First of all, let me say that I wrote a REALLY long post yesterday but by the time I hit 'submit' my internet crumbled and I lost everything that I wrote. I was so mad! I just couldn't look at my diary anymore haha. Trust that it was very long though, and that I tried to reply! Secondly, I love nothing more than when you guys go off on tangents! It's so interesting and I love talking about everything, so please, let's keep going off on tangents.
Alright, here we go again.
Risty It's so interesting that you were a hungry baby. In my anatomy course my prof discussed the fact that some people are simply missing the "I'm full" gene. There is some study with a mouse where one mouse became obese when others didn't when placed in identical environments, however when the missing hormone was given to obese adults, something like only 30 percent of them responded by losing weight, or something along those lines. I do firmly believe it though, as well as the fact that our genetic predispositions have everything to do with our body shape and tendencies. Now I wasn't an overweight kid, but that affirms my belief even moreso because I know that I simply didn't care about food when I was young, and my mom was a terrible cook so maybe that had something to do with it too. Like I said before though, my aunt and uncle are obese and my mom and other uncle are skinnnnyy. Different dads, different genes, different body. I guess this is all a bit common sense but I find it really interesting and because you were a hungry kid and your sisters weren't, that's significant. I also admit that I sometimes become very bitter when I realize there are people that never have had to exercise or diet, or care about what they're eating. UNFAIR! haha. Also, my interest in the subject is derived from all the ignorant opinions I've overheard when I was thinner (who'd say something like that to my face now?), about overweight people simply being lazy or gluttonous or whatever. You know, that's absolutely part of how people become overweight, but for some people, it's an uphill battle from the moment they're born. Respect!!!! I know that you're trying incredibly hard to overcome your weight issues, and that makes you a really strong and admirable person.
And I agree, it's nice to put a face and name to all these aliases. It's fun to shed mine, but it is also fun to have one. I always smile whenever I see you guys refer to me as Luke it's so great! My secret double life is rather satisfying.
Miss Ladybug Hello! That's so great! What a wide variety of musical interest. I love that. Your range of musical taste says a lot about you, I think that's so interesting. I love jazz and the blue as well because those genres are the roots of what I love the most. Old rock music makes me so ridiculously happy. I love folk music and ambient and electronica too though. I was in a jazz band for years so I really feel that sort of music. I've always wished that I had a great singing voice or this insane musical talent. Some people just have to suffer with loving the people that can do it though. I love living by the water! Places such as the desert scare me, I'd feel claustrophobic and crazy in an environment like that. I just really love the water, lake or ocean...anything.
I've never considered that era! That's cool though, it would be really amazing, it's daunting to consider what it must have been like. Impossible for me to begin to understand.
RhoRho Oh I'm so sorry, that's really difficult. I've chosen an opposite belief system of my parents as well, so I do understand how that creates a weird rift. My mom specifically, she cries and refuses to discuss it whenever I try to explain my position. I think that she pretends I never told her. I hope that your parents can overcome it at some point, because I realize that hurts. Thank you for your compliment, that's nice of you to say that, and my friend told me I should wear makeup more often when we met up that night. haha backwards compliments are always great.
Mishi Thank you for stopping by and thank you very much
You're incredibly nice. Girls always want exactly what they don't have, it's a sick cycle. I'm guilty of it 24/7.
2Skinny I'm so happy you liked reading about that picture! Seeing you describe them made me smile, and thinking about them is really painful, thank you for the hug. I'm actually tearing up. Thanks.
OMG How freaking cool!!! He is perfectly EXQUISITE to me as well! I love love love him. Wonky teeth, dilated pupil, stunning bone structure, effeminate, PERFECTION! He's beautiful now of course as well, I love him on all levels too, I'm blaring his music as we speak, er type. Sometimes, rather all the time, I just get so obsessed with the past and I really
love the story you shared because I can envision it.
Are you kidding me! I JUST told Chelsea last night that I love Willem Dafoe. We watched
Inside Man before the bball game last night and one of my favorite movies is the
Boondock Saints, he's utterly brilliant in that movie. I LOVE HIM! haha so funny. Terrifyling beautiful, absolutely! Agreed, here's to a good Thursday. I must get back on a good exercise schedule and I GUARANTEE I PROMISE YOU that I will come back on at some point and tell you about my awesome workout.
Xorie I'm so happy that you're working on your confidence. I think that is THE most beautiful thing about a woman. It may be cliche but it happens to be true. I do have a lot of outward confidence, even if it's really shaky inside. I think that I'd be doing myself a horrible disservice if I didn't hold myself in a high regard. We must love ourselves. Hugs right back Xorie...I hope you have a great day. Thanks for all of your support. It means so much to me.
Alright I BOUGHT A BLENDER! But I haven't tried making a smoothie yet because I'm terrified it will be disgusting, so I've just made slushies. Which are yummy but I need to make a yogurt-based fruit smoothie so that I can use my protein powder which was the whole point of the blender. I bought all of the ingredients that Risty mentioned but now I'm afraid of wasting yogurt and mango and good fruit to make an icky sludgy smoothie. I am going to ask her for assistance in her diary. HAVE A GREAT DAY EVERYONE!
Yesterday
-Breakfast: MG Cheerios/Vanilla Soy Milk- 220 calories
-Lunch: Yogurt- 100 calories
-Snack: Cracker Wafers- 100 calories
-Snack: MG Cheerios/Vanilla Soy Milk- 200 calories
-Dinner: Baked Salmon- 200 calories & Brown Rice/Egg- 300 calories
-Water: 2.5 L
-Miles Yesterday: damn. NONE. Let me explain though, I helped my sister write her research paper which was due this afternoon, and I watched her Suns vs. Spurs game with her even though I couldn't care less about basketball and we went shopping and we cooked and had fun, minus all the arguing about how to approach the paper. But we kept meaning to exercise, however it didn't happen, because I let it not happen. I am exercising today. Ugh how many times do I say this. It's sick. I'm making excuses and I know it.
Today
-Breakfast: MG Cheerios/Vanilla Soy Milk- 210 calories
-Lunch: Brown Rice/Egg Whites- 200 calories
-Snack: Yogurt-100 calories & Wafer Cookies- 100 calories
-Snack: Egg Whites- 80 calories & 2 Slices WW Bread/Smoked Turkey/2 Veggie Slices-300 calories
-Dinner: Brown Rice/Egg Whites/Green Onions/Tomatoes/Soy Sauce- 400 calories
-Water: 2.5 L
-Playlist: Tom Petty. Bowie. Portishead. Nirvana. Stones.
-Miles Today: 5.0miles
-Total Miles: 123 miles
I did my workout. I did lunges, stretching, and upper body with 10 lb. dumbbells. Hard though, I should have bought 8 lbs.