Keep that mac n cheese AWAY FROM ME!

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Clairebee86

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So, here I am, 25, have been anywhere between a uk size 8 and 20, and am now a size 12. My weight has basically been all over the place, since forever! The last two years I have hovered around a size 12, which normally I'd be pretty happy with UNTIL.... he popped the question! Four months until the day of walking around with everyone staring at me and I feel like a BLOB. It's 3am and I cannot sleep. I ate my favourite for dinner, (macncheese) and feel like crap!! why do i do it!!! I cram as much as possible of that tasty gloop into my gob as I can...


I have spent the better part of the last two weeks finding some way to lose weight and tone up without having to get up of the couch. Apparently that doesn't exist so.... HERE I GO!


As of today I am 145lbs. (feels like 20000lbs when I think of putting on that blasted bikini)


I would LOVE if I could get to 130lbs, that would be amazing.


15lbs in 4 months?


Any tips and advice would be FANTASTIC and moral support also as my dear hubby to be bless him just keeps saying I'm perfect the way I am, which IS lovely and kind of shows why I'm marrying him, BUT it keeps me lazy! He is the reason my weight has settled the last few years, keeping me steady and calm in all aspects of life. He genuinely cannot understand any comments I make about bingo wings :) baffles him. He is a massive guy, built like someone carved him out of stone so I am small to him!


I am placing a restraining order on myself, pasta NO! cheese NO! Security guards in tesco's have been briefed on the situation, they are to watch out for a blond woman crazed with a cheese addiction hurtling towards dairy products in the coming months.
 
Hey girl welcome to the forum!! First of all i just want to say congrats on the weight you have lost so far. That is amazing hun, to get from a size 20 to 12. That is such a huge accomplishment.


Your husband sounds like the nicest guy in the world. I want a man like that!!! You will look stunning on your wedding day and i know you will reach your goal weight:)



Best of luck chick xxx
 
Did somebody say mac n cheese??? Haha

Hi Clairebee - welcome to the forum! You'll DEFINITELY be able to lose 15 lbs in 4 months. You just have to watch what you eat and think thin! Oh yeah, and working out helps too ;D According to many supermodels, cutting out as many carbs as you can is a great way to lose weight more quickly, so maybe focus on having a ton of veggies and lean proteins instead of pasta, rice and potatoes. Good luck!
 
Thanks so much for a lovely response guys! I feel very welcome and my willpower is growing! :D and may I say good luck to the both of you too :)


irishprincess: thank you very much, it took a very long time to get all that off, it was not easy. I am blessed with a lovely man! I was bound to get to a good 'un eventually lol!


starlillies: Lean proteins you say, I shall be going to the dreaded tesco tomorrow, planning making a list and STICKING TO IT! either that or delivery actually, probably safer! Veg I am not so great with, I generally have always had a very bad diet without much variety, need to make a more permanent change there! thanks for the advice :D


SO.... TODAAAAY!


I have been a very good girl actually! I took my son and his friend (both 4yo) for a huge walk in the baking sun we had today. I am lucky enough to live in a beautiful part of scotland and walking is fast becoming my new favourite thing, especially with the camera.


AND I went swimming this evening with a friend and managed 25lengths which I was dead proud of having been a couch potato all winter!


I also had a client in the morning which is lots of arm work so thats good too. (hairdresser, not lady of the night haha)


FOOD...


about a million cups of tea with a sweetener, and fifty thousand litres of water.

2 bowls of bran flakes and 2 bowls of crunchy nut, 2 yogurts.


Eveything else in the house i didn't trust myself not to eat tonnes of, so it'll be a few days of cereal probably until i get portioning put back to normal in my head :) All in all I don't feel hungry really, I have just staved it off with cereal, not the healthiest of plans but its only for a few days...


Im not sure weather to actually calculate calories or not, or just go with how I feel and the scales :/ Thoughts anyone?



weight this morning was still 145. after that amount of macncheese though, im pretty glad it wasnt any higher!
 
So yesterday went well again didn't over eat or eat anything unhealthy and went for a big walk, ran for 20mins in short bursts too :) - oh aside from the chippy i had when i got to my friend natashas last night! ooopsie!


