losing it again!

well cerelly I am glad to hear from you, positive or not:) I hope you have a great day...we ARE getting through this, I mean hell we aint gonna quit right!
 
sleeplessinsc said:
well cerelly I am glad to hear from you, positive or not:) I hope you have a great day...we ARE getting through this, I mean hell we aint gonna quit right!
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Ive jsut been stressed drained and emotional...so it makes uit hard to post positivily and such know - I gotta think harder abt what I am gonna say and how I am gonna say it...but Im here for ya :):):)Nash quiting isnt an option
 
well this place isnt all about positivity, its more about a struggle, I look back and this journal and realize I have been quite a whiner...:eek: oh well I can whine if I must but that will all be over soon!
 
Sucks to hear you saw that terrible crash Sleepy :( We think since they're the best of the best, this just shouldn't happen but in the reality of it all, danger is always on the cutting edge in this business - perhaps it's the fascination why people attend these events to be awed by the power, skill and danger.

My take on personal appearance: Yes, it dramatically changes (the mind-bending part) when we start slimming. I'm sure many of us lose weight for our healthy but the cosmetic change is right up there at the top of the list too. I think it's as much of an incentive as the health issue. I think everyone wants to look good, don't they ??

hehe, at least you're not an old geezer male trying to pull off the impossible. You my friend will look simply stunning at the end of your journey. Just keep doing what you're doing and to the hell with what anyone else thinks. I put it out there everyday in public and no one could persuade me otherwise. They have the option to look away if they don't like what they see.

Have a great day :)
 
sleeplessinsc said:
well this place isnt all about positivity, its more about a struggle, I look back and this journal and realize I have been quite a whiner...:eek: oh well I can whine if I must but that will all be over soon!
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It is your journal and your going through stuff - it is for you to say and do whatever you want in...LOL
 
Thanks T2...ya know it was the very best show I have ever seen...and then tragedy. The thing that gets me the most is the guy was 32 and just loved what he was doing, they truly are the elite of the forces and to lose one is just heart breaking.Living in a military town most of my childhhod I have a deep pride in the forces, regardless of other political bunk! We will heal down here...and we will ALWAYS love those blue angels!
quit calling yourself a geezer! My granfather lived to be over 100 and he was a sharp looking ladies man, and he enjoyed every minute of it...he lost weight in his 80's and quit smoking at 85 and had another 20 years of looking and feeling better than he had in a long long time...so in his words you are as young as you feel...age is just a number, you are on your way to looking and feeling great! Plus negativity causes wrinkles I think:confused:
 
sleeplessinsc said:
well this place isnt all about positivity, its more about a struggle, I look back and this journal and realize I have been quite a whiner...:eek: oh well I can whine if I must but that will all be over soon!
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We all have ups and downs. To be honest I never thought you were being negative at all. I've loved to see the way you've been progressing.

Anyway, I think being able to express how we feel here is helpful to the person writing - whether we classify it as positive or not. I also find it helpful to see that this is not always easy for other people, and helpful to hear from them when they are keeping on despite the other difficulties in their lives. Then again I love hearing about when things are going well too!! It's all good. :)

I think Randy might be overdoing the geezer idea just a little in relation to himself. :) He's right about you having so much to look forward to though!! :)
 
Thanx Felici...I dont have much to whine about right now, I seem to be keeping on track pretty good. I had some seriouse issues of fatigue last week but I picked up my calories and I am feeling alot more energetic...I am staying between 1600 and 2000 now depending on my exercise for the day.
I havent been working out as much, just having alot of company and things to take care of but I am getting back to it today and hopefull I will see some weight loss this week...I reall dont like to have visitors, I am pretty much a recluse. I can tolerate people for about an hour but most tend to linger much longer around here...I love my friends dont get me wrong. The problem is definatly me.I just like to be buisy with my projects music and art, I feel like when people are here I get nothing done, just sitting and talking about things that dont much matter...I have become hooked on this forum however I just love reading it all.It really makes my day:) So maybe that means I am becoming more friendly...:rolleyes:
 
Day 36 and I ate a friggin cheesebuger:mad: why did I do that?!? My hubby brought them home on his lunch break...I cant blame him though I ate the damn thing! I guess I am gonna severley punish myself with excercise now:(
Its not that I went over on my calories its that I cant eat anymore today or I will be over! Great.....just great! 500 calories and I didnt stop there I ate fries too...:( :( :(
 
