Krystal's Diary

good job!

Good job! I use the elliptical too and I love it! You're def. right about the food network, too. They always have that on at my gym but I always just listen to my ipod. I like watching Biggest Loser when I'm working out sometimes, but that's about it. It's good that you're forming somewhat of a routine and a plan- just stick to it, you can do it!
 
Thanks LaZ!
I kicked ASS at the gym tonight. I stayed for an hour and burned a total of 550 calories according to the machines. Of course it is more than that, because I'm so overweight. I'm so psyched right now.
Even our 11 year old tried out some of the machines. I'm excited to see him so excited about fitness...I'm hoping he never has to deal with weight issues.
I feel so super motivated to succeed this time...I really hope this was the difference we needed!!
 
Today marks five days in a row at the gym. I'm so proud of myself! I'm up to an hour workout at a time. Today I felt pretty sore and icky when I got home, but I think a lot of that has to do with the severe cramps I'm having. UGH. I refuse to let Aunt Flow be an excuse for my quitting. I WILL be in the gym tomorrow!!
Yesterday, Scott got "checked out" by a super hot girl at the gym. I think that really boosted his confidence, and further proved my theory that men don't look 'fat' in their workout clothes...they look big and muscley:) At least, that's how I see him. He does look pretty hot in his shorts, all sweaty, legs flexing...what was I talking about?
I even did a couple minutes of jogging on the treadmill today, and I didn't pass out. I think the last time I did any running was before I had boobies...in the 4th grade:O
I'm really proud of the fact that even when things are less than favorable, we still make it to the gym. The roads were covered in snow and ice today, my cramps were killing me, and I was sore from yesterday's hour long workout...but I STILL wanted to go to the gym.
And after coming home to a hot bath and some Ibuprofen, I'm ready to go back AGAIN.
The diet has been going well too. I eat my berries and bananas for breakfast (although this morning I skimped on breakfast before the workout...I don't recommend it:puke:) and then I usually have some turkey sammiches or a salad for lunch, or maybe some tuna and nuts. Then dinner is usually another sandwich or salad. And I only drink water.
Here's hoping I stay on track this time!!!
 
:ack2:Awesome! I'm so damn proud of you!!!

Stop talking about Scott flexing.:ack2:That's my ex-brother-in-law!
 
Hooker, you just jealous cuz you married the wrong brother!!;)
Good news...after a good nights sleep, I'm feeling perfectly capable of another kickass workout at the gym tonight. I think some ibuprofen and some hot baths will get me thru these god awful cramps I'm having, and I'm going to keep going!!

Quick question...does anyone know if I burn more calories than someone who is thin does? Just curious because the machines have a calorie counter that tells you how much you've burned, but I'm sure that as a fattie I work harder than a skinny girl would, since I'm carrying more weight. Anyone?
 
Hooker, you just jealous cuz you married the wrong brother!!;)
Good news...after a good nights sleep, I'm feeling perfectly capable of another kickass workout at the gym tonight. I think some ibuprofen and some hot baths will get me thru these god awful cramps I'm having, and I'm going to keep going!!

Quick question...does anyone know if I burn more calories than someone who is thin does? Just curious because the machines have a calorie counter that tells you how much you've burned, but I'm sure that as a fattie I work harder than a skinny girl would, since I'm carrying more weight. Anyone?

There is no way to know. Each person has a different metabolism plus muscle content factors into that as well. Each person is different.

Go to womensfitnessmag.com. They have tons of info for ya.

Love ya girl!
 
Well I've been sticking with it. On the days I don't go to the gym, I work out at home on my treadmill. Half an hour uphill, and half an hour at a very quick walk. I work up a really great sweat, and have actually begun to enjoy the fact that I'm dripping wet by the time I'm done working out.
The weight still isn't coming off, however. I think I've dropped a total of 3 or 4 pounds, which bothers me. My husband constantly comments on how my rear end is lifting and shaping, and I can feel that parts of me are starting to take shape, but the weight is the same. Everyone keeps saying "that's because you're building muscle." Soooper. 245 pounds of muscle??? Not exactly what I had in mind when I said I was going to get in shape. I know that eventually the weight will HAVE to come off, but working so hard and having such pitiful results is very discouraging.
I am taking Topamax to prevent the ridonkulous amount of migraines I've been having, and a side effect of the medication is weight loss (HA!) for some people. I'm hoping to see that illusive little beauty very soon...but in the past I never had any luck with it. Maybe combining it with my improved diet and exercise will make the difference. Hope hope hope...
I'm not giving up tho. I feel great when I work out, and I love that I am proving to myself that I'm stronger than I thought. Every time I want to quit, I switch my thinking and work thru the pain, and I'm able to keep going, when in the past I would have stopped and walked away whining. Not anymore. At least that much about me has changed. I'm no longer blaming everything else in the world for my being fat. I'm taking full responsibility for it, and doing what I need to do to change it. :D
 
