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lena410 said:
i need to get rid of this stress. i wanna yell. i wanna scream. i wanna break things, throw plates into walls, punch someone in the face. i wanna do it all.

this diary helps. where would i be without this forum? and people here....
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Oh I feel you! So sorry about that. I'm ashamed to admit I occasionally throw things--but not breakable things, honestly! It is very bad :( You'd think with all the damn Kickboe, running, and weights I'd be too exhausted to get angry, ever. Not true.

This website is a goddessend, and you all are angels :eek:
 
Have you got a punch bag at home ? you can punch and kick one all you like and it never complains, you also get a good workout :boxing:
 
lena410 said:
i need to get rid of this stress. i wanna yell. i wanna scream. i wanna break things, throw plates into walls, punch someone in the face. i wanna do it all.
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nerf balls thrown at people...
water balloons thrown at people

rubber ball tossed with a great deal of velocity against a brick wall :)
 
AHHHHH *HUGS** to you Lena!! I think a Pillow sometimes can be used as a good punching bag! Maybe a nice long walk will make you feel a little better, just stay away from the kitchen, don't turn this stress into an eating frenzy! It's okay to yell to, maybe get into the shower and sing super loud, let out a couple good cries and then take some deep cleansing breaths! I'm so sorry to hear about your BF, it sounds like he "might" have pneumonia, that could make your chest hurt and most people don't even know they have it until they go to the doctor. I'm sure he will be alright, don't worry okay. I hate damn insurance, it's so expensive and EVERYONE should be entitled to have some regardless if they work for a big company or not, it should be supplied by our goverment, or maybe all the millionaires can contribute a 100K a year each to go into a fund to help out people who work hard and still can't afford it. uggg, don't get me started on that one. :jump: Well I better get going, I paused a good movie about an hour ago, it's probably over by now. I'll check in on you later.
BIG HUGS
Kim
 
Yiiii! I hope that stress thing has gone down a bit!!!

Punching is good, but running and kicking will burn more calories.




I am available for hugs but not sure if this is the moment....
 
awwww thanx everyone :) well i tried it all, i yelled, i even walked for 4 hours, didn't really help lol. i'm exhauested and unfortunately i did take the anger out on myself by eating yesterday...i didn't eat dinner, i didn't eat lunch as i was supposed to...no i ate 2 cherry cakes (squares-2 by 2 centimeters) and 3 chocolate ones and then later anothe rpiece of apple pie. i did swim yesterday so i did burn some, but i'm so not proud of myself. i thought i was eating it because i really craved cakes...so not true. who am i kidding...i ate because i couldn't express the anger. i really have problems expressing it. so now i cried for good 15 minutes in my office, because i felt sorry for myself.

ok i'm stopping with the wining... i needed it and now its ok. lets hope. i think i need to exercise more.
 
Aaaw.

A good scream would probably be nice, but it's hard to find a place to do that without frightening people, even in a fairly empty country like mine.... Have you tried writing about your anger?

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i did write poems when i was a bit younger...but to express my sadness, i could never express my anger. i started expressing it in the last six months, but these are only baby steps. the truth be told, its my father when he starts drinking i lose it. he knows it but he just shuts me up and there's no way to communicate with him. that only makes me powerless and helpless. i think the only way for me to stop feeling this type of anger is to move away. which i will be in september for 10 months. but when i come back i will definitely need to figure sth out.
 
well today is a new day...well yesterday was too, but i'm taking it all over again one day at a time :D had fridge full of cakes and didn't eat any...also had all sorts of prosciutto and cheese and didn't eat any :D i ate a ham and cheese whole wheat sandwich at work for lunch, when i came home i ate 2 nectarines and 1/2 slice watermelon and 2 fruit yogurts. for dinner i had veggies with some cooked beef. and then went to my workout.

my aerobic center will be open only this week and then they're off to holiday. i really hope i will be able to go to some gym. noone wants to work in the summer lol

i am refocusing...i am starting anew. i deserve to stay focused and i deserve to be healthy and happy.
 
