Looking to lose an extra human I apparently picked up along the way

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175.5 again this morning. Charting my weigh ins again. Last six days 178, 177, 176.5, 176.5, 175.5, 175.5.
 
I can't see your video as I have used up all my data watching this & showing it to family & friends -
https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/all-about-that-bass-2015-european/id977300386
I love it, but unfortunately can't get it out of my head. Hope you're starting to feel a little bit better V, xo Cate
 
Alright 174.5 this morning. Every time so far that I've dipped below 175, I have in short order have an evening that immediately sends my weight up a few pounds. That won't be happening tonight, so maybe I can continue my progress. I'm going to call 174 as my current low mark, so anything below that represents a new low.

Saw some coworkers today that I usually don't get to see except once a year. One of whom is my bosses' boss, and he looked at me and said, "man you're just whittling away to nothing." I smiled. Nice to see people still notice.

Was a high of 94 today. The brutal Phoenix summers are fast approaching. We should get a few breaks between now and then. But by the end of May it will be in the 100s and stay there until October.
 
174 this morning. Cardio day. I think I'm just going to do some treadmill work.

It's the final day of March and my life has started to calm down a bit from the hecticness that is March for me. This year turned out to be only a slightly better March for me than Julius Caesar had that one time. But at least now I seem to be properly motivated.
 
Sorry to hear about your rough patch. No need to go into detail, I just hope everything is ok on your side again. Congrats on your new low!
 
173 this morning. That's definitely a new low. 17.3% on the BF monitor which is also nice. The bad news: I got very poor sleep last night. Only a couple hours tops. But at least I didn't compound the problem by sleeping in. So at least I should have no trouble tonight as long as I don't nap.

Weatherman says glorious day today, so later this afternoon will try and get a nice long walk in since all I did for my workout today was lift heavy things and then put them back down.
 
Well done on the new, new low. Hope you get your sleep pattern settled again. I needed to do the same last night, after a bad couple of nights & managed to stay awake until bed-time, even after a game of golf & slept like a log. Hope you got the walk in & that things improve for you V, xo Cate
 
172.5 this morning. Back to back new lows.

Strawberries have been on sale the last few weeks, so lately I've replaced my daily fruit snack (usually an apple or orange), with cut up strawberries mixed with some reduced calorie whipped cream. Amazing how much of that you can get for 85 calories.

Slept in today, which is bad. Hopefully I won't pay for it tonight. Off to my carido workout.
 
Mmm strawberries! The ones I can get here don´t smell like much yet but I´m looking forward to raiding my parents´ garden when I get there next month :p Congratulations on an another amazing new low!
 
I have to know...

How is it that even after losing a crap ton of weight already, you STILL manage to regularly shed pounds each and every week? You amaze me, man.
 
173 yesterday, 174 this morning. Was fine on Thursday. Maybe a touch over calories yesterday but probably no worse than maintenance and maybe not even. Hard to say since I had dinner out (need to stop doing that). The free refills of diet coke may have me carrying excess water. BF monitor backs that up at a cool 17.0% today.

Cardio Saturday today. About to go do it, but not sure what I'm doing. Pretty sure it won't be sprint intervals though. Did those on Thursday and back to backing on those leaves my hamstrings feeling like someone played dueling banjos on them.

Chef,

I believe my strength is my weakness. I spend most of my time by myself. I prepare one person meals for myself and I shop for myself. The end result is I completely control both what I eat and what is laying around the house. I work out of my house so I don't have to spend significant amounts of time elsewhere like at an office where people are known to bring in cookies and donuts and other sorts of temptations. Backing this idea up is the fact that usually when I don't quite meet my calorie goals, it is on days where I have meals and spend large amounts of time elsewhere (like at my parents).

The downside is that I'm terribly isolated most of the time, which has messed with my head to a significant extent. This sort of lifestyle is a remnant of when I was 375 pounds and had little to no desire to interact with the rest of the world at that weight. The life I constructed for myself was one based around being a single man who weighed nearly 400 pounds (and was likely on his way there). So I'm now a 174 pound man trying to become a 161 pound man in the living space of a 375 pound man.

So it's easier for me to lose weight and focus on diet and exercise because I only have to concern myself with myself. It's just harder for everything else because of it.
 