HoYeah!! Way to go! Each time you want to quit, just think about how awesome we want to look when we go see New Kids on the Block on their comeback tour this year. You gotta fit into those acid washed jeans and tight roll those fuckers. I am looking for a couple of vintage NKOTB tees on ebay for us to wear. All we need now is some blue eyeshadow and AquaNet hairspray. Woot!!
 
I'm down another two pounds for a total of five so far. I guess it's a success, since any loss is better than nothing. I'm just a little disappointed that I've been working out for three weeks now, and five pounds is all I've lost. Not giving up tho. Not even close. I'll continue on with my hour long workouts every day, no matter what...
And I think I may start sneaking in a couple of treadmill workouts at home during the day. At the gym, I always feel like I can keep going, but I don't want to over-do it. So maybe my body is telling me that I CAN do much more than I'm allowing myself to do.
I wish I could take a lesson from my hard headed ex-sis in law Amy, and REFUSE to give up, REFUSE to fail, REFUSE to settle for less than amazing results. That is one tough broad, and if a little of her could rub off onto my lazy ass, that would be great. My mother is also an inspiration to me, in a different way. She uses her illnesses as an excuse to lay around on the sofa all day eating shitty food, and expanding into a soft lump of human bullshit. My main motivation at the moment is to shape up and slim down, to show her that even with all my health problems, I knew that giving up and living a sedentary life on the couch was NOT the answer, and that getting off of my lazy fat ass and putting something healthy into my mouth WAS the answer. Oh what a glorious day when I can give her all my fat clothes...:smilielol5:
 
I'm down another two pounds for a total of five so far. I guess it's a success, since any loss is better than nothing. I'm just a little disappointed that I've been working out for three weeks now, and five pounds is all I've lost. Not giving up tho. Not even close. I'll continue on with my hour long workouts every day, no matter what...
And I think I may start sneaking in a couple of treadmill workouts at home during the day. At the gym, I always feel like I can keep going, but I don't want to over-do it. So maybe my body is telling me that I CAN do much more than I'm allowing myself to do.
I wish I could take a lesson from my hard headed ex-sis in law Amy, and REFUSE to give up, REFUSE to fail, REFUSE to settle for less than amazing results. That is one tough broad, and if a little of her could rub off onto my lazy ass, that would be great. My mother is also an inspiration to me, in a different way. She uses her illnesses as an excuse to lay around on the sofa all day eating shitty food, and expanding into a soft lump of human bullshit. My main motivation at the moment is to shape up and slim down, to show her that even with all my health problems, I knew that giving up and living a sedentary life on the couch was NOT the answer, and that getting off of my lazy fat ass and putting something healthy into my mouth WAS the answer. Oh what a glorious day when I can give her all my fat clothes...:smilielol5:

Awww, that's so sweet! By hard-headed you mean stubborn-ass bitch. Lol!!

5lbs is awesome!! Don't expect losses like you see on Biggest Loser because those people do nothing but workout and eat SUPER low calories. Very unrealistic in the real world. Just think, at this rate you will be 15lbs lighter in 9 weeks which is just two months. That's 30lbs lighter by June and 60lbs lighter by October. And almost 100lbs by Christmas. That's pretty damn awesome!

Love ya girl!!
 
Down another pound this morning!!!
Of course that may only be the poop I took, but it's MINE!!!
That makes a total of six pounds lost since I started working out. So it's not exactly "The Biggest Loser" results, but I'll take it:)
 
UPDATE!!!
Got on a proper scale today (one that isn't broken,and gives you your ACTUAL weight without having to guess) and I'm actually down NINE pounds!!!!!!:hurray::hurray::hurray::hurray::hurray::hurray::hurray::hurray::hurray::hurray:
 
UPDATE!!!
Got on a proper scale today (one that isn't broken,and gives you your ACTUAL weight without having to guess) and I'm actually down NINE pounds!!!!!!

