Lori's Diary

My scale is officially driving me CRAZY!!! :smash: I'd like to throw it out the window. I think maybe I need to stick to the once a week weigh-in so that I don't get so frustrated. I've been going back and forth between 206-208 for the past 2 days and it's making me NUTS!

I just don't get it...I've made sure I'm getting at least 8 glasses of water per day, exercising, watching calories (sticking to 1600-1800) and its just not budging.

Guess its just my impatience getting the best of me!
 
A little disappointed...

So, I only lost another 1.5 lbs this week..kind of frustrating because I worked so hard. But its still progress.
 
HI

1.5lb is great ok so its not as much as you hoped but its a loss and its in the right direction
Lol at grandmother i guess shes thinks shes helping, bless, her heart is in the right place

Keep up the fab work
Sarah
 
Well, I have to say, I feel myself getting stronger. When I started my exercise program, I could barely get through the tapes - now I'm kickin ass! Its a good feeling - especially when the scale isn't moving. At least I know I'm building muscle.

I talked to my younger sister yesterday, who is away at college. She was asking me how it was going and how much I had lost. She was also asking me how she could lose 35 lbs in a month for a wedding. She's all for the fad diets.

Towards the end of the conversation, she was asking me what I wanted to lose, what my goals were - and I told her I was going to be in a bikini this summer. (I was a sales person for 10 years - and still have the mentality that I'm gonna hit the highest goal - even if in reality, it may not be possible - keeps me motivated).

And her comeback to that was - You REALLY think YOU'RE gonna be a bikini by June?? :leaving:

Now, I don't think she meant it to come out the way it did - but I wanted to scream at the top of my lungs and say THANKS FOR HAVING SO MUCH FREAKIN FAITH IN ME! But I didn't - because I have all of you guys! lol

And its comments like that - that motivate me even more. When people don't believe in me, it just makes me push myself harder to prove them wrong!

Me and my sis...
(gotta love good camera angles)
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So, yesterday I went over my calorie limit by A LOT! A little disappointed in myself, but I just had the urge to splurge. Can't say it was worth it though..ended up sick in the bathroom most of the night.

I'm getting frustrated because the scale isn't moving - but I have been slacking on my water. I didn't exercise yesterday cause I needed a rest - but I'm ready to kick some ass today.

It was one day, and one downfall, and now its time to move on and get back on track!
 
Drama, drama, drama! I HATE DRAMA! You would think that someone who hates it so much would be able to avoid it...but I'm like a freakin magnet for it! :cuss: I just don't understand why people waste their time with it.

Anyways... :waving: Morning everyone! I haven't written here for a few days because I've been on a mad job search! The money in my savings is slowly fading away and I'm a little nervous. I did find something that is work from home but its strictly commission and is never a guarantee. So, money has a put a little bit of stress into the mix.

Its funny, because normally I would be sitting on my couch having a pity party and pigging out - but the diet and exercise have really helped with handling the stress.

My scale is still driving me nuts - up and down, up and down - I want to throw it out the freakin window!

So, other than that, not much new. I'm gonna go jump around and read some threads!

Have a great day!
 
So, yesterday was a VERY EXCITING day for me. When I first started this whole journey back in November, I was squeezing into a size 18. I could comfortably wear a size 20.

Well, yesterday, I thought I would try on a pair of my size 16 jeans that were always snug on me when I was a size 16. I put them on - and they zipped right up - not snug - but very comfortable with a little extra room! Like, I could wear them to bed they were so comfortable..lol.

I about fell over I was so shocked. I started dancing around and screaming - I was so happy. :willy_nilly:

It made me feel so good because the scale hasn't been going down drastically and neither have my measurements, so I was getting a little discouraged thinking that it wasn't working - but alas! IT IS! It gave me that extra motivation to keep it up.
 
Very exciting morning for me. I hung out with one of my friends last night, and she gave me a pair of Victoria Secrets sweat pants - she had said that they were too big for her and someone had given them to her as a gift - so she wanted to know if I wanted them since she would never wear them. She's a little skinny minnie thing.

So, I took them, and at first felt kind of bad because I was thinking that they were a large or x-large. But didn't think about it too much.

I put them on this morning thinking that they would be a little small because their stuff usually runs small. I put them on and they fit perfectly. So, I took a look at the tag - and THEY'RE A SIZE MEDIUM!

I had to call my girlfriend and make sure I wasn't seeing things - and she assured me they were mediums. I have never bought a pair of medium sweatpants in my life - let alone from Victoria Secrets.

Didn't have to stretch them or pull them to make them fit - and they fit me perfectly - it was very exciting because it shows that my efforts are paying off! WOOOHOO! :party:
 
Wow, its been awhile since I've written here. I've kinda been in a funk lately due to stress and just haven't been myself..I just hate when I get like that. Doesn't help that I'm PMSing this week and want to eat everything in my sight. :banghead:

I've only exercised for 90 min so far this week, and by this time, I'm usually up to 300 min. My knees have really been bothering me, so I decided to take it easy - and two days ago I hurt my lower back carrying laundry to my car...not fun!

I just gotta get back into the swing of things..I haven't really been pigging out, but I haven't been paying attention to calories either.