Today I have been chatting with my lovely mummy and she tells me that the way she lost all the weight when I was a teenager was on the atkins diet. So... I think i'm going to give it a go. Not so long that I get heart disease, just till im happy body wise. Plus mum will be able to help me through it which is good. AND the hubby to be says he will do it with me! yeeey! Just have to cook separate meals for the wee one.


So today so far i have had a sausage, another sausage, and i am making a chicken and bacon omelette just now. I'm pretty sure I saw the atkins book in my loft one day, no idea how it got there but i will go get it so i know im doing it properly. Pretty sure its fibre(in veg) and meatmeatmeat. goodbye carbs! (for now)


Been walking around doing wedding shopping all morning and am going swimming again tonight! so glad the pool opened again this week!


Today I am 143lbs (midday weigh in will see what the morning brings) and im chuffers with that!
 
fell asleep and nearly missed swimming lol! still got in a run to the pool and another half k in half an hour though, my eggs are cooking away nicely nomnomnom :)
 
Well done on all the good exercise hun, running and swimming and big walks?? YOU ARE ON A ROLL!!


Home tomorrow is just as great for you:):) xxx
 
thank you! iv never been one for exercise (aside from walking to the sweetie cupboard) :) I am feeling very chuffed! loving the sun in this part of the world the last few day eh?! We got colder today though darnit!


Swam a kilometer this evening!! had no idea i had that in me, but my swimming buddy is great help she keeps me going!


discovered Im not supposed to have sausages bwahahaha ohhhh weelllllll!! they were goooood sausages.


after swimming i stopped at the shop to get butter for DH to be's rolls tomo, and OH MY GOD was i TEMPTED. I have never stared at a pack of hobnobs that hard in my life. flake yoghurt too (one of my old favourites boohoo). I could hear myself talking myself into it "you did a kilometer tonight claire, go on, treat yourself, you know you want that hobnob, you'll only have one, promise!"


but luckily for me the more sensible side kicked in with this "yeah? are you really going waste all that hard work you just did by eating what we know WILL BE AN ENTIRE PACKET OF HOBNOBS AND THROW YOU COMPLETELY OFF THE FIGGIN WAGON?!?!?" chewing gum and butter is all i left with. YEEEEYY!! go will power!! have actually never managed to talk myself out of that line of thought before, i am dead proud :D


before swimming i had a chicken stir fry nomnom it was tasty! and i was in town all day before that doing wedding things (MOTIVATION) then came back to my small town for the dentist.... I have a pretty serious irrational phobia of the dentist. it was just a check up at my new practice and man are they not happy im a patient. i cried. and felt very dizzy. it was only an xray that they actually did, but even in the waiting room i was starting to sweat and feel sick. i have no idea what's wrong with me. Ever since i passed out getting a tooth pulled a year ago, i have gotten ten times worse. i used to be able to cope, but now i just have to be in there and be shitting a brick. gah.




so ANYWAY... i weighed myself this morning...... 141lbs!!!!! close to my first wee goal of 140.
 
That evil bitch Jillian Michaels just tried to kill me... six week six pack??? heart attack in 6 minutes more like! I am terrible at that intense working out I just feel embarrassed of my wobbly bits, and that I cant do a lot of the moves. I suppose I just need practice. I do feel good after it, just pathetic during it. I really want to go swimming again tonight but I think I better give myself a break over the weekend, well maybe tonight anyway.

I am getting pretty scared about my birthday on sunday, temptations of alcohol, cake, chocolate and crisps. I have done so well this week and I don't want to mess up :( I will stay strong!! well... I hope.


This morning I weigh 140lbs!!!!!! WOOHOOOOOOOO!!! DINGDINGDING!!!! I cant believe 5lbs has dropped off so quickly... how is that even possible?!
 
MASSIVE weekend fail.


- side note - an ice cream van has actually fucking appeared out of nowhere as i am writing this, someone up there thinks they are very funny. pah!


aaaanyway so... my birthday was sunday, the binging started on friday night, no excuses i just did not care. i am now 146lbs again. fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuucks sake. its amazing how two days of eating crap can set you back. SHIT SHIT SHIT.


