Lori's Diary

Okay, so the first week of the new job is over - and it was a very exciting week...filled with lots of drama of course!! I swear - I must have a sign on my head that I don't know about that says "You got drama? Involve me!"

Its too much to get into..I'd be here for days typing all the details, but let's just say that the girl I'm training with initiated it and found a way to make me look like the bad guy.

Oh well, what are you gonna do? I work with all women..so emotions, drama and more drama are bound to come up!

But all in all, it was a great week. I love my boss..she is absolutely hysterical..like working with Ellen Degeneres. Love the people I'm going to be working with and LOVE what I'll be doing. I am a little nervous about switching industries completely..but I'm a quick learner, so I should be able to pick it up quickly.

I have training all next week out of town with even more information to soak in...so my mind will be fried!! But a good fried!
 
Wow..I haven't written in here for awhile. Starting this new job has consumed so much I've my brain that I've only logged on to check in with my contests that I'm doing.

The new job is going great...a little bit of drama the first week, but this week is much better. My brain is just ready to call it quits!

My boyfriend and I went out last Saturday night to celebrate his birthday and ended up seeing people that haven't seen me since before I started losing weight. What a self esteem booster! You would have thought I lost half of myself!

Everyone was just ranting and raving over how good I looked and how much weight I lost. It felt really good. Sometimes thats all I need for encouragement.

As far as Training this week, I'm about 5 hours away from home. At first, I thought I'd like the alone time and "me" time - away from the dogs and the boyfriend, but I miss them terribly. I usually complain about having to take care of everything..but I do miss it...it feels like I'm forgetting to do something every day!

I get to go home on Friday though - not looking forward to the 5 hour drive back, :auto: but I'll be happy to get home!
 
Today starts my third week of training. I think that this training will be a little more hands on just to get me used to the process and stuff.

I'm not sure why I'm so nervous because I'm normally not a shy person. I've been doing Sales for the past 10 years..but I think the whole "new industry" thing is what's getting my nerves in a frenzy.

A big part of my job is knowing the students and knowing the instructors so that I know who to introduce while taking students on a tour of the school prior to enrolling.

Well, being the newbie..I don't know anyone! Its not like the normal new job where over time you get to know a few people..I need to know everyone...like in the next week.

I thought about taking in some sort of treat and putting a note next to it saying "I can't wait to get to know all of you!", but I can't do that until I get my first paycheck.

This week is gonna be rough for exercise - yesterday I exercised for an hour not realizing that I need to get in about 6 1/2 hours by the end of Thursday for one of the contests I'm doing. So, I'll have to do 96 min of exercise for the next 4 days. Can't imagine what I'm gonna feel like on Friday..lol.

I'm just looking at it like a mini bootcamp. I will definitely get up earlier tomorrow to take the dogs for a half hour walk prior to leaving for work. Then, that way I'll only have to do 65 min when I get home from work. It'll be challenging...but I love to be challenged. :)

 
Lori-I think getting to know all those new people sounds like SO much fun (except remembering names which I am horrid at LOL), taking in treats is a good way to go whenever you can.

Excercise
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mini-boot camp for sure!
 
Well yesterday was filled with ups and downs. It was a good day at work - started out as being a little nervous but ended up with two appointments set by the end of the day which helped build my confidence.

But last night, I found out that my 21 yr old cousin who has been suffering from Chronic Anorexia Nervosa for the past 7 years voluntarily admitted herself to the hospital.

Her case worker called me and said that she had lost a great deal of weight - and finally reached out for help. I know this is a step in the right direction for her because she has never recognized that she can't do it alone..and has never asked for help or voluntarily admitted herself.

I worry about her and wish that there was more that I could do. When I first came into the whole situation - I thought I could save her...but as I learned more and more about the disease its all about what lies within her. :(

 
Lori, I am so sorry about your cousin. I don't know much about anorexia but it is a very serious thing indeed. I think that it is a very positive step that she went to the hospital. Also I think that nowadays doctors are more aware of this illness as it is very wide spread and they have their better ways of treating it.

