Cohen's Lifestyle Kannadew's Redemption

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Ok.... round 2!

Helllooo All! I cant believe it has been a week already!! I've had a big loss this week! 1.6kgs! I was stoked! I was really surprised considering that I was away for 3.5 days. I had a salad that was un-weighed that also consisted of homemade sundried tomato and red capsicum... but things seem to be ok. The only thing that was really different was that I was out in the sun alot... so I wondered if my circulation improved this week!! Wooohoo.... Bring on Summer!


Weight: 91.2 (1.3kgs off HALFWAY if I am going for the Bottom end of goal weight range and ONLY 100g if I aim for the top end!)
Weight lost so far: 26
Weight lost altogether from my heaviest to now (2004): 49.8
Kgs to go: 29.2
Measurements so far: 90cms lost (not long til the magic metre)

As I said I went to Perth for the Long weekend. Everyone was suitably impressed! My Mum was stoked. I wish I had been able to tape her reaction. She had kinda forgotten that I was making a big effort with my weight and I had never told her about the Program. She kept saying she didnt really recognise me when we were out. She told my Uncle about the fact that I have lost about 48kgs and he called me yesterday when I got back to Gero to congratulate me. He has NEVER EVER called me in my life! I was stunned. My friends were all really excited for me. It was so nice. A friend in Northam was stunned when I said I wasnt even halfway and asked about my goal weight and then said he thought I was not far off that now.... Wasnt that nice? hehehe....I soooo cant wait til I am finished! I am seeing everyone again around New Years... I wont be finished but I should be in the 70's by then!!

I took my Mum to see Varekai (Cirque Du Soliel). It was FREAKIN AWESOME. I took her to see Allegria a couple of years ago and it was pretty good but this was HEAPS better. I couldnt believe how much I loved it. I have pretty much raved about it to everyone!

I did my measurements this morning. I am now 4cms bigger on my left calf than my right calf!!! SUCK. I have made an appointment at the Physio for the 18th... so hopefully they will be able to do something about it, cos it is really becoming a problem. The jeans I have on today are really really tight on that calf, but are already starting to get baggy on my THIGHS!!

You know... I am still amazed at how easy I find this program. I sometimes wonder why other people dont find it as easy as me. They seem to struggle daily with temptation and giving in, but I have just found the "zone". I think because it is so rigid... it actually helps me because I dont have to make a decision. I think my issues will start when I am finished because then every day I will have to make good decisions and it wont be as clear about what is right and wrong. I have always been someone that follows rules and boundaries and it is important to me to DO THE RIGHT THING and so that perhaps is why this program is working so well for me. When I hear/read that others are giving in... I just want to "yell" at them and say that they are sabotaging themselves and that they are hurting their chances to get through this etc, but I know that we all need to find our own path and our own truth...I guess... but I also know that if I see my friends deliberately sabotaging their journey, I think it is more important to help them see the impact that their choices are having on their journey. I dunno.... I am just thinkin out loud at the moment. I read so many people's diaries... I actually never really have time to share my thoughts with them anyway!

Anyway... I think I remembered everything!

Blessings!
Kath
 
Hello All....

Well I am really struggling today. After my bigger than normal loss last week, I wasn’t expecting a huge loss this week sure…. But I definitely did not expect to end the week more than what I was last week. I stayed the same for 6 days in a row… which is not unusual for me, I wasn’t too worried about that, but to then put on 400g yesterday and then only losing 300g this morning, it means that for this week I am 100g heavier than last week. I guess I should be happy that it is not 500g or a kg heavier etc. I am just really struggling again with the whole issue of doing EVERYTHING right and still losing slowly and increasing, when I hear/read other people’s stories and they are losing so much more than me and/or deviate and still lose more than me each week. It’s the Injustice of it all that is really bugging me I think. Maybe the forum thing for me is not a good idea…. My friends here also talk about deviating etc and yet they still lose and I get upset that not only are they sabotaging their own loss etc…. but it really effects me because I am so true to the program and yet I don’t lose anywhere near what they (and others do).

I know the Mantra…. We all lose at different rates because our bodies are all different and I know that I have to deal with my Raynauds as well, which other people don’t have to deal with, but still the injustice and unfairness of it all gets to me. You can tell that I am really into Justice! Why does EVERYTHING in my life have to be SO BL**DY hard!!! I feel like this is just another thing that I have to work so hard and so long at. It would be so nice if Something just went smoothly and as easily as life seems to for others.

