my situation
My situation now is that I have been on my food plan for 2 weeks. When I eat I eat a small amount, but eat every 3 hours. At the end of the day, I have often not eaten enough calories.
I feel like my food program is going well.
I have attended some meetings which helps me with my food intake. They also help me identify why I am eating and what I am eating. The other thing is that there are people there in worse shape than me.
My current weight is about 162 lbs. I want to get to 135 pounds, approximately.
I feel so unattractive in clothes. Nothing fits. My belly makes me an "apple" shape. Yesterday I was thinking that even if I had a "perfect" body, it would never be enough, unless I looked like a centerfold.
My hope is that I will be able to be on a maintenance program (after I get to my weight) without getting Hagen Daz bars and eat 5 a day. I eat for reasons which are not related to hunger and that is very difficult for me to manage.
I used to be very thin during my 20s-30's. I was on a "poor" diet. I had no $ for food and ate sparingly and ate only when hungry, no recreational eating. My hope is that I will be able to eat that way again and maintain that plan, which I think is best.
In this life, weight and food are among my largest struggles. I should be greatful that my problems are not life threatening. I have a very good life and so much to be thankful for. As Oprah says, American women are among the most fortunate in the world. I sometimes struggle to remember that.
Marsto