Kez tries again!!!

Hooray for you! I haven't seen the tooth brushing tip before, but that's a really good one!

I try to keep good food around so that when I do snack, it's on a 10 calorie jello cup instead of something bigger :)
 
I've done the toothbrush thing before too. Definitely helps. I will need to post a mental note, to remind myself of that tip more often!
 
Hey Kezzy,

I really like your diary. I actually read all of the pages starting from your first entry. It was very informative. I just had a question, when doing your calculations to determine your calorie deficit, how did you determine the amount of calories you burned??
 
Brushing your teeth definitely works! Especially if the toothpaste is a really STRONG cold minty flavor or a cinnamon flavor. I find the lighter flavored ones don't work as well.

Sorry I haven't been by in a while. I was out of town from Saturday until today. I love your "10 good days" plan. You'll be relaxing to the sweet sounds of Norah Jones in no time!
 
Hey everyone!!

Grrr I am annoyed- I just spent ages writing a really nice long post, I’d almost finished when my stupid computer started updating something and I lost the lot!!! Never mind, I’ll try and remember what I said!!!

Wishes and Felici- thanks for your exercise tips!!! My exercise at the mo consists of walking 1 hour a day, and one water aerobics class a week. OK, but not particularly intense. My time at the moment is VERY precious and tight, but I intend to get into regular gym going again when my current lab placement has finished (4 weeks). Til then the gentle stuff will have to do.

Llamabean- I wish we could get such low cal things over here!! I do keep low cal snacks around, but even the lowest calorie yogurts and soups here that I have seen are 50cals at the lowest!!!

Funky phantom- Thanks for your comments- it’s a good thing my diary isn’t as long as some of those on here!! (Although I do have a really old one knocking about somewhere as well if you need some more reading material lol!!!)

As for my calorie calculations, visit just click on ‘activity calculator’ (green link). It does it all for you!! And it has just about every activity that you could think of on there!! So I work out how many calories I’ve burned by doing any exercise during the day (I usually round the number). I add them up, and add it to 2000. At one point I thought I’d check if I DO actually burn 2000 cals in a day with no exercise, so I added up all activities in a normal 24 hour period on there-and I do!!!!

Well, I have a confession. I messed up yesterday!!! So, Sunnydee (and everyone else) my good day chain is going to have to start again, counting tomorrow as day number one. Grrrr!! I had quite a binge last night. It was not nice actually, I made myself feel kinda sick!!! Serves me right…

BUT, I’m not particularly devastated about it right now, and I’ll tell you why.

For those of you who have been following and supporting me for a while (I love you guys by the way!) you will know that my weight loss journey has been rather stop-start. Well, it always has been actually.

Jan 2006- weighed 154lbs.
Worked hard to loose weight (I hadn’t found this forum then)
Feb 2006 – weighted 140lbs
. . .
September 2006 weighed 168 lbs.
Shocked at how I’d let myself go, joined this forum and did very well!!!
December 2006 weighed 147lbs.
About 6 weeks of eating badly…
January 2007 weighed 153lbs.
Tried for about a week, messed up, tried for another week, messed up, tried for ANOTHER week, which brings us to now. And I haven’t weighed myself since I was 153. I have DEFINITELY had a LOT more bad days than good days since then, so I was convinced I’d put on another few pounds.

BUT, I weighed myself this morning, without really thinking about it too much, I just hopped on the scales. Now bear in mind that I only EVER weigh myself naked (sorry for that mental image!!), first thing in the morning before eating/drinking. But today, I had eaten a big breakfast, and drunk almost a litre of water, and was wearing jeans and a jumper. I was just thinking that I wanted to get an idea.

And the scales said 152lbs!!!

Which means when I weigh first thing in the morning in the usual way tomorrow I’ll probably be down at least another couple of pounds from that!!! (Although I admit my scales are crap!!! They are very hard to read, but they are accurate to within a pound or to, and I've been using them consistently since the beginning, so for the purposes of comparison they are the best.)

I guess my f*** ups seem worse in my head than they actually are.

However, I have just realised, writing this all down, quite how futile my efforts are, when I give up so easily. I’ll be yo-yoing up and down all my life unless I really can figure out WHY I give up each time. And I’m not talking just a day or two off. I mean putting on 30lbs in the few months following successful weight loss.

It is vital that I learn how to stop myself doing this.

Any hints or advice would be great!!! I am gonna think about this a lot. I don’t want every ‘good day’ I have to ultimately be a waste of time!!