so my foods today:

breakfast: kellogs special k with low fat yogurt
snack: 1 banana
lunch: veggies (peppers, carrots, onions and peas in sauted with soya sauce and in the end for 2 minutes in uncle bens marrocan sauce) and 3 small pieces of veel
snack: fruit yogurt, 2 nectarines
dinner: 2 hard boiled eggs, 3 slices of gouda cheese, 2 slices of feta cheese, 2 slices of prosciutto, 2 tomatoes, 1 pepper
 
lena410 said:
i ate because i couldn't express the anger. i really have problems expressing it. so now i cried for good 15 minutes in my office, because i felt sorry for myself.
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I'm sorry, Lena! :cry: I was the same way, I'm an emo-eater and I didn't realize it until recently. I hope you are feeling better--you know when I eat cake and stuff, binge on it, the crash from the blood sugar spike makes me feel even worse, later. What an awful cycle, huh?
 
lena410 said:
i'm taking it all over again one day at a time :D had fridge full of cakes and didn't eat any...also had all sorts of prosciutto and cheese and didn't eat any :D

i am refocusing...i am starting anew. i deserve to stay focused and i deserve to be healthy and happy.
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YOU SURE DO!!!!!!!!!!!! :)
 
Good Morning Lena!! Hey how is your bf doing?? I've been thinking about you! Your going to be alright my friend, your such a wonderful lady, and we love you here!! don't let life get you down, it's all good and your doing good! Are you going to a gym currently?? What are you doing right now besides swimming for exercise? I couldn't remember. Don't worry about one bad day of eating, just eat really well today and try to burn extra calories. I do love your menu for the day and nectarines are so yummy!! I used to eat those by the tons when I was a little girl. Try to have a better day today, and keep smiling. I'll check in on you later gator.
~~HUGS~~
Kim
 
Curvie Girlie said:
I'm sorry, Lena! :cry: I was the same way, I'm an emo-eater and I didn't realize it until recently. I hope you are feeling better--you know when I eat cake and stuff, binge on it, the crash from the blood sugar spike makes me feel even worse, later. What an awful cycle, huh?
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yeah i'm like that too. i really think that the addiction part in me is craving the cakes and such because they're the worst type of sugars. i read somewhere that when depressed and angry people crave bad carbs, and i have been both angry and depressed. i hate these vicisous cycles...

oh and val...thank you :)

Miss Ladybug said:
Good Morning Lena!! Hey how is your bf doing?? I've been thinking about you! Your going to be alright my friend, your such a wonderful lady, and we love you here!! don't let life get you down, it's all good and your doing good! Are you going to a gym currently?? What are you doing right now besides swimming for exercise? I couldn't remember. Don't worry about one bad day of eating, just eat really well today and try to burn extra calories. I do love your menu for the day and nectarines are so yummy!! I used to eat those by the tons when I was a little girl. Try to have a better day today, and keep smiling. I'll check in on you later gator.
~~HUGS~~
Kim
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you are such a wonderful person Kim :) thank you for being here for me. my current exercise routine is: three times a week per hour i do totoal body workout - 20 hour warm up consisting of tae bo, high-low aerobics etc and then 40 minutes we do combinations of high and low aerobics with dumb-bells, lunges, weight exercises, pilates, even fitness yoga routines sometimes-like a mix of everything but the stress is on weights (not much of a weight, i do 6 lbs at the moment), the rest is swimming or elliptical when its not too hot or just simple walking.
as for my bf he went to see the doctor. thank god he doesn't have pneumonia or anything related to the lungs, but he does have some sort of reumatism, so he needs to hit the beach as much as he can.
i did eat well yesterday and today...the sunday was really a mess. i'm over that i guess :)

be_gone_soon said:
I sure hope you have a better day today!:hug2:
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i am having a better day :) i guess i needed a pitty party. but i am better :)
 
WOW you are getting a huge workout in during the week, I never realized that before. AWESOME! It's nice losing those inches isn't it? Oh how I love it!! However, it seems the back side of all my slacks are starting to look horrible, looks like a saggy bottom. HAHAHA Well, I'm happy to see your bf got it worked out and it's alright. :) I hope you have a good day and eat well today!! :)
 
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