Girl the first few years I had it I didn't know what all the fuss was about. I mean the VERY first time I obviously noticed some slight pain, but I had it really easy. I'd cramp like the week before, barely bled at all, and never had pms or felt crappy or anything.
When I hit my highest weight, my periods disappeared ENTIRELY. For a YEAR. I actually used to take pregnancy tests once a month out of habit (even if I wasn't doing anything that warranted it lol), but I thought it was just stress cause thats the same time I got out of a very bad relationship and moved across country back to my hometown and started all over so to speak. So I never really worried a whole lot about it, though in retrospect if you're period suddenly disappears for that long, yeah you should probably have your engine checked lol.
So after I lost about 20lbs, it suddenly came back, And I was so not prepared lol. Now they're painful the week before AND the week of, and forgive me for being gross but I usually go through a tampon every 3-4 hours or so the first half of it. Now I know what all those girls in high school whined about hahaha
I have issues with makeup staying on my face (foundation, eyeliner, you name it). I put it on and a few hours later my face is melting. So if I want it to stay on I use Almay truly lasting color. Its supposed to last 16 hours. On top of that I use a loose mineral foundation from maybelline, ELF concealer and ELF sheer powder to set it. And I have to blend that powder really well so it doesn't look like i've got SO much crap on. If I do it right, I don't look like i've got any foundation on. Its kind of funny, I was talking to my best friend online tonight and she said some friend of hers saw my picture (That last one with all the lipstick on) and said she was jealous of how "naturally pretty" I was. I'm like honey, if you only knew how UNnatural that picture is you'd laugh lol
If I want lighter coverage I just use the powder foundations with spot treatment concealer. But I actually find that when I use -just- powder, I look more made up. Like the powder doesn't blend into my skin when it has nothing on it already.
Another neat trick is mixing a liquid concealer with a bronzer and put that on like a moisturizer. It covers but it also gives your skin a glow that looks less matte and more healthy and natural in the summer. or just use a tinted moisturizer by itself, then when you put on eyeshadow or lipstick you still look "put together" without looking fake.
I also have very hooded, very creased eyelids. Like every other girl in my moms side of the family (gee thanks genetics). I've never been able to get eye shadow to stick to me, and it sucked because thats my favorite thing to play in. Until I -finally- discovered eye primer. Its a miracle. I use the ELF primer, it cost a buck and is just as good as the expensive stuff.
Wow, I had no idea I could babble so much about make up...
onto diet things! I actually was sort of inconsistent today. Before dinner, all I had was a cup of coffee, 2 shakes, and a couple handfuls of these quaker blueberry fiber crisp things, i think there like 100cals or something for every 10 or something like that. For dinner I had a delicious chicken breast, some sweet potato fries and a popsicle. I've never had sweet potato fries before... it was weird. Not unpleasant, but i'm like ok... they look like fries.. they smell like fries... they taste like thanksgiving. My brain was confused. I don't know why I didn't eat enough today. You'd think my appetite would be higher because of all the hormonal mess i'm in the middle of. But for the last 3 days I haven't been hungry once. I actually had to make myself eat dinner last night because I hadn't eaten in 8 or 9 hours (bad kelly, I got sucked into crocheting and dealing with the step siblings, and what my mom made for dinner wasn't healthy so I ignored it) and my stomach totally skipped the hunger and went straight to feeling sick. I don't know if anyone else feels like this, but when i'm sugar crashing, like if I haven't eaten in so long my blood sugar is getting weird, I feel sick. Like going to throw up sick. Forcing yourself to eat when you feel like vomiting is really weird, but i've always been like that if I don't eat enough. It was like 11pm but I made myself a snack anyway cause I needed it. But it was just weird that I never got hungry, never had my stomach growl, nothing! I think maybe its just gotten used to me feeding it every few hours and forgot how to tell me it needed food lol. I guess thats better than over eating, but I gotta get back to being more consistent with when I get my calories in!
Hoping for a new low in the morning. My low before the pms attack was 206.4, and today was 206.6, so maybe i'll see a nice even 206 in the morning! I hope I hope I hope I hope!
