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How rude!

That's ok, she'll be one of those that quits after a month or so and gains everything back, and you can flaunt your thin self in front of her all you want!
 
thanx txt yeah i can see that happen lol even though she's already on this diet for a month and losing weight. i'm gonna be a better person than her and say she will lose weight but i'll lose more and look better then she ever will :D

Lena
 
You already look better than she does - everything good and wonderful from the inside shows through to the outside of who you are! I can't wait to see how you smoke her in the end, though! *slightly evil laugh*
 
lol txt thank you sooo much. i needed to read this. today really isn't my day. i just weighed myself and i have lot more than i thought. i thought i had 95 kg and i have 107. the thing is, two months ago i did have 95, and i still wear the same clothes, some of it is even loose. so i really don't get it. anyway came here to weep instead of the fridge. and i know i should be proud of myself anyway because i didn't react by eating today at all.

which ever force is trying to test me, well guess what... stuff your test you know where. i'm not going down that road ever again!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lena
 
i feel like crying right now... god i hate days like this one. i have such urge to open the fridge and eat everything in it. but that won't comfort me will it? what will comfort me is months and months away.
even though i'm sad i know i have a goal for the first time in my life. the girl who gained all this weight will no longer be. i refuse to let her come to the surface. she had her time. i need to prepare for my 15 minutes.
ii think i need some words of encouregment.
 
ok good day today... i feel a bit better, especially because i didn't emotionally eat yesterday. and that was so new for me. i don't think i ever did that in my entire life. am emotional eater since i was 3 and a half, and it just got worse after that (being abused, which i remembered only recently and my dad's alcoholism).

so for me not to emotionally react to things yesterday was a huge step. i should reward myself tomorrow with something since evrything is closed here today because of the holiday. what can reward myself with and it isn't food or clothes?? gotta think this one through...
 
i forgot to write my meals today... just to keep track

breakfast: kellogs with low fat yogurt) - around 250cal
snack: well i had to decaf coffees with low fat milk and bit of brown sugar so no snacks necessary :)
lunch: steemed fish and potato salad (potato and onions with little olive oil and wine vinigar) - that was around 400 cal
snack: one large apple and one clementine
dinner: two hard boiled eggs, one medium size tomato, two tbspoons of low fat cottage cheese and two pices of feta chese (that was around 400 cal)

so i did goog :) but i didn't do any exercise. i'm still abit sick.

hugs to everyone :) Lena
 
well its sunday :) and i'm on one side looking forward to tomorrow and dredding it on the other hand. tomorrow i'm joining aerobics class (probabily tae bo) and i'm so scared and embarassed. i know you understand. i'm so afraid that tehre will only be these fit people who will look at me like i'm from mars.
i know i gotta make that step.
 
well its d day :) i'm a bit nervous to go to my first aerobics class ever. yesterday i spent 30 minutes on my eclyptical. youldn't believe it. i could have done more, but i didn't want to overdo it.

breakfast: kellogs special with law fat yogurt
snack: yogurt and 4 wheat cakes
lunch: vegetables with some rice and 3 and a half thin chicken breasts filets
(they were a small, but i hope i didn't have to much. i didn't stuff myself)

dinner: probabily will have some salad an hour before i go to my aerobics class. its a bit late, at 8.30pm. and i'm usually in bed by 10, 10.30pm.
 
Hi Lena, Just thought I'd drop by your diary and see how you are. Looks like you are doing great. I think you are doing much better than me with keeping up the activity. I hope aerobics went okay, I know it's not easy to hop around in front of people. :)

Keep going!
 
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Hey Lena,
Sorry I haven't been around, but you seem to be doing really well. Don't let that lady at work get you all upset, you are better than her in so many way by just being able to recognize how wrong she is.

You will definitely get through this battle. I feel like I have a lot of in common with you because I have a lot of built up anger as well, and I'm trying to find ways to express it.

Your dieting and exercising is going to pay off so well, and you will definitely see how strong you can really be.

Just keep doing what you're doing and you'll be much more beautiful than you ever thought you could be. :) *hugs*

I fount these ways that you can reward yourself if you do something well with your diet. I'm not sure if any of them appeal to you, but it will definitely help in the future.


* Compliment yourself. Write down what you would say to anyone else who accomplished what you did.
* Create an actual plaque or trophy.
* Give yourself badges of honor for different levels of accomplishment.
* Take a vacation or weekend getaway.
* Take a day off from any goal activities.
* Put $1 in a jar every time you meet a goal. When it gets to $50, treat yourself.
* Create a Trophy Scrapbook, where you keep mementos from your accomplishments.
* See a movie.
* Make a grab bag of little prizes. When you reach a significant goal, reach in and get your reward!
* Go for a spa treatment or massage.
* Buy yourself a gift certificate.
* Take a limo ride to work one day.
* Subscribe to a magazine you always wanted.
* Go canoeing or do something outdoorsy.
* Watch your favorite TV show.
* Buy something for your hobby (i.e., car, garden, music, collections, holidays).
* Read a funny book.
* Celebrate "100% Days". If you reach 100% of your goals that day, choose two rewards.
* Find some time to be by yourself.
* Pay someone to do the yardwork or house cleaning this week.
* Fly a kite.
 