I think that part of the issue for me is that this has happened on my Weigh-In Day. I have recorded times where I have not lost for a number of days and have then had an increase, but I have always been able to say that at the end of every week I have had a loss…… but I can't do that anymore. I was kinda hoping that I might have a big loss in the measurements to reflect last weeks slightly bigger weight loss, but I only lost 2cms and I think that that difference was actually more a measuring issue than an actual loss. I wonder if I have reached another of those points where my body is freakin out about getting to half way etc…. Cos I never even got there. I was 100gs away from the top end of half way last week and now I am 200g away.

Even if I lose a kg a week for the next 30 weeks I will be here til the end of April which will be 11.5 months! (That’s at a KG… imagine if it is less than that!!!) However... No matter what.... I WILL keep going…. Its the only thing I have found that works and it is Teaching me and that is worth more than anything else! But its just so hard sometimes. I have planned holidays for the end of April and most of May… thinking that surely I will be finished refeed by then, but it doesn’t look that way at the moment. I guess I will just have to wait and see what Summer brings in the way improved circulation.

I apologise for my rant. I have tried to vent to friends today, but I actually felt that a friend started to do counselling on me rather than just listening to me. It was like she was using all the textbook skills in managing someone who was upset... it was a bit weird. Oh well... I know she was only trying to be supportive and that was the best way she knew how.

Weight: 91.3
Weight lost so far: 25.9
Weight lost altogether from my heaviest to now (2004): 49.7
Kgs to go: 29.3
Measurements so far: 92cms lost

I think the important thing to remember is I am learning new habits and I actually find the program pretty easy.... and as I said I WILL persevere no matter how long it takes me because I like the changes I have already seen and I don't want to jeopardise that.

Ok.... Hopefully people wont find this rant a turn off... but oh well... I am actually writing this for my benefit I guess.

Blessings to All!
Kath
 
Oh sweetie, You can rant & rave as much as you like. I don't blame you! I would be really peed off too. You'll get there. I remember feeling the same at one stage.I just thought I was never ever going to get there. Do you know something strange? I felt better on the program than I have since I finished. What's that saying about being careful what you wish for? You have been such wonderful support for me & I really do appreciate it. Take care & try to be positive, xoxo Cate
 
Hi All!
I just had to come and tell you my news! I went shopping at the op shop on Friday and then at Millers yesterday. At the op shop I bought some shorts (some 16s and some 14s.... ready for a month or so....) but I tried them on... and the 14's are not far off actually doing up right now!!! (but get this the 16's didnt fit as well!) Stupid sizing system.... it should be the same everywhere! However... my big News is.....

I went to Millers cos I couldnt find any 3/4 pants to wear for work etc (its getting a bit hot for jeans etc). I tried a whole lot of different ones on and most of the 16's were TOO BAGGY! I bought a pair of SIZE 14! THEY FIT PERFECTLY! I cant believe that I have bought my first pair of 14 pants... to wear now... not for the future. I just keep laughing to myself when I think about it. I think however that Millers are a far more generous size.... because I cant even fit into a number of 16's that I have in my closet... so when I start to wear All 14's I will know its real I guess.

We had a big quiz nite here on Friday night. I just took my crackers, some cut up fruit and some CF Diet Coke. You couldn't believe the amount of food that other people brought however! I didn't find it hard at all. I don't usually when I have made my mind up. But the thing I did find hard was that so many of the prizes were all food based. When we won McDonald's vouchers, I missed out cos I didn't want them. When I actually won a prize it was for $10 of bread at Bakers Delight. I asked for a non-food based prize and my boss (who was organising the event) got stroppy with me and said that I was always painful (or something similar). I just said not to worry about it and gave it back to him. He then gave me a tea set with a little tray. I will give this to my Mum for Xmas as I don't drink tea. We won more vouchers later for McDonald's and again... I missed out. I don't care about missing out on the food. I guess I care about missing out on winning something just for me.. like other people did. I cant believe how much these things are about food though! One of my friends who is about to start Cohens was there also and she was eating from platters of food from her table as well. I raised my eyebrows at her and smiled as we have talked about starting even though she doesn't have her quantities yet. She said that a least she was eating Cohens food. (She has already lost at least 5 kgs in the last couple of weeks just getting ready for Cohens.... in fact she must have lost more because she was just out shopping and she was buying clothes 2 sizes smaller than normal)... I just hope that when she gets her program she will be able to stick to it and not get sidetracked by events like that. But I guess that is her issue/journey and I need to remember that.

