Learning to love myself

saramaria124

saramaria124

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Ok, I've started and restarted diaries and have tried to keep them up to date, but its been hard lately with no working computer and no internet (I am at a net cafe).

I'm Sara, and as you guys may know from my past diary, I work at a health club in a daycare room. I was doing really well with my weight loss until my trip to Australia and then Christmas, and just general binging after a really bad last couple of weeks.

I've gained back some of my weight, and so I'm back on track trying to lose it again.

Starting weight: 231 lbs.
Current Weight: 220 lbs.
Goal Weight: 165 lbs.

How do I plan on losing this weight?
~ Better diet, incorporating fruits and vegetables and salads into the diet. Cutting down on the amount of processed foods, starches and pasta's that I eat on a weekly basis. Drinking more water, and learning about portion control.
~ Do 30-45 minutes of cardio every day and weights every second day.

Why do I want to lose weight?
~ To build my confidence.
~ To tone up.
~ To get healthy.
~ For myself, not for others.
~ To get into a better routine.
~ To become the person I want to be.
~ To be able to fit into the clothes I want to wear.
~ To be able to look at myself in a mirror and feel good about what I see.
~ To stop the cycle of stress/emotional eating.

Here is a picture of what I am at at the moment:


Since I'm getting a new computer in the next couple of days, I want to make sure I keep up with this. Please help me out with some encouragement if you can!

~ Sara Maria ~
 
Hi...Love the name...it is awesome...your reasons for wanting to loose are good ones...Good luck with restarting...I will pop in on you regularly...Hope to see you soon...
 
Thanks hon. I just recently split up from someone I just started dating due to the fact that he didnt' see me as girlfriend material because of my weight. Usually, this is something that would definitely make me binge eat. Tonight I had sushi for dinner, and am trying to stop myself from going and getting myself something starchy, like pasta. I know I'm girlfriend material, he's just not boyfriend material. Not for me, anyway!!

~ Sara Maria ~
 
saramaria124 said:
Tonight I had sushi for dinner, and am trying to stop myself from going and getting myself something starchy, like pasta. I know I'm girlfriend material, he's just not boyfriend material. Not for me, anyway!!

~ Sara Maria ~
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Good for you that is the right attitude!!! Im sorry to hear about your break up, they are never fun...
 
I am trying really hard to remain in control, and not go across the street and buy pig out food. Thanks hon for the support. I am going to head home and just avoid the temptation.

~ Sara Maria ~
 
hang in there & be glad you figured out what type of guy he really was. Plus this opens you up for finding the one that can make you happy... as is. Of course that means like you are now, & all along your journey to health.

Good luck. I can't wait to hear about your progress. :)
 
hi gal! Remember me???
Was wondering if you are comin back here....

I'm gonna check on u everyday! Yr comp better be delivered fast!

My breakup years back motivated me to lose weight. Use it well so it turns out to be a triumph journey, not a defeating moment. Hope u'll let go smoothly! Can vent here instead of goin to get more food (more food means spending more $$$:eek: ) There are people here who love you for who you are!

Talk to ya again....;)
 
Ok, so this week has not been the best for me. I was doing well for a couple of days, and then all this stressful stuff started happening, and I binged....eeeep....so I am going to try and get back on track again. I'm just going to have to keep at it. Wish me luck!!

~ Sara Maria ~
 
Welcome back Sara!

Food isn't the answer - not to stress. Not really. I know, I've tried to make it be in the past.

You CAN get passed this and stay on track. Take it one day or one meal at a time, but you CAN do it!

Glad to see you posting again!
 
Well, it hasn't been a bad week..but it hasn't been a great week either, eating wise. I have tried to make better choices.
Today, I had a bagel with cream cheese for breakfast with a cup of coffee and a bottle of water. For lunch, I had a entree taco salad with very little of the toppings...some sour cream and guacamole, and half a portion of penne rose. For dinner, I haven't decided yet.

Well, I might be moving again soon...this should be fun....lol. Anyhow, I'll check in tommorow, seeing as I have the internet back now.

~ Sara Maria ~
 
Good for you for making better choices - sometimes, it's those small steps, one after another that can help us reach those goals :D
 
I have to try and cook more. I'm trying to get my evenings off from work, so that I can try and cook for myself more, so that I'm not eating so late at night. I ended up not eating anything last night, probably because I was so distracted by my computer....but this morning I'm having a western sandwich on a wholewheat bagel with a slice of light cheddar cheese, a coffee and a bottle of water nearby, because I will get dehydrated if I don't. Plan for lunch? I don't know yet, I will be going over to my uncles house after work this morning so that I can figure out some stuff about the move with my mom and sister, and aunt. And then we will probably go out for dinner at Moxies, a place I've grown to love, though, maybe my food choices when I'm there, not so great. I love their crab and scallop cakes, and I generally get a side ceasar salad along with them. Exercise? Not sure how that's going to work out at the moment because of my mom and sister being here, and having so much stuff to do, but I will get back in the routine. I always do. Anyhow...have to run to work....love to all!

~ Sara Maria ~
 
crap

Crappy day. Bread roll for breakfast, MacDonald's for lunch, because we were in a rush and needed something quick, and chili and garlic toast for dinner. Eeeep. I need to get back into my old routine and fast.

~ Sara Maria ~
 
I feel like utter crap right now. I feel so discouraged even though I know that once I get into the routine of exercising and eating healthier, it will go back to the way its supposed to. I just feel like I'm at a plateau and it sucks. I feel so.....fat...and so....crappy.

I'm just feeling low self esteem at the moment and I don't know how to pull myself back up just yet.

~ Sara Maria ~
 
17 lbs lost isn't so shabby! Seems to be paying off, hang in there! It will all be worth it in the end, right?

Just remember that there are only 24 hours in everyday, just get through those & you will be ok & it will all be behind you. & if you screw up in the 24 hours, well there are 24 more coming right up to try again. :)
 
Oh I hate it when those ugly mean fat thoughts jump into your head and lay games wiht you...my confidence is great until I see myself in the mirror or soemthign lol...*GREAT BIG HUGS* dunno what else to say except keep on plugging along...sorry Ihavent been back since the beginning...I tooka selfish not much posting break...LOL...*Chin up buttercup!!!*
 
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