Lou Lou's Diary

Good job on keeping yourself distracted. Two hours of geographic locations would probably give me a massive headache. lol! Great job on eating well and your exercise today! Also a BLT sounds really good...well a BL... I don't like tomato. lol. :)
 
I've been relatively busy today. At work this morning, then nipped off the autism course I'm taking, came home and did some homework, then continued with uni work! My brain might need a serious rest this weekend. Shame I can't let it yet! I've exercised this evening and so far haven't watched any telly! TV is my worst time for eating. And drinking actually. Just sitting there, staring at the TV, even if its educational or engaging, I want to eat or drink to keep the rest of me occupied.

Actually being busy; studying, working, cooking, cleaning, writing, folding paper, reading...anything that really occupies my mind AND body, well that's when I don't need to eat. Or drink. Or smoke for that matter!
The drinking front has been going well. Since Saturday I've not had anything. I have a small bottle of wine in the fridge that my boss gave me as a thank you for stepping in to help with something last week. Well, it's still in the fridge :D I think I'll have it at the weekend, just a little glass on saturday when I'm sitting alone :\ I'm hoping this is making a vast difference to my weight loss.

Breakfast: Special K
Snack: Apple
Lunch: Beef mince and rice
Snack: Banana
Tea: Crackers, light philidelphia, tomato, cucumber. Another bowl of cereal (I don't even know why!!!)
Did 17km on the bike

I actually abstained from cake today! They had mini chocolate muffins at the course I was at this afternoon. But I stuck with my banana. It seems so hard at the time but I'm massively proud of myself now. Just think, if I had eaten it, I'd be feeling guilty right now!

Weigh in tomorrow! EEEEK!
 
Hi Lou Lou. Well done on resisting the cake & eating your fruit. The feeling you get as you resist more & more is great. I almost always regret eating sweets, but never regret eating a piece of fruit. Cutting down your wine at the end of the day is also admirable. I really wish I could cut it out altogether during the week at least, but it is so much a habit that I really enjoy, so I struggle with that. Like you, I don't think I have a problem, it just seems to be a signal for me to relax at the end of the day, put my feet up & have a wine, maybe 2. I think you seem to be doing well & I would be surprised if you don't get a good result on the scales. Fingers crossed! Cheers, Cate
 
Thank you Cate, its always nice to hear that my tactics are sensible and validated :)

I'm down 2lbs :D I'm officially in 160's (albeit the very far end...169!!) but it's good to wave goodbye to that 7, hopefully for good! I'll feel much better once I'm out of the 12st bracket as well. My first reasonable target is 12st and I have 1lb left to lose before I hit that, so I anticipate in a week or 2 I'll officially be in the 11st bracket :D woohoo!!!

I actually weighed myself Wednesday night and Thursday morning. Both were reading no change which is a tad disheartening, but at least wasn't a gain. I very rarely weigh myself so frequently but I felt so gross, and had been reasonably well behaved, so I wanted to see what was what. When I weighed in 'officially' this morning I had dropped so I guess that I had ovulation bloat. Hence why I felt so low and so huge! Ah, the joys of being female.

I'm debating whether to have my wine tonight or not. It seems sensible to do it now since there is a whole week until weigh in again, but I wonder if perhaps my lonely Saturday night might be better suited. I'll see how I feel. I'm really not used to restricting myself when it comes to alcohol. I sort of believed that if I enjoy something, why restrict it and make yourself miserable. Clearly this is a theory I've applied to many areas in my life, food included. Oops. I need to learn how to resist temptation.
 
I DID IT!!!!!! I have reached my first target!

Again, I don't know why I weighed in this morning. Daily weighing can really take over my mind plus any fluctuations tend to make me feel disappointed. But I was still feeling fat and bloated and I wanted to see whether it was making a difference or if yesterday was a false loss? As it turns out, another pound lost :D

Now I have to work out my next target. I'm toying with a whole stone but maybe that would take too long before I really felt like I was achieving. So maybe half a stone? 10lbs? Hmm..I'll think on it :)
 
Thank you everyone :D

I would just like to say that the support here is fab! I don't get this sort of encouragement from my real life friends at all!! I know that some people find it boring hearing about diets and such all the time. I totally get that, sometimes even I don't want to discuss weight and food and exercise in my day to day life, and it works the same for my friends as well. So when I DO want to talk about it, brag about my success or ask advice some people aren't so keen to respond. Anyway, at least here I get the support that I need. And the praise...one thing I noticed with my weight loss last time around was that my best friend would ignore any messages I sent her about my losses. I figured in the end it was because I was losing and she still wasn't in the 'weight loss zone' so it made her feel crappy about herself. I felt bad about 'rubbing it in her face' but I wanted someone to be proud of me too.

Anyway. I weighed in again this morning. Just to see (I do hope I'm not getting obsessive) and I'm another lb down. How?! Perhaps there is something wrong with my scales lol. I'm not going to log this one though, just in case it's a false reading. I'll keep it up until next Friday and hope for a good result then.

I've decided to adjust my target to 10lbs. It seems reasonable. Enough of a loss to make a difference, not too much that it seems far off.
So....12lbs down, 10lbs more to go!
 