I just looked up Phoenix, to get an idea of what it's like & got side-tracked. When you talk about long, hot Summers I had no idea just how hot it gets. It was really interesting to read about it. I started off with the Wikipedia entries & then started looking up places to meet people... :blush: What is the area (village?) you live in like? Is it very much a place where mostly couples live? I so wish both you & our younger son would find someone to love. It hurts me that our son does not have someone who loves him.
I just deleted a whole paragraph as it made me feel really sad & that's the last thing I want to share with you.
Sending you lots of love from Tassie, xo Cate
 
I live in the Paradise Valley area. It's actually quite nice. It does get extremely hot in the summer, but at night it really isn't so bad.

That post came out as more of a downer than I meant it to be. Like I said the upside is I have a huge amount of flexibility and freedom which is been a big key in helping get me to wear I am. I mean losing over 200 pounds isn't the sort of thing people do, particularly without going the surgery route.

I'd like to find the happy medium, at least for a little while.
 
I'm glad. Paradise Valley sounds like a lovely place to live! I have been known to be called an emotional sponge. I wish I wasn't! I worry about people unnecessarily & it can be exhausting!
 
I can only assume that you are physically a 175 lb man with the emotions and mentality of a 375 lb man. Understandable. When I lost a bunch of weight before (a few years ago), people complimented me on how well I looked - you've lost so much weight, you look great, blah blah blah - but I didn't FEEL much different. I had a much better physical image, but my mentality was still that of the nearly 300 lb man I used to be. So, nothing much changed in my life. Yes, my body was much different, but my mental state hadn't changed much. And, THAT is what kept me lonely for so many years.

I wish I had some magical words of wisdom or some sort of 'solve all problems' kind of advice, but I don't. However, I can give you a shard of truth which comes from my own battle with weight/depression/loneliness, what-have-you.

I spent years alone before I met Jen. YEARS. No girlfriends, no dates, not even a shred of interest from the female sex. Nothing. I sat in my room alone, beating myself up for years. Physically, I was ok for the most part. Some of that time was spent as a nearly 300 lb man, but a lot of it was spent as a 220 lb man who didn't look half bad. Unfortunately, even at my lightest, my emotions remained heavy. It was hard for me to rid myself of the emotions I felt for so long - just because I lost a bunch of weight didn't mean I lost my insecurities along with them. All of the negative stuff remained...and it remained there for a while. Until I met Jen.

We clicked. Things started slow and took a long, long time to blossom into an actual loving relationship with genuine feelings, but we clicked. As time went on, we fell in love and, although I can't speak for her, I know that MY life got better. I was happier, full of love and gained a positive look on life. BUT, I will still insecure for a long, long time - VERY insecure. It took me years to really get past the emotions I had which came from being fat and unattractive. For the longest time, I found it very hard to believe that Jen actually wanted me and was actually attracted to me. To be blunt - even though she was willingly having sex with me (and enjoying it), I STILL didn't feel like she wanted me. Crazy, huh? But, that's how screwed up my emotions were. After all that time, in my head, I was still that nearly 300 lb fatty - even though I had a girlfriend who loved me, was both physically and emotionally attracted to me, and was always by my side.

My point is this - shit happens. Not every woman is going to want you. Not every woman is going to find you attractive. But, that's ok. Every moment I spent alone, I used to beat myself up and blame myself for my situation - I'm too fat, I'm ugly and unattractive, nobody wants me and who could blame them, I'm hideous and that's why I'm alone - but the reality is that you can't force love. It wasn't my fault. It was just my mentality. It's just life.

I found mine and you can find your's. Keep your chin up and don't let the ones that don't create sparks keep you from missing your chance to find the one who starts a fire.

And, if you want, I'll let you borrow Jen for a while. If you give her caramels, she'll do anything. AN-Y-THING.
 
Thanks Chef. For the time being my thoughts are going to have to be focused elsewhere than on the fairer sex.

175.5 this morning after Easter. Didn't have the best of diet days yesterday at the parents house, but didn't do too bad. Maintenance cals, probably. Though it was a scheduled rest day and I played 18 holes of golf. Guessing it's water weight that will come back off quickly.'

Today is opening day of the baseball season. Something of a national holiday for me, and I'm sitting here getting housework done while I watch the White Sox game.
 
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