hey all :)

crocus drop by any time :) we'll have a cup of tea and relax :) don't worry about that activity thing. it took me ages but i finally started to move lol

change you so nice and comforting, i really needed to hear those words. so thank you from the heart :) *hugs*

i finally know how neal armstrong felt making that first step on the moon... it was such a big step for me to go to aerobics class. and to do it by myself, noone pushing me, noone there to hold my hand. i'm so proud of myself. i'm proud of myself lately more than i've ever been in my life lol.

anyway went there yesterday and had a good one hour workout that included hoping, working with weights and strething and i have the most painful and the most beautiful muscul fiber i've ever had. my serotonin level went up the sky yesterday, i lmost broke a tear of happiness after the workout. everyone was so friendly and nice :)

so, one big fear i managed to overcome. man this feels good. someone on the forum mentioned somewhere theme from rocky... well i can hear it from yesterday. no food ever made me feel this good :)


*hugs* to all, Lena :D
 
just to make a note of what i ate today
breakfast:
kellogs special k with low fat yogurt (i know it's laways the same breakfast, but at six in the morning i really don't want anything else lol)

snack: two wheat cookies with yogurt

lunch: inegral pasta with veel

since i have my lunch at 4pm or sometimes even 5pm i don't have any snacks in between and try to eat only salads for dinner. i know i should start taking lunch to work. i still have to think of what to take lol

dinner: don't know yet what i'll have, probabily some kind of salad with cottage cheese and chicken breasts ham or green salad with tuna.

or maybe eggs with some veggies (is that ok for dinner????)
 
i'm really starting to enjoy preparing meals for myself. i'm searching for new recipes and trying new things and all. today i had same breakfast and snack, except i had some coffee with milk instead of yougurt for snack. then i had salad: green salad with three types of peppers and i made my own dressing of cottage cheese, a bit of yogurt and some seasoning herbs with two pieces of integral bread with several types of seeds.

i'll be going to my second aerobics class. still having some cold feet. i don't know why since i did it the first time. maybe i'll feel like this until i get hold of the routine.

hope you'll all having a great day :) Lena
 
It's great that you feel so good about your diet, Lena! It's a difficult thing to accomplish, so well done! :)
 
thanx aaron :) it really does feel great. i'm changing completely not just the way i eat but the way i deal with things. its such a revelation to me to able to react emotionally in other ways than eating. i guess i'm rewarding myself by NOT stuffing myself. reverse psychology of some kind lol.

yesterday i had my second aerobics class and i was sweating so much but i still can't follow te whole thing because i would pass out considering the intensity. but it felt soooo good. all the negative just went out :)

i won't be able to do my weigh in today because i'm going on a trip ot of twon. i'm taking Test of English as Foreign Language (TOEFL test) tomorrow morning and i'm so nervous, because it is for my possible entry at masters in budapest. so keep your fingers crossed.

today's going to be a bit of a challenge. i will have pasta with salsa and tuna for lunch, and i'm having dinner later with my friend in a restaurant, and i don't want to eat too much, and she always takes me to places with extra yummie food :) so keep your fingers crossed for this too.
I WILL TRY TO RESIST!

anyway. see you all on sunday and have a great weekend :) Lena
 
If you're having problems with taking lunches to work, what if you made extra of whatever you cook the night before and just take leftovers to work for lunch? That way you could eat earlier in the day. You must be starving by the time you get home!

And you're doing awesome in keeping to your plan! Good for you!
 
back from the trip :)
i did pretty good yesterday. i went to a fish restaurant so i didn't have too much to eat, but all in all i think i went over my limit, because at the end of the day i didn't feel very good. i felt like i had rocks in my stomack. so light food for me today. and i got my TOM and had 1 piece of dark chocolate after lunch. really couldn't resist. but i think this is allowed every once and a while :)


thanx tx for advice. i actually did start taking lunch to work. on thursday i took salad, and on friday i made some pasta with tuna. tomorrow i'll take risotto (left from today's lunch) and one piece of meat. i was starving by the time i would get home, and then stuff myself. now i know i can't do that anymore, so i really am trying to force myself to prepare for next day.

anyway, in past two weeks i lost 4 pounds and i think its great. this means i am doing a good job :) so i decided to reward myself, not with food or any treat that involves food (i need to stop thinking of food being a reward and my friend) so i decided to have a manicure next week or week after. its a bit expensive here, but i deserve it.

Lena :D
 
Hi Lena,
Congratulations on losing those 4 pounds - and more importantly for doing what you need to do to be IN control!

Going to the aerobics class, changing not only what, but when you eat around, those are all steps that will make a huge impact!

Keep doing what you're doing and enjoy that well earned manicure!
 
thanx M2M the support from you and everyone else really means a lot to me. the bug (i forgot the english word for it, in croatian is bubamara :) ) is finally moving.
*gives everyone a glass of champagne* (here we have the imaginary non fattning kind) :D
 
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