YUCK! We are all still feeling extremely sick today and don't think I will be eating anything. The thought is excruciating. My mom is staying the week at my house. Perfect timing because I just can't change "sick" diapers while I myself am sick (and so is my husband, Chris.) Back to bed.
Weighed in at 222.
So I ended up getting hungry after all. I drank gatorade today because of tummy issues and watered it down so that I wasn't drinking as much of it b/c of the sugar.....
breakfast: 2 pieces of special K red berry waffles. 1 tsp. of butter. blueberries. watered down gatorade.
Lunch:1 packet of "weight control oatmeal". blueberries. couple of peanuts. watered down gatorade.
Dinner:Boiled some organic whole wheat penne pasta and some cut up cabbage. Drained it and put it in a baking pan with the leftover garlic asparagus and some spaghetti sauce. Sprinkle parmesan and baked it for 20 min. I measured it and ate 1 Cup. Gatorade to drink.
Too drained to do any exercise today. I took a 3 hour nap!
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A couple of weeks ago my mom was diagnosed with Diabetes. It's very sad because she is not doing well with it. She is still making unhealthy choices and I know that she knows what she needs to do.
Well, this week she came to stay with us for a visit and she brought a ton of great books on healthy eating/dieting. I was so excited, because to me that meant that she was ready to take care of herself....AND because that's another person in my life that can be on this journey with me.
...........................Then it happened. My hubby said he was ordering pizza and my mom got all excited. I was sitting on the couch in shock. I asked them if they were joking! Then my hubby got on line and looked up the nutrition facts and said that if we get one without pepperoni or meat that it would be 420 calories for two pieces. I was starting to be okay with it, and then he changed his mind. I was so glad because I knew it would have only been a downward spiral. He apologized for even bringing it up and knew he should not have.
Well, my mom gets all huffy and goes to the pantry and starts digging around. She found a bag of chips (which I could not figure out where they came from and later remembered that they were from CHRISTMAS...7 months ago!) and started stuffing her face. I got sooooo mad! I felt like everything that we've been talking about for the last 2 weeks meant nothing! Then she gets all defensive and says that it's only a couple of chips. But to me, this is not the point. The point is that she has Diabetes AND here I am trying to change my life and I thought that she was supporting me. The way it all happened, it was like she was saying it didn't matter. I told her to throw the chips away and she said no and so I got up and threw them away myself and told her that she was being unsupportive and I was going to have to ask her to leave.
I don't know if I overreacted or if it was the right thing to do. Also, I am the most sick that I've been in a LONG time. I was up every 30 minutes last night running to the bathroom and I'm still feel queasy. Nobody is nice when they are sick, right? I don't know why I feel so guilty for asking her to leave. I did try to talk it out with her but she acted like I was being so silly over a few chips. I tried to explain to her that it's about PRINCIPLE. She is a smoker and so I asked her, "What if you were trying to quit and had gone 2 weeks without smoking and suddenly someone who was supporting you just lit up a cigarette in front of you and blew it in your face?" She still argued with me, so I just said okay and walked out. I am too tired and too sad to even say anything else. She left and now I'm just feeling so bad. Not a good day