But, for now I have to go. I have already spend far too much time on this forum today!!!

I love you guys, I really do. Without this forum I’m sure I’d be doing even worse that I have been!!!!

Kez

:)
 
Kezzy,

I don't think you should beat yourself up so much. You're making an effort and just because you mess up doesn't mean you should get down on yourself so much. Maybe it's the fact that you realize you've cheated that makes you give up after so much hard work and success. You say, "yeah I've done it; hit my goal weight, now I can relax a bit and have that pizza." Then you realize how many calories the pizza contains and say, "ok, I jacked up, I'm going to start again tomorrow." Tomorrow comes and goes, you never recover and call the whole thing a loss thus reverting back to your old ways of eating and then putting on all of the weight you've lost.

I think the first thing you should do Kezzy is to tell yourself that you have the will power to do this. Then, you should take out pics of yourself from when you were overweight and put them somewhere accessible, I suggest posting them up on a wall; so that whenever you get the urge to give up, you can look at those pics and ask yourself if you really want to go back to looking and feeling the way you did back then.

P.S.
Today is a new day. You can get this girl. We're all rooting for you and you've done it before, so you know you can do it again.
 
I am thrilled that you are going to make an effort to get on top of your stop-starts Kezzy. :)

I don't know that I have any tips off the top of my head. I'm not exactly a long term loser anyway. Only now I don't see any reason why I won't be.

I think you already have the key to your change when you say, "I'm gonna think about this a lot."

I have lots of experience in failing/abandoning my weight loss attempts and I think I've reflected on them a lot and learned from them and I believe that is an important part of changing from being a yo-yo dieter.

I did mess up earlier this week but I think my response to that has made me feel more sure of myself than I was. I know I have trigger foods that have spelled the beginning of the end for me before and when I binged on one this time I was appalled.

I made it my number one priority to think thoroughly about what was going on that day, what led up to it and most especially to make that one thing the beginning and the end of my deviation from what I wanted to do. I didn't try to skip any food. I didn't promise to exercise even harder - I already do as much as I think is feasible anyway. I just went straight back to my workable food and my exercise plan. And I typed up a storm. Well I don't know if that's any help to you - but it helped me a lot. LOL.

Are you like me? I mean someone who's naturally inclined to go for broke on whatever's most important at the time. EG "I am just going to focus on this assignment now, everything else can be fixed up later, I'll get this in and then I'll eat properly?" I used to do that.

Now I don't think my good health is optional any more. I don't think it can be put off until later. I know every right food day matters, and every wrong food day is something I might never get over. Every change to my routine and every challenge means thinking about how to make my eating and exercise still work regardless.

You have been willing to start again and again, you know lots about good food and getting exercise, you have the wonderful support of this forum. I'm sure you have it in you take the next step and make this all work for you in an ongoing way. :) :)
 
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I'm so glad to hear about the nice news from your scales. It's a great feeling to get on and be pleasantly surprised. I'm happy for you!
I'm not that great at giving weight loss advice, because I'm not much of a weight loss pro like some people around the Forum. But I do know that the most important things are maintaining a positive attitude and learning to love yourself enough to realize that you're worth the effort it takes it be healthy. You will succeed if you keep those things in mind.
Keep it up! We're always here for you. :)
 
Hey everyone!

Remeber me?!

I haven't been on here for about 2 months, for various reasons, my diary was on about page 20!

I just want to post a couple of recent photos of me, to show you that I've been doing OK!

The one in the green dress was taken at my uni ball (which I used at one point as a motivation!). The one in the polka dot dress is more recent (taken only a couple of weeks ago).

What do you think?!
 

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Woh! Kezzy you look gorgeous.

It's lovely to see that you've been doing so well and lovely to hear from you too! :)
 
It's been so long! Welcome back :) You look amazing! Congratulations on all your progress. You should be very proud!
 
Hey I've just got back fromt he gym for the first time in ages and feel great! All pumped and satisfied and ready for the day!
 
Hey all!

So, yesterday I worked out for an hour at the gym, and ate fairly healthily. Did have an ice cream but it was only a little one and i came in around 1400cals.

Today,

Cals will be under 1250, and my exercise was 1 hour walk.
 
That sounds like a pretty healthy couple of days.

With the way you're looking and all, I'm thinking you must be pretty close to your goal weight now? Is that right?

I hope the rest of your weekend is great too. :)
 
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