I also have another work colleague who is seriously considering the program (Y). She mentioned it to some other women in our office. One of the women (J) was the same one who was not very supportive of me in the beginning (which I talked about earlier in my diary). J kept telling my colleague that it was a waste of money and that she will just put the weight back on etc. This is despite watching me lose 27+ kgs and finding it pretty easy. J has also not been very supportive of her friend (A) who has already started her program, saying that she didn't agree with it and that if she got too thin she would tell her so (in no uncertain terms etc). I just don't get this. To my face J is now supportive and encouraging, I guess 27kgs is hard to deny. But to then deny the effect for other people who have 30gs to lose and tell them it is a waste of money... when they want to improve and change their lives... wouldn't you want to support them in this? Oh well... as I keep saying the true test is in the Maintaining.. and I get the sense that she will just be watching and waiting for me to fail, because that is what she predicted... so I will have to make sure that doesn't happen... FOR MY OWN BENEFIT though...not hers! I just want you to know that I really like this woman and she is a friend at work.... I just find this attitude/thinking a bit frustrating and sad.

Ok... Better go.

Bless ya
Kath
 
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Halfway!!!!!!!!!!!

OH MY GOSH! IT FINALLY HAPPENED!

I AM HALFWAY!

I am exactly halfway as of this morning.... on my weigh in day.... and my Monthly weigh-in day as well... how cool is that, especially after last week! PLUS...it means I am now in the 80's! I am never going to be in the 90's EVER EVER AGAIN! I have also reached another Milestone! I have lost OVER A METRE of FAT!!

Weight: 89.6 (IN THE 80's!)
Weight lost so far: 27.6
Weight lost altogether from my heaviest to now (2004): 51.4
Kgs to go: 27.6
Measurements so far: 102cms lost MAGIC METRE!

I lost 1.7kgs this week. 2 weeks ago I lost a significant amount (1.6), but last week, put on.... and so last week I really looked closely at my spreadsheet and I have realised that the whole time I was in Perth (when I lost 1.6) I ate the same proteins for lunch and dinner each day. I think that because I have Raynaud's and perhaps my Metabolism is really slow that the 5 hour gap is not long enough and so when I have a different protein for dinner, they end up mixing. So I decided that I would try and make the whole week the same proteins (eg chicken on one day or beef on one day etc). And for the majority of that time I lost a significant amount every day. I didn't lose any the day after I mixed prawns and fish... so I will keep testing that out to see what happens if I have just fish or just prawns. Now... none of this could actually mean anything, it could just be a big week because of last weeks poor effort. However I did mention it to my consultant and she thinks that I could be right. I will keep this up and maybe I might be finished by Feb now instead of May!!!! WOOHOOOOOOOO!!! I seriously cant express how happy I am right now. I have tears running down my face. I NEVER EVER EVER thought that I would be at this point...not the halfway bit... but in the 80's and in size 16, heading for 14's. All because one person in my life had the courage to mention Cohen's to me. If they hadn't said anything... then I would probably still be a size 20+ and working hard at exercise etc and trying to do it on my own. I think this is why it is important to share our stories with people....we could be that one person who may be the catalyst to change someone's life.

I had another lot of good news this week. I have been fighting, supported by the Union, to have my position reclassified at work, to a higher level. It had been knocked back on numerous occasions and it ended up being sent to the Industrial Relations Commission. I was CONVINCED that this would mean that there was no hope at all. However.... I WAS WRONG! I received an email from the union yesterday informing me that it had been approved and that I would be getting backpay for the last 2 years (nearly)!!! How awesome is that!! It certainly is a vindication! It recognises that I do have a clinical role and that my job is important and that I am trained to do clinical work. I have been struggling to get this recognition from my Big boss. I don't think this will change anything in the Actual... but I will know that my claim has been upheld...it could also mean that other things will hopefully change in this area at work. It also means that the position is reclassified, not just Me in it...so this means that if I ever leave, they will have to keep the same levels. However the new level actually gives them more room for leeway. Mine was a level 5 whereas now it is a 4/6, so they can employ anywhere along this continuum. It really is very cool...on lots of different levels....which are too detailed to go into here!

You remember how last time I was talking about a friend from work (Y) who was seriously considering Cohen's (she was ready to get her blood test yesterday). It seems that she has decided to pull out now. I truly think that the negative comments made by others in the office and the lack of support she felt from these people really contributed to this decision, despite having 2 (maybe 3) people who are doing Cohens. She is also worried that she cant say No to stuff, especially as she is going home to England for Christmas. We chatted about that and lots of different strategies, but she had already made her mind up. She is going to try losing the weight (30kg) on her own using some of the principles that we had already talked about. She said she didnt want to have to give up her glass of wine when she wanted or her sweet treats etc. It is her choice and I wish her every success in whatever she chooses to do. I must remember that I am NOT responsible for other people's choices!

