losing it again!

OK you guys make good points...I did consider the lack of workout issue but I had not really concidered the emotional part...I swear I just feel like going to bed and staying there forever...now I have a big family picnic tomorrow then my neices birthday and a larg family reunion next weekend and I dont want to go to any of it!!!So just when I thought it couldnt get worse...I think I broke my finger! I was carrying a potted plant to set on the rim of one of the goldfish ponds and saw a water moccasin(poisonouse snake) about 6 ft. long and trying to snack on my fish...this is the 5th sighting this month and my great danes have killed 3 in the back yard.Now I am an animal lover but these snakes are very dangerouse and getting very near my little girls playground...I decided to kill it and couldnt find the bullets for my pistol so I grabbed a hoe and went for the old fashiond head chop when I swung my hands hit a larg metal door that was leaned up and I smashed my right hand pinkie finger and my left hand index,the index appears to be broken and the pinkie is turning yellow and purple...So now I will be going to the ER for my friday afternoon...I really dont to go because I have no insurance but its very painfull and getting swollen:( I think I need a vacation...I hope noone is offended that I killed a snake but I saw it as the safest thing to do for my daughter and my great danes...not to mention I spend most of my time in my garden:confused:
 
Hey Sleepy :) I gotta say this: I really believe these wl journeys are and can be extremely emotional and swing to the very reaches of each direction. It's not for me to say which drainage you suffer from - be it mental/stress related or food/vitamins and stuff but it's pretty easy to get there if all that's on your mind is losing weight. I know, I've been there :(

What's worse is I have no said way to tell you how to break it either than like you suggested: A vacation - of sorts. Maybe change up some food or different type of exercise or maybe none at all for awhile. Maybe going out and partying like its 1999 will help *shrugs* I know not thinking about wl and exercise really helps me a lot !! We can bend our mind in the wrong direction on this journey very easily when things aren't going well and it sucks.

It's funny how something took so long to put on will really test our mind, body and soul when it comes time to take it off. It can totally consume us - not to mention drain us as well.

As far as the snake, well you gotta defend your loved ones. Those bites are nasty and definitely do some harm but you really have to handle a water moc to get bit. Retreat and so will they. This is usually the best course of action.
 
Your poor finger! That really sucks. Terrible timing too. *Hugs* I hope it heals quickly. ER - very tedious. :(

The only reason I wouldn't try to kill a snake in my yard would be that over here, most of the people who get bitten, get bitten while they are trying to kill a snake! At least you got it.

I just looked at that Zumba clip today! Very cool. I bookmarked it. It's great finding out how many different ways there are to get some fun exercise.
 
T2...Thanx for a great post.I am trying to get a grip...I have been obsessing to the point of misery. I realize now that its just making it all too hard. This is the most stressed I have ever felt and I just will not be the kind of person who hates themselves, no matter what my weight is!
as for the snake my main concern is my 4 year old...I watch her 24/7 but I know how kids are and I just felt like I had to do it! Also they eat my goldfish!


Thanx cerelly and felici...I feel kinda silly cuz my finger is not broken, but I have broken a finger before so I thought it really was...BUT it is blue!!!!
 
I had such an awsome day today...My Mom and siblings and neice and nephews spent the whole day out on the family land! We hiked for hours down to the beaver dams and all along the black water creeks...I had a blast, we all did especially the kids:) I feel like I must have burned 5000 calories! We had a picnic in the pecan grove and then in the late afternoon they all came to my place and the kids went swimming...WOW and I didnt even want to go! This was the first time we had all been on the land together in about 10 years:)
 
What a bunch of lovely news.

Isn't it great that the changes you have already made, let you enjoy the day actively, in the way you did?

Also, it is great to hear that you can go on making yourself increasingly healthy, without maintaining a position where the stress is too extreme to maintain. :) You did say that, right? :)

It's a real delight to have you posting here. :)
 
That is awesome news - Im aso glad to hear you had a great day and that your finger isnt broken and you had good old family day full of hiking nad picnics and swimming - glad to see your spirits are picked up!!!
 
Also, it is great to hear that you can go on making yourself increasingly healthy, without maintaining a position where the stress is too extreme to maintain. :) You did say that, right? :)

It's a real delight to have you posting here. :)
Awwwww Thanx Felici...but the pleasure is mine.I love it here!
Yes I said that ... I was badgering myself! No more...I dont like the abuse:)


cinderelly...Hi...Thanx it was a ton of fun! But Boy my legs are BURNING today! Gotta love the burn:p
 
OK I am so sore...I am not gonna worry about any of it today. Just gonna play with my kid and wash the dogs. Maybe piddle in the garden. But tommorow I will start the month of May with some seriouse vigor! Kinda like a new start, bettr food ect. I plan to go buy all the healthy food I need and get away from some of the less than wonderfull food choices of last week:p
 
great attitude sleepless - new month new renewed attitude :)

washing the dogs sounds like it's going to be an adventure :) have fun... you can't just throw them in the washing machine? :D
 
Oh I wish the washing machine would work, but they are great danes and I have one of those cheap stacked get ups like for an apartment, just cant get em in there! And If I did I think the thing would break.But I did consider just tossin em in the goldfish pond and sayin thats that....

As for my day off....I neened it! I think I might even catch a nap!:p
 
Hey It says I am a member now...wow dont I feel special! And all I had to do was run off with my thoughts...gosh I feel sorry for all who had to read it!:p


I have a question,How do I know when I have gotten bad rep? It looks like I did but there was no comment to go with it...anyone have the answer to this? The only reason I ask is because it was a post about the airshow and my family and I just cant imagine why someone would need to give me a bad rep for that
 
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OK so Im up at 5:30 am and back in the mindset of getting myself on track! I have some seriouse questions I need answered so I am reading and planning on seeing a nutritionalist again. I have seen numerouse reports in the last two days talking about genetic obesity, and how even if I do lose this weight its just gonna come back with a vengence:((been there done that) I am not by any means giving up, I just realize that I am still in need of education on the matter.I am also not saying that I beleive everything I see on TV or read in a magazine...Just want to know more about metabolism.
Anyhow I started my day out with 30 min. tae bo and some light weight lifting. I really want to mix up my workouts so I think I am gonna start playing tennis again in the afternoons.I am not very good at it(in fact terrible) so good luck finding someone who actually wants to play with me:p
None the less I am feeling alot better and I have gotten my focus back without blowing my progress! There was a time when a day off would have mean I quit, so I feel like those days are gone:)
 
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