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Thanks so much everyone :) The support I feel I have in here is the honestly the reason why I feel like I am doing well this time, instead of just giving up like I have every other time in the past.

Day 3 of my healthy eating today and I am doing well. I was super nervous this morning because it has always been between day 3 and day 5 in the past where I have given into temptation and gone back to my unhealthy eating habits. It's getting easier each day to say no to the junk food and the the takeaway food but it's still hard in some ways. I think before a lot of the time I just ate out of boredom, among other reasons and so many times in these first few days I have thought to myself, "I'm hungry, what can I eat?" I have to remind myself that I am not really hungry, I am just bored. Especially on the days where my boys are at preschool I would just eat. I knew I was not hungry, but I was still eating. When my kids are at home a lot of the time I have to scoff my food down so that either my little one doesn't steal it (my oldest is super fussy and doesn't steal my food but my youngest eats everything!), or I end up eating cold food cause it has sat there for so long while I did everyone else's food, so maybe a part of me was just making all this food up so I could sit down and eat it with no interuptions or little people stealing it. Or maybe, I just used food as a way to pass the time - it was probably both actually.

I am super proud of myself for this morning. I went into the shops after I dropped the kids off at preschool cause I needed to buy bread. I walked past a display where all the chocolates were 60% off :drool5: Normally I would have bought at least 4 different ones, telling myself that they would only be 1 per week and eating them all as soon as I got home. Well, I did not buy a single one! I said to myself I don't need them, they wont help me lose weight and I am not buying them. I felt so proud of myself for saying no. This is a huge step for me, I dont think I have ever said no to chocolate on special, that's so bad, but sadly it's true. I did it though and every time I say no to those unhealthy foods I feel a little stronger each time, like I am starting to believe in myself more and starting to believe that I can actually do this. I have tried and given up so many times in the past that I think in my mind a part of me doesn't believe that I will succeed this time, that this will be another failed attempt, but I have to keep reminding myself that this time is different. My confidence will get better and I can do this.
 
Well done getting past the chocolate! That´s a tough one, especially when it´s on special offer. Thinking about why you want to eat when the cravings come can be really helpful in the long run.
 
Day 4 today and I am really nervous. I am going to the shops with my mother in law later and we always end up buying some form of takeaway for lunch while we are there. I need to resist. I know that if I give in now then it makes it too easy to go back to eating that type of food every day and I do not want to do that. I need to stay strong. I have eaten my breakfast which was an omelette which will help keep me full and I am going to take my apple with me in case I get hungry. I am not sure if I will be able to resist, but I am going to try. I have my lunch in the fridge ready for later so really I guess there are no excuses other than if I am strong enough to resist the cravings. I will really really try I can promise that, I just don't want to promise 100% I wont eat anything while I am there, cause then if I do I am going to feel like I failed and that I let myself down. I wil try my best, that's all I can do :)
 
Thanks Cate :) I am so happy to report that I did not eat anything at the shops! I took my apple with me, ate it on the way home, had my lunch after I got home and now having my afternoon snack. I am so proud of myself!!! My goodness, I never would have thought a week ago that this week I would have been on my 4th day of completely sticking to my healthy eating plan. I am feeling so good eating healthy and there is no way that I want to go back to eating that rubbish again. I can't promise that I will never eat another takeaway meal forever but the cravings are starting to go away. The first 2 days I really wanted to buy something, anything and was telling myself "just one more" or "this can be the last day, I will start again tomorrow" It was really hard to resist, but it is getting easier every single day which is awesome.
 
:hurray::hurray::hurray: That´s amazing! You´ve certainly proven that you can do this thing. Now all you have to do is stick with it and not get complacent.
 
Oh, well done Lisa! We are almost always much stronger than we think. You should be very proud :)
 
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