I would like to point out that my ticker is no longer at nine pounds :D:D:D
I'm sticking to at least a half hour work out every day. I am so proud of myself for not having given up yet. I know that my Papa is proud of me for finally doing this the right way and making progress that is real, and earned. No more starving, no more barfing. No more hiding and secret-ing and lying. No more killing myself on the treadmill one day and then lying around on the couch for the next three days eating chocolate and potato chips, and then crying "why isn't this woooorrrrrking???" Well duh, that's why.
I load myself up on fresh fruit and veggies and some turkey breast for protein. I've had to cut out a lot of foods that I love because of the migraine diet I'm on, but it's ok. This is just the way it is, and I have to be grown up about it and accept it. And with the workouts, I am still able to sneak in an occasional McDonald's French fry indulgence, without taking a huge fall.
I'm also working my way up to 100 mgs of Topamax twice a day. This causes a thirst like you wouldn't believe, and I think that the water I'm drinking is also helping the weight to come off. I spend a lot of time in the potty...and if you want a little TMI, my tinkle is this color because of this herbal supplement I take called Migravent. Another one to keep the migraines away :)
So yeah, I kick ass, and hopefully will reach my goal of a 30lb weight loss by May 1st! I have a little side goal of losing 30 by my 30th, which is April 24th...I guess that's not much further than May first, only six more days, but it's a little extra push for myself...I really want to make it!!!
 
Twenty one pounds.
The shape of my body is different almost every day. I'm finding that a workout makes all the difference in the world. Last year when I was being super unhealthy and dropped 30 pounds very quickly, but wasn't working out, the change in my body was nowhere near this noticeable. You could see that I was getting smaller, but the shape and tone of my body was still very soft and flabby. Now, I am beginning to 'dent.' Muscle tone is something I have NEVER had, even when I was younger and thin. I am loving it. I'm constantly stroking the back of my thighs and checking out my derrière in the mirror when I walk by, and loving the fact that instead of a big square pancake butt, I now have a bit of a juicy bedonk back there.
I'd still like to have some sort of an Ab machine here at home, so I could do some extra work there. The belly is my least favorite body part, after two children, lots of yo-yo diets and unhealthy methods of drastic crash weight loss...it's been abused, and needs some serious apologies. I can't do regular crunches or sit-ups because of a severely sensitive spot on my lower back. I guess it's because of the fibromyalgia, but sometimes I can't even touch it without nearly pissing my pants. Anyone have a fairly cheap, but highly effective machine that they recommend?

Recently I found the pictures I took of myself in my undies when I was at 255. I wanted to cry. I was very large, very soft, and obviously very unhappy. At my heaviest weight, I think I was somewhere around 265, so I know I was even larger than that. Somehow I guess I never let myself see just how big I really was. And while it's only a 21 pound loss so far, I look like a completely different person already, and I know the changes will only continue on from here. I think the changes had a lot to do with my finally being able to pinpoint the reasons WHY I overeat, and with the fact that I finally gave in and started sticking to a very strict migraine diet in a desperate attempt to end the attacks I kept having. Indulgence in food is just not worth the crap shoot anymore. There are just too many other pleasures in life that I am missing out on!

So while the pound-per-day weight loss seems to have tapered off at the moment either due to Aunt Flow, or due to the fact that I've recently added weight training to my workouts, I'm still seeing results and I'm perfectly happy with my progress. I'm trying not to see it as a 'plateau' as long as I keep myself motivated and moving forward.
That's all:waving:
 
No machine will help with the abs and not hurt your back, they are usually a waste of money. I'll email you some workouts for your abs that I do without equipment to avoid back pain. There are some you can do standing up even.

Congrats on the 21lbs! Only 9 more until your first goal. Woot!

Ever since I sent you my "before pregnancy" and present pics the other day, I can't get it out of my mind how different I look right now, and not for the better. It has actually renewed my determination almost to a point of obsession. LoL!
 
No machine will help with the abs and not hurt your back, they are usually a waste of money. I'll email you some workouts for your abs that I do without equipment to avoid back pain. There are some you can do standing up even.

Congrats on the 21lbs! Only 9 more until your first goal. Woot!

Ever since I sent you my "before pregnancy" and present pics the other day, I can't get it out of my mind how different I look right now, and not for the better. It has actually renewed my determination almost to a point of obsession. LoL!

Thank you for the ideas! I shall commence playing with my giant balls immediately!!!
I'm hoping to rid myself of this huge ugly spare tire around my middle. Stubborn bit of Krystal, that is.
 
Twenty seven pounds down. Three more to go before I make my first goal of dropping 30 before I turn thirty!! :party:
 
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