I am back.... for good this time i hope.
So I am bound and determined this time around that this is going to happen. My original goal for christmas eve was 125......
I got down to 146......
and here I am... Decemeber 27th- i am at 152.

Lets be honest... i did not go to the gym like i should have, didnt increase eating in quantity... but quality surely was not there anymore... and.....
the kicker:
I found a liking to beer and wine.......
i really think that is what packed the weight back on... come home from a rough day... down a beer... or a large glass of wine daily...
not cool.
so here i sit....
Last night i started back at the gym. Had a bit of a melt down while running because the older guy who works there came over to me and was asking how i was and actually asked if i LOST weight. ( uhhh right) and i started to tear up because i had just weighed myself and was bigger than i was when i started this weightloss journey. He was funny... gave me this incentive that for every pound i lose he will give me $2.00

then i cried more.. thinking man! i must be REALLY fat if this guy who barely knows me is going to PAY me to lose weight. ugh.
anyhow, i am back.... I NEED YOUR ENCOURAGEMENT.... i have been really bummed out and unmotivated... i cant put my finger on what caused it... i was ON FIRE... for a little while.
anyways, thanks for reading...