
b) Prescription Drugs
c) Alcohol
d) Sex
11. A long-term, unhappy marriage or other significant relationship
a) Food becomes a point of intimacy instead of spouse
b) Food to cope with conflict
c) Food to fill a void
12. Long-standing relationship difficulties
a) Avoidance of conflict
13. Difficulty dealing with Anger
a) Internalization of anger
b) Ends in resentment
14. "Loving Heart" has been damaged (hurt)
a) The compassionate heart is buried, though still present
15. Hunger for acceptance and love
 
getting it done

Today has been a great food day. I just ask myself what my goal is and how to get it. Some days it is simple and some days it is not. Today is simple.

I wish all days were like this and all decisions were so simple. :)

M
 
chocolate chips

I have weakness. If a food I like is in the cabinet, I just eat it til it is gone. Today is chocolate chips. I was cleaning out my cabinet and found them. I have eaten about 2 oz. I need to put the bag in the trash can because I will not dig food out of the trash. It is a waste, but if I eat them it is bad for my health and self esteem. They're going in the trash.

M
 
doing good things rather than eating

Today I am trying to do things like get hair highlighted, do nails etc, instead of eating. Easier said than done.

M
 
Here I am again, I joined in 2005. Am in the same weight range... I can't stand my body anymore. Took pictures in swimsuit/boyshorts/bra to have a view of my body the way it is now. Am looking at other's successes to help keep me moving in a good direction.

M
 
I am a visual person. To help keep me focused, I have bookmarked people's pictures from this website, in the 'before and after' section. I look at the pictures which demonstrate progress people have made. It helps me focus on the end goal of being slimmer. My current food plan is a "starvation" plan, 1000 cal daily, which I know is bad. (I really do know that this plan is bad news.)
 
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Someone asked me if I am having a boy or a girl, today.... It initially confused me, then I realized that I was getting the "pregnant" question. My response was that I am just fat and I carry my weight in my belly.

I know the person who asked me was trying to be friendly, but it was a kick in the gut. Oh well.

I am at 152 pounds. Am eating less than 1000 cal daily. If I eat more, my appetite is like a wild animal in my belly. If I eat less, my appetite is gone.

I cannot eat normally.


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keep on the straight and narrow path

Hi,

I applied for a job in a weight loss clinic. Hope I get it. It will keep my weight in check because I will have to set an example.

Think positive thoughts for me.

Thanks

M:party:
 
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