I think these times are the hardest part about weight loss, because its go easy to just give up and say "I screwed up..forget it", but I'm jumping back on the bandwagon and getting my ass in gear...I've come too far to give up now.
 
Way to keep with it Lori! I know it's always way too easy to give up and fall off the path of a lifestyle change when you screw up. I'm sorry to hear about your knee and back.....hopefully you feel better soon so you can get back on track!
 
Thank you guys so much for the encouraging comments. They help. Things have been stressful as usual. I've been doing well with the exercise though. I really think that this Forum has made the difference in my Weight Loss Journey this time around. You guys have turned into the little Jiminey Cricket (probably butchered the spelling of that) on my shoulder. It's nice having that though.

Any time that I feel like throwing the towel in, I just log on here, read some success stories and its like instant motivation!

I saw one success story on here where someone lost 50 lbs in 6 months. Well, 6 months for me would be right around my 30th birthday - and I just can't imagine being 30 lbs lighter by April! But, I guess if I stick with it and keep up what I'm doing, ya never know what could happen!
 
Consistency will get you to where you want to be...

If you think about this as a lifestyle change and not a diet -thern thre is absolutely nothing to give up on... Just keep going forward...
 
Yeah, I think that has played a part in keeping me focused this time as well. Any time that I have tried losing weight in the past, it has been for a certain date, or event - this time, I just made up my mind that its time to start living healthier. It would just be nice to be that much lighter by the time my birthday rolls around and I'll be seeing a bunch of people that I haven't seen in awhile.

I think that its really made a difference thinking-wise too. "Being on a diet" is so stressful. All you do is think about the food you can't have. Whereas, this time, I don't consider myself being on a diet - just making healthier choices and becoming more aware of what I put in my mouth! lol
 
Well, the scale is finally going in the right direction again. Last week was a "water retention" week, if ya know what I mean, and I did not like what the scale said at all. Today I got on the scale and was down to 200.5 - its so exciting but so frustrating because I'm so close to ONE-derland I can taste it!

Stress in my life is still trying to get the best of me, but I'm won't go down without a fight, dammit! I just keep telling myself that what I eat and how much I exercise is one thing I can control right now - so I need to hold on to that with all I can.

Happy Valentine's Day!
 
You are so close to ONEderland! You'll see the END of the 200's soon. Never see them again! Happy Valentine's Day.
 
So, I feel like I've hit a plateau - and its not like I don't know why - but I think it just seems worse because I'm so close to getting under 200, and just can't get there. I'm still exercising regularly, but not watching as much as I was with what I eat - I'm not overeating..just not eating as healthy as I was. And I'm also not drinking as much water.

So, today, the shit's getting put back in order!!

Last night, my boyfriend and I went down to Dave and Buster's to meet my sister and her boyfriend. I haven't seen my sister since Christmas - and she was very proud of me for the progress I've made so far.

It felt good when she told me I looked younger and she could definitely tell I was losing. Looking younger is always a good thing..especially when I'm freaking out about turning 30! :eek:

I have been working with my mom to make some money, but its still not MY JOB. Mentally, its killing me not to have my own. But, I'm trying not to let the stress of it take over. One day at a time...that's all I can do.

Working with my mom has made me realize what its going to be like exercise-wise once I go back to work. I've gotten used to being able to exercise mid-morning - or whenever my butt feels like doing it throughout the day - but working all day, I have to do it AFTER work at night before dinner - and I forgot how bad that sucked! Its the last thing I feel like doing after sitting in 40 minutes of traffic and working all day - but I always feel better when I'm done. Just more of a challenge to get myself motivated to do it.

 
:banghead: Well...I think I'm officially losing it. My mind, that is. Yesterday was a bummer for me. I had interviewed with a company and really, really wanted the job. I found out yesterday that someone else got it. SUCKS!

Struggling financially since having no income at all since November isn't helping my state of mind either. I have always been good at budgeting my money..but I have become an EXPERT at managing it down to the penny. I'm sick of bill collectors calling me - and the sad thing is, I used to be one. So, I talk to them and explain my situation. I know that when I was in Collections - that's all I wanted people to do, but in turn, I would try to help them. These people that are calling me are either just complete idiots or assholes.

I found out that my cousin who has anorexia has not eaten ANYTHING since she came home from the hospital THREE WEEKS AGO! I was very involved in helping her last summer, and spent most of my time researching and spending time with her trying to find support groups, doctors, etc...and now, I feel like a horrible person because I'm just not capable of doing it mentally.

My landlord is calling me about one of my best friends that moved into the building that has not paid her rent yet - and I really don't think that I should be put into the middle of that.

I have been going into work with my mom to help her get caught up - its good because I get to spend time with her and get out of the house - but its an added pressure that we need to be done in a week before she gets audited.

I woke up yesterday determined to get back on track with eating right, planned out my meals for the day - and then completely threw that out the window when my mom and I went to a Chinese buffet for lunch.

And then, I woke up this morning and feel like crap! I just feel like I'm running on empty. Normally, exercising helps relieve some of the stress..but it just hasn't been cutting it lately. That's really the ONLY thing I have been faithful with.

I can't wait for happy days again...I just don't know why I'm having such a hard time getting through this and staying positive. Normally, self talk helps - but I'm ready to just jump in my car, throw the cell phone out the window and drive with no specific destination in mind.

 
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