I dont know if i can cope without my carbs. its torture! by friday i was begining to visualise cake, and by sunday i had eaten nearly a whole one. no restraint. AT ALL.


couting calories perhaps? i have never done that, i have always just taken it slow and gone with how i feel, or starved myself! anyone got any ideas? i have no patience.


swimming tonight methinks!


oh me oh my.... i feel fat.


tell ya another secret? i ate leftover cake for breakfast. yep. i did. boooo!!!
 
did a kilometer at swimming ... but then i ate a garlic bread haha.


decided to dl myfitnesspal, its pretty dam easy to follow and i can eat whatever the hell i want within reason, obviously i will attempt to eat healthily and im definitely getting into the exercise now :) going swimming again tomo and possibly to the gym at lunch too, i HATE the gym but ill give it a bash.


will see what the scales say over this week. as much as i want to lose weight i dont wanna say goodbye to whispa golds just yet :)


15lbs in four months still. thats one week gone and im back at square one hahahaha, silly birthdays.
 
thats me on friday now, and im at 143lbs


been swimming twice did another km and then half a km last night. been doing jillian michaels 30days shred on day four its been good but i am SORE!!


been obsessed with myfitnesspal app on my phone! finding calorie counting pretty easy with it and been trying to eat healthily, but thats not going great! :)


today i have been drinking water like crazy too and plan to keep it up, mainly because my acne is really bad right now, boohoo!! :(


acht well thats about it from me xx
 
Your title caught me. I love mac and cheese :):) and it's been 3 months without carbs nor dairy. harrrrrrrrrgggghhhhhhhh keep going Claire :):)
 
well guys its been a week and i think i'm just going to keep my journal weekly :) im addicted to myfitness pal and it keeps me right through the week but doesn't help with the emotional stuff really... so here is my outburst! its been a crappy crappy week :(


i was really very good, swam 4 km this week and keeping up the 30DS. but yesterday when i got my god dammed time of the month! it sends me on a huge roller coaster of emotions (crying and anger for no good reason mainly) and i cannot even keep a straight thought in my head and everything just goes to hell. diet included! i have eaten absolute crap today and just been trying to sleep through it, hubby to be is very understanding (says his mum was the same growing up haha) and looking after me. the roller coaster of emotion started thursday night, both my boys had been away all week (son visiting dad and hubby2b working away) so i was very VERY lonely too. ate a bunch of crap. my friend alan dragged me off the sofa and took me shopping and took me to the cinema on friday he knows just how to cheer me up got me a lovely jumper bless him! im very lucky :) been friends since childhood me n him, so what i get is 'stop moaning lets go have some fun u loser!' haha git. :D


anyway so its weigh in on monday and i'm a bit terrified! not as scared of the fact that there is chocolate cake and ice cream in my kitchen, have not touched that yet but we shall see!!! i still have my 30 Day shred to do today, gads! i'm on day 2 of level 2 and yesterday near killed me!! maybe if i do that i will allow myself some choccy cake though, go easy on myself (again haha).


wild at heart u absolute hero living without dairy!!! i'm told i should too (supposed to be good for neurological conditions i have epilepsy) but i just cannot see me being able to... did u just cut it all out at once or lower intake gradually?? thanks for the support :) xx


well folks ill be reading up on diaries too and wishing you all the best :) lets hope next week is better!!


xxxxx
 
Hey congratz on your future wedding!


Key to lose those pounds is to cut out the processed foods and Cardo, also remember to drink alot of water (atleast 2 litres a day) this makes you feel fuller for longer and also breaks down fats (esp in the liver), also a glass of water in the morning can speed up your metabolism by up to 23%!


good luck with your goal
 
Hey hun:) Thanks so much for writing in my diary, i have emailed them there saying i want to cancel it, THANKS SOOOOOOOO MUCH for the heads up tho!! god can't believe it was a scam, i hope my card isnt charged but there like no money on it and i never use it, so i say they wont be able to get money out of it, no???well i hope they dont.... see its a debit card not a credit, and its not the card i use for anything!! least important card ever...thank god



Your husband to be sounds like the most perfect guy, i cant wait to hear more about your wedding, so sweet.



Also i can totally relate to feeling like super shit when you have your periods, its crazy what it can do to us emotionally and mentally:)



Thanks again for your kind advice, i will let you know how i get on with cancelling them........eeeeeeeek



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