Hi Lou Lou, the support in this forum is fab. You showed me some support this morning & I really appreciate it. I find that I open up more in here than I do to most of my friends. I joined the forum back in 2007 when I first started losing my 36kg excess & really needed to talk to people who might understand what I was going through. I felt I was boring people with my enthusiasm as I was losing weight, whereas people can choose to not read my thread. I hit the jackpot by finding this forum & vowed I would stick with it & help others if I could. It helps keep me on track & I have made genuine friendships.
Another lb down? WELL DONE YOU! xo Cate
 
Yesterday wasn't such a great day food and drink wise. I had toast for breakfast because the cereal was gone. I met a friend to go to a Q&A with Martin Freeman (which was amazing!!!) and then we went for a drink. I had a beer (oops) after telling her how I was cutting back on the alcohol (double oops). But I had inadvertnantly skipped lunch so... Anyway, for dinner my son and I had tomato mascarpone pasta WITH cheese! What was I thinking!? :willy_nilly: Followed by two beers that evening because I was feeling a bit bummed out.

I hope to put it behind me though. I think sometimes I get a little smug with a good weight loss result and forget I still have to be careful. Today has been a little better though AND I exercised. I think weekends throw me off a bit, the routine is all out of whack and different things are happening at different times and I can't plan meals and exercise as easily. I need try harder in the future.

Breakfast: Toast (no cereal left)
Snack: Apple
Lunch: Sausage and tomato paste. Small portion.
Dinner: Cucumber sandwich. Drifter biscuit bar.
16k on the bike.

I'll resist the beer. Hopefully :)
 
Feeling frumpy :(
I feel exhausted too. I've not been sleeping well. I won't get tired until late and I've always taken half an hour or so to drop off. But these days once I've actually gone to sleep, I'm finding that I keep waking up. Weird dreams or just feeling unsettled I'm not sure. It could be emotional. There are a lot of very strong unsettled feelings at the moment. It could be diet though...maybe I'm eating too much of the wrong 'something' or not getting enough of 'something else' and it's causing sleep disturbances. Perhaps I'm smoking too much, its never been an issue before but I do think I'm smoking more at the moment than I usually do.

Breakfast: Special K
Snack: Apple
Lunch: Shepherds Pie
Dinner: Oatcakes, Light Phili, tomato, cucumber. Bowl of cereal.
14k on the bike.
 
There has been a sickness back doing the rounds at work. I thought I had escaped it with my iron stomach...but it's looking unlikely now. I feel like crap! No actual vomitting yet but I can feel it brewing.
Subsequently I've not eaten much today. I ate breakfast but didn't finish it (didn't feel too rough at this point), completely forgot to eat my apple at work and by the time lunch rolled around I wasn't that hungry. I ate it because I was still feeling ok but afterwards I felt really queasy. It's been coming in waves since.

I'm trying to keep my fluids up to flush it out but haven't eaten since lunch. That was 10 hours ago. Hoping a good nights sleep will help and that the limited food will have done the trick.

I also haven't exercised today, due to feeling unwell. I guess this makes up for my bad weekend?! Silver linings ;)
 
Thanks Cate and Jen :)
Well the nausea has passed but I still feel a bit wobbly. Probably due to lack of food. And I have a headache but that could be down to over doing the water.

I ate some dry toast yesterday and picked at crackers intermittently. None of it sat particularly well on my stomach but it didn't come back up which was good. I wonder if it was more likely to be food poisoning than a bug, seeing as it didn't last very long.

Anyway, weighed myself this morning. 3lbs down. I should bloody well hope so given that I was unwell yesterday :p

My scales are weird though. If you stand too far forward, you read lighter. If you stand too far back, you read heavier. If your toes end up placed even remotely over the dial glass, you weigh lighter. I end up taking 3 readings and working out the average lol. Until I get some new scales. This morning my first weigh in showed a loss of 7lbs! I mean WOW but I even I know that is improbable. 2nd reading was more realistic :) Still...it cheered me up!
 
I'm feeling much better now. Pretty much back to normal. although I think I've more than made up for my lack of appetite Thursday/Friday but my inexcusable diet this weekend :\

I went to a friends on Saturday and had Chinese takeaway. mmmmmm! Then we went to the pub. I think I had about 4 glasses of wine. Then I felt horrendous on Sunday and...the dreaded hangover binge hit. I got a Domino's (URG). I only managed a few slices before I felt crap again so I put it in the fridge and finished it for dinner today. Not good diet wise but I really didn't want to waste my money. I think the moral of the story here is don't get drunk lol.

Breakfast: Cereal
Lunch: Spag bol (small)
Dinner: Pizza

I've had no snacks today. Won't make up for the pizza incident but at least it's not extra calories.
I'm going to try and get on the bike later but I'm currently waiting to pick up my son from Cub Scouts so don't want to start anything yet. Will be the first time I've used it in 5 days!!! Oops!

I'm trying not to perceive this as a massive failure and more like a lesson in how to maintain exercise and diet even when social life and illness get involved. If I've gained, I've gained...there is nothing I can do about it now. All I can do is keep going and work to get it off again!
 
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