lowie57
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hi guys,
i have posted a few times on here before but lost track and got lazy all over again. Im 18 turning 19 in a few months. Im weighing in at 18 stone (115kgs) and its gone too far, Im very ashamed of myself and quite dissapointed i have let it get this far, im not sure what to write at the moment, just a big feeling of being sad and low is coming over. I deeply want to be healthier, i want to lose this weight, and start living how a normal 18 should be living, i want to go out there and do what ever it is i want, i want to surf and go rock climbing, and pick up the ladies, and goto the beach unashamed and have the energy to get through the day. i want to feel like im worth something again. i need help.
i dont like to ask for help, usually because i think im big n strong enough on my own, i have always done things on my own, and kept to my self for most of my life, but after so long of doing that, when i look deep down, its just made me very lonely, and given me a feeling that nothing really matters too much.
now i dont want this to sound all sad n soppy, because this should be a celebration of a new begining, i only hope that i can stick to is this time, because maybe.... maybe there wont be another time.
i know i can lose weight, hell i have even done it a few years ago, i lost 15kgs but after a year it was all back on again and even more, i guess that kind of discouraged me putting it back on, but back then i had a real spark to do it, a real motivation to improve myself, i just dont know where that spark has gone.
sorry for such a long starting post.
But to anyone who has spent even a second reading this, i really want to thank you.
i want to change
i have posted a few times on here before but lost track and got lazy all over again. Im 18 turning 19 in a few months. Im weighing in at 18 stone (115kgs) and its gone too far, Im very ashamed of myself and quite dissapointed i have let it get this far, im not sure what to write at the moment, just a big feeling of being sad and low is coming over. I deeply want to be healthier, i want to lose this weight, and start living how a normal 18 should be living, i want to go out there and do what ever it is i want, i want to surf and go rock climbing, and pick up the ladies, and goto the beach unashamed and have the energy to get through the day. i want to feel like im worth something again. i need help.
i dont like to ask for help, usually because i think im big n strong enough on my own, i have always done things on my own, and kept to my self for most of my life, but after so long of doing that, when i look deep down, its just made me very lonely, and given me a feeling that nothing really matters too much.
now i dont want this to sound all sad n soppy, because this should be a celebration of a new begining, i only hope that i can stick to is this time, because maybe.... maybe there wont be another time.
i know i can lose weight, hell i have even done it a few years ago, i lost 15kgs but after a year it was all back on again and even more, i guess that kind of discouraged me putting it back on, but back then i had a real spark to do it, a real motivation to improve myself, i just dont know where that spark has gone.
sorry for such a long starting post.
But to anyone who has spent even a second reading this, i really want to thank you.
i want to change