Well that's my news for now. Hope everyone else is going along smoothly and are happy in their lives!

Blessya
Kath
 
Kannadew- I am so happy for you & reading that you had tears running down your face just brought tears to my eyes! I am really, well & truly thrilled for you! What a girl! Congrat's also on winning the fight re your job. You deserve only good things! xo Cate
 
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Well done

Well done and congratulations Kath,,,if anyone canna do this KANNADEW can...It feels great to get over the half way mark doesnt it..cant wait to compare pics at the end. It amazing when you measure out how many cms of fat you have lost isnt it ...to think that is only the measurements from 5 areas OMG that blows me away every time...it doesnt include your face, neck, calves or feet lol...
Anyway best of luck for the next half, you are doing great
cheers Genie
 
Hi All! I wanted to let people know that I have decided to move my diary over to NewYou. I spend alot of time in the Australian Forum already and figured it would be a good idea to have my diary there as well. I really hope this doesn't offend anyone, it is not meant to do so. I have felt loved and supported by every person who has responded to my long winded diary entries!! I will continue to come by here and read up on everyone's journey's...

look forward to hearing from you all!
Kannadew
PS.... In the other forum I am sticking to just Kannadew.... the town I live in is small!
 
Hi All!
I just had to come in and share my news with you!

I HAVE LOST 30kgs!!!!! YIPPPPEEEE!!!!!

I am also no longer OBESE....I am NOW OFFICIALLY JUST OVERWEIGHT!!! How unbelievably AWESOME IS THAT!

I just have 25.2kgs to go... but I totally believe that I can get there!

Blessing to ALL!!
Kannadew
 
I thought I would come in here and announce my wonderfully exciting news....

I STARTED REFEED TODAY!

I am starting a few kilos away from my actual goal... because I am going on holidays for all of May... which is a bit of a pain... I will need to lose more when I get back.... but I am officially finishing now.

My refeed is 19 days long and I started at 67.7kgs... lets home I might hit 65 (top of my goal range) before the end?

I am very excited and VERY NERVOUS about life after Refeed.

Just wanted to share... for anyone reading this... its possible! Please stay committed to the program... and it will work for you! Work through everything that comes your way no matter how hard... dont let ANYTHING stop you from reaching your goals.... You are the master of your destiny!

Blessings to all
Kannadew
 
Hi Kannadew

Congratulations on getting to refeed. What a journey....but you've made it.
You must feel abit surreal. I lost a further 3kg with refeed...so you may be in for a nice surprise.
Thanks for sharing your news and all the best with refeed.

Sam:)
 
HI Guys!

I thought I would come and let you know that

I HAVE FINISHED REFEED &

I HAVE LOST 50KGS (so far on Cohens...& 73.8kgs from my heaviest!!)

I only lost 100g on Refeed... LOL... unlike MOST other people who actually lose 1-2 kgs on refeed... But I wasnt surprised at all really... considering how long it has taken me and the difficulties I have faced regularly throughout the program.

I had 2 really good maintenance days... and then I had a BAD day yesterday... set myself up with bad foods in the morning and it went downhill from there!... However..... back on the program today and stuck to it! I still have about 6 or so kgs to go and the more I can lose before I leave on Sat the better.

I am really worried about putting it on while away... but I am actually really glad that I had the bad day yesterday... at home so I could see the results on the scale IMMEDIATELY! I felt so completely out of control... and I KNOW that this was because of uncontrolled sugar eating and having complex carbs early in the morning.... It totally set me up... I didnt follow the maintenance principles. When I have .... I have not felt that same sense of loss-of-control... I have been able to stop eating sugar etc well before I felt sick ... and in fact havent even wanted to eat it in the first place etc.

Anyway... I just wanted to let you all know... I probably wont be on again til after I get back from hols... when I will be BACK ON THE PROGRAM to lose those final kilos.... so I hope to catch up with you all then!

blessya
Kannadew

REMEMBER... stay strong people... you CAN DO THIS...Seriously...if I can.. someone who has been SIGNIFICANTLY overweight since she was a little girl...can do this..... then YOU can do this too!
 
Party time!!!!!

:party::party:

What an amazingly inspirational person you are.
You deserve your holiday and so much more. You have been a great source of inspiration to this forum and your acheivement with weightloss has and is awe inspiring.
Congratualtions Kanndew!!!!!!!!!

Sam:)
 
Kannadew is looking fantastic these days & has changed her life around. We keep in touch regularly. She lost relatively slowly but was so determined. She is truly inspirational. Cheers Kannadew!
 
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