Don't worry that you still don't feel comfortable at work. It is quite realistic that lots of things stress you now. I should say it would be like this the first 3 months. It's so normal, although not pleasent. Just be "cool". :)
 
Happy Birthday!

I am sorry about your cousin. I know it is hard to look at this positively.
However, when I read your post, I see that your cousin is finally reaching out for help that she needs, which says to me that she is trying to take the steps to get better. And that's a huge improvement from before based on what you have described.

Hang in there! Good luck! And keep going on your journey to a healthier you!
 
Thank you guys so much for the birthday wishes!! My day was fabulous. The true celebration will be this coming Saturday - so I will have to let you guys know how that goes.

We are going to a country bar that has one of those mechanical bulls..and I plan on riding it!

I don't have much time being that I have to get ready for work - but I will definitely update this weekend!

Thanks again!
 
Happy Birthday:party:

here's a birthday :grouphug:!

Sorry to hear about your couisin it is a great step in the right direction, you are right, you cannot save them, they can only save themselves (with help doctors).

GO RED!

ps you reached one-der-land just in time for your birthday!
 
Hi Lori, it's time to share about all the flattering comments you got during your birthday week celebration. What does your boyfriend think? Is he happy and/or supportive?
 
Yes..the flattering comments were nice at the birthday party - it was nice to hear everyone say how great I looked. My sister told me that it looked like I had lost even more weight, and that was nice.

I think the best part was that after I got dressed to go out - I wasn't feeling insecure or self conscious at all - which used to be the norm. I had a great time.

I was so nervous that when I saw the video of me riding the bull the next morning that I was going to look huge! But to my surprise - not huge at all - that was a good feeling! Gave me the motivation to keep on going!
 
Wow. Seeing yourself on camera has ALWAYS been a downer for me. It must have been amazing for you to have such a great self-esteem when you saw your sexy self. lol
 
You rode a bull! Go girl. OMG. I've always wanted to do that, looks like a lot of fun.

I know what you mean about feeling good in your clothes. I've recently lost 19 pounds and last night when I dressed to go out, for the first time in a really long time, I sat up with my back straight and didn't feel insecure or anything, even when the twigs walked by.

Doing great, keep it up.
 
Wow - its been waaaaaay too long since I've posted on the Forum! And there's a reason for that! I'm very disappointed in myself because I have completely lost focus. I think that subconsciously I have avoided coming on here because I knew I'd have to admit that I threw diet and exercise completely out the window.

Before I started my new job - I told myself that it would be hard to stick to it, but I was still gonna do it! Well, that didn't happen!

I haven't exercised, I haven't been watching what I eat. The junk food demons in my head have had victory over the past month.

BUT - today is the day that will all turn around. It is very hard after working all day and then sitting in traffic to motivate myself to exercise for an hour when I get home. On the other hand, I know I am determined enough and strong enough to do it.

I have managed to stay around the same weight - but the fact that I was in ONE-derland and have gone back up to 202 lbs makes me sad. It doesn't mean that it has to stay that way though.

So, its time to get back on the bandwagon - as easy as it would be to just say "screw it", I'll take the tougher path.

I was even thinking of starting a contest because they usually help me stay focused, but I wanna get the details down pat and make it a fun one before posting it.

Hope everyone out there is doing well!

 
Lori-hey there! One of my pals is back, yay! Yu still has not been on the board that I have seen, too sad. Anyway I too have lost a bit of focus and was thinking of just posting my numbers but not caring about my current contest but you and a few other factors today have inspired me to keep on keeping on. YOu lost your one der land and I lost my 140's land that I was so happy to get too. I will refocus too.

oh and ps I think BB is starting another competition sooner than later so you may want to see when that one starts.

good seeing you girlie!
 
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