It's one slip up -in the grand scheme of things it doesn't matter.. Just keep going forward :)

You've done so well so far - one treat meal won't break you.. :D

Hang in there :D
 
Yep - I'm with Mal, don't beat yourself up...each meal presents a new opportunity to eat healthier :)
 
Thanks guys...I didnt freak out for long, I got right to some tae bo and worked in the garden for 2+ hours and by the time I went to bed I felt much better about it. I really did get upset at first but then I remembered that I was eating out three times a day not that long ago...I am doing better even with the slip. I swear I think this place keeps me going, I just dont have any support anywhere else. My family is full of biguns:) and my hubby likes biguns!
But I really am doing this for me...and my daughter...and I am succeding!

I woke up this morning and decided to try on some of my 14/15 jeans and they went on! Tight, but not that tight...Geesh that was such a great feeling! I dont have any clothes to wear...everything is either too big or much too small, so now I have something I can wear! My hubby has offered to take me shopping but I am losing pretty fast and I dont want to invest in clothes I hope to shrink out of ASAP...

I also pulled out my summer clothes from last year...none of it fits:( Everything is between 8 and 11 so that sux! I had sold alot of my BIG clothes on ebay and bought some sexy new clothes...the smallest I had worn since the 6th grade! I cant wait to get back in them because I hardly got to wear them at all...
 
I'm glad the burger angst is past. For myself, I think it's fine to think unhappily about it for a little while if I eat food I intended avoiding, but I don't think there's any value in staying down about it. The thing that really matters anyway is just getting going again ASAP afterwards.

What fun to start fitting into old clothes that are still sexy new clothes!! :D
 
I have been saying I was going back to karate for months now, and I always make up an excuse for not doing so.Last summer my sister (my instructor) used some sillouetts of her top students to make a new t-shirt, and she included me doing a head high side kick.This was so flattering to me,I was shocked and very proud after all I had lost nearly 150 pounds after having my little girl.Then I gained and gained! So anyway I had told my sister I would make her a very nice sighn to go on the side of her new dojo, but I never did...she called me a day or two ago and told me she was having that logo with me in it plastered on the side of the dojo!larger than life!:eek: Now dont get me wrong I am flattered but at the same time horrified! This june my neice is testing for her black belt and they are having the test there, ok so this is a huge deal! this means chuck norris' hob knobers are gonna be there from all over, and lots of family members and friends as well! I am horrified and obligated to go.
I can see it now...who is that in the logo...o thats you(thinking how many pounds ago?)I am dreading this now...but I am so proud of my neice I just couldnt miss it and let her down she is only 9 and I love her to peices.Yet I keep thinking of ways to get myself out of this...I dont know what to do, I mean I know what the right thing to do is.I am gonna do the right thing but I feel like having a panic attack just thinking about it.It may sound crazy but it has alot to do with one particular person that will be there...one I cannot really explain...ooooooooooo my gosh I am feeling sick:(
 
NO need to be depressed.....

sleeplessinsc said:
ok so i am starting my very own diary....this is scary... I lost 150 pounds and then got sick and gained 45 back so i am depressed and dissapointed in myself but i am starting over today! I am so tired of dissapointing myself! I tend to let my whole life depend on my weight, lately i am becoming reclusive over it I dont want to go out i feel like everyone is staring at me and i dont even want my friends and family to look at me...i know they are all thinking (well she is gaining all the weight back! soon she will be just as big as ever!):confused: why am i doing this to myself?!?:(
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OK I am having some seriouse energy problems! What do I do about it?!? I am having PLENTY of calories and taking vitamins sublingual B12 and fiber...What is wrong with me? I havent been dong much working out, maybe I would feel better if I did...But I am seriously feeling so drained! Any advice...anyone???
 
I think it is the not working out - when I slow my working out down and do les sof it it affects me big time - makes me so tired and drained...
 
If you drop your level of exercise off a lot that will drain your energy. If you panic about your picture being up at your sister's and what others will think about you in relation to that, that will drain your energy. If you have a bunch of emotionally stressful situations to deal with one after the other (the term "emotionally draining" is used in America right - because the emotions make you feel drained). PMT can sap your energy...

I'm sorry things are feeling more difficult for you. I think when we get tired we just need to hang in there, do what exercise we can manage and not eat too badly.

I type this with my eyes half open, yawning and wishing I had made better choices for dinner tonight. Which reminds me, that I find salads energizing...
 
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